Why Don't You Love Me? Chapter 7: Next To You, a glee fanfic

After the meeting in the mall, Sam couldn't stop thinking about Quinn. Oh God, he missed her so much. They way her golden lacks of hair would fall free over her shoulders, the way she would look at him whenever he complimented her, the way she would smile shyly everytime they parted from a kiss... He missed her, everything she was and everything she did, he missed her. He tried to fight it for some time when he tried to win Mercedes back, but he didn't succeed. He wanted to forget her for good. And he was so close to doing so while in Kentucky. Of course he would still sleep with her eyes in his mind but at least he could keep his mind off of her throughout the day.

That was something for him, some kind of progress. Quinn for him was like a drug. An addictive drug that he wanted to quit, but couldn't. Just the sight of her name would make him shiver. Thank God he was always so good in hiding his feelings when he wanted.

To be honest, he never stopped loving her. Not even while he was with Santana, not even while he was with Mercedes. Back in Kentucky he met a girl named Annie. They made out, she was cool, but it didn't work out. Maybe part of what made him look at her was the fact she was blonde, with green eyes. And when he realized that, he considered himself defeated by his neverending love for Quinn. Because once you start making out with someone because they remind you of your ex-girlfriend, boy, you're not over her.

Shaking his head, as if it would somehow make him stop thinking about Quinn, he finished his breakfast. He was ready to go to school, wearing a plaid t-shirt and jeans, with his golden hair almost falling on his eyes. He grabbed his books and his backpack and headed to his car, turning it on and driving the streets he still didn't know so well - after all he had just moved in that new neighborhood - and finally made his way to the school's driveway.

He parked his car on the first empty spot he found, grabbed his books and opened the door, stepping outside. The weather was good, pleasant, and he was sure it was probably raining soon so that made the day even better. He loved rain. The sound of the raindrops falling freely on the ground, the smell of the dust after the rain was over, the cold air that made him stay on the couch with a blanket watching tv. He loved the cold. Autumn was his favorite season. It wasn't snowing anymore, at least not as long as he can remember, but it still wasn't hot. It was perfect.

The bell ring and it brought Sam back to reality. It was time to study and to focus 100% on the teachers.

"Maybe 99% of attention." He thought, when he saw Quinn entering the same classroom he was about to enter.

It was finally Glee time and Sam was starting to get really nervous. He chose to sing his song that day. It has been so long since he sang alone in front of people. Of course he would always sing to Stacy and Stevie, but it was different than singing in front of the whole Glee Club after so many months.

Still, what was really frightening him was to sing in front of Quinn. He was about to throw up because of the anxiety, actually. Singing that song and having to look away and not in her eyes would certainly kill him inside. But he had to.

"Okay, so who's first?" Mr. Schue said, smiling bright.

"Me!" Rachel stood up.

"Of course." He thought, in a playful tone.

"I'm gonna sing He Loves You by The Pretty Reckless." She said, placing herself on the middle of the stage.

Sam was too busy singing his song in his mind that he didn't even notice Rachel's song until she started singing the chorus.

If he loves you, he loves you not
Be the one to leave him, baby don't get caught
If he loves you, set your heart on fire
I hate to be the one to tell you he's a liar
If he loves you, he loves you not

That's when everybody started dancing and laughing. He caught Quinn's eyes for a brief moment before she got up and started dancing too, but he couldn't bring himself to stand up. He was hypnotized by Quinn. As usually, he just kept staring at her until the final verses were sang.

Be the one to leave him, baby don't get caught
'Cause if he loves you, oh if he loves you, he loves you not.

Everyone was clapping right now and sitting down again, while Rachel smiled brightly and breathed heavily.

"Well done, Rachel!" Mr Schue said, while Rachel found her way to her chair. "Such an upbeat and fun song, it was awesome!"

"Thank you, Mr. Schue. I knew everyone would like it." She smiled proudly.

"Okay, now, who's next?"

Sam was about to raise his hand when Santana stood up. "Damn it.", he thought.

"May I go now, Mr. Schue?" She asked, not really waiting for an answer because she was already making her way to the center of the choir room.

Noticing her acts, Mr. Schue didn't even answer. He just sit down and listened to her.

"I'm going to sing Keeps Gettin' Better by the amazing Christina Aguilera." She said, smiling. Everyone cheered. "Now shut up and hear me." She said, smiling ironically.

Santana started singing and Brittany and Mike started dancing around her.

Sam didn't give a shit. It was nothing like him to ignore people performing in front of him but he was so, so nervous. He just wanted to sing and finish all of this. So he kept singing the song in his mind and playing with his guitar. And when he stopped to take notice of what was going on around him, Santana finished her song and the clapping stopped too.

"Mr. Schue can I go now?" Sam said, not wasting any time.

"Of course you can, Sam."

"Okay." He said, getting up and pulling a chair to the center of the choir room, sitting on it. "So, I'm gonna sing "Next 2 You" by Chris Brown feat Justin Bieber."

"Bieber again?" Santana said, giggling.

"As I was saying..." Sam said, ignoring the latina's comment "... I kind of changed it a bit, it's slower and.. Er, just, listen to it."

His hands were shaking, but he learnt from the one and only Rachel Berry to ignore every kind of shakiness and nervousness while he was on stage. Ignore it, and it will go away. So he started playing his guitar, the first chords, and then the first verses.

You've got that smile
That only heaven can make
I pray to God everyday
That you keep that smile

He was looking down at his guitar, trying as best as he could to avoid Quinn's eyes.

Yeah, you are my dream
There's not a thing I won't do
I'll give my life up for you
'Cause you are my dream

At that moment, Quinn wanted to burst into tears and leave that choir room as fast as she could. But no, he was her friend, as much as it hurted her and broke her from inside out, she had to stay calm.

Yeah baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I'll be there when you insecure
Let you know that you're always lovely
Girl, cause you are the only thing that I got right now

When he finally reached the chorus, the band members joined him to form a faster melody, but still not as fast as the original song. The girls started singing as background singers.

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you
Nothing will ever come between us
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you

The song was faster right now, people were clapping, and he finally looked up, meeting Quinn's eyes for the first time since he started singing.

If you had my child
You would make my life complete
Just to have your eyes only on me
That'd be mine forever

Someone started playing the guitar so he could get up and only sing it. So he did it, trying not to make it so clear who the song was for, singing the next verses for Brittany and then Santana, who were sitting next to each other clapping.

Then he started singing it for Rachel, still trying to avoid Quinn.

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you
Nothing will ever come between us
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you

He then moved to Tina and Mercedes, smiling briefly and coming to the center of the choir room again.

We're made for one another
Me and You
And I have no fear
I know we'll make it through

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you
Ohh ohh ohhhhh

Then, what he was avoiding had to happen. He made eye contact with Quinn, and once he looked at her hazel eyes, the fear was gone.

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you ( right next to you oooh)
Right next to you (right next to you oooh)
Nothing will ever come between us,
I'll be standing right next to you (ooh ooh ooohh)
Right next to you (right next to yooou)

Even though he wanted to stop the song and kiss her right there and now, he focused and came back to the center of the room, now just dancing randomly and singing the last verses.

Oh na na
Oh yeah
Stand by my side
When the sky falls down
I'll be there
I'll be there

You've got that smile
That only heaven can make
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever.

At the end of the song, everyone was clapping and cheering, even Quinn. He took that as a sign that she didn't realize the song was for her. And he was right. Quinn at first thought about the possibility but she shook off that thought once he started singing it for all the girls. "It's just a stupid song for a stupid lesson", she thought. "It has absolutely nothing to do with me, with Sam, with us. Nothing."

And with that, the Glee Club reunion of that day ended. Sam was happy he could sing his heart out. He missed doing that. And he missed Quinn, more than anything else.

Too long? :/ Sorry I got a little carried away. This is the longest chapter so far lol Anyway, this chapter, different from the other ones, was Sam-centric, showing his thoughts and stuff.

Thank you SO much for the reviews! Can't believe I got to chapter 7, and there is still so much story to go on with! Hope you guys like this chapter.

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