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Sorry for the Delay! Lot's of HW!
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Anyway here's Chapter 5!
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Promises
"We did...f-fucking...p-promise to be together f-for...f-fucking ever...and you know what he does?" Sofy slammed her fist on the table, startling the tired bartendor whom had been listening to her rant for the past three minutes.
"Miss...you need to-"
"He goes and r-replaces me with a damn Italian! The nerve of em'!" She slammed her fist down on the counter again.
"Miss! The bar is closed! You need to leave!" She looked up at the fuming bar tendor.
"Oh ok..." She got up and left, taking the bottle of whisky she had started, walking a ways away from the bar and slumping in front of an old abandoned bulding.
Snow was just starting to fall, and the longer she sat there, the more fridged snowflakes built up in her hair and in the crevices of her clothing. She had forgotten to grab a jacket, and was wearing a pair of cargo pants and a tank top.
She started shivering and drifted into a light sleep.
"Is this the last time I'll see you?" Sofy said, tears forming in the corners of her eyes.
They were teenagers now, and Ludwig was getting ready to leave with his brother, this time he might actually become his own country.
"Ja... if all goes well then I wont be coming back." He said, a bit of excitement in his voice.
It hurt her. "Leaving me is a good thing?"
"It isn't about you Sofy! Aren't you happy I might actually become a country!"
"I know it's not and I am happy, but I also l-love you..."
Ludwig sighed and walked back up to Sofy, tilting her chin up. "I love you too...but I need to go."
"Why do you need to go with your bruder everywhere? Why can't you just let him do the work?"
Ludwig sighed. "I need to learn how to be a successful country, and sitting at home letting other Nations do the work is not any way to be a country."
She nodded silently and looked at her feet.
Her eyes suddenly shot up.
"Promise me you'll see me again even if you become a Country!"
It had been a while since they had promised anything, and Sofy needed a little re-assurance.
"N-Nien...I cant promise that..." His eyes stared into hers.
"W-why not! We promised everything when we were younger!"
"That was when we were children...Sofy...we need to get out of the past...you need to get out of the past...We cant just promise anything anymore..."
Her heart cracked...it wasn't enough to completely break it, but his words hit her.
"Y-your right... I'm just afraid I might loose you." She whispered.
Ludwig pressed his lips to her cheek. "You wont loose me, I'm sure we'll see each other again..."
A strong gust of wind awoke Sofy. It had to be at least 11 o'clock, the streetlights were on and the city in the distance was illuminated with light.
She stood up, having sobered up a bit, and stumbled back to Ludwig's.
She didn't really want to go back there, but it was the only place she knew she could sleep.
"Ludwig!" She cried, running up to him, tears of joy forming in her eyes. Finally they were re-united!
She looked up at him and smiled and he smiled back...but...something was different about him...
She shrugged it off, knowing herself the changes you make after becoming a country.
"I missed you so much!"
"I missed you too." He said.
She giggled and leaned in, her lips inches from his, waiting for the kiss.
"Sofy..." He said, and she could feel him pull away a little.
"Yes?" She looked up at him.
"W-we cant...we're not like that anymore..."
Her heart shattered. "B-but I thought...It's only been a few years!"
"Sofy...I've moved on...I found someone else...and to get to the point, we're too close of friends to really be lovers..."
Tears nipped at the back of her eyes but she fought them away.
"Oh..." She whispered, letting go. "Your right..."
"But it's great to have my closest friend back~" He said.
"Ja~ it is." She forced a smile...
The walk was slow and painful, the trees looming over the path and casting dark shadows in the moonlight. Her tears glinted from the headlights of a car, that stopped next to her.
"There you are, I've been worried sick!" Ludwig said.
"..." Sofy stayed silent and stared at him.
"I couldn't sleep so I came looking for you, get in the car and I'll take you home ok?" He got out and put his jacket around her shoulders. She realized it wasn't the same heavy fabric of his military uniform. Instead it had a soft fuzzy texture, and she found it comforting.
Ludwig led her back to the car and put her in the passenger's seat and soon sat in the drivers, kicking the engine back to life.
The car ride home was slow and silent. Ludwig put the heater on high, and the closed up car felt warm and cozy, soon making Sofy's headache, that had been pounding for the last hour, dull.
When they pulled into the driveway, Ludwig got out and headed for the door to unlock it after turning off the car. Sofy didn't budge.
When he realized she hadn't followed he looked back at the car and saw her staring off into space at the dashboard.
"Are you coming?" He said, opening her door.
"I..don't know..." She said, pulling back into reality. Her expression a bit pained when the sudden chill revived the headache.
"Come on...you can't sleep in the car..." He leaned in and unbuckled her, picking her up bridal-style and carrying her into the house.
"Bruder! You found her?" Gilbert said, popping into the room. "You know the awesome me could have found her and you could have stayed asleep!"
"Will you quiet down? I wasn't able to sleep so it makes no difference."
"Whatever, I'll be in my room~" He said and walked down the hallway.
Ludwig sighed and looked down at Sofy. Her eyes had bags underneath, and her usually vibrant green eyes were a shade or two duller. He couldn't help but think...
...she looked so...lifeless.
The pain of guilt kicking his heart made his chest hurt. "Sofy..."
"What?" she said in a hoarse whisper.
"I'm sorry..."
She shook violently, choking back tears she had been holding in since Ludwig had found her.
"No, shut up, you don't even know what the hell your apologising for." She snapped.
"Put. Me. Down."
He gently set her down on the couch and she put her face in her hands. Her back and shoulders shook softly, and he could tell she was silently sobing.
"I do know what I'm apologizing for..." He stood behind the couch and massaged her shoulders gently.
"Then tell me."
"Gil told me everything. The promises...the promise you were yelling at me for." He leand over and embraced her from behind. "I'm so sorry...I dont know how something like that could slip my mind...and after Gil explained everything, my memories came back..."
"When we were teenagers you said we would see each other the last time you left." She said. "And after finally getting to see you again a few years ago you broke my heart..."
Ludwig froze. This was going to lead to his and Italy's relationship again...
"I leaned in for a kiss and you told me it wasn't like that anymore...So you remembered then, why would you forget so much in a short period of years?"
He sighed to himself. Good, no deep conversation on Italy...but she had a point.
"I guess when you loose feelings for someone you tend to forget everything about them..."
"So you loose feelings for someone you had basicly spent your whole life with in a matter of years?"
"I-I guess...Like I said...we were too close of friends to be lovers..."
She shot up and cornered him, her nose just inches from his own. "So you think you just fall in love with a god damn stranger but it's weird with someone you KNOW?"
"Sofy-"
"Nien! I dont want to hear you sorry excuse! You've broken my heart enough! I'm not-mmph!" He grabbed her by the collar of her shirt and pulled her into a soft, passionate kiss.
She didn't kiss back. Her eyes only widened in shock as she felt his soft warm lips against her own.
When he finally pulled away he smiled, fearing rejection. "If you would let me finish, I was going to say it was ignorant for me to say that, and I'm truly sorry...I love you..."
She soaked in the words for a minute. The house completely silent.
"Nien...don't lie to yourself..."
"W-what-?"
"You love Italy. You just feel guilty, and you may think you love me now, but deep down you know that's just a comforting lie."
"Sofy..."
"I wish I could believe you. I really do. But I can't be with you knowing you don't truely feel the same way...don't leave something real like Italy for something that never was like me..."
Ludwig stayed silent.
"If you'll excuse me...I need to make a phone call to Austria and pack up my things." And she left, grabbing the phone and walking to her room, gently closing the door.
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