A/N: So I'm back, sorry for the long wait, please enjoy...

Chapter 3

Dear Kyle,

Sorry I haven't talked to you in a while but I just needed some time to settle into my new apartment and get everything sorted. But know that I read every single one of your emails that you sent me, and thank you so much for them, as they kept me going when I felt as if my grief would consume me.

I still think about Sarah everyday and I can't quite seem to get the sound of her heartbeat out of my head; it haunts me constantly and not even the distance can lessen the anguish I feel, especially over not realising what I was hearing or the fact that if I had, I could of saved my mother. But I have to keep working through it or else I'll go insane and I don't want to give Latnok or Brian the satisfaction of proving them right that it really was a mistake to create me.

So I keep busy and I try to remember all the good times we had when we were together, the photos that you found have really helped me remember all the fun times we had together. But I needed to know more. So I've been trying to find out everything I can about her and I know you're probably thinking that it's too dangerous, but I have to do this, and plus too I'm being very careful covering my tracks. By knowing who she was maybe I can finally find out who I am; as all my life people have been controlling who I should be and how I should act and now that I am free I feel so lost, and I hardly recognise myself. My life has been a lie up until recently and now I'm starting over, but where does one start? Starting with Sarah seemed to be as good a place as any- after all weren't we made in their image, so by knowing and understanding who Sarah was better maybe I will come to understand who I am too.

So far, though, my search has not revealed anything new but I know that she left a foot print out there somewhere for me to follow and all I have to do is find it. In the mean time I know I have to look to the future; who do I want to be and what do I want to do with my life now that it is my own. And the urge to feel settled has spurned me into trying new things so that I can have some idea of what direction I should go and on one of my many adventures I made a friend and her name is Claudia. She's my first real friend and I'm not friends with her because somebody told me to befriend her or because I want something from her but because we have things in common and she's friendly, funny and nice but most of all she likes me for who I am now.

I didn't realise just how much I craved a friend who liked me for me or was not thrust into a friendship with me because of others, but I did. And now I know that was one of the many things that made realise that I could not stay there with you and the Tragers as you did not ask for me to be in your lives nor did you ask your friends to be my friends - if they even were that – you had no choice just like me. But that's ok because I have corrected that mistake and now we're all free.

Now being here on my own and making new friends has brought a small measure of peace to my life and I think that I am on the road to finding happiness. But please don't think that I don't need you, Kyle, because as much as my heart and head needed space I don't want to cut you out of my life instead I intend to become a better person and earn a place in your life making you proud of me. Never doubt that we will always be connected, no matter where we are, and never doubt that when we are separated I will always miss you, more than I should, because we are the same you and I.

Please keep safe and if you ever need me know that I will be there in a heartbeat. And I know I said that I needed to get away from Latnok but I have realised how unwise it is not to know what is going on, and that information is power and power will help me protect myself and those that I care about. So could you please keep me updated on what's going on with me and if you ever need anything or someone who is smarter or faster then know I am always here.

I have to go now as I have to meet Claudia in 15 mins and I don't want to keep her waiting.

Always,

Jessi

P.S. I really do miss you.

And with that Jessi shut down her computer and grabbed her things hurrying out of her apartment eager to meet her very first friend for a coffee. But even though she was excited in the back of her mind she knew that something was coming ,and that instead of relishing in her freedom she felt as if time was running out on her, and that soon she would find herself back in the fight whether she liked it or not. But for now she was determined to enjoy her peace and quiet for however long she had left.

A/N: Thank you for sticking with this story; it should now be updated more frequently (hopefully every 2 weeks if I can). So I hope you like this chapter and please review review review!