A/N: Told you chapter 1 would be here soon lol. Again thanks to Shalinda for being a super sexy beta :) hope you guys like the chapter... btw there will be 2 different Bella POVs in this fic, one human and one vamp.

5th January 2005 Edward's POV

It had been 1 year, 2 months and 2 days since my Bella left me. I had thought we would be together for eternity. Watching her leave was the most painful thing I had ever experienced. My transformation from mortal into vampire had felt like a day at the zoo in comparison to the way I felt. Every day was like my heart was being ripped from my chest. I felt hollow and alone. Bella's leaving had impacted all of our lives. We all felt like something was missing. Even Alice felt like part of her was gone and she had never gotten along with Bella all too well. She'd always felt like Bella had been keeping something from us. Maybe Alice had been right. But I could see in Alice's mind that even though she felt Bella had validated her claims she missed her more than she thought she would. Alice used to be a ball of light, an energy that was tiring to simply be around, but since Bella left us, her light had been getting dimmer and dimmer. She was more important to me than I ever realized. And now she's gone I can't tell her how sorry I am for not being there for her. I often found Alice thinking. She never voiced any of these thoughts. None of us did. It was as though the entire family was terrified what mentioning her name would do to me. Maybe it was a good idea.

Alice still would occasionally get odd visions about Bella. Sometimes Bella would be in impossible places doing impossible things with a man none of us knew. At first I was jealous of this man but the more visions Alice had about him the more I could see the pain in his eyes. It was a pain similar to my own. He too had lost the one he loved. Other times Alice's visions would include a Bella with chocolate brown eyes and rosy cheeks. I hadn't seen Bella look that way since 1918 before we were both changed. I would of assumed them to be visions of the past but small things like the clothing she wore or what was surrounding her made us think otherwise. Alice always tried to keep these visions from me out of fear of upsetting me again. She didn't realize that lately her visions were what I had been living for. It was the closest I could get to Bella. Even though they were impossible visions that we knew couldn't possibly transpire, it still gave me the chance to see the woman I loved.

Alice had been acting strange again for the past few days, she'd been keeping me out of her head. She was most likely having visions of Bella. As we pulled into the school parking lot we could hear the mindless drabble coming from the students, the police chief's daughter was joining our school today, and it was all they could talk about. The smallest piece of news seemed exciting to these people. I could see from their thoughts that she had yet to arrive. I chose to ignore them as I headed towards my classroom for first period. Nothing excited me anymore; I had no one there to share excitement with. I was jealous of everyone around me, they had the ability to smile over mundane things, and I hadn't smiled once since she left.

The chatter carried on through to lunch. I hadn't even bothered looking through their thoughts to see what she was like; what was the point? She was just another human, just another small blip on the fabric of life in Forks. I was still waiting for the day everything would become clear to me, the day Bella's cryptic remarks would make sense; maybe that would be the day I could find some sort of peace, but I knew I would never find happiness till she was next to me again.

I walked into the cafeteria when I smelt the faint trace of freesias. It smelt slightly different to what I was used to when I smelt it, I couldn't put my finger on it, and all I could think about was the whole ripping my chest even further apart. It hurt so much when I was reminded of her, I'd occasionally find an item of her clothing hidden amongst my own from before the move or someone would remember something from when we were happy. Each time my heart broke a little bit more. And now I could smell her. Jasper gave me a sympathetic look, if I didn't know any better I'd say his face always looked like that, but no, that's just when he looked at me. Jasper and I had spent less and less time together since she left, I don't think he could bare the emotions I gave off constantly, hell I could barely stand them.

5th January 2005 Human Bella's POV

I hated being the new girl; nobody would leave me alone. Attention was definitely not something I looked for. Everyone seemed to know everything about me already; if not then they definitely didn't seem shy about asking me about anything and everything. I was already beginning to dislike small town life. Jessica, at least I think that was her name, lead me into the cafeteria. She had been talking to me all morning, I don't know why she seemed to find me interesting but at least it meant I didn't have to sit on my own. I grabbed something simple to eat and followed her to her table.

There were a few faces I recognized from being in my lessons from this morning sat around the table, they all seemed eager to talk to me; I simply wanted the ground to swallow me whole. I turned my attention to my plate and attempted to zone out. It was easier said than done.

"So how do you like Forks?" some guy with short blonde hair and blue eyes asked me.

"Well so far it seems very wet, cold and well, that's about it." I replied, entirely serious but everyone seemed to think I was joking.

"Where did you move from?" asked a blonde girl that was wearing entirely too much make up.

"Phoenix."

"Wow, I bet the weather was great up there." Jessica gushed.

"Erm yeah it was." I replied quietly. When were they going to finish with the questions? Seriously?

"Wouldn't guess it from her skin." muttered the blonde girl under her breath, I doubt she intended for me to hear but I did. She was right though, I was pale. No matter how long I spent in the sunshine the only color I ever managed to get was bright red and it would simply peel off after a few days of discomfort, it didn't take long for me to realize sun screen would be a daily occurrence for me back home. A dark haired girl shot the blonde girl a look as though to say 'be nice' I had a feeling she wouldn't listen though, she didn't seem like the friendliest girl in the world.

"How were your morning lessons?" the dark haired girl asked.

"They were fine," I replied, "I've already learnt most of the material back in my old school."

"Yeah, Forks does tend to be behind in the time." she joked. I smiled in reply; maybe this girl wasn't so bad.

"Oh here they come." muttered the blonde kid. I glanced up at him curiously. He was looking towards the doors of the cafeteria. 5 of the most beautiful teenagers I'd ever seen walked in. None of them even so much as glanced in our direction.

"Who are they?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me.

"That's the Cullens." informed Jessica, "They moved here from Alaska just over a year ago. They don't really talk to anyone."

"Why?"

"No one knows really, to be honest they barely even talk to each other, they just sort of pair off."

"But there are 5 of them."

"Yeah Edward is always alone, I don't even know if I've seen him speak other than answering a teachers question."

"Doesn't he even speak to his family?"

"Not really, he just keeps to himself."

"That's so sad, I wonder what happened." I muttered to myself. Looking over at him I could see the sadness written across his features, he wasn't quiet, he was broken.

"That's not the weird thing though," she announced, "When I say they pair off I mean into couples, like real couples."

"Jess, they aren't really related." replied the dark haired girl.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"They're all adopted. The blonde ones are Hales, they're twins and the rest have no blood relation at all. They were all adopted by Dr. and Mrs. Cullen." she informed me, I just nodded in reply. Maybe what ever happened is what caused the pain in Edwards's eyes.

"It's still weird that they are dating." Jessica dismissed. In all honesty I couldn't care less about their dating habits, I guess, yeah, it would even be considered weird in Phoenix, but it made them happy right?

I took a closer look at all the Cullens, they really were beautiful. There was a girl with short, spiky black hair, she was petite with delicate features, and she appeared to be with the Blonde haired guy. The blonde boy was quite tall and well built, his hair was slightly long and curly, and it fell to just below his ears. There was a dark haired guy that looked like he was all muscle; in all honesty he looked quite frightening. The blonde girl nest to him looked just as intimidating, I swear my self-esteem plummeted 10 points just being in the same room as her, she looked like beauty personified. But it was Edward that really took my breath away. His hair was on odd shade, almost bronze and it fell into neat disarray, his features were angular and, well, perfect, any male model would kill for a jaw line like his. I noticed that even though none of them were related they still had a few similar features, I'd noticed that they were all pale, even paler than me, which I hadn't even known was possible. They all shared very similar eye colors as well. Their eyes looked like a golden topaz from where I was sitting, one or 2 of their eyes were a slightly darker shade yet they were still similar enough.

"Bella," called Jessica, snapping my out of my train of thought. "What lesson do you have next?"

"Oh, Erm Biology 2." I replied.

"You can walk with me and Mike if you like." offered the dark haired girl, I seriously needed to learn her name, "We have that lesson next as well."

"Sure, thanks" I smiled back.

"Why is Cullen looking over here?" asked Jessica, she seemed shocked.

"What the hell, he never looks at any one." said some Asian looking guy.

I looked back towards the Cullen's table and my eyes locked with Edwards.

5th January 2005 Edward's POV

I just sat staring at the wall attempting to ignore the voices swirling around my head, I always hated this time of day; it's when we were surrounded by the most humans, its when I had to act the most normal. People still seemed to notice I was different though they always questioned why I never spoke, in fact I could hear right now someone explaining it to the new girl. I didn't even care anymore; people could think what they like as long as it's not the truth.

"Bella," someone called, "What lesson do you have next?" this caught my attention; I felt the hole expand again. The new girl was called Bella; I had no idea how I would be able to handle hearing that name on a daily basis. Surely the pain would be unbearable.

"Oh, Erm Biology 2" replied a voice. It sounded beautiful and so familiar. I couldn't even bring myself to allow the thoughts that were threatening to break though my consciousness, it was impossible.

"You can walk with me and Mike if you like. We have that lesson next as well." someone offered.

"Sure, thanks" the girl with the voice replied, I couldn't bring myself to acknowledge her by name, it was too painful.

The masochist that I am turned around, I was curious to see what this girl looked like, I don't know what it was but something inside me told me I had to look. All I could see of her was long mahogany hair that fell to her waist; the hair reminded me of her. It wasn't as thick as my Bella's had been in her vampire life, but it was very similar to the hair she'd had as a human. I wanted the girl to turn around so I could see no more similarities, so I could go back to myself pity and get rid of this ridiculous feeling of hope that was bubbling up inside.

"Why is Cullen looking over here?" one of them asked.

"What the hell, he never looks at any one." said another. She turned around then to look at me. Our eyes met. I froze. Her eyes were wide and a beautiful shade I'd only seen once before nearly 90 years ago. It was the same heart shaped face and delicate pink lips. How was it possible? Was it my Bella? How was she human? I continued to stare into her eyes, I saw so many emotions pass through them however my heart broke all over again when I realized not a single one of those was recognition. It couldn't be my Bella, she'd recognize me instantly. I turned back to my family and let them know I was off to lesson.

I sat down at my lab table and spread my books out. I had millions of thoughts running through my head. Why did this girl look so much like my Bella? Why did she have the same damn name? It was then that I realized what she'd said at her lunch table, she'd be in my lesson. As if on que she walked through the door, I noticed that the seat next to me was the only one left in the class. I had no idea how I was meant to cope with such an obvious reminder of the love that had left me, that had ran away.

As she walked nearer to me I smelt it. It was mouth watering. I suddenly realized she was the source of the freesia smell I had caught earlier, and now it was blindingly obvious what the difference was between her scent and my Bella's scent. I saw red, all I could think about was draining her, biting down on her neck and taking her life from her until she was dry. The venom filled my mouth and I felt the usual burn in my throat, only this time the burn was stronger than I'd ever felt it. It took all my self control to stay in my seat and not plunge my teeth into her pale neck. It would be easy; my teeth would tear through her like butter. The only complication would be the room full of children. I cleared those thoughts from my head as fast as I could. How could I think about killing so many innocent lives? They didn't deserve it. But her blood smelt oh so sweet. She glanced at me curiously but immediately looked towards the front of the class, no doubt seeing the monster in me. I stopped breathing then. The burn dissipated slightly but it was still there, I could still remember her scent. I counted down the seconds until the end of the lesson so I could flee. I needed to get out of this class; this girl was like my own personal demon sent to torture me for my sins. That had to be the reason her appearance broke my heart and her scent reminded me of the monster I truly am. I couldn't help but wonder if the situation would be the same if my Bella was here, would she help me? Would she hold my hand and help keep the monster at bay? It was no use thinking of the what ifs. Bella had gone, left and now I was being tested. The second the bell went I left, refusing to look back. I left the school and simply ran.

A/N: so that was my first real chapter for this fic, I'd love to know what you think. Well I'm off to read the Stripped (by Punkfarie and Vamp_sessed) update now... are you? if the answer was no then why the heck not? I also urge you to check out the oneshots entered for the haunted twilight one shot challenge hosted by Punfarie and MissSnazzy, there are loads of great one shots in there, i have one entered aswell lol *hint* voting is till open so go and vote! lol. Hopefully you can expect and update for This sort of thing soon, i just ave to get a gender exam out of the way first (as in a gender module in sociology lol) because thats going to be fun *sigh*... Oh btw, people should seriously check out Bowling for soup's new album Sorry for partying, its amazing, i still ache from seeing them live the other day lol... I got tickets for a midnight showing of new moon btw so WOOOOO XD lol... ok i'll shut up now lol

Michaela

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