Chapter Twelve: The Decision
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Gravitation characters. They belong solely to Maki Murakami sensei. The character Rin Anazawa is my own creation.
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The group was in a car and going to the hospital as soon as the news was told to the pink-haired singer. K driving exceptionally fast as the normally over dramatic star should be crying… should be asking questions about this. No instead he didn't say a word, simply kept staring straight ahead, breathing heavily with tears just threatening to break the surface. Hiro remained next to his friend, first throwing an arm around his shoulders to offer comfort, but that arm was quickly thrown off…. They all knew that something strange was going on in Shuichi's head, and they were scared to find out. But they knew that eventually they would be told
For Shuichi the ride to the hospital was millennia's long, the walk into the building and finding the room his dear sweet love was in took two more. It wasn't soon enough that he saw Rin's body there… still. There were machines hooked up to him, and wires leading from them to the little frame there. It scared him to see the liquids being forced into him… to see the blood being pumped into his body. There was so many bruises on him… Shuchi observed as he walked in closer. The others remained behind him, but he never noticed, no he was to absorbed seeing the bruises and cuts on his lovers face.
They were such and ugly shade of purple and his nose was obviously broken. And guessing from how his arms were held in slings… they were probably broken as well. He was covered in bandages and he could see some blood spilling through from cuts that had yet to be sewn up or healed.
"Rin…." The violet eyes singer murmured as he knelt next to the bed, looking at the still injured face anxiously. Joy welled up in the pit of his stomach as those eyes opened, a small weak smile brightening that face.
"You… came? I'm surprised… Shu." The way he forced the words, the fact that his voice was so weak and how he winced every so often… it was obvious talking pained him, but the words he said were a pain to Shuichi, why wouldn't he come for him? Rin was his life. The only reason he actually had confidence to sing.
"Your making no sense like usual Rin. Why wouldn't I come? I love you." Shuichi forced himself to laugh, as if making a joke out of the hurtful words.
"Nn… you didn't seem… to care much… when you were…." The silver haired male winced as a wave of pain went through his body, it showed by the way he shuddered. The pause was longer when Rin realized that Hiro had walked over toward them, and was listening to their conversation. He made himself smile once again.
"That… writer…. He has another… lover you know…?"
Those words… it caused Shuichi's eyes to go wide, wait… how did Rin know about Eiri? Why was he telling him this? Why did he know that he'd cared about Eiri having a lover? Did he…? Had he…? A sudden twist turned in the pit of his stomach
"I didn't think why Shu… but last night Rin called and asked if I knew of anyone who might be with you at your apartment. The only one I could think of was Eiri Usegi. When he asked for the address… I never questioned him. I just got it from the files." Hiro piped in while looking away.
"Hiro… where did they find Rin?" Shuichi mumbled while gripping the sheets on Rin's bed tightly. He feared the answer, but had a good guess what it would be.
"I told Rin to call me this morning… and when he didn't I got worried and went down to Usegi's myself. I found both Rin and Usegi there… and another guy… who obviously was associated with our writer. Rin was already a mess, couldn't move at all from being hit and abused in who knows how many ways and Usegi was being treated in a similar fashion, unconscious at the time. I called the police…. That guy right now should be in jail…. I don't think he's on bail, think he's being charged with rape and assault."
Shuichi felt his stomach drop into an endless abyss at everything. So Eiri had a lover… and abusive lover as it sounded. And when Rin had gone to do who knows what in Eiri's house… he'd found that lover and been taken and raped by him. In Shuichi's mind this who situation was due to his weakness. He'd caused Rin this pain and had cause Eiri's by leading him on.
Never before had Shuichi felt so utterly useless and miserable. Maybe… maybe this was a sign of some sort. That he wasn't supposed to be with Rin… that he wasn't supposed to be with either one of them. After all Rin did have his parents to take care of him, leaving him here wouldn't hurt him that much…. Keeping his gaze down he motions for Hiro to leave and when his wishes were conceded with and he heard the door close to signal the departure he looked up at Rin who stared at him with expectant eyes. Tears rolled down his cheeks
"I'm so sorry Rin. I cheated on you and led you to this. Your hurt because of me. It's just as bad as if I had done this to you. I'll… never be able to forgive myself. I love you, always will I think. But… I…" His shoulders shook with a silent sob as he placed a hand on Rin's injured cheek, taking in all of his face, easily removing the bruises and remembering the beautiful and angelic face that should be there. With ultimate care he leaned down and brushed his lips against Rin's.
"Goodbye." He whispered against his old lovers lips before hurriedly leaving, closing the door behind him as he heard Rin's weak attempts to yell for him to stop. Leaning his back against the door, Shuichi bit down on his bottom lip to keep from breaking down, he looked up to find Hiro and Fujisaki looking at him in confusion.
"C'mon guys. We're going back to Japan." The pink-haired singer moved from the door and resolutely walked toward the exit of the hospital, refusing to look back.
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Authors Corner
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-bricked- Why am I bricked? On the simple fact that I left off this story to become obsessed with Kingdom Hearts and when I do come back to it I give this story the worse ending in the entire world XD. While I did plan on having this thing end with Shuichi leaving both Eiri and Rin because of what Kitizawa did to them, buuut I didn't expect to wrap everything up in this chapter. But it just kinds worked out that way. Now, now, now. I dunno if I could follow this up with a sequel, I might be able to if I think about it, but don't count on it loves. But provide me with some feedback. How many of you would read it? And if so what might you want in it? Give me story idea's. I'd really appreciate it.
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