Disclaimer- I don't own anything related to Harry Potter. J.K. Rowling does. Even if she screwed up the ending. Nor do I own the songs that I use they belong to those artists. I make no money from this. Just want to entertain people.

A/N- Alright so we haven't done much in school yet so I am going to knock out as many chapters as I can. Thank you to those that have reviewed this story, I really appreciate it. Gorth thank you for your constructive criticism. I am going to start limiting the songs. I felt like I had to put those in so Harry could express his feelings without completely admitting the obvious out loud yet. Alright so let's continue the show now.

Chapter 3- Everything I Once Had

"I guess I deserved that" said Harry. He was trying to apparate out of there but he couldn't. So that's what I felt in the air. It's an Anti-apparition ward thought Harry. "What are you doing here Hermione?"

"YOU GUESS?! You totally deserved that Harry. You abandoned everyone that loved you. You abandoned ME!" Hermione said with such anger that Harry almost feared for his life.

"I'm sorry, Hermione. But I just couldn't stay. Not after what I saw…" Harry's voice trailed off on this part.

"What do you mean Harry? If this is about Ginny and Neville then" Hermione didn't have time to finish because that was when Ginny and Susan showed themselves.

"HARRY JAMES POTTER!" yelled Ginny.

"Oh shite!" said Harry.

"Oh shite is right! I knew you would try to get away so we set up a ward to prevent you. Your lucky Hermione already slapped you or I would beat you senseless" Harry knew that she was not kidding. "Now, Harry, take us to your flat because we are going to have a nice long talk."

With that Ginny grabbed Harry by his ear and dragged him to his car. Harry was still in shock and could not even reply or try to escape so he just did as he was told. Hermione got into the passengers seat while Ginny and Susan got in the back of Harry's four-door Civic. He never was one to splurge.

The whole ride to Harry's apartment was filled with awkward silence. Hermione was angry, excited, and sad. She had no clue what to say to Harry. Ginny was fuming. She was angry that Harry had just left like he did, and she intended to give him a piece of her mind. Susan really didn't feel all that much anger. She and Harry weren't close when they were in school. They just knew each other, so she wasn't devastated when he left.

When they got there Harry took them up to his apartment and as soon as all four of them were inside he was pushed onto the couch.

"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT HARRY?! DID YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT HOW WE WOULD FEEL?! NO YOU DIDN'T YOU SELFISH BASTARD!" screamed Ginny.

"It's none of your business why I left. I have my reasons and I don't feel like telling you. Before I left all I ever did was think of other people's feelings. I was tired of it. No one ever asked how I felt" said Harry. He said it in a calm voice. He knew he deserved to be yelled at, so he decided he was just going to sit there and take in like a man. "Well almost no one" added Harry in a low voice. He thought that no one had heard him but Hermione had.

Ginny calmed down when she saw that Harry wasn't going to put up a fight. "I'm sorry Harry. Your right, no one ever considered your feelings, except maybe Hermione." At the mention of her name Hermione tried to say something but nothing was coming out, she just had no idea what to say. Harry on the other had straightened up and for a second there was a flicker of life behind his eyes. "Well I think Susan and I will take our leave now so that you and Hermione can catch up" said Ginny, she knew that they needed alone time.

"Bye Harry" said Susan. "Hey we should all have dinner before your show tomorrow, right Ginny."

"That's a great idea" replied Ginny. "What do you think Harry?"

Harry wanted to decline, but he knew Ginny would kill him if he did. "Yeah that sounds great." With that Ginny and Susan apparated to the hotel that they were staying in.

For five minutes there was complete silence between Harry and Hermione. Both of them were trying to find the right words to say to break the ice between them.

"I'm sorry" said Harry putting as much meaning into those words as he could.

"I'm sorry too" said Hermione. When she saw the confused expression on Harry's face she added, "for slapping you. I completely over reacted."

"No, I deserved that" said Harry.

"Yeah I guess you kind of did" Hermione said with a chuckle. "Here let me put some ice on that for you" she said when she saw Harry rubbing the side of his face. With that she got up and went to the kitchen to get a bag of ice.

"You have a heavy hand for someone your size Hermione. I didn't expect it to hurt this bad" said Harry as he saw Hermione walking back into the living room.

"Why did you do it Harry? Why did you leave me, I mean us?" asked Hermione as she put the ice to his face.

Harry flinched when he felt the cold ice touch his warm cheek. "I can't Hermione. I can't tell you why. It kills me just to think about it" replied Harry with pain in his voice.

"Is this about Ginny and Neville? Because they are married now and there's not much you can do about that" said Hermione.

"What are you talking about Hermione?" asked Harry. Does she really not have a clue he asked himself.

"Well didn't you see them kissing after the final battle? I thought that you were so hurt that it just pushed you to your limit" she said softly.

"No I didn't see them. But it wouldn't have mattered. I didn't love Ginny anymore by that time. I saw something else that broke my heart" said Harry. He had almost told her what it was that he had seen that had made him leave.

"What was it Harry? Please tell me. I want to understand why you left and maybe help you" pleaded Hermione.

"Why do you care Hermione?" snapped Harry. When he saw the look of hurt on her eyes he softened his tone. "I'm sorry. So how is it being ?" asked Harry.

"What are you on about Harry? I'm not . I never got back together with Ron after what he did to you" replied Hermione with a bit of anger when she said the last part.

"But…. but… I saw….." stuttered Harry.

"You saw what Harry?" asked Hermione.

"Nothing. Look I can't do this right now Hermione. I just can't" said Harry trying to keep his composure.

"Alright. Look I know we have dinner plans tomorrow but how about we go to lunch, just me and you. That way we can talk about everything. Please Harry?" pleaded Hermione. She needed to know why he left if it hadn't been over Ginny and Neville.

Harry looked at Hermione, his best friend. He couldn't refuse her when she looked so helpless. "Alright. So you want to apparate here about one and then we can go eat" said Harry.

"Yeah that sounds great. I'll see you at one tomorrow" as she was about to leave she quickly turned around and gave Harry a bone-crushing hug. "I missed you Harry" she said with as much emotion as she could so Harry could understand exactly how much she had missed him.

"I missed you to 'Mione" Harry said trying to keep his emotions under control.

After Hermione left he went to his dresser and got the picture of Hermione and him out. As he was looking at he said, "Tomorrow you'll know the reason Hermione. You deserve to know. You were everything I once had."

With that he drifted off to sleep and dreamt about the girl he had been dreaming about for years.

A/N- Alright this chapter was inspired by the song Everything I Once Had by The Honorary Title. They're a great band if you haven't heard them. So tell me what you think. I tried putting Mrs. Weasley on the part where Harry asks Hermione what its like and she replies. But it won't put it.