"We need Sam Evans." Finn said, trying to convince Schue he could bring the New Directions to win Sectionals. Quinn shivered at the mention of his name. "He's in Kentucky. Rachel and I will go there and we'll bring him back."
Quinn shivered once again when Schue accepted the idea.
"No.", she thought. It wasn't Finn's place to break them up and then bring him back. And what about Santana? Her best friend, but at the same time one of the people she blamed for Sam leaving her. Since the day she found out Santana and Sam were seeing each other, she started on a love-hate relationship with Santana. Even though she's helped her last year with the hair cut and this year with her rebel fase, her heart couldn't 100% forgive her.
But she just lived with it. Just like she lived with the fact Sam left. Left the school, the Glee club, left her.
But now? If everything went out as planned, in about 24 hours she would be seeing his face again. Yes, that made her happy, but it also made her heart ache so bad she felt like she wouldn't handle it.
"Are you okay?" Santana whispered, her voice so low that even Quinn, who sat beside her, had trouble listening to it clearly.
"Yes." She said, faking a smile. "I'm fine."
No, she was not.
The day seemed to be passing her by quicker than the other days. She wanted to be this little bug so she could fly all the way to Kentucky to see if he was, in fact, coming back or not.
"So, sweetie, what's going on with you today?" Her mom said, approaching her bed and sitting on the corner of it. "You're acting different. If my mother's senses are still working, something is bothering you. So spill it out!" She said, smiling.
"Mom, it's nothing. I'm fine." She said. "I'm just fine." She repeated, as if she was trying to convince not only her mom but herself that she was in fact fine.
"No, you're not." She thanked God in her mind that someone actually noticed it. "I'm your mom, and I've known you for 18 years." Judy said, holding her daughter's hand. "Talk to me, Quinnie!"
She took a deep breath, mentally reminding her to hold back every single drop of water that would possibly threat to fall off of her eyes. "It's Sam." She said as she closed her notebook and put it on her side, sitting on her bed so she was facing her mom. "Finn and Rachel went to Kentucky to try to get him back. I'm just... so not over him." The tears started to tickle her eyes. "I love him, mom. Since last year, since the day I first saw him, until today. Nothing has changed except that now he's nowhere to be found when I look for him on the hallways." She let go a breath she didn't even know she was holding. "But I'm not ready to face him again. At least not yet."
Judy realized her daughter's strength in holding back her tears. She didn't like to cry when her mom was around, part of it because she would ask what's wrong and she'd have to say it, only making her cry more, and part of it because Judy would cry along and seeing her mother cry was something she couldn't stand.
She wanted to help her daughter, make her suffer go away, but she had no idea what to do. Love issues, oh how she knew well the feeling.
"If you want to, you can be stay home tomorrow. Maybe one more day can help you get prepared." She said, trying as best as she could to help her daughter in something she knew wasn't possible to be cured by mother's words.
"Thank you mom." Quinn smiled. "But no. I can't stop my life because of him, you know? I'll just... I don't know, I'll figure something out. I have to face him, it's not like the end of the world or something." She said, putting back her teenage façade.
"Okay then." Judy said, kissing her daughter's cheek. "I have to go now. I'm having a meeting this afternoon in the club." She said, getting up and walking towards the door, stopping and looking at her daughter once again. "Are you sure you're gonna be ok?"
"Yes, mom! Now go before you're late!" She said, smiling. "And thank you. Again. For everything."
"You're welcome, honey. That's what mothers are for, after all." She giggled and left the room.
Maybe her mother was right. Maybe one more day would help her.
Or maybe not.
Because if you take acquaintance of the fact that Sam has been gone for almost 5 months and she still is not over him, you'll realize one day won't help her at all.
So skip school for one day wouldn't help her. She had to go to school, face him, hug him, talk to him. Act as if she was completely over him, as if her feelings towards him were nothing but friendly. That was a lie, of course. But it doesn't matter, not anymore.
She'll lie to keep his friendship. Being friends with him is better than not talking at all, right?
"Right", she thought.
So she had a plan. Act normal. Act friendly. He won't notice. Everybody knows she feels something for him but no one has the slightest idea it's still that strong. So that's it, she's gonna pretend. That's supposed to be more than enough, right? That's supposed to be the only thing she can do.
Or maybe not. Maybe, just maybe, she could fight for him. She could try to do everything she didn't do while he was still there. She could try to get a second chance. Maybe she should give it a shot. That could be her opportunity to make it up to him. The cheating, the hurt, the everything. She could make it right this time, if only he'd give her a second chance.
"This is it. I'm gonna fight for him, fight for a second chance." She thought, smiling, as she reached for the promise ring he gave to her while they were still together. He didn't ask for it back, so she kept it on that little box, hiding it under her clothes on her wardrobe.
She was going to get it right this time. She could almost feel it.
Things are gonna start to get better now, yay. Depressed!Quinn may be getting some vacation in the next chapters. But remember: vacations always end. I'll probably introduce some other relationships after chapter 4, such as Brittana, Finchel, Tike and all the established relationships on the actual show.
I'm loving the reviews. I know this is a brand new story and Fabrevans is not that much of a popular couple here but still, thank you so much! Hope you guys are liking this story as much as I'm loving to write it.
Every chapter is named after a song. This chapter's song is Second Chance by Shinedown. It's actually a suicide song, from my point of view, but it still works since it talks about goodbye being a second chance or something.
So that's it! Did you guys like this chapter? Please let me know by reviewing it ;)
