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Other God by Anne Raven

Chapter 5: In Love, In Lust

Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth, for your love is better than wine.
Your oils have a pleasing fragrance.
Your name is like purified oil.
Therefore the maidens love you.
Draw me after you and let us run together!
The king has brought me into his chambers

-Song of Songs 1:2-4

I was reduced to nothing more than a watcher with no control whatsoever of the events I witnessed. Every memory had come to mean so much to me as I was given the opportunity to examine myself in third person perspective. Yes, there were things I was never proud of doing and maybe, other people notice and disapprove of them too.
But one thing that confounds me is how Lilith was able to fall in love with the intensity that defies God and the Heavens and to Samael, no less. Meanwhile, I can hardly imagine myself falling in love with Tokiya.
It's an awkward experience to watch your former self lavish with love the past life of the person standing next to you. And by the barely noticeable tension of his muscles, I could tell he was feeling the same way too. I had learned to accept the fact that there was once a time I was in love with him. After all, no amount of complaining could ever change the past. I just hope I don't get burned in the process. Loving my guardian angel is a grave sin.

Tokiya and I watched intently as Lilith woke up in the middle of the night some two days, give or take, after her escape from Eden. Samael was poised at the entrance of the cave where we stayed; his back facing us as he watched the rising full moon. It was etching a beautiful silhouette of him, a dark cut-out on the face of the silver moon.

Lilith approached him gingerly like a moth attracted to the flame. Without his wings, there was no telling which is Samael from Tokiya. Not that it would matter much since they are one and the same. Lilith extended her hands until her palms felt the smooth lean muscles of his back through the thin pale blue linen of his tunic.

"Why are you still awake?" I heard her whisper close to his ear while running her hands along the contours of his back.

"Go back to sleep, Lilith." He commanded.

"I will once you do."

"Just do what I tell you." He uttered irately not once looking back at her.

"No." Lilith stubbornly replied.

Samael turned and held both her wrists and gave her a look that said, 'Do what I say'.

I never give in without a fight and since Lilith is my former self, I expect her to do the same. I was not disappointed. Lilith glared at Samael and mouthed 'Make me'.

"You stubborn woman." Samael hissed but the amused glint in his eyes were evident.

"I could not agree more." I heard Tokiya mutter beside me.

I turned and raised an eyebrow.

"Well, you are rather stubborn, Kirisawa." He defended looking at me as if I was missing something so obvious.

I pouted and narrowed my eyes.

"And you're a bossy angel." Lilith retorted.

"Heard that, ice cube? You may no longer be an angel but you sure are bossy." I told him.

He smirked before turning away.

In the short time I was having my squabble with Mikagami, Lilith and Samael's expressions had completely changed. The glares they were exchanging a while ago had softened into soulful gazes.

Ugh! Too romantic... I was internally debating whether I would look away or puke. Was I really that sappy? But I have to hand it to Mikagami. He has the most beautiful pair of palest blue eyes I have ever seen. Usually, they're like ice but when he looks at me that way, they look like the calm and peaceful sky.

Samael shifted his hands so that they were lightly resting on Lilith's waist. Hers were positioned on his shoulders.

"Is there a problem? You seem anxious." Lilith asked.

"Don't trouble yourself with it." He replied.

Lilith's eyebrows knitted together.

"How can I not worry? This concerns you." She said cupping his face with both her hands.

"Lilith..." He started to say."You have to return to Eden."

Lilith bit her bottom lip as her hands dropped to her sides.

"When I return to Eden, what will happen to us?"

"You will return to Adam and I will continue to become your guardian." Samael answered.

"I fail to see where the us is." Lilith scowled.

"I'm sorry."

"I never thought love meant little in Heaven." Lilith whispered in defeat.

"We were never meant to be but you... you'll always be here." Samael grabbed her hand and laid it gently against the spot directly above where Lilith felt the thumping of his heart.

"I don't think I can do what you want me to." Lilith said embracing him tightly. "These past few days are the best I ever had and..."

"These past few days are the only days we can have."Samael cut in. "But, it doesn't mean what I feel for you would change." He said hugging her back.

"It's hurting me."

Tokiya suddenly turned towards me. His face abruptly showed concern, something you never see unless it was for Yanagi. My eyes started to question him. Then, he reached out and wiped the single tear that ran across my cheek.

I covered my mouth with both my hands in shock. Did I really say those words?

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be such a baby." It was totally embarrassing to be crying in front of Mikagami.

"I understand, Kirisawa. More than you think I do." He approached me and calmed me down by placing one hand on the small of my back while taking one of my hands and gently squeezing it.

I was fully aware of how tender and loving Samael could be but I never thought that Tokiya could translate the same emotions for someone other that his sister and her look-alike. There was no need for words, no need for verbal assurances. In fact, his little act was more than I expected, more than enough.

"Thank you. I never thought you'd care enough." I told him teasingly trying vainly to lighten the mood.

"Don't push your luck, monkey. I'm just not comfortable seeing women cry. And you're my... friend. That, at least, should mean something."

I smiled at him. He was being nice and I had to appreciate that.

When I focused my attention back to Samael and Lilith, I was unprepared for the things I was about to witness. Samael pulled away from what looked like a quick kiss. His brooding eyes were so intense, I felt a shudder running down my spine and it had nothing to do with the breeze that suddenly assaulted us. Add the fact that I could still feel Tokiya's warm hand lightly resting on my back.

Samael led Lilith farther inside the cave. Even I could tell that the mood had changed drastically. It was like a dream. Samael's eyes were glazed over, a look I easily recognize from the times I received them in this lifetime. But never in those sixteen years of my current lifetime did I ever wanted to do anything with any man who gave me that look, not until now.

Tokiya stiffened beside me. We both knew where this was leading but neither of us had gathered enough wits to do something other than watch.

Lilith effortlessly slipped off Samael's tunic leaving him with his breeches lying low upon his waist. He laid her down and ran a hand along the length of her thigh making her linen frock ride higher. He unfurled his mighty wings wrapping them both in a velvety cocoon. And in the silence of the evening, they were consumed by every want, need, desire, love and lust.

At that instant, Tokiya snapped and suddenly wrapped his arms around my waist and began steering me away.

"What do you think you're doing?" I asked him as I tried to shake off the dazed feeling.

He looked at me in a way that made me nervous, very nervous. If I were capable of combusting, I would've done so. And when he lowered his head and whispered huskily in my ear I thought I would turn into jelly.

"If you want to watch that, then, be my guest."

I felt heat rise up to my face. It didn't help clear my befuddled mind that his arms were still tightly wrapped around my waist.

-TBC-

A/N: Well.. I didn't particularly like this chapter. I feel that it was so uninspired. I'll try to post the next chapter by Sunday (Philippine time). That I assure is better that this one. Since I'm half through with it.

Sorry for typos and grammatical errors. I did not proof-read.

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Love,

Anne Raven