Chapter 4
Harry POV
It had been a week since the party. My life was so much different now. I saw Erika every day and now I can't. Usually, we would be hanging out with Louis, Niall, Brittany, Liam and Zayn, but I just can't bring myself to leave my room. My mum has tried to get me to come out but I just don't want to walk out of here and have to walk past Erika's room. I don't want to go in there. It brings back too many memories. I cried for ages and now I have no more tears left. I haven't had a proper nights sleep since then. Every time I close my eyes I see Erika lying in the road or in the hospital. If I manage to get to sleep I wake up again because I can hear Erika screaming. I know she wouldn't want me to do this. If she could, she would be telling me to get off my lazy butt and go out. But she's not here. And she never will be again.
I was lying on my side facing towards the window in my room and away from the door. There was a knock at my door and I heard it open.
"Sweetheart, you really should go out. It's summer. Go out with your friends." She said softly to me.
"I can't." I said back. She walked over and sat on the edge of my bed.
"Listen, I know you're upset but you need to move on." She said, putting her hand on my arm.
"How can I move on?" I said, turning over. She didn't reply. She got up off the bed and walked over to the door.
"Let me know if you need anything." She smiled sympathetically at me. I nodded and she opened the door and walked out, closing it behind her.
I sat up in bed and looked around. I hadn't moved much since last week. I looked on my desk and saw a picture of me and Erika when we were 13. It was taken on our 13th birthday. I got up and walked over to it. I picked it up and looked up at it. Something dripped on it and I realised I was crying again.
"I'm so sorry." I whispered. I put it back down and walked back over to my bed and sat on it. No-one had called since Sunday. I turned my phone off that day because of all the texts and phone calls I was getting. When I turned it back on, I had 124 texts. I just left all of them as I knew what they would say. My phone hadn't gone off since then. No-one had been round to ask if we were alright. I didn't want to turn my laptop on because there is a picture of the 7 of us last summer as my background and I knew I would start crying again. My friends had asked if I wanted to hang out but I just said no. they are acting as if she never died. The same as my mum. She seems so calm about it. Her only daughter is dead and she is acting as if she never knew about her. I know people grieve differently but pretending she never knew her?
We were going back to school in two weeks. I wasn't looking forward to it. People would take pity on me and bother me and I don't want that. I don't know when the funeral is. I guess my mum will arrange it when she is ready to.
For the rest of the summer holidays I just sat in my room. I didn't do anything except lay on my bed and cry. Erika would hate me if she saw me like this. She didn't like seeing me upset. And she hated seeing me cry. She is probably cursing me right now. School is starting on Monday. First day back after summer and I really don't want to go. That means I have to come out of my room and I don't want to walk past Erika's. Looking in her room will bring back memories and I will break down right there and then I will be late to school 'cause I don't want to go to school looking like I've been crying. But my mum says I have to go and that it will be good for me. I think otherwise.
Louis POV
For the last 3 weeks, all I have done is sit in my room or in my living room staring at the TV, not really paying attention to what was on. I always had the curtains closed in my room because otherwise I could see into Erika's room and I didn't want to look in there in case I started crying. I had get texts from Niall, Brittany, Liam and Zayn asking if I wanted to hang out. I said no 'cause I'm still upset about Erika. I thought that Niall would have been badly affected by Erika's death but he was the first person to text me asking to hang out. He had cried a lot at the hospital the night it happened but now it's as if he doesn't miss her.
It was the fist day back at school today and I was dreading it. I really didn't want to go. It would be too weird without Erika. It would be to quiet and chances are it would be awkward because no-one would know what to say. And everyone would be weary of someone breaking down and crying.
I got up and had a shower. When I was done, I got dressed into my uniform and went and brushed my teeth. When I was done I packed every thing I would need today and took my bag downstairs. I put it by the door and went into the kitchen.
"Hey sweetheart. You looking forward to your first day back?" my mum asked me.
"No. It will be too quiet and depressing." I replied eating a carrot. I wasn't even enjoying carrots that much right now.
"It will be fine. Now go on before you're late." She said. I kissed her cheek and then left.
Usually I met up with Harry and Erika on the way to school. I walked over to Harry's house and knocked on the door. The door opened a minute later. Anne answered.
"Hey Louis. Harry will be ready in a minute, do you want to come in?" I thought about it for a minute before agreeing. I walked into the hall and waited. Anne went back into the living room. Harry came down the stairs. He had his bag over his shoulder.
"Hey man." I said to him, giving him a hug.
"Hey." He replied back. He went into the living room and said bye to his mum and then we left.
We were walking down the road in silence, not knowing what to say. He started off the talking.
"So how have you been?" He asked.
"I've been better. What about you?" I asked.
"Yeah, same. This is the first time I've left my room over the summer." He said.
"This is the fist time I've left the house. Have you spoken to any of the others?"
"They texted a couple of time asking if I wanted to hang out but I said no. what about you?"
"Yeah they texted me to but I said no. It was weird. They were acting like it never happened." I said, not wanting to say exactly what happened, not know what would happen if I did.
"I know. My mum was the same. I guess that's there way of getting over it." he replied.
"Yeah, I guess."
We walked into the school gates and to our tutor room. Liam, Zayn. Brittany and Niall were already there.
"Hey guys, long time no see." Niall says to us as we sit down in our usual seats. There was an empty seat next to Niall. He was sitting in Erika's seat. We replied with nods and groans.
"Do I smell or something?" Niall asked.
"Yes Niall, you do." Liam replies leaning towards Zayn.
"Hey!" Niall said, hitting Liam on the arm playfully. I looked at Harry and he was looking at me.
"See." I mouthed to him.
"Excuse us a minute." Harry said, motioning for me to go with him. We walked out of the classroom.
"See, they're acting as if she never died. They've forgotten her already!" He said, not too loudly but not exactly quietly either.
"I know. And did you see Niall sitting in her seat. It's like she never existed." He replied and the same loudness. The teacher walked past and told us to go into the tutor room. We walked back in and sat down.
"What was that about?" Brittany asked. I looked at her and then Harry started talking.
"Have you forgotten what happened?" He questioned loudly, getting us a look from Mr. Thomas.
"What do you mean? What happened?" Zayn asked. We both looked at him shocked. They were all waiting for an answer.
"You really don't remember?" I asked. They all shook their heads.
"Kayla's party. Erika dying. Ring any bells?" Harry shouted.
"Harry, be quiet." Mr. Thomas said to Harry.
"I remember Kayla's party but, who is Erika?" Liam asked. Harry's mouth fell open.
"Did you seriously just ask that?" I asked him.
"I don't know an Erika." Liam said.
"Is this a joke? 'Cause if it is, then it's not very funny." I said, getting angry.
"Who is Erika?" Niall asked.
"My sister. My twin sister. Your best friend since we were four. Remember her?" Harry shouts.
"Mate, are you feeling alright?" Zayn asks.
"Does it look like I'm alright? You lot are acting as if she never existed." Harry says quieter this time.
"Um, that's 'cause she never did. You don't have a sister Harry. You're an only child. Are you sure your alright?" Liam asks.
"What do you mean he's an only child? He has a twin, Erika. She died at Kayla's party. She was hit by a car. You were there at the hospital after it happened. You were all crying. Zayn, you were looking after Niall 'cause he wouldn't stop crying, Liam, you were looking after Brittany 'cause she wouldn't stop crying. Do you remember?" I said to them, trying to get them to remember.
"That never happened. I think I would remember if you had a sister 'cause I've known you since we were four and are best friends. And I certainly would remember if she had died. But she didn't 'cause she didn't exist." Niall says, looking at Harry.
"Are you sure you didn't dream this up?" Zayn asks.
"What? Both of us having the same dream? I don't think so." Harry said.
"Well you must of. We have never met Erika and she isn't your sister." Zayn said, raising his voice a little.
"Are you saying I'm going mad?" Harry said, also raising his voice.
"Well you clearly are." He said back, getting louder.
"Ok look guys, we have know idea who your on about, but he's not going mad. We're sorry Harry, and Louis, but we don't know what you're talking about." Brittany intervenes.
"Whatever." Harry said, getting up and leaving the room. We were left in an awkward silence.
"Sorry guys. We're both a little stressed." I break the silence.
"Yeah, but thinking up an imaginary person? Why?" Zayn asks.
"She really did exist. But lets just forget about it. I don't want it coming between us." I say looking at all of them. They all nod.
The bell for first lesson goes and we all leave the classroom.
"Where are you going?" Liam asks.
"To find Harry." I replied.
"Tell him I'm sorry and that I didn't mean to shout at him." Zayn said.
"I will." I turned and walked towards the boys toilets. I opened the door and sure enough, Harry was in there, tears falling down his face.
"Hey mate, Zayn said he's sorry for shouting." I said, walking up to him.
"I just don't get it. she existed. We both remember her, so why does no-one else?" he said, confused.
"I have know idea, it's weird." I said back.
"That must be why my mum was so calm about it." He said.
"It must be." There was a silence.
"Come on, we had better get to class, don't want detention on the first day, do we?" I said.
"Yeah, lets go." He said, wiping his tears and walking towards the door.
"Don't bring it up, ok? We don't want to start anything, do we?" I said to him, hoping he would agree.
"Yeah, we'll figure this out later." I nodded and walked out the door with him.
The rest of the day went by quite slowly. But the thing that was bugging me was why no-one remembered Erika. I mean she was funny and smart. The teachers like her and yet none of them remember her. And neither do any of the students. I went to bed thinking it over after discussing it with Harry for about two hours over facebook. Neither of us could give an explanation for it. It was really strange.
Here is Chapter 4. I hope you enjoy it. Thanks to laurabee13, ThatOneDiabeticGirl and onelifeonedirection for reviewing my last chapter and an extra special thanks to onelifeonedirection for reviewing every chapter and for being so nice and telling me to upload this.
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