A/N: Okay.. i suck reeeeaaaal hard, Punk informs me that's not always a bad thing, but I'm pretty sure in the case of this it is lol. I really have no excuse at all for lack of updates other than my suckage. This chapter was meant to be vamp Bella with the Doctor but it's been so long since I've seen 10 it can't seem to write it properly atm, but i do have the plot for it planned, I just need to wait till I'm back home with my dvds :) Hope you like it and sorry for the wait!
5th January 2005 Human Bella's POV
5th Jan 2005 21:30
What are you Bella?
That was an odd comment. What the hell did Alice mean by that? I sat and stared at the screen for about five minutes trying to figure out whether she was even being hostile. It kind of felt that way. Maybe Edward wasn't the only Cullen that hated me. I really couldn't figure out how I'd offended them.
5th Jan 2005 21:37
I don't know what you mean. Look I really don't know what I've done wrong to upset you and your brother; I've never even spoken to you. I'm sorry for whatever it is you think I've done. If you could enlighten me that would be nice.
Maybe my reply was a bit bitchy but this was really starting to get to me. I didn't usually worry too much about people liking me, but the fact I felt hated for no reason was actually kind of upsetting. Her response was almost instant.
5th Jan 2005 21:39
You really don't know? Where are you from? What year were you born? Okay I'm sorry if I sound hostile, we're just going through something here and we're pretty confused about things.
This reply was as odd as the first. What difference would where I'm from make? At least she didn't sound as angry this time.
5th Jan 2005 21:42
I have no idea what my personal history has to do with anything, but I was born in Forks in 1988 and moved away with my mom as a baby. I've just moved from Phoenix Arizona. I figured everyone in Forks already knew everything about me, why not just ask them and maybe ask Edward what I did wrong.
5th Jan 2005 21:44
I'm sorry Bella, you just remind us of someone. I guess maybe we could start again? Perhaps actually get to know each other without misconceptions getting in the way? I don't know what happened with Edward, but I'm sure he was just in an odd mood. I'll speak to him next time I see him.
5th Jan 2005 21:45
Thanks, and yeah getting to know you would be nice. Good to know it wasn't me that did something wrong anyway. Have to admit I was getting a bit paranoid here lol.
5th Jan 2005 21:48
Sorry about that Bella I just worry for my family and I thought you were someone else, no big deal. Hey do you have MSN? This is a pretty slow way to chat and it's kind of starting to get annoying as well. Add me if you do I'm littlesucka hotmail(dot)com.
I opened my messenger and signed in. I didn't use messenger that often, I wasn't much of an internet person in all honesty. I'd just gotten the MySpace and MSN to keep in touch with people back in Phoenix, not that I cared all that much anyway. I was the type of person that kept to myself. I'd had friends, but I'd never had best friends. I was perfectly happy that way in all honesty, I never had secrets I wanted to share or fun news to tell. I was probably the most boring girl in existence.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Bella?
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Yeah… hi
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: I'm sorry about what I said on MySpace, I didn't mean to come across so hostile.
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): That's ok. Starting again remember?
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Yes lol, Hi I'm Alice :)
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): I'm Bella :)
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Random question; but where is your name from? Are you named after a gran or something?
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Nope, I really don't know why they named me Isabella, maybe my mom was in an Italian phase? Oh! But my middle name comes from my gran; it's Marie.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Cute name
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): thanks, it doesn't really suit me, I think I'm more of a Jane or Mary or something equally as plain.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Okay I might not know you well, but from what I know you're far from plain. And not all Marys are boring :p
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Well I've never met a fun Mary.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Give it time, I'm fun and I'm a Mary.
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Ok, now I'm confused.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Yeah I'm actually Mary-Alice but don't tell anyone, I hate it lol
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Would that be because Mary is a boring person's name?
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: …. Sush :p
(8)But in the end, it doesn't even matter(8): Well Mary, It's been fun but I'm going to head to bed now, I'll see you at school I guess.
Save a horse… ride a cowboy: Don't call me Mary! And yeah I'll see you tomorrow.
I signed out and turned off the laptop before flinging myself on my bed. That had to of been the most I'd ever spoken to a person online and maybe the most I'd spoken to a person in Forks, without wanting to crawl into a hole for a while anyway. Well at least I had one less Cullen to worry about and you never know, I might actually get to know the girl.
I was woken up by the alarm blaring some generic crap. Today couldn't be any worse than the day before, you only have to put up with one first day at a new school. That still didn't mean I was excited to go.
I pulled into the parking lot and found my mind wondering to the Cullens again. Would Edward still be hostile or would Alice of spoken to him? Would Alice even speak to me in school? I didn't have a clue how I was meant to act around them at all. My question was answered when Alice waked up to me. She looked almost hesitant as if she didn't know how to behave either. "Hi," she greeted.
"Hey," was my awesome reply. I honestly didn't understand why I wasn't more popular, I clearly had amazing conversational skills.
"So, you sleep well?" wow this was painful.
"Yep, you?"
"Like the dead."
"Awesome," this was why I didn't interact with people much, it saved everyone a great deal of pain. The large dark haired guy walked up behind Alice with an amused look on his face.
"Hey, I'm Emmett, you're Bella right?"
"That's me."
"You know you look a lot like someone we used to know." Alice gave him a sharp look and a not so subtle kick to the shin. "But I mean obviously you aren't her." he added on the end for Alice's sake.
"It's not hard to look like me, I get it. Seriously, nothing stands out about the way I look so people must see all sorts of people in my face if that makes sense." oh yay, now I reached the babbling stage of the awkward conversation.
"Nah that's not it. You like putting yourself down a lot don't you?" Alice asked with a slight frown. It was pretty hard to respond to something like that and I could already feel the blush covering my cheeks. I heard a slight commotion from inside the Cullen's car that was parked a few spaces away from where we stood.
"Okay, well I guess we should all head to class now," Alice said in a slight rush "I'll see you around Izzy."
"Izzy?"
"Oh yeah, I've decided I'm going to call you Izzy, you decided Bella didn't suit you, and while I might not agree I figured showing you the alternative might make you more grateful."
"Erm, ok yeah, see you later."
5th January 2005 Edward's POV
I heard Alice's thoughts before I'd even reached the house. I'm sorry I didn't warn you Edward, but I never saw it until it happened.
"It's okay Alice," I reassured as she came out to the door to great me. She offered me a small hug.
"Okay, now we have that out of the way you need to tell me what the hell you were thinking running off like that? Esme was worried sick!"
"I wasn't thinking Alice, I just needed to get away from her." She let out a sigh.
"I know Edward, I've been working damage control all night though, Bella thinks you hate her."
"Can we not call her Bella?"
"But that's her name Edward."
"I know it just hurts Alice, I know you don't understand, but I just can't call her that."
"Okay, how about Izzy?"
"That's better I guess. Anyway what do you mean you've been working damage control?"
"Okay so the original aim might not of been damage control, I just wanted to find out what was going on, I mean surely you noticed how much she looks like…" I cut her off before she could finish what she was saying.
"I know Alice, trust me I noticed."
"So yeah, I asked her what she was, which just confused her. She really has no clue Edward. She really is just a new girl come to live with her dad, though I suspect she has a few self esteem issues. But other than that she actually seems kind of nice."
"So you spoke to her then?"
"Duh,"
"She didn't mention me did she?"
"Yes, she wanted to know why you hated her." I'd been worried about that, it'd make my new plan that bit harder if she really believed I hated her.
"I don't hate her; I don't even know the girl." I ran my hand through my hair and let out a small groan of frustration. "What should I do Alice?"
"I don't see much, but I think you should just do what your heart tells you."
"You just said she was a nice girl, I can't just use her like that, it's unfair. And what about Bella?"
"Edward, Bella is gone and she probably won't come back. I know you hate to think that but it's the truth. And how do you know you will be using Izzy? What if you grow to like her even more than Bella?"
"I highly doubt that. How do you think Izzy would feel if she were to ever find out the only reason I showed her interest was because she looked like the love of my life, who left me broken hearted?"
"Who said she had to know? Why not just take things a little bit at a time and cross that bridge when you come to it?"
"I guess. I should start trying to build my endurance then I guess, if I'm going to be around the girl it's be nice to not want to drain her on the spot."
"Oh yeah you're definitely going to need help there, but we'll be here for you, no matter what." she gave me another hug before dragging me in to see the rest of the family. The rest of the night ended up being filled with apologies and strategies. We'd decided we would all try and get closer to Izzy, maybe we'd find out why she looked so much like her or why her blood appealed to me the way it did. There was also the 'try not to kill her' plan as well which basically involved stealing a t shirt or two and simply being near her but not too close, I needed to get used to the scent.
I sat in the car as my sister went to greet Izzy. I could even smell her from where I was. It was painful be this close and not do anything, but I knew I had to get used to it, even if to simply manage staying in Forks. The conversation between the girls seemed awkward and forced; Izzy clearly wasn't one for talking. Emmett decided to join in to try and loosen them up a bit, but all he ended up doing was annoying Alice and causing Bella to say something silly. This eventually led to Bella blushing at something Alice said. When she blushed her delicious scent increased tenfold. I moved to sprint out of the car but Jasper, who was sat behind me, grabbed my shoulders; trapping me in the driver's seat. She was so close; it'd be so easy to drain her. Alice quickly ended the conversation and came back to the car as Izzy headed off to class.
"You okay?" she asked.
"No, not really. I don't think I can do this." I was so frustrated with myself, why did I suddenly have no self control, I wasn't used to feeling this lost and I hated it.
"You can do it Edward; we all just need to help you. Just avoid being alone with her for a while, maybe you could even use that MySpace I set up for you last night."
"MySpace?"
"Yeah, that social networking site, come on you've got to of heard of it. You hear teenager's thoughts all day for Christ's sake."
"I know what it is Alice, but you made one for me already?"
"Yep, I saw that you'd need one soon, even though I never saw the reason why, so I just made you one, it's not like it was hard or anything."
"Thanks then I guess."
" No problem." she now had a slightly smug grin on her face. "see now you can get to know Izzy without the issue of blood lust. Just make sure you're still building up your endurance ready for when the time comes though."
"Obviously." It was a good idea and I had to admit I was looking forward to finding out about this girl, I couldn't hear her thoughts and that was something new to me, and the bonus of not smelling her was too good to turn down.
"Come on guys, finish the chat we need to head to class, we're running late." Emmett interrupted before he made his way into the school building. I got out of the car and followed, still smelling Izzy's freesia scent. It was going to be a long day.
A/N: Yeah, not really worth the wait but I'm sorry! I really am! Jeeze, it's been so long since I've updated that a whole new season has been and past! What did you guys think of Matt Smith then? Personally I thought he was amazing, not as good as David but he was still awesome, not enjoying that huge wait till Christmas though. Love you all! Oh btw I made a new website for swapping plot bunnies, I'm going to put information about it on my profile so make sure to check it out. And i have a fic entered in the love lost contest, can't tell you which one but I urge you to go read them all, some amazing fics there. I also do the humor/fluff rec over on the bfffer's site every Tuesday if you're looking for recs, the site gets alot of recs about lots of different categories so make sure you head over there, you won't be disappointed! www(dot)bfffersoffanfic(dot)com
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