I sat on the ledge that overlooked the training ground. I had spent a few minutes cleaning up the mess of destroyed training dummies, but that had been an hour ago.
An hour…? Had it really been over an hour since I figured out I was tricked? And yet I was still here.
"Why? Why am I still here?" I asked the ferret plush sitting in my lap.
It was another habit I had. When no one was around, I often talked to the stuffed creature, usually to relay my feelings and thoughts. If I was confused or angry or sad, talking about it made me feel better or helped me think of an answer to my problems. I never went to anyone else. Whatever my problems were, they were my burdens to bear. Well…they were my ferret's burdens too…
But if anyone found out about this habit, I would never get over the embarrassment. I had to protect the image of the fierce warrior I had put up. My pride and honor depended on it!
I shook those thoughts from my head and continued on my previous train of thought, making sure to listen for the opening of the door just in case.
"Maybe I fell for one of Lavi's mind tricks. He seems to be up to something again. Hopefully, whatever it is involves Allen and not me." I paused and thought about what I should do now.
"You know what, ferret? Forget whatever I was going to do today. I'm just going to go back to my room and get some sleep. There have been a lot of things wearing me down lately and I should really use the small break I was given to rest." I decided, picking the plush up and making my way to the door.
*SLAM*
"W-what the-?"