….Okay...I lost interest for the last time. There will be three more chapters of this fanfic.

I'mLostForever- ….Lily and James are at Hogwarts which means a Fidelus charm is not needed.

'I cannot believe I did this.'

Lily slowly got dressed with her back facing Snape. She took a deep breath, turned around and smiled at her friend.

"Have fun?" She asked coolly.

Snape nodded. "You're obviously very experienced."

Lily smirked. "I have the stretch mark to prove it."

They headed towards the door. Lily cleared her throat. "So...was that a good experience?"

Snape nodded. Lily smiled. "So...can you please tell me who the mole is?"

Snape chuckled humorlessly. "You really want to know, don't you?"

"Yes. Can you blame me?" Lily folded her arms.

"Yes, actually I can." Lily gasped at his comment. Snape was also surprised. All the emotions he has been feeling for the last five years bubbled up inside him. "Why are you still with him? He's obviously a danger to you as well as his son."

Lily became a little angry. "His son is my son, too. Regardless of whether or not he's a target!"

"Well, in that case, I feel sorry for you." Snape snarled. "Having two Potters running around the house? I'll give you three months before you run away!"

Lily slapped Snape across the face. Snape gaped at her in shock. Lily glared at him. "I never want to see you again."

Without another word, Lily left the office. Snape stared after her and sighed sadly. 'Well, it was worth it. I protected her...and I kept my cover.'

XXX

Lily waited until she was inside the Gryffindor common room to cry. What was she thinking? Of course Snape wasn't going to tell her anything.

'Ughhh...I was so stupid.' Lily lay on the couch and went to sleep.

The next morning, Lily was woken up by James who sat next to her. "Top of the morning."

Lily sat up groggily. "Oh...morning, hun."

"Where were you last night?" James asked.

"Oh! I..." Lily hesitated. She knew what James' reaction would be if she told him. Hogwarts would need a new potions master, and she would need a new husband. She sighed. "Please try to understand. I am willing to do whatever it takes to protect this family."

James felt an unusual feeling of dread. "...Do I even want to know?"

"Probably not, but I figured I might as well be honest...since it is impossible to keep things from you." Lily answered.

"Yeah, that's true." James nodded. "Out with it, then."

"I went to ask Snape for information about Sirius and the mole." Lily answered.

"Oh, well, that's not so bad!" James shrugged and smiled.

"By seducing him."

James' smile faded into disgust. "That's bad." James turned around and sighed. "So, you cheated on me to get information."

"It wasn't because I was in love with him." Lily protested.

James turned back to face her. "It's still cheating! Did it even work? Did Snivellous give you any information?"

"No..." Lily bowed her head in shame. "God, I feel so ashamed."

"No kidding." James folded his arms. He shook his head in dismay. "What if you get pregnant with his baby?"

"I took a birth control potion before seeing him." Lily said honestly. "I was safe at least."

"Oh, hey, as long as you took precautions." James said sarcastically. "No affection or sex for a year, young lady. Even from me! And Lily?" Lily looked up at him guiltily. "Don't ever betray me again. Or you can find yourself a new husband."

Lily bowed her head, closed her eyes, then looked up. "I probably deserve that. I understand. It won't happen again."

"It better not." James stormed back upstairs. Lily groaned and buried her head in her hands.

XX

James and Lily did not talk to each other the entire day. At dinner, the table was crowded, so they sat squeezed together.

"You smell better." James said to Lily coolly.

"Thanks." She replied. "Did you have fun at quidditch?"

"Oh, yeah." James responded, taking another sip of his drink.

Kim and Larry exchanged concerned looks. "Um...is everything all right with you two?"

"Of course. Why would you think otherwise?" James asked Kim.

Kim bit her lip and looked at Lily who smiled and shook her head as if to say "Everything's fine". Kim just smiled at the married couple and continued eating deciding to stay out of it.

After dinner, Lily and James headed up to their temporary room.

"I can sleep on the couch downstairs if you'd like." Lily offered.

"That won't be necessary." James waved his wand and a cot appeared. "I'll take the cot, you can have the bed."

"Are we really doing this?" Lily asked tersely, trying not to raise her voice. "Sleeping on separate beds?"

"In case you haven't figured it out by now- which would be shocking, given how intelligent you are- I am extremely pissed with you." James said not facing her and making the cot. "So I don't feel like sleeping on the same bed as you."

Lily sighed. "Okay. Thanks for the bed."

"Yeah." James finished up and headed to the door. "I'm going for a walk. Don't wait up."

XX

James trudged slowly around the castle clearing his head. He was torn between forgiving and not forgiving Lily. On one hand, he would have done the same thing. On the other hand, he had to wonder if there was a better option such as torture.

The marauder heard footsteps coming down a hallway and drew his wand. The figure turned out to be none other than Snape himself.

"Great. Just what I needed." James said sarcastically. He lowered his wand.

Snape smirked evilly. "Trouble in paradise?"

"You wish, asshole." James glared at Snape with pure loathing.

Snape weighed his options. He could kill James and transfigure him so they'd never find the body, oh, and killing Harry would be an added bonus. Then Lily would have no one but him to turn to!

James studied Snape's face and sighed. "You know what? You're nothing but a sniveling piece of shit."

He started walking off.

Snape couldn't help himself. "That's not what your wife said last night."

James stopped, smiled wryly, turned around and waved his wand at Snape causing the Potions Master to fly across the hallway, through a door and down a flight of stairs. James ran to the top of the staircase to see his victim laying spread eagled on the ground, but still breathing. James modified Snapes' memory so that he would not remember what he did with Lily or who pushed him down the stairs.

XX

The common room was silent as James trudged through it. He headed to the Head Boys' room. Lily was just walking out. She shut the door quietly.

They stared at each other for a moment, then James broke the silence. "I ran into Snape."

Lily bowed her head. She wasn't surprised. "Oh?"

"I modified his memory. He will not remember what you guys did last night."

Lily looked up at her husband with surprise. "I would've thought you'd keep it to use against him later."

"Not remembering having hot sex with the girl of your dreams is a lot worse than it being used against you." James explained.

"You really think so?" Lily raised an eyebrow. James nodded. Lily shook her head slowly.

"Lily...I don't want us to be mad at each other." James began. "I...I love you. I don't wanna lose you."

A lump rose to Lily's throat. She swallowed and smiled. "I love you, too." They hug. "I don't wanna lose you either...or Harry."

"I know...you won't."

They embraced each other for a long time. Maybe James wouldn't completely forgive Lily for cheating on him, but...with Sirius still missing, Remus mad at him, and Wormtail he hadn't seen for ages...Lily and Harry are all he has now.

XX

The following afternoon, Snape caught up with Lily in the courtyard.

"Lily! Might I have a word with you?" Snape asked hopefully.

Lily sighed and turned around. "Yes?" She said politely but with contempt in her voice.

"I want you to know I still care about you. And..." Snape hesitated. "I...I..."

"You what?"

Snape sighed and switched tactics. "How can you be in love with that...that toerag? We used to think up ways to get him expelled!"

"He changed, Sev. He's not the bully you once knew in school!" Lily argued. "Why can't you see that?"

"He stole you from me!"

"I was never yours to begin with!" Lily shot back. "How can I be in love with you when you are so obsessed with dark magic?"

"I requested to the Dark Lord to spare you!"

Lily was shocked. "Why?"

"Because...I love you." Snape admitted.

Lily bowed her head and closed her eyes. So he asked to spare her and not James and Harry? She knew You-Know-Who targets Harry, but still! Lily looked up at her former friend.

"If you love me, then you would've requested to spare my husband and son as well." Lily said tersely. Snape was taken aback. Lily continued. "Say he does spare me and James and Harry..." She couldn't bear to finish that sentence. "What then? Are you expecting me to come to you for comfort and I'd fall in love with you?" She calmed down a little. "Tell me, how would that honor my family's memories, Severus? Especially since James is so prejudice against the Dark Arts?"

Snape didn't answer. He shook his head slowly. "Would it be better if I renounced the Dark Lord?"

"Yes, it would." Lily answered honestly. "But it still wouldn't change how I feel about you."

"How do you feel about me?" Snape asked.

"I feel sorry for you." Lily said. "I mean...you had this horrible childhood, but you had the chance to make it better by being a strong person. James didn't steal me from you. I chose him because if you were half the person James is, you would never fall to the Dark Arts."

Without a word, Lily walked off leaving Snape looking shocked and heartbroken. He finally stormed off in the other direction. Little did he know, James was half hidden behind a pillar. He heard every word.

XXX

In another part of the country, Lord Voldemort smiled in satisfaction. Wormtail just fed him some good news.

"So...the boy is at Hogwarts." He repeated. "So clever. I wonder why I had not foreseen it."

"My Lord, what will we do about Dumbledore?" Asked Bellatrix.

"Oh, not to worry, Bellatrix, I have a plan..."

Unbeknownst to them, a shaggy black dog listened to every word through an open window. The dog sprinted off towards where he hoped was Hogwarts.

All right! I'll update this every month, so, stay tuned!