Chapter Seven: A shaky relationship

Rating: T

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Gravitation characters. They belong solely to Maki Murakami sensei. The character Rin Anazawa is my own creation.

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The car ride had been so long. Thoughts were reeling through his head in an unstoppable wave. How is it that God… or whoever the hell was up there could do this to him? He tried to be perfect for him… tried to do everything for him. A sigh slipped past thin yet seductive lips, a pair of brown eyes closing for a moment.

Taking his second hand from the steering wheel, Eiri Uesugi pushed back his unruly blonde hair, brows knitting together as he fell even deeper into his thoughts. The young singer… he had a boyfriend and obviously was gay… therefore was in the same playing field as him. That made this Shindou character open but… Yuki. He sighed once again as he pulled into the parking garage of their apartment building. Backing into his space, Eiri's eyes darted toward Yuki's spot… taken. That meant he was home. Shit. Exiting the car and making sure to lock the doors, he headed inside walking as slow as humanly possible.

It seemed to be to soon that he was putting his key into the keyhole, opening the door and stepping inside. Slightly slanted brown eyes narrowed as a tall man approached him and grabbed his shoulders roughly.

"Hello Yuki." Eiri muttered softly as he half-heartedly tried to remove himself from the grip. It wasn't unusual for Eiri to be late getting home, but today he had been later then usual. In order to organize his thoughts he had taken a long drive after he had left the Manhattan NG Studios. As expected… Yuki was livid and expecting a full report.

"Where the hell were you Eiri! I know you went to that damn recording studio to help that god forsaken band. What'd you do afterward! Sleep with one of them!" Yuki's voice was loud and filled with anger. He never trusted Eiri fully, probably because he constantly cheated himself.

"I went for a drive… you know I don't do that stuff."

"Ha! You were receptive enough to more then one after that first time!" Yuki had led Eiri backward, so the writer had his back fully against the wall. At his words, Eiri's eyes flashed

"Like I had a choice…." He whispered vehemently, the words causing him to get a slap on the cheek.

"Shut up. You know it was your choice to stay with me."

"I said I loved you! I didn't expect-" He was cut off by a hand going across his mouth and muffling his words.

"You knew what you were getting into when you told me you were in love with me Eiri-kun. So shut it with the innocent act and the 'I only want to be loved back' act. Hn, you make me sick, but at least your good in bed." With a smirk, Yuki removed his hand and placed a forceful and dominating kiss on Eiri's lips.

Eiri refused to return it, refused to submit until he felt the nails cutting into the flesh of his wrist. With a soft sigh he let his body relax and did exactly as Yuki liked… memories of that fateful night flashing through his mind

He'd been young, a student of the kind Kitazawa. The man always seemed to have his safety and happiness in mind, so much so that Eiri fell fully in love with him. He was a god in his eyes… one that could do no wrong. He'd thought nothing wrong of him when he had been invited to his apartment one afternoon, even though Tohma had warned him against it.

He'd… been happy in a small way when he'd been trapped against the wall and those advances had been made. As a teen who only knew about those matters from books and school… and that with only a man and a woman, Eiri had been scared but still happy! It meant that Yuki probably returned some of his feelings. Then though… his friends had come in.

Eiri had fought a bit when he'd been stripped.. Still fought when Yuki took him, but the fact that his first love had been his first hadn't made him mind it so much. Though the fact his friends used him so roughly afterward did cause Eiri a bit of resentment… but only a bit. He knew then that he'd confess his love to his tutor! When Yuki offered to go out with him and be his lover… god Eiri had been so happy, he could have died right then and been happy.

But his happiness died. Yuki wasn't so kind anymore, in fact he could be downright cruel and abusing at times, not to mention controlling. Eiri had barely no friends, for Yuki trusted no one of any gender to associate with Eiri and keep it platonic. And those who did pass his trust… well Eiri was rarely alone with them and even then, he had to tell Yuki where he was going to be.

The writer loved Yuki Kitazawa… especially in those moments where he was tender and kind and the man he had fell in love with showed through… It was those moments that made this all worth it.

Though it'd be nice to have a lover who'd look at me with worshipful eyes like that Shuichi Shindou had…he probably treats his lover with so much kindness. Eiri mused to himself as Kitazawa stripped off his shirt and dragged him into their shared bedroom.

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Authors Corner

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There you go guys! The long await continuation of Weakened Will! Chapter Seven focuses on Eiri and Yuki. Now I know what you all want to tell me.

"Yuki wouldn't take that abuse!"

True… how he acts with Shuichi… he wouldn't. But think! In the manga, it pretty plainly states that if Yuki had taken Eiri first, he'd probably not have murdered them. Eiri loved Yuki and therefore wanted him. And if Yuki had been the one to take Eiri first, would he really find reason to grow so upset as to kill him? I thought through what to tweak while I went through the planning on this story, and this seemed to be a pretty good option.

As a final note: Don't hate me for making Eiri so… submissive and read and review!