Wow, three chapters in three days, lovely… Anyway, this chapter has been haunting me for the last couple of days, every moment of the day, even when I sleep. I wonder if it's trying to tell me something… :)

Chapter thirteen: It could be so much more

'Oh, I had completely forgotten about that' I said with a small frown.

Me and Danny had been back in London for about two weeks now and everything was going great. It might sound stupid to put it like that, but I can't describe it any other way, everything is just wonderful right now and I couldn't be happier.

It took a while to get used to living together and being together, but we're not actually living together as a couple. I still spend a couple of nights a week in my room and Danny does the same in his.

'I know me too' he nodded. 'But it was bound to come up sometime'

'It's just so soon, we've only just got together and, oh, I don't know, I'll just miss you'

'I'll miss you too' he said and pulled me in for a hug. 'But we'll talk everyday and it won't be that bad, I promise'

'You promise?'

'I promise. Now we'd better start making use of the time we have left before I have to go' he said with a cheeky smile.

'When do you have to leave?' I asked completely oblivious to what he was talking about.

'On Friday, and its Wednesday today, so I've got two days only for you'

'At least that's something' I said as I pecked him on the lips. 'Now, what were you talking about before?'

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The two days passed quickly and we had a great time, even though I couldn't stop thinking about him leaving. It was going to be hard living in our apartment alone and not being able to see him everyday, but I knew it wasn't going to change anything between us.

'I can't even begin to tell you how much I'm going to miss you' Danny murmured into a kiss.

'Me neither' I murmured back. 'But' I said and pulled back a bit, 'We'll talk every day'

'I'll call you as soon as we get there tonight'

'I'll be waiting. And you know, this phone thing might not be so bad anyway'

'Oh really, why not?'

'It'll definitely make me want you even more' I smirked. 'And you never know what might get said during the long hours of the night, when you're all alone in your bunk'

'Oohh, now I'm actually exited to get on the bus. I love you for, well basically everything'

'I love you too' I said and kissed him again. 'Now get going, so I can start missing you. And don't forget to call me tonight'

'I won't. Bye baby, talk soon'

'Bye'

And just like that he stepped on the bus and drove off into the sunset. Well, maybe not the sunset but he did drive off and leave me alone.

I walked around the apartment for a while but quickly got bored of it and decided to see if the other girls wanted to go shopping and miss the guys together.

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'Hey look at this' Sarah said and handed me a magazine.

Danny and the boys had been away on tour for two weeks now and even though we tried to talk to each other every day, it was hard not being able to see him and actually touch him. I spent a lot of time with the other girls and we found a lot of comfort in the fact that we all felt the same way.

The band had been playing for three nights in a row now and I hadn't talked to Danny for two days, which bummed me out really bad. I knew that the tour-schedule was tiring and that I worked a lot, but I still missed his voice.

'What?' I said as my eyes scanned the page. 'Oh'

'What is it?' Jess and Dani said at the same time.

'Ehm, it's an article about Danny, and some pictures of him with some girl' I said.

'Let me see' Dani said and took the magazine from me. 'That's Rebecca, remember her, she's Danny's ex girlfriend'

'Oh, right, I thought that she looked familiar' I said slightly confused. I was used to seeing pictures of Danny with other girls, but never before had I seen one with him and some girl he actually knew.

'What does the article say?' Jess asked when she couldn't read it upside down.

'I'll read it to you' Dani said. 'The picture says:'

"Danny Jones of Mcfly with latest catch?"

'And then there's the article' she continued.

"Danny and his stunning blonde girl were seen last night exiting posh restaurant 'Fouls' together, seeming noticeable happy. The couple tried to shield themselves from the cameras but proved unsuccessful, and resorted to quickly driving off in a waiting car. None of the reporters outside managed to find out who the girl is, but they sure looked happy together. Maybe its love in the air for the young Mcflier."

'Did you know about that?' Sarah asked me after Dani finished reading.

'No, not really' I said with a small smile.

'Are you worried?' she then said carefully.

'Nope, not at all, I trust him completely'

'Good, you should' Dani continued. 'These things happen all the time, it's usually nothing'

'I know'

'It doesn't make it any more fun though' Jess said.

'Not at all' we all agreed.

When Danny called the next morning I had just woken up and was still in bed.

'I'm so sorry I haven't called you the last couple of days, I've just been really busy.

'Its ok, I understand. Oh, and I saw you in the papers yesterday' I said.

'I know, I read that too, Rebecca says hi by the way'

'Oh, say hi back' I said slightly confused.

'I'll do that when I see her the next time' he answered. 'You don't mind me hanging out with her do you?'

'Not at all' I said even though it bothered me a bit. 'It's good that you have someone to hang out with. I'm just sad that I have to resort to the papers to get a look of you'

'I know, it's hard for me too, but this won't go on forever you know. Before we know it, the tour will be over and I'll be back home with you' he said in a reassuring voice.

'I can't wait' I said and hoped that he could tell that I was smiling. 'I miss you loads'

'I miss you too. I've got to go now, its time for sound-check'

'Ok, I love you'

'I love you too, and I'll call you tonight if I have time'

'Do that, bye'

'Bye'

After hanging up the phone I fell back in my bed and pulled the covers over my head. I missed him like crazy and I couldn't wait until I could see him again. Just then the phone rang again but this time it was Jess.

'Hey Jess, what's up?'

'Hey hun. Nothing much, I just wanted to see if you wanted to go up and see the boys this weekend'

'Are you serious?' I asked sitting up again.

'Yep, me and Sarah have been planning to do it and figured we could turn it into a road-trip, you now, just us girls'

'Wow, I'd love to' I said exited. 'When do we go?'

'Friday morning, if that suits you'

'Sounds great! I can't wait'

'Me neither, I'll come pick you up around 9'

'See you then'

'Yep, bye'

I got out of bed and walked to the door to pick up today's paper. I quickly scanned the front page and continued to read it when I walked back into the kitchen. In the entertainment section I once again found a picture of Danny and Rebecca, the fourth one this week, but as I looked closer I realized that it was a different girl. The article talked about another new girl in Danny's life, and it bothered me to read it. It was hard being his girlfriend and having to read about him and other girls, and not seeing him only made it worse. It made me feel so small, like I didn't matter, even though I knew I did and I hated the fact that they made me feel like this.

The following week flew by and before we knew it, it was Friday and only hours until we'd get to see the boys again.

'I'm so exited' Dani squealed. 'In only an hour, I'll get to see Tom again, YAY!'

'Yay! From me too' Sarah joined in. 'I can't believe that we're finally here.

'Cant you drive any faster?' they both asked me.

'Sorry girls, this is as fast as this car goes' I smiled at them. 'But I think I saw our exit back there, we should be at the hotel earlier than planned anyway'

'Super!'

After we parked the car outside the hotel and managed to get all out bags out of the car, we stumbled into the lobby where they boys were supposed to meet us.

The lobby was huge, with marble floors and pillars everywhere you turned, it looked beautiful and we all smiled at the sight of it.

'Dani!' we heard a voice say from behind us, causing us all to turn around at the same time and fall into a messy pile, consisting of ourselves and all our bags.

'Tom! Oh my god, it's so good too see you' I heard Dani's muffled voice say from somewhere beneath Jess. 'Can you please help me up? I'm kind of stuck'

'Sure, grab my hand' Tom said and swiftly dragged her free from the pile and into his arms. 'I've missed you so much'

'What is going on here?' I heard Danny say as he, Dougie and Harry walked up to us as well.

'We kind of fell' I explained sitting up and rubbing my elbow.

'I can't see that' he said and reached down to pull me up. 'Hi'

'Hi back' I said and kissed him. 'Wow that was one good kiss' I stated as we broke apart.

'I know' he said and kissed me again. 'I just love to kiss you'

'Aww, Harry and Dougie said at the same time. 'How sweet'

'Break it up guys, lets get these bags upstairs and then we can go out to dinner, I'm starving' Tom said to everyone.

'Yay food' I said and followed the line of people heading towards the elevator.

Danny's pov

I smiled as Frankie followed Tom towards the elevator; it was really great to have her around again. We took the elevator up to our floor and I showed her to my room.

'This is cozy' she said as she looked around. 'Very nice'

'I know, it's nicer now that you're here though'

'Thanks, it feels really good to be close to you again'

'I've missed you a lot'

'I've missed you too'

'Want to skip dinner and catch up a bit?' I asked her with a smile.

'I could do with some catching up' she nodded and gave me a passionate kiss.

'Awesomest'

'Awesomest'

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The following day we spent in bed, talking and just enjoying seeing each other in real life again. It was great but I could see that there was something occupying Frankie's mind. Every now and then she would space out and I could see this small hint of sadness in her eyes.

'What's wrong? I know something's on your mind'

'Ehm, I just…Do you want to take a walk or something? I need some air'

'Sure' I said confused. 'Let's go'

Frankie's pov

We walked outside the hotel and found a park nearby which we started to circle. We walked in silence for a while, not knowing what to say, but I could tell that he had something to say as well.

'You can tell me anything, you know that don't you' I heard him say.

'I know' I said with a small smile. 'I want to explain why I've been pretty down today'

'Ok'

'I just, well, it hard to be away from you, and I... well, I guess that I'm not coping with all the press that good'

'Oh, ok'

'It's so hard to see the pictures of you and all those girls. Every day they're right there in front of me, being with you and talking to you and it makes me feel so small'

'I don't know what to say to that' he said looking at me.

'I know that you don't, I just wanted you to know that I feel like this. I try so hard to deal with all the headlines and stuff like that but it just gets to me sometimes'

'I suppose you wish that you could be with a normal guy, with someone who's not in the papers everyday' He said while shrugging his shoulders.

I stopped dead in my tracks and turned towards Danny. 'How can you say something like that? You know that I wouldn't want to be with anyone other than you'

'I know, it's just that with a normal guy you wouldn't have to deal with all of this' He said sticking his hands in his pockets, as if trying to hide from me.

'Seriously? I don't want any other guy, stop talking like that' I said with a voice filled with hurt.

'I'm sorry, but sometimes I just get the feeling that you're sick of everything about me'

'What?! When have I ever said anything like that? Maybe if you talked to me every now and then you'd understand me better. You talked more to me when we were just friends than we do now'

Back to Danny's pov

'I'm sorry, but this touring makes me tired, I can't call you every night and talk for hours' I said but almost instantly regretted it.

'I have never asked you to do that' she said and now I could see her eyes watering a bit. 'That you care, and want to talk to me sometimes, that's all I ask for'

'Well, what if I can't give you that all the time?'

'What? What are you talking about?'

'I can't deal with you being jealous of me when I'm not home. I have to be able to hang out with other people without you getting mad at me' I said harshly.

'When have I ever done anything like that?' she asked coldly.

'Do you think I couldn't hear it in your voice when you asked about Rebecca and the other girls?'

'Maybe if you told me about it every now and then, so that I wouldn't have to find out about in the papers all the time'

'See! This is what I'm talking about. Now you're doing it again. Why don't you trust me?'

'What? Where is all this coming from?' she said with tears in her eyes.

'I can't deal with this right now' I said as I looked at her. I had no idea where all of this was coming from, I wasn't aware that I felt like this, but I couldn't stop speaking.

'What does that mean?'

'Just admit it, you want someone normal, who's not in the papers every other day' I blurted out again.

To this she said nothing, she just looked at me, with so much sadness in her eyes and I just looked back. I had no idea of what just happened, but something definitely changed between us.

'I guess that's it then' she said quietly wiping a tear from her eye. 'If you can't deal with this, then I won't make you'

'Fine'

'Fine' she said and turned around to go back to the hotel. 'Give me half an hour and I'll be gone' I heard her say before she started to walk away. I looked after her when she suddenly turned around and came back to where I was standing.

'Fuck you Danny' she said as she came to a halt in front of me. 'I never thought that you could hurt me like this, but apparently I was wrong'

'Apparently you were' I responded with anger in my voice. 'I can't believe that you blame me for all this'

'We're through' she said with a voice barely holding together.

'Good' I said and at the same time I felt something break inside me. 'Now, just leave me alone' I said while turning away to hide the tears that were falling from my eyes. I walked along the park, not turning around once, as I tried to understand what had just happened. I was so deep in thought that I didn't even realize that it was pouring down; all I could think about was the pain I felt inside.

Frankie's pov

'Now, just leave me alone' I heard him say as he started to walk away from me. I looked up at the sky and felt a raindrop hit my cheek. It slowly found its way down and blended with the tears that were already covering them.

I couldn't hold it in anymore, I burst out crying right there, and as the rain began to fall I watched his back get smaller and smaller and he walked further away. Just like that, it was all over, and it hurt so bad I could barely breathe.

This is the way you left me

I'm not pretending

No hope, no love, no glory

No happy ending

This is the way that we love

Like its forever

Then live the rest of our life

But not together