secrets to keep, truths to tell Chapter 7, a pretty little liars fanfic

OMG.. I'm sooooo sorry! You can throw rotten tomatoes at me! Just aim them at the girl with the black hair and the white shirt with the big black circle on it. I can make some stupid excuses.. like the dog ate my notes.. but I don't have a dog.. yeah.. AKWARD! I just had a writer's block.. that's how it is.. nothing more, nothing less.. yeah.. I know I suck! But for all those who reviewed..

I LOVE YOU 333 and I really appreciate the reviews!

(this chapter is a HUGE pity party.. yeah.. just felt like writing one!)

"Hey fatty!" a boy yelled. I just continued to walk. Ignoring the comment. It would get a lot worse. I knew that. My friends supported me and that meant the world to me. I only cared about what they thought. The rest of the world could just go to hell. As my belly grew, the comments just got worse. I just made sure that I had my Ipod with me at all times. So I could just put up the volume and ignore the looks and comments.

I was six months pregnant by now. The first trip to New York was planned and paid for by Spencer. I couldn't hide it anymore. My belly was getting to big. But I was getting pretty good at ignoring the stares and comments. People just put you in a box to fast.

I am pregnant at 16. So I am a slut. That's what it comes down to. I put my Ipod back on. I picked the playlist that I named "Pity Party".

We were on our way to New York. I had my ear buds in. A long way to happy from p!nk was blasting in my ears. My volume was all the way up. So I could successfully block out the outside world. If you changed some words this song basically was the story of my life ..

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
To young to know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
(Didn't learn to lose it)
Didn't learn to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long….

Before I could listen to all of the song one ear bud was ripped from my ear forcefully. I looked up. With what seemed like a confused look to me. Emily was smiling down at me.

"Come on sleepyhead! Were there!" her face disappeared. I stretched. And got out. My back was extremely sore from the uncomfortable ride here. The others looked freshly washed and everything while I probably looked like a pregnant walking corpse.

Spencer booked us a room in one of the less fancy hotels. You could see still was really expensive. But what wasn't in Spencer's world…

I went to sleep as soon as I saw the comfortable king sized bed.

When I woke up again I went to the main room and started to look around. There was a note on the table that said.

Getting some pizza. Be back soon. Love E, S and H

The suite had two separate bedrooms. Both had a king sized bed. Spencer and I would share one room while Emily and Hanna shared the other. There also was a small living space with a couch and to comfy looking chairs. We had to share a bathroom but that really wasn't a big problem.

I just laid down on the couch and pushed the ON button on the remote. The tiny TV went on.

I just flicked through channels until I saw a old family guy episode. I decided to just watch that. Although I probably watched it before. I didn't really pay attention. I just put my head on the pillow and stared at the TV. The sound was just a faint buzzing.

After a little while my friends came back. We ate some pizza and talked a little. Cleaned up a bit and then we decided to just call it a night. We would start the search the next day.

When I checked my phone the next morning I noticed I had one message.

Left town.. Didn't you.. My dear.. Haven't you all learned nothing. You can run but you can't hide.

-A

This message didn't freak me out as much. I was getting used to her taunting threatening messages.. They have been going on for almost 8 months now. What do you expect?

When I came out of my room Emily and Spencer where already on the couch. Dressed and ready for breakfast.

"Where's Hanna?" I asked. They looked up.

"Shower." They said in unison. Sounding very bored.

"How long ha.." I didn't even get to finish that question.

"45 minutes." Spencer said. I just stood there. 45.. In the shower.. What was she doing?

I didn't notice I voiced the last question until Emily answered.

"Her hair, make-up, shaving her legs.. all that good stuff.."

"wow." Was the only thing I could say.

I just went back to my room and got dressed. Putting on a black dress, some dark purple leggings and my army boots. Quickly grabbing my leather jacket because it probably would be chilly outside.

When I came into the room I noticed that Hanna was still missing so the bathroom was still preoccupied. I decided to just brush my hair and let it fall down my back.

I sat down on one of the chairs. Noticing they were not a comfy as they looked. Ignoring that fact I started to just stare at the wall.

10 minutes later Hanna finally decided to leave the bathroom. When Emily and Spencer saw her they just simply stood up and walked to the door. We followed.

Breakfast was quiet and fast. Then we left for the day.

After walking around for an hour we went to a Starbucks. I ordered a tea and a slice of raspberry cake. I was craving really craving a slice of raspberry cake. With peanut butter on top.

Thank goodness for the fact that I had been craving for peanut butter allot lately. So I just carried around a jar in my bag.

After we went to Starbucks we went to some of the more crowded areas, Searching for Ezra. Holding pictures and asking random people if they knew "this man". It felt so impersonal. But we didn't know what other way there was. We searched the internet. But we just couldn't find his address there where over 100 Ezra's in Manhattan alone. That was a search without an end.

I was just showing a men Ezra's picture when something in my peripheral vision caught my eye. My breath caught in my throat.

No it couldn't be..

Little cliffie.. I decided you DESERVED a longer chapter.. yaknoow.. after the long wait.. I don't know when I will be able to update again.. today was my first day at school.. It was fun.. but school is just really time consuming.. I will see when the next update will beeeeeeeee..

Lots of love333

RuthCullen