Chapter 2
Brian's POV
I can't wait for Friday to come. I'll go to New York to meet Justin. It's still Monday, but I can't wait to get going.
On Monday morning I arrived at Kinnetik with mild feelings, because I knew I was going to visit Justin on Friday. Oh God, I miss him very much.
Cynthia came to my office with a cup of coffee in his hand. "Looks like you're happy today, Boss." Cynthia smiled mockingly at me, handing me coffee.
"Shut up. Did you fix things for my departure on Friday?" I received a copy of Cynthia, trying not to care about that mock.
"All done, Bri. Your plane leaves at 3 pm, and I've ordered a regular hotel you occupied for three days."
"Thanks, Cyn. You can go back to work, and to stop smiling for bothering me."
When Cynthia went from my office, Theodore suddenl camey into my office in a hurry. "Bri, is Justin okay? Why are you still here?"
"Woahh, calm Theodore, what is it? Justin's fine when I called him last night. So what is it?"
" I just received a call from the hospital in New York, asked Justin about insurance. you're registering as a partner for Justin into the affairs of insurance of Kinnetik, right?. The hospital asked if the payment is covered by insurance that covers all maintenance and inspection laboratories. Then I knew Justin in the hospital that morning, and is in the examination. " Ted explained at length.
At that moment I was panicked. I picked up my cell phone and tried to contact Justin, but no reply. I decided to contact Cynthia.
"Cynthia, Chyntia, help me to take care of my schedule today, and I need you get me a plane ticket right now as soon as possible." Cynthia is already used to working with me, realizing that I panicked and decided to not ask any questions and direct work according to my request.
I do not know what I'm doing until I realized that I was sitting in the plane. What's wrong with Justin? Last night he sounded fine. Oh, God, don't let anything happen to him. I can't imagine the worst thing that happened to him. Why does he need a blood test? Is he okay? A million questions raced through my mind.
When I arrived at LaGuardia, New York, I immediately look for a taxi to take me to the hospital where Justin treated. My chest rumbled because my heart is beating very fast. I know that I should not be panic, but I can't stop it.
When I arrived at the hospital, I immediately headed to the information desk and asked about Justin. I ran into Justin's room. When I opened the door of his room, I paused for a moment. I see him with all the hospital equipment installed in his body. Oh God, what happened to him?
"Sunshine, what's the matter with you?" I could not hold it any longer. I immediately hugged him. "What happened to you, Sunshine? Don't make me panic like this." I whispered in his ear.
"I'm sorry, Bri, I also don't know what happened to me. This morning I felt weak and then I fainted. When I regained consciousness I've been here. Nate brought me." Justin tried to speak with a voice that falters.
"Shh, Sunshine, is don't talk anymore. I would ask the doctor."
As I hugged Justin, I did not realize there was someone in the room. It turned out that Nate was accompanied Justin. He explained the incident this morning to me. Although I do not like him, I thank him who has helped Justin.
When I felt Justin's back to sleep, I decided to talk to the doctor who treated Justin. I knocked on the door of the room, doctor Northman. "Doctor, can I talk to?" I went into the room doctor who treated Justin.
"Please come in, and you are?" Doctors Northman asked in surprise.
"I'm Brian Kinney, a partner of your patient, Justin Taylor, and I want to ask about the actual condition." I emphasize the word "partner" that he understands what I mean partner is a partner of life.
At first glance the doctor raised his eyebrows, he hesitated to say, "Oh sorry, I thought the guy who accompanied mister Justin earlier was his partner.."
"He was Justin's housemate." Brian confirmed. "Then, doctor, what can you tell me about his condition." I asked impatiently.
" I just got the results of his blood. Mr. Taylor infected with the adenovirusthat causes to weakened heart work. I'm sorry that his condition was late to be known, therefore he must immediately get a heart donor, if we can't get it immediately, I'm sorry if he can't make it"
It was that moment when my whole world collapsed. Justin, MY Justin had to suffer this disease. Why is this happening? Why? It was hard for me to accept the verdict of the doctor about Justin.
"But you will try to find a donor heart for him right, doc? Isn't that right, doc?" I asked with a half scream.
"I will try as much as possible, but to get a suitable heart was a little difficult. Furthermore, I must register mister Taylor as part of the patient's heart donors, and we can only wait. In the meantime I will try to give full treatment before he got a suitable heart for him. Today I will talk with mister Taylor to explain everything. Have you come with me into his room. It would be fine if you were there when I explain it all. "
I can only nod in silence and follow the doctor that headed to Justin's room. I realized Justin was awake and Nate is no longer in office. I sat next to Justin's bed and held his hand, paused, listening to the same explanation with which he explained to me earlier.
When the doctor finished explaining the situation and get out of this room, Justin looked at me and said, "Brian, how could this happen to me?"
And I can only say, "I don't know, Sunshine. I honestly don't know." I put my forehead on his forehead and whispered, "we will be able to pass through this, Sunshine. We must be able to get through this together."
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Justin's POV
For the second time I opened my eyes, I did not see Brian in my room. Only Nate is still sitting beside my bed. the ventilator was disconnected, so I'm more free to talk.
"Where's Brian?" I asked Nate.
"He was seeing doctors who handle you. Actually I want to go too, but I knew I had no right to interfere further."
"Nate, you were a good friend. I know that you expect more from me, but I can't. You know that I love Brian, no one else. I thank you for all your help to me."
"I know Justin. I could see it from your eyes when you look at Brian. Now, your prince has come, it seems I have to go. I hope you get better soon Justin." Nate stood up and grabbed my hand.
"Thank you, Nate. Thank you."
When Nate went and I was alone in the room of this hospital, my mind back to the memories that can't be forgotten. Memories when I was in the hospital at that time, after Hobbs hitting my head with a baseball bat and made me long to be admitted in the hospital. I hate hospitals.
Before my mind wandered on sad memories, Brian came to my room with a doctor. The doctor explained my condition with very clear, but that can be caught in between the words is that I need a heart of others to survive. I fucking need a heart! How funny is That.
After the doctor finished explaining everything and get out of my room, I realized Brian constantly holding my hand. I know he is sad, the same panic as I did. I could only stare at his eyes and asked, "Brian, how could this happen to me?"
And Brian can only answer softly, "I don't know, Sunshine. I honestly don't know." I know that we desperately need one another. Brian brought his forehead to my forehead and whispered, "we will be able to pass through this, Sunshine. We must be able to get through this together."
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Brian's POV
"Justin, I have to contact Jennifer. You know she must also be informed about your condition, and I had to contact Theodore. He told me that you're in the hospital, and I'm sure this time he was also waiting to hear from me about you." I reluctantly got up from the side of Justin.
"Yes, please tell Mom. But I don't want others to know about my situation. Ted must also be forbid to pass it on to others. I do not want to make them all worried."
"Yes, I know."
Then I contacted Jennifer, trying to explain carefully about Justin's condition. Jennifer was shocked by the news I told him. se said he would soon come to New York.
After calling Jennifer, I contacted Theodore, and just tell Justin that the current condition. I threatened him to not tell about Justin on Debbie or more friends.
I've been taking care of all Justin needs at this hospital. I've enrolled on a waiting list of patients for the donor heart. I don't know when Justin will get a heart, but I hope he'll get it soon. I couldn't see him suffer. Oh God, I could not.
Once the call is finished, I sat back down beside the bed Justin. He looked at me , trying to comfort me, even though I know he himself is far from tranquil.
"Bri ..." Justin grabbed my hand.
"Yes, Sunshine?"
"Thank you. Thank you for not avoiding me. Thank you to stay here and fight with me." Justin tried to smile, but the smile that looked from him was not smiling like the sun, but the smile full of pain.
"Don't thank me. I don't do it for you, but for myself." I let go of my hand from the grip of Justin and rose from the chair where I originally sat down. I tried to avoid an atmosphere that makes me embarrassed like this. I still can't stand all the things associated with feelings or express feelings. Justin seemed to know that I was embarrassed but he was forced to continue talking.
"Bri, I know you don't like to talk with emotion like this. But please, listen to me."
I hesitated, but sat back in its original place.
"I don't know how long I can last. I don't want to give up, but I just want to think realistically. I felt my whole body is weakened. We both know that I really need a donor heart, but we both knew that I had to wait until the time not necessarily to get a heart for me. So please, listen to me. "
Justin paused a moment to get all his courage. "If, and only if I have to go leave you, Bri, I hope you're not blame and destroy yourself. You can not control everything, especially about life and death. I want you to continue your life. You may grieve as much as possible but only in just a few days after me gone, but after that you should forget me. I want you to be happy, Brian. I'm not saying that I am well content with how I was doing,-fuck, i hate it, Bri. I'm still young. There are still many things that I want to do with you. There are many places that I wanted to go with you. We still have not started our life together. I hated what happened to me. Why do I have to go through bad things like this? Is it true, as my father told me that this is God's punishment given to me, because I'm gay? Do I deserve it? "
Justin started to cry, and at that moment I knew that he was very scared, fuck, I was scared. I was afraid to continue living without him. What did he say? I have to continue to live without him? Doesn't he understand that life is not life without him, maybe I sound like lesbians, but I don't care anymore now, before I met Justin, life is not life. I've noticed that Justin could make me happy but also able to make me fall in long sorrow. He had control over my life when I decided to give up building a wall between us, and enjoy Justin's love for me and my love for Justin. I can not, do not want to live without him. I can't answer all questions. I can only get up from where I sat and hugged Justin.
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Justin's POV
Brian hugged me tightly as I cried, crying for my condition, crying for Brian if he lost me, crying over our way of life. It was too much happiness and also sadness that we pass.
I think the hardest thing was when I almost died in a bomb explosion at Babylon, but in fact it is much heavier than the day. I can't imagine Brian's life without me. Maybe I was a little big head, but I know that Brian need me, need my love in his life, although he rarely admit it.
After the tears began to subside, Brian let my body. "Don't be a big head, Sunshine. Who wants to remember the stubborn boy who followed me everywhere like this? After all who's let you to go to leave me? You're with me until I'll get over you. You will accompany me to visit an art museum in Paris. You will accompany me to play skiing in Vermont. You will even accompany me at the altar, when Debbie was no longer bear to see us get married. So don't carelessly say you're going to leave me. " Brian grumbled but I see the sadness in his eyes, in his voice. I can only smile to hear a sense of optimism. Then I drifted to sleep again.
When I woke up again, I felt my body in much better condition. And I saw my mother sitting in a chair next to Brian.
"Hey, Mom. When did you came?" I smiled at him.
"Hey, honey. I arrived an hour ago while you were sleeping. How are you?"
"I feel better now."
"Oh, Justin." mom hugged me and cried and I knew that Brian had told her everything. In Mom's arms, I saw Brian stepped out, presumably to allow time for me and Mom.
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Brian's POV
Having tired of crying, Justin returned to sleep. I remained seated at his side, his face looked like a little angel. Although Justin's age is now almost 24 years- to me, Justin was an annoying little twat, an amazing teenager. The man who has made my life ups and downs, and I don't regret it one bit.
I was a little shocked when I realized the hospital door is open, Jennifer came up with a face full of concern. "What about the situation, Brian?"
Then I told everything I know to Jennifer. Jen hugged me and crying. "He'll survive, Jen. He will survive." I repeat that phrase like a mantra.
Jen told me to take a break at a hotel close to the hospital, but I refused. I do not want to leave Justin. Then Justin began to wake from sleep, and aware of Jennifer. After greeting each other, Jen hugged him and cried again. Feel that they need privacy, I went out Justin's room.
Sitting in a hospital corridor in front of Justin's room made me remember the painful memories of a few years ago. When I stayed with Justin every night, waiting for him to wake from her coma. At the time I've started to realize my feeling for him, but I tried hard to get rid of it.
I sigh. It had been years after the incident, but the memory still able to make my chest tightness. Only back then I cared for him, but now I love him, and now I have to see it again lying in the hospital room. It seems fate did have a funny story for me. I grunted as my own thoughts.
When I think is enough to give time for Jen and Justin, I went back into Justin's room.
"Hey, Bri."
"Hey, Sunshine." I kissed his forehead.
"Brian, you'd better take a break. Stay overnight at a hotel near here. I don't want you to get sick."
"I'm fine Justin. Don't worry."
"I've already started to feeling better, Bri. Moreover, there is Mom watching over here. I beg you want to rest in a comfortable place."
I tried to resist, but Justin impose its will. He always knew how to make me.
"Fine, Sunshine. I'm going to book a room at a hotel near the hospital. I'll be back in a few hours." Finally I gave up and left the hospital to rest.
I awoke to the sound of my cell phone ringing. I grabbed it and saw the name on my mobile screen. It was Jennifer.
"Brian, the doctor said Justin may soon get a heart he needed within a few days."
I jumped happily to myself. Perhaps we will indeed get through this all. I immediately get ready to return to the hospital. I hurried back to the hospital. The hotel where I stay is not far from the hospital.
With a sense of excitement I crossed the street toward the hospital. I'm too happy to realize that a bus coming from my right. When I noticed, I've thrown very far and fell on the pavement. The only thing I remember before I lost consciousness is Justin.
TBC
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