Well...I posted my reason for my late posting in my other story, "If I Die Young"...its been a while so i hope you guys can forgive me.

Here we go.

I walked begrudgingly in circles for the rest of the night. I passed stores, malls, parks and prisons. I just walked. Trying to clear my head.

I hated the thing I was becoming. I hated the thing that I became. I was a murderer, trained by the very best to make sure my victim got the most gruesome demise, and I hated my being with every last fiber.

Was that my problem that sensei could be talking about? Does he know how disgusted I am with myself? Can he tell?

Lost in deep thought, I couldn't even see the silver small car rushing towards me like a raging bullet. My senses snapped into high alert, my eyes narrowed and my body tensed for a spring.

"Guess theres no rest for the wicked" I thought bitterly.

The car screeched to a stop right in front of me, and when I saw the driver, my eyes widened with surprise and shock.

"What-"

Before I could even get a word out, she was out of the car and rushed towards me. I stood there, rooted to the ground in utter shock and confusion. I was out of it, I didn't realize that she brought her long leg up for a round house kick to the face.

Instead of my face, it hit my neck and I went sprawling out on the alley floor. My head connected with the edge of the cold metal of the trash can and a golden star danced across my line of vision. I shook my head until the star was gone and coughed.

My mouth tasted bitter and scratchy, as if I had licked the bottom of an ash tray. I then realized it was blood that my mouth was full of. Inhaling through my nose, I hacked up all the blood and spat it out behind me. Struggling forward, I was able to place my two hands on the mold covered walls, and used the trash can on the side to help me stand up.

"You stupid little idiot" she spat pushing me back down again.

My back collided with the cold, hard, wet floor, and I winced as the street rocks scratched my back in a burning pain.

"I swear to God, you are the most stupidest, irresponsible most selfish human being on the earth!" she yelled standing over me.

She slammed the heel of her boot into my stomach, making me wheeze and squeeze my eyes shut.

"What do you have to say or yourself?" she screamed.

I stayed silent with my eyes closed.

"Maximum Ride-"

"How did you find me?" I interrupted.

She looked surprised from my words; as if she had forgotten I could speak.

"What?" she asked.

I sighed and pushed her heel out of my stomach and shakily got into a sitting position.

"How did you find me?" I asked again.

She growled and bent down to my level.

"It wasn't easy, I had to look all over the freaking state for your ass!" she hissed.

I sighed. "Mei, just leave me alone"

Silence.

"Fang was looking to ya know," she said.

I looked up into her hazel colored eyes. Behind her beautiful shade, was a feeling of deep sincerity, trust, and seriousness.

I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything. Finally, Mei spoke up in choked voice.

"If you won't come with me…go with Fang. He should be near your dojo by now," she said walking back to her car.

I watched silently as she turned her back on me. As she walked back to her car and placed a hesitant hand on her handle. She looked back once more at me and we just looked into each other's eyes.

"You didn't look for me to apologize for what you said huh?" I asked.

She looked at me levelly, refusing to be the one breaking eye contact. Her gaze betrayed nothing, not her thoughts, her feelings or her next actions. I was completely shut off from her, and it made me feel cold and empty…and abandoned.

"I don't regret what I said…" she says slowly. "But perhaps your actions should change before I take back anything,"

Guilt, despair, depression and melancholy set in, as she got in her car and drove away.

I started walking- limping back towards the dojo. Fang was possibly the only thing I could use right now in a time like this. He was the only one I could possibly confide all my feelings to, without being judged, and I needed him now.

There was no one there when I got to the dojo, it was just as I left it when I locked it up. I shrugged and just kept walking. I passed a couple more stores and looked through the window to see he wasn't there either. The sun was at the horizon, getting closer to the center of the sky with every passing second.

My search was interrupted as a large white van pummeled down the street and slid to a halt in front of me. I looked up in time to see the door yanked open, and I was yanked in along with it.

Instinct kicked in, and I smashed my fist to the first thing I could reach, which just happened to me the medal roof of the van. I cringed in the hands of my holder, but continued thrashing around. I heard angry grunts around me and I let out a frustrated cry as my arms were pinned down to my sides.

"Arrgh!" I shouted.

Something smashed into my left temple, and my vision went hazy. Then all was black.

I tried. I hope this is good enough

-shift