WARNING:There's some sexual content in this chapter. Also..forgive any formatting errors, I don't have the slightest idea what's wrong with the uploader/editor. Don't ask me :P
They both slept peacefully; Beast Boy awoke every couple hours and chose to go back to sleep, but Raven's mind was exhausted aswell as her suddenly fragile and all too human body, she didn't stir in the slightest for nearly fourteen hours.
Raven gasped and sat up in bed, Beast Boy shot up in response and his hand instinctively when to her chest, ready to calm the force was trying to destroy her. But the pressure did not rise up against his waiting palm and he quickly realized that the only thing he could feel was her soft breasts and the rise and fall of her chest, the air as it shuttered in and out of her lungs.
"It was...just a bad dream, that's all." Raven's voice was gentle, her eyes met his with a tenderness and vulnerability he'd never see before.
"Oh," his word was quiet and low but his hand jerked violently away from the inappropriate contact that he'd initiated. His embarrassment was evident.
Raven shook her head and looked away from him in embarrassment, she hated being dependent on anyone, "I'm going to take a quick trip to Nevermore…and I need you…to stay here, close to my mirror...I don't know what might happen if that emotion tries to break out while I'm in such an indisposed position." Not to mention the implications of fighting her on a relatively even playing field, Raven thought bitterly, if I'm thrown out I want someone there to catch me.
Beast Boy nodded, "Sure." Memories of his trip into Raven's mind flashed into his head, the darkness and chaos blurred his senses as if he were there himself. The memory of that day reminded him that Raven's thoughts were always clouded and troubled even in the wake of happiness. Her emotions changed, the environment in which they lived was an entirely different story.
Raven stood up and hesitated before walking towards the mirror, the last thing she wanted was for lust to start talking in her head or for the pain to return.
Beast Boy noticed her hesitance and stood too, "Maybe we should figure out exactly how far the distance is, just to be safe…" his expression changed to a shade of desperation, his eyes widened and his body language softened considerably, "I don't want to hurt you. It may not have been danger for you to go to Nevermore before but things have changed and there are new risks to consider."
It's always dangerous to resign completely into my own head, Raven thought, suddenly bitter and perturbed with him for no reason at all except for the fact he was in the same room. Her anger calmed as she studied his concerned face for a few more moments.
Raven nodded slowly, quickly dispelling the feeling deep in her core which told her that Beast Boy was becoming attached to some degree. A feeling of dread spread over her entire frame and lust's voice snuck into her head again. "I'm going to force you to stay so close to him that intimacy will have a whole new meaning…" Raven shuddered in response and bit her lip, "Ok, Beast Boy, you should just start walking the other way."
He did as he was told but didn't move with his back to her like she'd expected. Instead, he moved with his eyes trained on her face, waiting for her inevitable distress with a tightly clenched jaw. Sure enough he was no more then eight feet away from her when lust laughed loudly in her head.
"Gotcha." Then the pain hit Raven like a title wave and she collapsed weakly, her body sinking to the floor until a pair of muscular arms enveloped her tightly. She could practically feel the testosterone rushing through his highly alert system; a low growl of anger manifested deep in his chest, but then again it was probably so loud because her face was pressed tightly there.
The mass of energy burst with painful force from her torso, she could feel lust bruising her on purpose, "When you suffer, he suffers too, did you know that? Look at his face while you writhe in his arms..your pain brings him closer to us...after all, an animal of his caliber wants to feel protective and dominant over his bitch; but we can certainly discuss these matters further when you come to visit me in a few minutes...I simply can't wait." Lust spoke to Raven with a constant stream of consciousness, lust's thoughts stung just as much as the crushing force against Raven's abdomen.
Raven opened her eyes and looked at Beast Boy's face just as lusthad told her to. What she saw was both endearing and upsetting. He looked horrified, his hands fluttered franticly over the protrusion in her chest...she hadn't realized he'd moved her to the bed and now hovered over her in a worried frenzy.
The pain didn't ebb as quickly as usual, lust wanted Raven to watch his face andexperience his secondhand suffering on top of her own.
Beast Boy was deterred...her body was contorted against his and nothing he did was helping. He held her face between his large hands and tried to catch her seemingly unfocused gaze, "What am I supposed to do?"
Raven couldn't speak, she was forced to simply observe lust as she pushed him to his limits.
Finally he leaned down and pressed his forehead to her chest, his lips followed, pressing against the thin fabric that separated skin from skin.
Raven hadn't realized that she'd been unable to breath, the fresh air rushed into her lungs so fast that it actually hurt more then the consistant pressure. Her gasp was audible and Beast Boy pulled back immediately.
"Please don't do that again." He begged quietly, anguish apparent in his tone, "I really, really hate when that happens, please don't do it anymore." His hands found her face roughly and he moved closer, his lips against her left ear, "Please leave her alone, please, please just stop…"
Raven still couldn't speak, and the energy protrusion only strengthened in it's fight to break her bones. Lust spoke again, "He's had enough, have you?"
Raven jerked her head yes roughly.
"I'm sure it would stop hurting if you let him kiss it and make it better…" lust hissed seductively, "I'm sure he wouldn't mind kissing a few other things if you'd just give him the chance…"
Raven sucked in another shuddering breath.
Beast Boy was still poised at her ear, frozen and unsure of how to respond to an enemy he couldn't get his hands on.
"Beg him to kiss it…" lust encouraged quickly.
Raven jerked her head till her own lips pressed against his, "P-Please, k-k-kiss-s it, please." The sound barely escaped but she knew he'd heard and understood.
Beast Boy didn't need to be asked twice, his hands slid to her neck and angled it so his lips could make a path from her ear, along the underside of her jaw, and down the opposite side to rest against her collarbone.
Raven felt lust give her a nudge of encouragement; the pain instantly dulled and gave way to powerful, widespread sensation that was quite the opposite of uncomfortable.
Beast Boy's strong hands slid down her waist and pulled her closer, his lips blazed a hot trail down to where lust was forcing its way from her body.
Raven felt herself flush in embarrassment as an involuntary moan escaped her lips.
The sound only served to excite Beast Boy more as he quickly moved further down her body. He caressed her hips and let his tongue slide across her exposed midriff. His fingers pushed the shirt up further as he licked up to her navel. His fast breathing against her suddenly wet skin caused goosebumps to raise across her entire surface.
Lust took over her body for a moment, she felt herself push her hips up against him and another moan leave her throat.
Beast Boy nipped lightly at the skin of her lower stomach, his mouth watered and he could clearly smell her arousal.
"You don't seem very willing to stop now…" lust taunted her.
Raven immediately regained control of her body and shuddered just as Beast started to kiss the crease at the inside of her thigh.
"Beast Boy." Her tone was sharp but not angry, she sat up as quickly as she could and reached down to take his slightly disoriented looking face between her small hands.
He looked confused at first, then embarrassed, then angry, and then ashamed all over again, "Raven, I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened…"
Raven shook her head quickly, "No, don't…I asked you to…" her face turned red, "I begged you to."
He nodded quickly, "Is your chest ok?"
Raven nodded slowly, her monotone helped to quell what was left of Beast Boy's erection; any emotion, whether anger, sadness, or pain, was far better then none at all, "Yes...but, it's really sore, I wish it didn't happen in the same exact place every single time."
Beast Boy nodded and looked away, this was more time than he'd ever spent with Raven...she made him nervous and anxious and awkward. He was unsure of how to act because she'd never let him this close before. He wasn't sure how to touch her because the lines of their physical relationship had suddenly been blurred beyond recovery.
"I'm going to Nevermore, I'll be back soon…" she stood up and walked over to her dresser, picked up the mirror and then turned to look over her shoulder. Beast Boy's eyes widened when he found a faux condescending smile on her face, "Don't touch my things and definitely don't touch this mirror, no matter what happens."
Beast Boy nodded quickly, "Sure."
Raven took a few deep breaths and then disappeared, sucked into a reality where her biggest enemy was herself, a reality where her deceased father still caused pain and destruction.
Raven stumbled a little, the terrain under her feet uneven.
"Knowledge, come here." Raven growled angrily and waited impatiently.
Two seconds later Intelligence appeared in her bright yellow, "It's been too long, Raven, I feel that you have lost control…" Knowledge had never been one to beat around the bush.
Raven rolled her eyes, "I haven't lost control, I just need to find Lust and set her straight…if she wants a fight then I'll give her one. It's time the playing field was even."
Knowledge nodded slowly, "Maybe she's not your enemy."
"She's trying to destroy me." Raven snapped flatly.
"Lust can't exist without you being alive and well, if she was trying to kill you then she would in turn kill herself…she has nothing to gain by defeating you." Knowledge reasoned, "You have been...pent up lately, a release would probably do you a world of good. After all, satisfied emotions are easier to control and manage. Sexual tension destroys the lines between other emotions, sexual tension is also the friction between mind and body seeing as sexual satisfaction exists on both physical and emotional levels."
"Shut up." Raven snapped quickly, unwilling to listen, "Where is she?"
Knowledge shrugged apprehensively, and pointed down the narrow path, "Follow the sense of calm...she waits at the end of that road for you."
Raven glared, "I'm going to blow her away."
It took what seemed like years, but Raven couldn't deny the controlled calm that spread through her as she neared the end. By the time she saw a version of herself dressed in black she could barely remember what her anger was for.
Lust was wearing leather, stiletto boots and a plunging leather leotard with no cape. Her hair was long and slightly curly...Raven reached up to find that her own hair was now long and wavy aswell. She glared, "Stop."
Lust laughed softly, "Oh please, don't be such a child, you are much more seductive with long hair, it suits your face shape and makes you seem softer."
"Get out, you have no place here." Raven snapped back.
Lust leaned against a dead tree, "Who are you to tell me what to do? I do believe it is me in power and not the other way around...plus, you love the fact that I exist. Now you can venture to sleep with whomever you want and still have an excuse...I can take away the shame you have for your body, I can make you confident in your sex appeal, I can help you bring yourself and others immense pleasure. There is no downside to this."
Raven turned from her, "I don't want to be a slut, and I don't appreciate the fact that you take over my body and make me do things."
"I make you do things that make you feel very good...you can't tell me your didn't imagine what it would have been like if Beast Boy had continued with his assault on your lower body. Beast Boy is a good lover, I'm sure of that now, he can provide the kind of satisfaction you require to function normally. You have have gotten away with being a prude till now but things have changed, your body craves and needs a seductive touch and a rough kiss." Lust spoke as if there were no truer words in existence, "It's not my fault that you're so in denial that I have to threaten you with physical harm."
"You don't just threaten, you inflict."
"Raven, my sexually frustrated and so clearly confused friend, sex is a part of being human...you are half human after all. What is so hard for you to understand?" Lust nearly yelled out of frustration.
"I am not meant to procreate, I'm a demon." Raven got closer and reached out to hold Lust by her throat, "I may not be able to destroy you, but I will make sure you never have free will again if you continue to act like a child. You are my emotion, you are under my control, you can't tell me what to do and you certainly can't force me to let someone touch me when I don't desire it."
Lust cracked her neck to the left and then the right, "Honey, you are mistaken if you think I'm going to back down."
Raven prepared to fight, "If that's what you really believe…" But she couldn't get the rest of her sentence out because suddenly Lust was in front of and then abruptly on top of her, holding her against the ground.
"You've spent years bottling your sexual urges, I've been sitting and waiting for years, I'm far more powerful then you could ever imagine and I'm here to stay until I'm completely and utterly satisfied…" she leaned in close and kissed Raven's neck, "And I promise, I won't be easily sated. Even if you do give in and have sex with him, I will still be here, ready to force all my power into destroying you from the inside out." Her evil laugh broke through Raven's resolve, "If I can't have anything and everything I desire then I certainly have no trouble making sure you're not happy either, even if that means your life."
And then Lustwas gone, she'd receded back into the scenery and left Raven shaken.
A/N: Another long chapter...Yay!
Wolvmbm: TA-DA! Hello Nevermore! That was always on my mind but your comment gave me a little much needed direction. Much appreciated. Oh, and the "Beast" will become more prominent soon.
DarkFire:My thoughts exactly, necrophelia is a disgrace :P Hope that this new upload was fast enough...I'm having a lot of trouble with the uploader lately.
Cool:Great reader ;)
BlackRose:Lol you go girl…and thanks: I like to consider myself a creatively inspired writer of semi tasteful and plot affiliated smut. :P
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