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Chapter 6- I Hate You
He, the blond jerk, was in his booth from Akatoki Agency. It had been a while since he last met Kyoko. And it wasn't a pleasant thing.
Yes, she kicked him in his jewelry, but he was not bothered by this. He was bothered by her statement-My man is kissing me every day.
Since the day in Karuizawa he had known that Ren had feelings for Kyoko that weren't the feelings a sempai should have for his kohai. Ren was in love with Kyoko. Even he, a person who does not spend much time around the man(actually- almost never), knows the depth of Ren's feelings.
Since that day in Karuizawa he had lived in fear. The fear of losing Kyoko to Ren. For Valentine's day he had wanted chocolates from her. He was surprised to find out Kyoko gave chocolates to Reino, the guy from Beagle.
Sho wondered why Ren had't put his hands on Kyoko in all this time. What reason did he have to not seduce her?
After their (they being Kyoko, Sho and Reino) meeting at TBM, Sho had decided to give Kyoko a huge bouquet. She loved flowers, so there was no way she would refuse him.
To his surprise he discovered Kyoko and Reino didn't have a romantic relationship. He was relieved. But again, to his surprise, he found out from Kyoko herself that she had prepared something else for Ren. She gave chocolate to others, but for Ren she had prepared something unique.
His mind told him that Ren was special to her. She did not give him an ordinary gift for Valentine's Day. Sho was jealous. In his rage, he had approached Kyoko to give her a chocolate, only to later to take it back with his mouth.
Yes, he had planned to steal her first kiss(which he did) to make Ren jealous, and to cause Kyoko to think of him even more. He had to restore his place in her heart, even if it was a place of hatred.
Her lips had been soft, but it wasn't a thing he would tell her. When he met her at TV station after that incident, he had wanted to make her to think of him who knew, maybe he would have the chance to feel her soft lips pressing on his once again. Maybe this time she would respond to his advances.
But she didn't. Moreover, she had hit him and said that hateful line-My man is kissing me every day. In that moment, Sho was certain: Ren had made his move on Kyoko, and they were lovers.
Sho was bored in his booth. Not even Pochiri, his faithful dog, was there to entertain him. Not having anything else to do, he decided to browse a nearby magazine. He was in the middle of his activity when he saw her.
That magazine had appeared two weeks after Ren and Kyoko's photo shoot. The editors of magazine had used a lot of space for that event.
Yes, he saw her picture in that magazine. He had never seen her like this, he never knew that the plain boring girl he knew was able to create something like what he saw.
In the first picture, Kyoko had her hands on a man's chest, unbuttoning his shirt. Her soft lips were on the skin she had revealed. One of the man's hands was on her shoulder, the other one finding the skin underneath her little blouse.
Both of them had a lustful expression in their eyes.
In the second picture, the man was behind Kyoko with an arm around her waist and another resting on her thigh. Kyoko hands were behind his neck, bringing his head towards her for a kiss.
In another shot, Kyoko was on the man's lap. His shirt was completely undone and his pants were unzipped as well. Kyoko was wearing a revealing outfit. Her hands were on his shoulders, his hands were on her hips, and their faces were inches apart, about to kiss.
Sho closed the magazine and threw it into a trash bin. He then turned on the TV, needing a distraction or two.
The photographer had been a pervert. He liked to add sex into his work to shock people. When he saw Ren and Kyoko's chemistry through the lense of his camera, he couldn't waste his opportunity. The two young people would sell his work and the public would love it.
And he was right. When the first pictures appeared, TV stations and magazines were shocked by their chemistry. Some of them had created polls asking if Kyoko and Ren should be together. The results had been stunning: most of the people agreed that Kyoko and Ren would be a great couple.
Not only was the public shocked. In Akatoki Agency, Sho was at the point to destroy the things that surrounded him. He didn't need to listen to the TV and hear the same things that he had noticed in that "stupid" magazine.
Retrieving the magazine from the trash, he read a line from the interview:
Question: Did you have fun shooting this?
Answer: Yes, we had a lot of fun.
But things wouldn't remain like this. Kyoko and Ren's days of happiness were counted. Sho would make sure of it.
In the beginning, he decided to send flowers to her. Since he didn't know her address and he wasn't interested by her life after their break-up, he decided to send them to LME.
Three times a day, he sent flowers to her. In the visit card was the message:
Hi Kyoko-chan. Each day I am thinking of you. I want to show you that I have changed. I'm not who you think I am. I will do everything to get you to return to me.
With love, Sho!
Sho did this for three days. Each time she took his flowers and threw them. She didn't need him or his attention. Actually, she thought she should thank him. If he hadn't been a jerk and throw her away like garbage, she wouldn't have met Ren and she wouldn't have reached happiness at the level she was at now.
However, Kyoko was tired of it. She wanted him to stop sending flowers. To get him to do so, she decided to visit him at his agency. She wouldn't resolve anything through talking on the phone.
Sho was in his booth when he heard a knock on his door. To his surprise, when he opened the door he found Kyoko. He was excited. In his clueless mind he thought his actions had worked.
"Kyoko! Come in!" He told her as she quietly she entered his booth. "I never thought you will come to see me."
"Neither I, but I had to. We need to talk about your flowers," she told him succinctly.
Sho sat on the couch. He invited Kyoko to join him, but she refused. She didn't plan on staying for too long.
"I'm sure you loved them. You like things that remind you of fairyland," Sho babbled. He couldn't stop talking.
"Your flowers were beautiful Sho, but…"
"But?"
"Stop sending them. I don't need them. I don't need your flowers, Sho."
The high spirits he had felt when he saw her standing at his door faded away. He knew the reason for her request. Why would she need his flowers when she probably already got them from another?
"However, I should thank you. If you hadn't been such a bastard in the past, I wouldn't have become an actress and I wouldn't have met so many great people. I have a lot of friends now because of you. I am extremely happy, more than I had been when I was with you. So- thank you, Sho, for throwing me away."
Her heartfelt confession completed, Kyoko turned and headed to the door. Sho moved quickly and caught her before she left.
"You're happy because of him?" Sho was behind her, his body pinning her to the door. "Tsuruga Ren is your happiness now?" He asked angrily. She could hear his emotions through his voice. Fear surrounded her being.
He quickly turned her around.
"Did you have fun shooting with him?" he asked. "You were different in that commercial. You were…how should I describe it? Sexy..." Kyoko blushed at his remark, remembering the lovely photo shoot.
Sho grabbed Kyoko by her wrist and lead her to the couch. Her jacket and her purse fell on the floor. He threw her on couch and towered over her. Kyoko was scared by this Sho. She had never seen him so animalistic. Something inside told her to run away, that she wasn't safe.
She tried listening to her inner voice, but he stopped her when she attempted to escape. He grabbed her wrists and pinned them above her head.
"Did he have you in his bed?" Sho was unrecognizable, he seemed to be possessed by a beast. His grip was strong, and Kyoko hissed in pain.
"Let me go Shotaro. You're hurting me,"she protested, but he did not let go of her. He was deaf to her pain, to her words of pleading. His mind was filled with pictures of her and Ren. In his mind, those pictures came to life.
In his mind, Ren and Kyoko were kissing. Ren's hands were under her skirt, revealing more skin to his touch. She was moaning loudly, moans that were swallowed by Ren's eager mouth.
Sho couldn't stand the images in his head. He had to replace them with something else. He had to replace Ren with himself. His hands, not Ren's,were wandering on Kyoko's skin. His hands discovered her body, touching her everywhere. It was a nice view in his mind.
Sho released one of his hands. With the other one he gripped both her wrists. Kyoko was trapped, she couldn't use her hands anymore. She wanted to kick him, but Sho had managed to trap her legs as well.
With his free hand he ripped off her buttoned shirt. He liked what he saw. Her chest was covered by a tiny lace bra. He could see that her breasts had grown since the last time he saw her. They were fuller. He put his mouth close to hers, ready to kiss her. Feeling her breath, he couldn't resist any longer. He had to feel her soft lips upon his once again.
He kissed her fiercely. Kyoko whined in protest, but he didn't care. At the first opportunity he had he inserted his tongue through her lips. Sho ravaged her mouth while his free hand came to stop at her right breast.
Kyoko hated each moment. She was cold and she couldn't feel anything other than disgust for the person above her.
When his mouth left hers and moved down to her neck she begged him to stop. Once again he was deaf. He was even turned on by her refusal. He wanted more of her.
His free hand ripped her bra and threw it to the floor. He could see her bare chest for the first time. He cast his gaze over her small mounds. He wanted to run his tongue over them, which he did.
He took one of her nipples in his mouth and grazed it with his teeth. However, something was missing from his erotic mental image: her moans. He wanted to hear her react to his touch.
"Did he touch you like this?" he asked her, "I am sure I'm better than him."
"What are you talking about? Get off me! You're disgusting."
"You don't like it? But if I do this," he moved his free hand to under her skirt, cupping her womanhood. "Will you like it then?"
"I don't like it. Please let me go. Please Shotaro, stop!" she cried.
But he did not stop. With one finger he circled over her covered clit. Kyoko couldn't stop crying. Sho had most likely started to hallucinate. His ears heard sexy sounds coming from her mouth, not cries, nor words for him to stop.
Sho could feel his manhood twitching in his pants. He was more than aroused. He was ready to claim her as his woman, and couldn't keep it restrained. He used his free hand to unzip his pants. He pushed his pants and underwear down his thighs . He rubbed his tip over her covered womanhood.
Kyoko started to cry loudly. She had never thought Sho would do something like this to her. She already knew that she was a nothing to him, but he didn't have the right to abuse her sexually.
He wanted to tear her underwear off. His free hand was again under her skirt, trying to grip the fabric of her underwear and rip it, but somehow he made a mistake.
In his hassle to get to her, he had shifted his legs and Kyoko could finally use one of hers to free herself. She kicked him as hard as she could, and Sho went tumbling to the floor. Kyoko sat up on her feet and threw anything that she could find at him, which included pillows and a pilot light.
Kyoko noticed how she looked: her shirt buttons were on the floor, her chest uncovered. On the floor she spotted her jacket. It had been chilly that morning. Thank God she had brought it with her.
Kyoko took it and put it on. Before heading to the door she grabbed a chair as well. If the bastard came close to her she would beat him senseless. She would not be caught by him again.
"Don't get close to me, bastard. I swear I will kill you if you do." Kyoko was full of hatred. The day when she had heard the truth was nothing compared to this.
In front of the door she found her purse. Kyoko took it, opened the door, and ran away.
Kyoko did not shed tears when she found herself outside. She was an actress and she had to keep her emotions in hold. When she had escaped from his hands she ran directly home. She had an appointment that evening, but she had forgotten completely.
Once she was in front of her door she began to shed the tears that she had held until now. Kyoko didn't have the power to open the door. She remembered that no one was home. Ren was at work and he would be home around 10 pm. She didn't want to be alone. She needed someone to be by her side.
She looked at the next door. She remembered Julie saying she would be home all that day. Kyoko headed to her door and knocked.
When Julie opened the door she was shocked by what she saw. That morning, happiness exuded from Kyoko, but now the girl in front of her was as white as a clean sheet and ready to pass out.
The first thing Kyoko did was to throw herself into her arms and cry again. Julie kept her tight to her chest and comforted her the same way a mother would to her child.
Slowly, Julie took her to her bedroom. Julie wanted to take Kyoko's jacket, but Kyoko opposed. Julie didn't try to convince her. Instead, she stayed by her side until she felt her fall asleep. That was the moment when Julie left. Worried for Kyoko, she called Ren.
Ren was having his break when he heard his phone. When he saw his mother's name, he wondered if he should answer or not. He was sure that she wanted to talk about trivial things. In the end, he decided to answer.
"Yes mother?" Ren answered, ready to hear her trivial requests.
"Kuon, did you have a fight with Kyoko?"
"No. the last time I saw her was this morning when we left for work. Why? Did she say she had a fight with me?"
"No, she didn't say anything like that, but if you didn't have a fight, then why is she crying? She's pale and shaking. I'm worried."
Ren hung up the phone. He was beyond worried. The first thing he did was to go to the director and beg him to let him go.
In the past he had said that no matter what was happening, an actor must do everything to accomplish his job. He was wrong. He said that in the past because he did not have someone special in his heart. But now, knowing his loved one was in pain, he couldn't work. He had to get home even if his reputation was stained in the process.
When the director finally nodded his consent, he left without saying anything to Yashiro. In the car he tried to think of what might have happened. He knew Kyoko had planned to talk with Sho. She called him before. He also knew that she had an appointment at a TV station, but she hadn't gone there. His mother said that she was at home crying.
No matter what had happened, Ren knew is was bad considering that Kyoko didn't go to her job.
When he arrived at his mother's apartment he just asked where she was and went there the moment he got an answer.
He found her there, crying in bed. He came closer and sat next to her. His mother was right, Kyoko was as pale as a sheet. Ren took her in his arms.
Finding herself in his arms she started to cry loudly. Each tear of hers, each painful sound of hers stabbed his entire body.
"What's wrong? What happened to you? You're making me worried." He cupped her face with bothhis hands. He looked her straight in the eyes. Hers were filled with tears. She could barely see him.
"I want to go home Ren. Please take me home."
And so he did.
Julie went with them. She was more than worried for the both of them. She wanted to be there in case they needed help.
In the intimacy of their bedroom, Ren wanted to take off her jacket. Kyoko didn't oppose. When Ren saw her ripped shirt, he understood.
"Kyoko, what happened? Who did this to you?" Ren was angry. "Did Fuwa Sho did this to you?" Kyoko nodded. "What did he do exactly? I want every detail."
Kyoko told him everything. The way he had pinned her hands above her head, the way he had ripped her shirt and bra and touched her breasts with his hands and his mouth, the way he had put his hands under her skirt and touched her there, the way he had taken his pants off and rubbed her with his penis.
Ren's rage increased as he heard her talking. He started to feel sick. He felt the need to hit something, someone. He was relieved when Kyoko told him that Sho had not penetrated her. He was glad when he heard she had managed to escape from that beast's claws.
When Kyoko was finished talking, Ren left the room, leaving a crying Kyoko behind. In the living room was Julie. She saw a mad Kuon heading for the door.
"Where are you going?"
"To kill that bastard." Julie understand then why Kyoko did not wanted her jacket taken off. A man had tried to possess her body.
"Kuon, come here and talk with me. Tell me what happened." Julie was worried, but not for the bastard's life. She was worried for her son. In his anger he would do something he would regret later. One thing, she knows, it that Kuon wouldn't leave through that door.
Kuon sat next to his mother on the couch and told her everything. He told her about Kyoko's childhood friend that had tossed Kyoko like dirty laundry when he didn't need her anymore. He told her what Kyoko had told him few minutes before.
"Kuon, you are in the wrong room," His mother told him after he finished talking.
"I know. Right now I should be in front of that bastard and killing him."
"No Kuon. You should be by Kyoko's side. She's the victim here and you left her alone." Ren understood what his mother had said. "She is scared and she feels dirty. She probably thinks she's unworthy of you."
Ren returned to his wife. When he found her he hurried to put his arms around her small frame.
"Sorry for leaving you alone! I just wanted to kill that bastard." Ren put his palms on her cheeks. He lifted her head to look in her eyes.
"No matter what happened, my feelings for you will never change. I love you Kyoko. I will love you until the day I die. Every day I love you more. If I hate someone, then it's that bastard, who doesn't know how to respect women. Do you believe me when I say I love you, Kyoko?"
"Yes, I believe you, but I'm dirty Ren. How can you love me knowing this?"
Hearing her words, he held her tight to his chest.
"You are not dirty, Kyoko. The dirty one in this story is him, not you.
"I want to have a shower, Ren. I don't want to feel dirty anymore."
Silently, he took her into the bathroom. Gently, he took her clothes off. On her wrists he saw bruises. On her chest he saw a hickey. Ren was pissed. How dare he mark his woman? On her knees Ren saw more bruises. She must have gotten them when she fought for release and Sho trapped her with his legs.
With gentle movements Ren carefully washed each trace of dirt she thought she had. After that, they retreated to their room. Ren kept her in his arms all night, never releasing her from his embrace.
Julie let them alone around 9:30 pm. She informed Kuu about Kyoko not feeling well, but she told him to not come over. The situation was bad, and they didn't need a crowd. When she opened the door to her own home she found Kuu waiting for her.
"What happened, Julie? What's wrong with my daughter?"
"Oh, Kuu…" she said, and she jumped in his arms.
Author note: I know, Sho was a jerk in this chapter. At the beggining I didn't want to add a rape scene, but I wanted something more dramatic what should justify chapter 7. Sho will be present in chapter 7.
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