Chapter Four: Guilty Decisions.
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Gravitation characters. They belong solely to Maki Murakami sensei. The character Rin Anazawa, is my own creation.
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Shuichi groaned loudly as sunlight crept sadistically into his hotel room. The slim figure beside him curled up into a tighter ball at both noise and light. Shuichi rolled from his side to his stomach, burying his face into the satin pillows. The singer and his lover immediately fell back to sleep. Rin had instantly forgiven Shuichi's irritable behavior when he had crawled from their room, moments after he had slammed the door into Rin's face, to apologize. Shuichi didn't give his lover any details on to why he had acted like a spoilt brat though, all he knew was threads of guilt were weaving their way thought his body. Confessing his sudden and severe crush for the writer might release the taunt strings, but knowing how paranoid Rin could get with the idea…. Not to mention the fact that Rin enjoyed going to work with him when he had nothing better to do…. Rin knowing about the severe attraction Shuichi felt to their writer would create tension. Lots of tension.
The members of Bad Luck had had a full week to sight see and get over the intense jet lag. Through the week Shuichi had spent many guilt ridden hours with Rin. The simply memories of watching Rin look at him with complete adoration sent shudders down the half-asleep singer's back. Shuichi raised his head and rubbed his eyes with his palms. His violet hues caught sight of the clock. 8:00am. A hour until K would hold Shuichi at gunpoint to go to work. A hour until he found himself sitting in the back seat of a car with Hiro and Fujisaki. A hour and a half until he sees his golden god….
The sudden thought of Eiri Uesugi made him glance toward the sleeping Rin. The tempter was coming back, he'd have to sit and work in the same room. Shuichi sighed softly and climbed out of bed. The cool morning air hit his naked body, causing him to shudder. Shuichi decided that if he made sure he was ready for work before K got in, would ensure him a way to leave without waking Rin up and hearing his begs to go with him. Almost as if fate was against the singer, he heard Run groggily call out his name. Shuichi turned and smiled warmly at his lover.
"Yeah?"
"Early…. Bed… back in…." Rin muttered in the language of those half asleep. His light blue hues slightly unfocused as he tried to wake up.
"I gotta get ready Rin-kun! I'm sorry!" Shuichi leaned over, nipped at Rin's ear and then pranced toward the bathroom.
Shuichi took a long and hot shower. Standing in the path of the water, he sunk into his thoughts. Rin was terribly good to him and provided constant support through the rough spots his job put him into. Yet the moment a extremely hot… and cold guy came along… his attention wandered. With a violent shake of his head, Shuichi grabbed the bottle of shampoo and squirted some into the palm of his hand. He slapped his hands together and then onto his head. Working the soap into a lather. Does Rin deserve better? He thought absently to himself as he rinsed out the shampoo and grabbed the conditioner. The rest of his shower was plagued by his guilty thoughts.
A full thirty minutes later, Shuichi was dressed, groomed and ready to leave for when K came in to get him in another half-hour. And for that half-hour he planned to watch Rin as he slept so peacefully. His silver hair spread out messily on his pillow, eyes closed gently and his bottom lip poking out slightly. The natural pout Rin processed that made him utterly kissable.
Shuichi had been standing by the bed, but now sat down, reaching out with his left hand to hold the one positioned right in front of Rin's nose. A slight smile spread out on his lips when the slightly smaller hand gripped his. Rin's eyes fluttered open for a split second as he murmured Shuichi's name. He felt his heart bursting with love and guilt. He sunk himself deeply once again into thoughts of 'what ifs' and 'whys'.
The half-hour passed much quicker then anticipated. K barged in and startled Shuichi from his thoughts and nearly woke Rin up. A pair of violet hues and a pair of blue met. The latter were cheery, while the former looked like they were contemplating murder. Shuichi wasn't angry that K had startled him and taken him off guard, but that Rin had almost been disturbed. K caught the hint and remained quiet until they were out of the hotel room.
"So… why isn't sleeping beauty joining us?"
"I didn't want to wake him." Shuichi said simply, shoving his hands into his pockets. The nagging feeling was beginning to bite at his stomach. And his uneasiness was beginning to physically show. K saw it but made no comment on it directly.
"Eiri Uesugi wants to have a private talk with you. You know, about the direction you want to go in with the English songs." K watched Shuichi's face as he spoke and as the young singer paled, K found out all he needed to know.
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Authors Corner
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I could easily this chapter write about guilt trips. I was put down one every single time I came onto Fanfic. I look at my stories… the reviews I got… and then think of the time I've spent on this terribly short chapter. I hate to do this to you guys, you who have been so loyal to me. I will put down my excuses though. I had an extreme case of writers block. I was able to write maybe a couple sentences when I tried to write the chapter. I haven't had any time during my classes to write my chapters and, of course once I get my chapter written (Oh how short it is) my computer dies of a Trojan attack I just got it back and just got to type the chapter. I lost all my files of my fan fiction though ;-; Good thing I got them on pen and paper! Oh love the simplicity of it all!
Anyway. I hope you guys like this chapter, next one is going to be the private meeting with Eiri and…. Meet the parents? O Yes! We get a first hand view of Rin's religious and old fashioned parents ) Don't worry! I'll make up for this entertainment lacking chapter!
The point of this one though, was to tell you all that Shuichi is quite guilt ridden over this crush. I just found the slamming of the door a good way to end chapter three. Also, to make you guys feel a bit more sorry for Rin! Mwaha! Love him damn it! )