All At Once: Chapter 6

Summary: Overcoming the loss of the ones she loves, rape, and an unexpected pregnancy finds Kagome just barely holding on. Will Inuyasha be there for her? Or someone completely unexpected? Or will she be alone to watch her world start to crumble all at once?

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'Thought'

Flashback

"Talking"

Kagome smiled as she felt her fingers wrap around the rim of the well. She strongly believed the grass was greener on the other side of the well. Feudal Japan had felt like her home away from home. But in the light of things, Kagome figured this would now be her only home. The only problem Kagome was facing now was to make sure this was the right choice for Souta and herself. She swung her pack over the wood before hoisting herself up behind it. Kagome then let loose her arm so Souta could grasp it. After she had succeeded in pulling him up she turned around. It surprised her that Inuyasha wasn't camping out by the well; she knew how much he wanted to go shard hunting.

Kagome's consistent smile fell when she remembered the last words he had spoken to her. It literally tore her already shattered heart. Kagome had seen Inuyasha in the toughest situations. Even in the worst of fights, Inuyasha would stay determined and persevere on. Whenever Kagome was in trouble, he was always her savior. Kagome considered Inuyasha as one of her best friends. Why was he not here for her now? Now, when she had nowhere else to go? Now, when she needed him most? She was beyond vulnerable, and his words left marks on her more than skin deep. Kagome was angry at Inuyasha, and even angrier at herself for feeling this way. Hot tears were threatening to spill from her blue eyes. Her eyelids pushed the tears away and she softly shook her head. She needed to be strong, not just for her baby, but for Souta. Her anger rose as she yelled out his name. 'Stupidbaka,Inuyasha.'She sat atop the well as innocently as she possibly could. This posture got her a confused look from Souta, who was under the impression that his sister was angry at the hanyou. Kagome didn't have time to play nice, she didn't have the strength to be patient. Inuyasha was spewing fire at her, and she was tired of getting burned. It was time to fight with some fire of her own.

The red clad hanyou finally broke through a couple of bushes, looking somewhat flustered. He took in a deep breath before walking, fast, over to Kagome. Inuyasha briefly looked at Souta, before turning a heated glare to the young miko.

"What is it?" were the unkind words Kagome was greeted with. Kagome widened her eyes a little at how rudely blunt Inuyasha was. It was just enough to give her that extra push to initiate her plan. Kagome delicately pick up her right foot and rubbed it.

"Oh, I'm sorry Inuyasha. Were you doing something?" By the smell of things, he was taking advantage of her month away. He reeked of death. The flames in her heart grew to an engulfing height. Although this realization tore her apart, she was staying strong. No emotion registered on her face, it instead was a mask identical to the one worn by Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha just emitted a "keh" before sitting on the ground.

"Great, then can you carry my pack? It's so heavy, and I feel kind of tired. Maybe, if you are quick about it, you can come back and get Souta and I. Then we would have enough time to go shard hunting, if I'm feeling up to it." Inuyasha and Souta just looked at her as if she were crazy.

"You have got to be fu-," Inuyasha began before seeing the expression on Kagome's face. His eyes widened and in a quick swipe had her and Souta's packs in his arms. He slowly started to back away from her.

"Hurry up. I brought ramen for tonight, and I want to get it started so I can wash up before nightfall." Inuyasha blanched and stood there, dumbstruck. After his first initial shock, Inuyasha got angry. He threw down their packs and pointed an accusing finger at her.

"Don't tell me what to do! If you would have stayed here with me you wouldn't have gotten pregnant!" The words slipped out of his mouth before he could stop himself. Everyone's eyes widened, except for Kagome's. If she thought she was mad before, she was clueless. She was irate. How could he blame her for getting raped? A shaky hand found it's way across Inuyasha's face.

"If you wanted me to be with you so much you would have stopped having meetings with Kikyo and would have stayed with me! This could have been your baby inside of me if you weren't such a cowardly BASTARD!" She hit him again for good measure, picked up her and Souta's belongs and sat Inuyasha half way to hell. Souta, almost as traumatized as Inuyasha, followed his sister obediently.

Kagome found herself in Sango's arms soon after the encounter with Inuyasha. She was sobbing uncontrollably while trying to explain what had happened. Sango just rubbed Kagome's head and tried her best to comfort her. So far Sango knew that Inuyasha had met the two siblings at the well, Kagome asked for him to do something, and Inuyasha was being a, "friggen jackass." It wasn't until Kagome quit crying, a half hour later, that she got the full story. When she did Sango was about ready to have roast hanyou, complete with carrots.

"He makes me feel like it's my fault I'm pregnant. Isn't it bad enough that my life is ruined? Why does he have to make me feel so guilty?" Kagome's words made Sango full of grief. She vowed to make Inuyasha pay, dearly. He wouldn't get anywhere near Kagome if she had any say in the matter. Deep down, however, Sango was mourning herself. The little group she had to come to call her family was being torn apart. Kagome was a sister to Sango, and Inuyasha was a beloved friend. It angered her that the hanyou could be so insensitive to the depressed miko.

"Kagome, you know it isn't you fault you are in this state. Don't let that baka get to you! Just be happy that he DIDN'T mate with you, look what a total jackass he is. You don't need him to be happy, remember that. I'm here to help you, and so is Miroku, Souta, and Shippou! Everything will be fine." Sango was glad when Kagome shook her head; it was a sign that she understood. Sango wanted so badly to give Kagome the power to just disregard everything Inuyasha said. His brazen tone almost always caused Kagome heartache, whether it was on purpose or not.

"Why don't you and I go find a hot spring somewhere?" Sango knew immediately it was the wrong thing to say, and she mentally scolded herself. Kagome of course began to cry again, her situation being thrown back into her face.

"I can't go find a hot spring somewhere! I'm pregnant!" Kagome stood up and stormed out of the hut. She was mad at the world, a world that seemed so cruel and heartless. What she really wanted right now was some alone time. She stomped throughout the forest in her rampage. She rambled on about stupid half-breeds and how the world was somehow plotting against her. All she had wanted in life was to find a man worthy enough to be her husband and raise a few kids. For years Kagome had convinced herself that Inuyasha was that man. All of the husband aspects had been there, but then something happened overnight. He was no longer a prospect. A child was the only thing to come true from her dream, in whatever circumstances. She would have a child, but minus a father figure. There was no winning. Ever the optimist, Kagome smiled and ran a delicate hand over her belly. Something good was to come of the situation. A baby would be brought into this world, a baby that will love its mother unconditionally.

Kagome finally settled down under a large tree. Her index finger made circles around her stomach. Names; she would have to think of some names. If she wasn't so damned mad at Inuyasha she would ask him what gender her baby was. It didn't matter. Nothing mattered except the baby and Souta. They were the only real, immediate family she had left. Of course she felt as if Sango was her sister, and Shippou is her adopted son, but it wasn't the same.

Her family. The painful memories rocketed their way up and before Kagome knew it she was crying again. What would her mother think? Knowing that Kagome was pregnant. Kagome knew what her mother would think. She would think that they were going to get through this, one way or the other. Her mother wouldn't dwell on all of the negativity, such as Inuyasha. Kagome's anger shot up her body. Her fingers balled themselves around the grass and ripped them from their earthly. She distorted their green shoots and discarded them.

Her mind wandered and then began to digest the conversation by the well. If she had stayed with him, what would have been the outcome? Would it have really altered everything? Or was this Kagome's fate? One thing Kagome knew for certain, he would have continued going back to his dead lover. Inuyasha would have forgotten about her and instead thought about something resurrected. Even now, when Kagome needed him most, he still chose her. He would always choose her and Kagome knew it, and today she had accepted it-somewhat.

Inuyasha still had the chance to take Kagome as his, but would she let him? After all these years Kagome had devoted loving Inuyasha. The rare moment when sparks would fly between them made up for the harsh words, the confusing mannerisms, and his distant nature. But too many nasty words were shared between them now. Her heart had shattered. Kagome was now trying to repair it, and she was uncertain if there was room for Inuyasha to reside there anymore. If he couldn't come to terms with her pregnancy then there was no hope. Then again, if he asked her to be his mate her baby would have a father.

She sighed and got up. Her backside was riddled with debris, but Kagome quickly brushed them off and stretched. An apology to Sango was in order. She knew Sango was just trying to be nice. Kagome winced as the scene played out in her mind, she had overreacted and she knew it. Placing the blame on her pregnancy and mood swings was tempting, but Kagome knew she could never. With a newfound determination, Kagome headed back to Kaede's hut.

She heard a soft 'thud' behind her and she felt his aura pulse. Kagome knew it was too soon after her revelation to see Inuyasha. Her peaceful resolve diminished and her anger rose. Physical pain seemed the only solution, she wanted him to feel just a sliver of the pain he caused her.

"Sit," Kagome whispered, knowing he heard it easily. After turning to inspect the damage, Kagome smirked. Maybe venting her anger would help, if only she could communicate with him. If only he would listen.

"How could you say those things to me? Do you have any feelings at all? Or are you really that self-centered? How could you make me feel like that Inuyasha? I thought…I thought you loved me!" Kagome let the river of tears fall down her face. She went to her knees, her hands covering her face. Apparently she hadn't released all the tears she thought she had. A heavy hand was placed on Kagome's shoulder, trying its best to comfort, but only upsetting the miko further. She felt him beside her, she felt his heat, and for once she didn't feel that spark. That wonderful euphoric feeling wasn't there, and Kagome mourned it. Placing the blame was easy, and Kagome didn't have the strength to fight against it. It was his fault; he ruined her happily ever after.

"Don't come near me, Inuyasha."

"I'm…so…sorry, Kagome. I was just so mad at the world. It's not fair this happened to you. I wish I could have been there to stop him…I do wish that the baby inside you was mine." The last bit was whispered, so Kagome almost didn't catch it. She looked up to him. Her eyes were speckled red, her face drenched in her tears, and her body in an awkward and defeated position. Kagome was the epitome of distress and heartache.

"Don't give me your lies, Inuyasha. I'm so tired of your lies!" She stormed at him, punching him in the stomach, tears submerging once again. Inuyasha let her attack him, he deserved it and he knew it. Kagome wore herself out and soon Inuyasha had to hold her up. Before she fell into a deep sleep she whispered, "You could have had me."

Inuyasha brought Kagome into the warmth of the hut and laid her down. No one asked any questions. Kagome's tear streaked face made all of them want to attack Inuyasha, but knew it would do no good. He simply just didn't get it. Sango tried, "She deserves better than you, Inuyasha. Don't you ever forget it."

Inuyasha just pinned his ears to his head, taking in the verbal abuse. He knew he had done some stupid things in the past, but this made him feel the worst. He really did care dearly for Kagome, but he couldn't choose between her and Kikyo. If he was going to make a decision he was going to have to do it quickly. He knew Kagome needed him, that should be the only motive he needed, but he still wanted to hang onto Kikyo. She was his first love.

'She is dead!'argued one of his inner thoughts.

'But that doesn't lessen my love for her!'retorted another inner thought.

'You are an idiot. How hard of a decision is this? It's quite simple. Let me help you. Kikyo is dead, she can not offer you anything. Kagome is here alive, and expecting. She needs you and you are still deciding if you want to help her.'

'If she would have stayed here with me instead of going back to her era none of this would have happened!'

'How was she supposed to know you were interested in her? Now is your chance. Ask her to be your mate!Kikyo never accepted you as a hanyou, but Kagome does. It's obvious who is better.Stupid baka."The pros and cons were mottled in his mind but eventually Inuyasha rubbed his temples and came to a decision. He sat beside Kagome while she slept, receiving several glares from his companions until they finally went to sleep. He lay down beside Kagome, but far enough away so she wouldn't be bothered.

He never suspected that she might say no to him.

Thanks a lot for reading my story; it means a lot to me. Do you wanna know what would make me love you more? If you review. Please? –Mel

Updated: 10/27/11