9-20-2011

I could not believe my eyes. As you know I now am living in my own apartment with one of my best friends, Therese. You also know that she is a fan of the TV show Glee (though I honestly think she just watches it for that Cory Mon what's-his-face, just don't tell her I said so).

Anyways, tonight was the season 3 premiere and she finally talked me into watching it with her and there on my TV screen was Mr. Darren Everett Criss! I couldn't believe it! I know that he wanted to be an actor since he was five and went to school for acting but I was impressed! I knew he was a good singer and actor but man has he gotten hotter since he was a teenager and we were living next to each other.

Therese Says that I'm totally fangirling over Darren right now and maybe she's right. Therese and I are like sisters and hardly have any secrets from each other, but I cannot find a way to tell her that not only do I know an actor off her favorite show, but I actually dated him.

Darren was my first of many things. My first crush, my first boyfriend, my first kiss, pretty much everything but my first sex seeing as how I'm still a virgin since my beliefs encourage waiting till marriage to be intimate with someone, however I honestly think that if my parents didn't divorce and I didn't have to move from San Francisco California to the middle of nowheresville Tennessee with my Grandma because my mom was in a relationship with a man who was extremely abusive and on drugs and my dad could not afford to fight for custody anymore, that not only would I have lost my virginity to Darren but that we'd probably be engaged if not married by now.

Wow that sounds so silly now that I'm reading over it. I mean no girl ends up with the boy she loved when she was in high school. In fact, in all honesty Darren probably doesn't remember me since we lost touch a few years ago. Anyways I better end this journal entry, Therese is knocking on the door but for now mum's the word on Darren, the boy who was also my first broken heart.

"Hey Girlie your date's here" Therese said knocking on the door before opening it.

"Why don't you ever call him by his name?" I asked "You always say "your date, your boyfriend, or DB, which I know what, stands for by the way"

"I call him those for the same season you call me T instead of Therese" she responded.

"T is a nickname I've called you since they day we became friends" I responded trying not to yell. "You won't even call Reid by his name so don't act like you call him everything but his name as a "nickname"

"Oh, I have plenty of nicknames for Reid, just none you'd like" Therese responded bitterly." There, I said his name you happy now!"

"Ecstatic "I responded sarcastically. Sometimes I hated the fact that Therese was just as stubborn as I was, it made arguments nearly impossible to win.

"I'd tell you that your makeup looks trampy but your man gets upset when you make him wait!" Therese snapped back. On top of being stubborn she was always quick with her comebacks when we were arguing.

"What is your problem!" I yelled "You've been up my butt ever since Reid and I got back together and I'm sick of it!"

"I don't have a problem, I just strongly dislike him" T said with every drop of venom in her voice. "I mean you've broken up with him several times the past two years that you've been together, yet you always take him back despite the fact that every single one of your friends has told you to stay away from him"

"I broke up with him over stupid reasons" I mumbled.

"Oh really?" T responded. I could tell she was trying to make a point "So breaking up with someone who was pressuring you to have sex even though you've constantly told him that you're not ready, or that you felt like he was too controlling are all stupid reasons?"

"I overreacted to those things "I responded wanting to end this argument.

"I learned the hard way that if your friends don't like the guys you're dating then you should probably listen to them because there is a reason they feel that way" Therese said, calming down. I could tell that she was tired of the argument as well.

"What would you know about that?" I snapped "You and Danny have been together since high school!"

"I don't want to see you get hurt and you can do better than him!" Therese responded trying to calm me down.

"Ok here's the deal, you have no say over who I date" I shot back. No one was going to tell me what to do. I hated being controlled. "I'm going on my date now! I'll see you later!" At this point I was fed up with Therese so I grabbed my shoes and stormed off.

"Hey babe, you ok?" Reid asked.

"Yeah, I'm perfect" I responded "Is it ok if I spend the night at your place?"

Reid just smiled "Of course". I could tell from the look on his face that he thought he was going to get lucky and I would finally give him what he wanted tonight.