A/N: Hey guys! So, now you guys know, and I'll say it again for those who don't, I'm making this into a four/five/six shot, depending on how much I can cram into these chapters. Alright? Well I'm sure you guys are dying for a story...eh?
CLARY POV:
I couldn't breath, couldn't see, well barely, anyways. Jace looked at me expectantly, but when I couldn't choke out the words, his face fell. He turned back to the blank canvas that I hated so much. He grabbed his bag then stormed out of the room, leaving an unearthly silence. The impact of what just happened hit me with tremendous force. I wanted to say I Love You! I wanted to scream it! But he was gone, because I couldn't make out a word for the life of me. I choked on a sob, letting tears flow down my face.
"Clary, darling, that was when you were supposed to say something cliché!" said Miss. Nottingham "Like ditto, or I know!" I turned to her, tears streaming down my face.
"I wanted to!" I sobbed. "I was just so surprised I couldn't speak! Then h-he l-l-left!" I broke down. She patted my back and sent me to the nurses office, which of course meant go on and ditch, you've already done your part.
Running out of the building, sobbing, I ran around looking for Jace's car. Which was futile, of course, considering he probably peeled out of the parking lot. I got in the car and drove home, where it was empty. Running up the stairs, I cried for hours in my pillow, trying endlessly to call Jace. No answer. His words couldn't have been any clearer. Leave me alone, I never want to talk to you again. Which of course only made it insanely worse. Isabelle called me numerous times, but I never picked up. I only kept crying until sleep overtook my mind.
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I woke up, my face red and swollen from tears, as I wept more. I put on my pajamas and plugged in my earphones, listened to music, the saddest songs from my iPod.
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My mom was getting worried I could tell. I wouldn't eat anything. I wouldn't let anyone in. I had my iPod in constantly. The tears never stopped. My heart wasn't repairing; it was disintegrating. My mother tried unsuccessfully to bring me back to no avail. I was just done. I was still practicing my music, and the festival was tonight. I still didn't think I could bring myself to go. Until Isabelle banged through my door.
"Alright Mopey!" She said tugging my earphones out, ignoring my cry of protest. "I'm sick of you and Jace just moping around, and crying. I have never seen Jace shed a tear, in all my life. Ever. All he's been doing is hiding in his room, practicing his music and listening to songs about heartbreak and break ups. Now, I'm not gonna pry, but you too need to get over your sexual tensions and make up already." I watched her, shell-shocked. She continued. "You will go to the Music Festival if I have to tie you down and put you in the trunk." The glint In her eyes showed me no way in hell she was joking. I wiped my eyes.
"Izzy." My voice cracked, and her face softened. "I tried to tell him I loved him back, but I was so surprised I couldn't speak. He wont answer my calls and I'm too afraid to go over if he kicks me out. Izzy, it hurts so much! I can't breath half the time and I haven't eaten in god knows when." I showed he my ribs and sallow face to point it out.
"Oh, Clare-Bear." She engulfed me in a hug. "We'll fix it tonight, I promise, sweetie."
With that she transformed me. But even she wasn't good enough to hide the dark circles, the prominent cheekbones and the sadness in my eyes. I looked good though, with a strapless black dress that showed my curves, all the way down to mid thigh. Hair was curled and pretty and makeup immaculate.
Silently, we drove to the festival, where chipper Miss Nottingham mounted the stage with an introduction speech. I was sweating nervously, Izzy rubbing my shoulders.
"May I start us off with..." She paused. " Jace Wayland!" I squeaked when I saw him glowing, godlike up on the stage.
"Hey there." His voice sounded husky, like he had been crying. "I'm gonna kick off with acoustic. I'm on the guitar, for those who are blind. Sorry I my voice is a little dry. I just recently had my heart broken." Sighs of sympathy emitted from the audience.
"Jeez, asshole, thanks." Isabelle grumbled. She squeezed my shoulder once more as Jace started.
He closed his eyes and gave himself in.
LISTEN TO THE MUSIC
I was walking down the street,
When out the corner of my eye
I saw a pretty little thing approaching me.
She said "I've never seen a man
Who looks so all alone,
Could you use a little company?
If you can pay the right price
Your evening will be nice,
And you can go and send me on my way."
I said "You're such a sweet young thing
Why you do this to yourself?"
She looked at me and this is what she said:
"Oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Money don't grow on trees.
I got bills to pay,
I got mouths to feed,
There ain't nothing in this world for free.
I know I can't slow down,
I can't hold back,
Though you know, I wish I could.
No there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Until we close our eyes for good".
He didn't wink at the girls or anything at all, just stayed focused on music.
Not even fifteen minutes later
I'm still walking down the street,
When I saw a shadow of a man creep out of sight.
And then he sweeps up from behind
And puts a gun up to my head,
He made it clear he wasn't looking for a fight.
He said "Give me all you've got
I want your money not your life,
But if you try to make a move I won't think twice."
I go like "You can have my cash
But first you know I got to ask
What made you want to live this kind of life?"
He said "There ain't no rest for the wicked,
Money don't grow on trees.
I got bills to pay,
I got mouths to feed,
There ain't nothing in this world for free.
I know I can't slow down,
I can't hold back,
Though you know, I wish I could.
No there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Until we close our eyes for good".
Now a couple hours have passed
And I was sitting at my house,
The day was winding down and coming to an end.
So I turned on the TV
And flipped it over to the news,
And what I saw I almost couldn't comprehend.
I saw a preacher man in cuffs he'd taken money from the church,
He stuffed his bank account with righteous dollar bills.
But even still I can't say much
Because I know we're all the same,
oh yes we all seek out to satisfy those thrills
"Oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Money don't grow on trees.
We got bills to pay,
We got mouths to feed,
There ain't nothing in this world for free.
I know we can't slow down,
We can't hold back,
Though you know, we wish we could.
No there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Until we close our eyes for good"
His blazing finished brought on a tremendous amount of applause and cheering. It brought tears to my eyes again, because we loved to listen to Cage the Elephant together. I choked them back and Izzy gave me a look of sympathy. Jace's eyes brushed over me and I gave a tentative smile. One that was full of pain. He saw it and gave me a considering look, but turned back to his music.
"I'm sure we all know All Time Low?" He spoke into the microphone. People erupted. "I'm gonna play electric guitar, OK?" More cheers and he started once more.
Should I write myself out of the history books
And mark a place in time for every chance you took?
Don't get me wrong,
I know you've got your life in place
I've yet to take the hint, someday
I'm sure I'll get the picture
And stop waiting up
When it all comes down
To a sunrise on the East Side,
Will you be there to carry home
The remains of my wasted youth?
This wasted time on you
Has left me shaking in waiting,
Shaking in waiting for something more
Tonight is alive with the promise of a street-fight,
And there's money on the table
That says your cheap shots won't be able
To break bones
I've yet to break a sweat
I'll make your past regret its future
Here's to you
When it all comes down
To a sunrise on the East Side,
Will you be there to carry home
The remains of my wasted youth?
This wasted time on you
Has left me shaking in waiting
For something more
Make all of my decisions for me
I've never taken the fall for deceit
I'll keep a secret if you keep me guessing
The taste of your lips says we shouldn't have met like...
Make all of my decisions for me
I've never taken the fall for deceit
We'll keep a secret if you keep me guessing
The taste of your lips says we shouldn't have met like this
I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me pressing
For more than just a moment of truth between the lies told
To pull ourselves away from the lives we leave back
(I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing)
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me here, keep me here
When it all comes down
To a sunrise on the East Side,
Will you be there to carry me home?
The remains of my wasted youth,
This wasted time on you,
Has left me shaking in waiting
For something more
The audience went ballistic. He shot them a pained smile, then exited the stage. With a few final words that left me breathless.
"I still love you, even though you broke me, Clary." I nearly broke out again, it was all Isabelle could do to keep me together.
"Beautiful! Splendid! Great job, Jace." Miss Nottingham "Now, next up. The only, Clary Fray!"
I headed up the stage, Palms sweating. Jace took my place besides Izzy, looking kind of broken.
"Hey guys." My voice cracked several times. "Sorry if my voice cracked. Lemme just sing, then I'll tell you what I have to say. Um, for the first song, I'm going to play the guitar. The Material, everyone." The crowd was ramped up already.
How did she end up in this place?
Woke up next to a stranger's face
Her inhibitions lie wrinkled on the floor
Her heart is guilty, she feels sick
The room is spinning, it won't quit
It's time to go home
But now it's too late to say
I can't do this
I won't break this promise
I can't do this
I know I made a horrible mistake
It's unforgivable
You'll never forget it, will you?
Oh no.
Believe in me and know my faults
Am I so unforgivable?
Please forgive me, will you? Oh
The flashback's playing in her mind
His tempting lips and gilding eyes
She's had one too many
And can't trust herself
On her way home she starts to cry
Time to confess the shameful lie
No need for words now
He will see it on her face
I can't do this
I won't break this promise
I can't do this
I know I made a horrible mistake
It's unforgivable
You'll never forget it, will you?
Oh no
Believe in me and know my faults
Am I so unforgivable?
Please forgive me, will you? Oh
Please forgive me, will you? Oh
And he whispered in her ear
"Baby please won't you stay the night with me?
You and I, don't you know that we could be never again?"
And he whispered in her ear
"Baby please won't you stay the night with me?
You and I, don't you know that we could be never again alone?"
I can't do this
I can't break this promise
I can't do this
I know I made a horrible mistake
It's unforgivable
You'll never forget it, will you?
Oh no
Believe in me and know my faults
Am I so unforgivable?
Please forgive me, will you? Oh
Please forgive me, will you?
Please forgive me, will you? Oh
The whole crowd was a sea of screaming faces. I gave them a once over, feeling the energy. I felt the power of the song. I met Jace's eyes and gave him another hurt smile, to show him how much I loved him. Then I continued. "This is gonna be piano, guys."
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
The crowd went absolutely berserk. I was crying.
"I just want to say, Jace, I love you. So much. I couldn't speak for the life of me, I was so shocked, because I didn't know you loved me the same way. But I do. I have been crying for days, wondering why you wouldn't speak to me. I love you." I said, and I saw a flash of gold, as he hopped the stage and came and cradled my face in his palms. It felt so right I could barely breath. As he pressed his mouth to mine I felt content, happy. We kissed, as if our lives depended on it. Our teeth clicked together and his tongue trace my lips, begging for entrance-
"RIGHT!" Miss Nottingham screeched into the microphone. "Enough of that. Go and make children somewhere else. Not on the stage." We looked at her in complete shock. She made little shooing motions and cleared her throat. Isabelle was basically on the floor laughing. Finally, we were at peace.
A/N: Alright, wrote this in under an hour. Songs are in order:
Ain't no Rest for the wicked- Cage the Elephant
Coffee Shop Sountrack – All time Low
Unforgivable- The Material
What hurts the most- Cascada (Yanou's Candlelight Remix)
I will be writing an epilogue, for those who want to know.