Part two: Infamous – goodbye/turn back time scene (no fight with Linda Lake) – sad

This is my first time writing in the first person present tense, hope it goes well.

This is crazy. The world has gone wrong. How can people think this wonderful farm boy is dangerous? Why can't they see him for the selfless hero he is?

Why couldn't I see it?

I must have been wearing a blindfold all these years. But ... I should have guessed. Every guy I fall for has a hero complex. I just thought Clark's was buried deep, deep under those baby blues.

So, I barrel into Tess's office ready to call her out on the ridiculous article bashing Clark but what do I find instead ... the Spanish Inquisition. Well, I'm not talking. You cannot get me to betray my hero. And he is my Hero, in so many ways.

I turn and run, but instead of finding myself collared from behind by some goon grabbing my ... well ... collar, I'm suddenly in the Kent barn.

Clark has his arms around me, holding me up and I want to stay there but he puts me down straight away. I miss the warmth immediately. God I hope he super-speeds with me again soon, that feels so good.

"Nice interception, but you shouldn't be here. All the bloodhounds in the state will be sniffing you out!"

"It's okay, I know this sounds crazy but in a few moments this will ALL be over."

Crazy? This world is crazy if they're after my Smallville.

"Okay, well try me, my shock threshold is pretty high right now."

"Lois, I have a ring that allows me to go to any moment in time. "

What? Well I guess nothing he says should shock me anymore. My Smallville is so much more than I ever thought possible. So much greater. So much stronger. So much ... alone. I realise how lonely he must have felt. I see it now. The quiet, reflective times he used to spend here in the barn. The desperate search for someone to share his life with.

"I'm going to go back to before Linda Lake ever wrote that article. The world isn't ready to accept someone like me."

No. That's called giving up. The Red-Blue-Blur would never give up. I accept you Clark. I do.

"Then stay and fight back! Look, give people a chance to see who you really are!"

I see. I finally see and so many things fall into place. So many things make sense in my life. The world makes sense now that I understand my Smallville. Well it did until they started the witch hunt.

"It's too late Lois. My whole life I've seemed different."

Different. Is that what this is about? He thinks he's different. Well, yes, but everyone is different in some way. He's just ... super different. The one person I didn't think could possibly be out of this world. The one guy I could count on to be ... normal. I relied on that normalness, more than I realised.

"Some people spend their entire lives looking for a way to stand out, to be a person that anybody would call special. When you first told me who you were, my thought was anyone but Clark. And not because of the alien thing, I have known enough guys to know that you can be born on terra firma and be lightyears from normal…"

"Lois you don't have to explain, I get it."

"No….you don't. How can someone with x-ray vision be so blind?"

I'm going to have to spell it out for him. I can't believe he doesn't see the pattern, the trend of my romantic attachments in the past. And now ... him too.

"I've been down the Hero road before, and every time I've made a giant U-turn, but this, this was different."

It's so hard, loving a hero; loving someone who means more to the world than to you. But with you I could do it.

"And this time it will be different Lois. When I do this no one's going to remember who I am."

No-one? Oh God, no. I can't lose this. Just when I finally know him ... completely.

"And when you hit your reset button, you're not going to tell me your secret, are you?"

I wait, terrified. He's gonna take it all away. He's gonna take himself away from me. He's gonna put that mask back up and I'll only see the dorky farm boy again.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay"

Loss.

"Why should I think I'm special?"

I've lost him.

"Clark. I understand. "

"Lois you don't understand. It's because you are special."

Really? I'm special to him. I can't believe that. If I truly were special to you you'd come over here and take me in your arms and kiss the life out of me. You'd tell me that I meant more to you than you mean to the world. You'd reassure me that, even though you are the world's greatest hero, you come home to me after every save.

"I have to go."

Oh God, he's walking away. Say something. Say anything Lois. You're going to lose him. Tell him. Tell him now.

I open my mouth but he's not looking and no words come out. He opens a drawer and removes something. The ring he mentioned. He turns back to me.

Now, Lois. Tell him now. It's your last chance.

So I dig down and find some courage and I open my mouth but instead of saying the words I want, instead of revealing all my innermost feelings, I just softly say ...

"See you on the other side Smallville."

And he fades away in a bright light ... as I feel myself fading into nothing.