Trying to Hate Him
Yes he told me he loved me more than anything
But I guess I was a foolish girl
I took one look at him and believed.
Thinking that I would never be hurt,
But I was lied to
And he chased after some other girl
I feel down thinking of what he did.
He said he would never leave
And that was a problem
Because he loved some other girl
He always took my hand
And led me places
I remember the way his hand felt in mine.
He always made me feel safe
And never alone.
He always had a way to make me smile.
To make my heart beat race at his very touch.
Now whenever he tries to touch me i let my heart go cold.
Let my body harden.
Let my tone become steel.
I can't let him hurt me again.
I want to be free from this pain
But how am I when he never lets go.
I want to roam but instead I'm on the ground crying.
Visibly dying.
I'm a poor girl who is dying
Because of love.
Its not free as they say.
It has so many ways to make you pay.
Why does it do that I don't know
But love is an will thing
Just like you are?
Wearing a mask over what you really are
A life draining vampire
That will do anything to take away
Everything that you have.
I hate that you still call me up
To say you still love me.
Why can't you et go
Like I have I may sound evil to say that but i don't care.
Looking around see the smoke cloud the world.
Hiding the best parts
And showing the good parts.