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A/N: I'm terribly sorry that it took me so long to update! Please forgive me! and my slight hope that you will like this chapter... even though it might be different from the way you might have expected it to be ^^;

Please let me know what you think! (but please keep me alive to be able to write the next third of the story! ^^)

I want you to love me

chapter 6

"Nee, 'ya free tonight, Hayato?"

For some unaccountable reason, Take still had this very stupid and foolhardy person sitting alive next to him, to ask this question from.

"haa..?" the brunette lifted his head up from his folded arms, looking sleepy and grumpy, for Take dared to wake him from his slumber. And that wakening was everything but kind. Take kicked the leg of Hayato's desk hard (after the leader of 3-D was unwilling to wake up for other any slighter means he had tried).

"I asked: are you free tonight?" Take pouted and repeated the question as if he was talking to a five-year-old. "We're planning to go out to the arcades"

Hayato yawned. And tried his best to show a killing glare... however, he was a bad student at everything. So it lagged behind Ryuu's mastered ones, and on top of that from a sleepy Hayato, who hardly could look through his heavy eyelids and messy hair, had absolutely no use. He rather looked sort of cute. Like a peevish pouting puppy.

"nope..." he muttered, and laid back his head upon his arms. "Gotta go home and help Taku"

"Couldn't you come up with a better lie?" Asked Tsucchi from the other side.

"Yeah... Come on! You - helping your brother with his homework?" Joined in Hyuuga too. "He is already much smarter than you. He's supposed to be helping you."

"Shut up, jerks!" Hayato's eyes were gleaming daggers from behind his bangs. "It's called housework!"

He didn't kick his friend's ass, because he was too happy to mind them.

Because on his other side, there was sitting a certain redhead, who tried with all his might to hide a small "I-know-everything" smirk, with not even looking in the other four's direction. Acting as if he had heard nothing. Although – he knew too well, that Tsucchi was right.

And that little curve in the corner of Ryuu's lip, made Hayato feel happier than ever before.

Very well... The past few days Hayato'd been radiating with happiness. And he had his reasons for that!

He was still alive, and every limb and organ of his were linked to his body. That itself would have been enough to make one happy, concerning that it meant that he survived that little (khmmm-khmm) lie he told Ryuu after their detention was over. But on top of that! Ryuu believed his words. Hayato had no idea why. But he didn't care much for that...

He couldn't believe his luck!

He had ridiculously great luck! He knew it very well – this is why on the first day he was suspicious and had paranoia, that the moment he doesn't pay all attention to the redhead's smallest movements, Ryuu would attack and massacre him immediately for that lie. But Ryuu never did. He just felt uncomfortable under Hayato's fixing gaze, and sent him his own glares back, sometimes, when it was really disturbing him, that he wished the earth would swallow Hayato to Hell, and even asked an irritated "WHAT?"

So their so called relationship started pretty awkward.

But then their (second) first kiss made everything clear, and set things finally.

At first it was hard to get close to Ryuu physically. He was his old self after all, even without his memories, and he had his instincts, and knew what contacts he felt comfortable with. But now Hayato was about to break into his private sphere. That was indeed a difficult task even for Hayato.

But it was funny too at the same time.

School's just ended, and they were heading out of the building. Hayato hanged behind for some reason, so Ryuu had to walk alone (he already turned down Take's wonderful ideas of the afternoon programme). He hang his head down, only looking inches ahead of him. If he had looked up, he surely would have scared everyone passing by to hell, he had such a morose face on.

With the very same expression, he stopped at a lonely zebra-crossing, and waited for the lamp to turn green.

All of a sudden he felt an arm encircle his waist and its owner's chin on his shoulder, inches away from his neck.

From a very sensitive spot on his neck – to be correct.

He immediately snapped out of his stoic mood. His eyes sparkled with irritation and with the same swing of his turn, he flung his bag at the intruder's side with all force.

The intruder – Hayato ended up on his hands and knees, coughing his lungs out. Ryuu successfully got him in the ribs with the hardest part of his bag.

That only book he carries... why on earth does it have to be so heavy? – Hayato thought while he tried his best to catch some air.

The redhead recognized his "attacker", and the look that crossed his face was priceless. Hayato could be no longer angry at him, as he saw that worried and cute frightened face! He could have melt then and there on the pavement. Ryuu was so confused and guilt was shining in his eyes as he quickly knelt down next to Hayato and reached out for his shoulder with shy hand.

"Sorry. Not knew 't was you" he mumbled, and caressed small circles on the brunette's back. Maybe that way he'd recover quicker.

"No prob" Hayato said, and sat back on his heels. This way he could look into Ryuu's face from close, and those brown eyes were driving him crazy. Ryuu was so cute! (Although he knew better than telling him that. Ryuu would kill him the instant those words left his mouth.)

"But you shouldn't be so aggressive with everyone." he scolded with a grin forming on his full lips.

"I'm not!" Ryuu pouted, and sent him a glare.

"But it could have been someone else" Hayato went on with the teasing, and gladly acknowledged the pale pinkish spots on Ryuu's cheeks.

"But was not! Plus you shouldn't attack people from behind!"

"I only do that to you, I swear" Hayato's lips curled up into a tender, loving smile, and pulled the redhead closer, and planted a chaste kiss on that heating cheek.

He could feel Ryuu's muscles tense, then he could nearly also feel the teen struggle to make them loosen, and melt into Hayato's embrace and soft kiss.

His try, didn't matter how much effort he put into it, was still unsuccessful. When Hayato let go, he let out a sigh of disappointment. However, that filled Hayato with joy. Because it meant, that Ryuu did want his presence and care. It was just his nature that was in the way... or maybe his lack of memories. Before he'd felt all comfortable around Hayato, now he just didn't know how he is supposed to behave around his boyfriend.

Their afternoon programme together wasn't much. Hayato walked Ryuu home. On the longest way possible, sometimes they stopped by the park, or at a cafe. They hardly had the chance to walk hand in hand – although it was something Ryuu didn't feel so sorry about. But they still could walk close enough, so that their hands could brush against each other – just accidentally of course.

Ryuu's fading but still present clumsiness also required Hayato to be near. He wasn't tripping over every flat surface, but if there was any sly crack or hump on the ground, the redhead still needed a helping pair of strong arms. And then someone who wouldn't leave him there because of his glares – his instinctive way of protecting his pride.

They were walking their way in silence. Ryuu turning into himself, and Hayato adoring the sight of his beautiful boyfriend.

"What did Yamaguchi want from you?" Ryuu broke the silence after a few minutes of walk.

"Aaah~ Nothing serious, really" he answered on a cheerful tone. However he couldn't fool Ryuu.

The redhead sent him a slide glance, his perfectly shaped brow risen questioningly.

"Really-really. It's nothing to worry about" Hayato took a hold of Ryuu's hand as they were strolling through deserted streets. "Just overreacting things as usual. She asked me about my bruises and gave a lecture about fighting, and honour and pride and the usual shit."

He tried his best to make it sound as meaningless and nothing as possible, but as he glanced at Ryuu, he knew he didn't succeed. He wanted to avoid this topic as much as possible, because he couldn't take that miserable and bitter look that crossed his boyfriend's features whenever he was observing Hayato's face and his eyes lingered on the bruises on his cheek and lips.

And Ryuu had a very good reason for that guilt. He had caused all of them.

Their relationship started awkward indeed – and pretty painful for Hayato.

These bruises were caused whenever Hayato tried to get close to Ryuu. For some reason in the beginning, Ryuu didn't let him do that. When Hayato tried to pull him into a tighter hug, he made a face and resisted with all his might. And when the brunette let him go with a pained expression, Ryuu was always filled with the miserable feeling of guilt.

When Hayato pressed their lips together for the first time, Ryuu just squeezed his tightly together, and after he was over the first quick wave of shock, he punched Hayato in the jaw, that made him fall back and whine in pain. Hayato looked very miserable, like a beaten puppy... But the worst was that it all happened at school in a break, and when the others saw how Hayato was rubbing his jaw with that agonizing expression, they all laughed and cracked silly jokes – that made Hayato angry, and left Ryuu uncomfortable.

At times like these he really felt out of place. He had never wished stronger for his memories more than times like these. Especially that this situation occurred quite regularly. Hayato was his boyfriend after all! So e wasn't supposed to behave like this. He could understand Hayato's pain. He would surely be the same if his boyfriend would push him away so wildly...

"I'm sorry, Hayato" Ryuu mumbled ashamed "But I just can't help it..."

Hayato just waved his hands dismissively. He wanted to leave this topic finally, to see Ryuu's features as smooth and beautiful as they always were when he was around Hayato.

And still the two forces in Hayato didn't leave, they found their voices whenever they had a chance to drive the brunette into madness. Just like moments like these when he saw Ryuu floating in anxiety.

'You have absolutely no right to do this to him' said one of the voices– the one who tried to convince him that he must say the truth about their relationship. 'You deserve your conscience whenever you see him worried and down! You are doing this to him!'

'Ryuu trusts you.' said the other with a sweet grin. ' He only feels uncomfortable because he has no memories at all. He likes you no matter what. He wants to be able to kiss you back. You have to go on in order you wouldn't confuse him more!'

'How dare you call yourself to be his lover? You just want to push him deeper into distress, seeking only your own pleasure! You don't even deserve to be called his friend!'

'You know that he soon will realize how much he needs you in his life. Without you he would fall all the times – literally and not. He needs you. As much as you need him. Things are perfect this way. You are doing good for both of you.'

"Are you all right, Hayato?" Ryuu's concerned voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

"Of course!" he said with a bright grin, because the last voice won again in his mind. And encircled the redhead's waist pulling him closer and planted a small chaste kiss on his cheek.

"Well, then, thanks for walking me home."

Hayato looked around as he realized for the first time that he was so occupied with his thoughts that they had already reached Ryuu's house. They were standing in the gate. Hayato's face fell a bit, but then he caught himself and replaced it with a sheepish grin.

"Soo... see you tomorrow than..." he grinned and was about to turn and walk away, when Ryuu's hand on his arm stopped him midtrack.

Hayato looked at him puzzled and his eyes widened to their double size as he saw that Ryuu's cheeks were burning in a beautiful shade of red and it was slowly spreading, creeping to the tip of his ears, his eyes turned to the ground, but Hayato saw their darkened shade nevertheless.

"Wouldn't you kiss me goodbye?" Ryuu mumbled so softly, Hayato rather felt the words than heard.

The small motion as Ryuu tilted his head afterwards in the uncomfortably lasting silence indicated his discomfort and shame, that he was afraid: Hayato wouldn't kiss him again, because he hit him too hard and the brunette had had enough. Tough his actions weren't intentional! He felt so bad about them!

But Hayato's gentle voice and the bright wide smile in it made him look up with the slight glimpse of hope in his eyes.

"I would gladly do" Hayato said and stepped back closer, caressing Ryuu's cheek tenderly, his fingers ran into the soft locks of hair, and the gap between them slowly closed as Hayato pressed his lips on Ryuu's slowly, not to make him panic again due to the body contact.

As their kiss lasted longer and turned sweeter with every second, Ryuu's hands found their way around Hayato's waist, holding him closer, tighter. As Hayato let out a soft purr feeling that Ryuu wasn't pushing him away this time, Ryuu tilted his head to offer him better access to his lips, feeling the other as much as possible for their "real" first time.

When they broke apart Ryuu was about to pull back in an attempt to hide his blush, but Hayato pulled him back, embracing him to his chest, burying his face in Ryuu's hair, nuzzling his temple softly and lovingly. Ryuu heard a soft chuckle from his ear and he felt a shiver running down his spine due to the depths of Hayato's rich voice.

"I love you, Ryuu, so so much!" he exclaimed happily on a hoarse voice.

That evening Hayato felt like walking among pinkish clouds on his way home with Ryuu's uncertain little voice nearly lost in his shoulder as he spoke: I like you a lot, too...

"You really could have come up with a better lie" Ryuu stated on a soft low voice leaning to the edge of Hayato's desk.

"They ate it! So! Don't try to lecture me!" Hayato snapped back, but he couldn't be irritated long upon the short comment after he heard Ryuu chuckle softly and felt him slightly stirring from that.

He glanced at the clock ticking on the wall. The classroom was about to dress into a reddish orange glow as the setting sun shone in. And they were here again. But now on their own, not on detention.

After they flew out of the room and the building, all of a sudden Hayato stepped dead in his tracks and run back to class with a silly excuse like he had left his favourite pen in there. The other four just looked at each other puzzled, then with an irritated sigh Ryuu turned back to hode his smirk and walked after Hayato "to check if he was still sane".

So they ended up at Hayato's desk, Ryuu sitting in the brunette's lap, kissing and sometimes talking a few words then going back to kissing again.

Hayato talked about fights of the past they took part in side by side, carefully avoiding the topic of their own fight upon the case with the Ara-high with his hands wandering on the flat surface of Ryuu's stomach, running his fingers along the sharp curve of his hipbone and up to his ribs.

Ryuu shivered and squirmed in his lap panting softly. He didn't even realize when Hayato stopped talking, he was so lost in the sensation of the other's big hands wandering on him.

Hayato kissed him tenderly at first, but later it was Ryuu who deepened the kiss. He opened his mouth, shyly touching the tip of his tongue to Hayato's full pink lip and quickly Hayato's followed, pushing into the cave of his mouth, winning dominance due to his experience in kissing. Ryuu moaned and arched his back to get more of his boyfriend's touch on his bare skin.

Tearing away from Ryuu's panting sweet lips, Hayato quickly pulled the uniform jacket off of both of them and in a blink of an eye Ryuu ended up half naked, his slender form exposed to the lust-clouded eyes of Hayato. The redhead blushed and tried to send him a glare but it turned out to be a whimper instead and he threw his head back as Hayato ran his hand up on his chest, his thumbs brushing over his erected nipples.

Hayato went back kissing Ryuu passionately on the lips and then as Ryuu was about to demand for more with a smug smile he went to plant butterfly kisses along his neck, sucking on the soft skin in the crook of his neck. Ryuu's hands disappeared in Hayato's mess of hair, clutching on the bangs for support whining and moaning from the new kind of sensation...

The brunette was just about to take a better hold of Ryuu and lay him flat on his back onto his desk to have better access to every inch of his beautiful body, when all of a sudden Ryuu yelped and nearly fell out of his lap, hitting his back in the edge of the desk with a sharp hiss. Hayato also felt the irritating buzz of the other's phone in his pocket.

Ryuu reached out with shaking hands for his cell phone, but Hayato caught it.

"Just leave it off..." he whispered on a husky voice, nuzzling the sensitive skin behind Ryuu's ear with the tip of his nose as he breathed in his scent.

"I can't" Ryuu shoved him away and sat up on the desk, holding up a hand to keep a distance from Hayato.

Ryuu exhaled deeply, held the air in for a second then breathed out slowly. He clumsily fished the phone out of his pocket and with a nervous look on his face pushed the answer button.

Hayato watched resignedly as the look of pleasure and desire vanished from Ryuu's breathtaking features and were replaced with anxiety and nervousness.

Ryuu muttered some words into the phone and winced as the conversation ended then lifted the device from his ear with furrowed brows. Hayato reached out for him again to continue where they had just ended, but Ryuu pushed his hand away again and bent a bit to look after his missing clothes.

"I have to go home." he said on a flat voice.

"But you normally don't have to be at home so early!" Hayato protested as he stood up too.

"Father said I have to" Ryuu stated, but the way he said the words made Hayato's inside clench.

That man had the best ability of a parent to call in the most inappropriate moments. Hayato had never wished Ryuu's dad to Hell more than he did now...

A/N: that's it for now ^^; I can't rpomise when the next chapter will come, I just hope that you'll be interested also in the ending (as it slowly approaches) as you were in the story so far ^^ (I have to devote some of my time back to school now and to drawing... ^^; I have a oneshot manga in progress and I have to finish it untul March... XD and I'm not really good at working quick, so... -.-;)

see you next time!

And reviews are always welcome!