UPDatE Yall I plan on finishing this for chirstmas... so yeah... Here ya go... OH ALSO GRAMMAR AND SPELLING ERRORS... BEWARE
Penelope stood silent her mouth opened slightly. "Hello earth to planet Penelope..." Derek chuckled a bit. "Ummm Derek I didn't umm.. I wasn't expecting you." She looked down over her out fit and covered up a bit." I know but I had to come and at least try to make peace after everything we went through and everything you saw. You know you didn't have to come help me out I mean..." Penelope nodded a bit.." yeah I had to even if I didn't want to I mean.. I would have anyway if Hotch hadn't asked me to because.. Never mind." she looked up to see a smile on his face. She was as awkward as he remembered and it made him fall in love all over again. "can I come in?" he saw her look back into her apartment and back at him. Like she was debating it in her head. Finally she spoke up. "yeah sure." She stepped back a little letting him enter her apartment. Her mind racing this was the first time she was actually alone with him. I mean alone, alone since highschool. She was never she rung her hands and stepped in behind him closing the door. He looked around admiring her knick-nacs and little pictures. "Listen I know its unexpected and you weren't planning on me coming over here but I had to I had to see you talk to you..." Penelope reached forward and took her gifts from him nodded as he spoke. " I really don't have an explanation why what happened happened. I was young and I wanted to see the world.. travel play football I wanted an actual life before I stared one.. you see what i'm sayin?" Penelope sat on the couch stroking the panda.. " yeah.." Derek paced her living room " a whole torrent of emotions hit me all at once I was shocked and sad and anxious but most of all I was scared.. You know scared about maybe becoming a father and scared about what people would say and what we would do.
Tear began to brim her eyes but she kept looking down playing with the panda fur until everything he had to say was said. " I though about you ever day and night since then. I didn't know if you were pregnant if you kept it if you had it.. then I wondered what it was. Was it a boy or girl what did they look like... sound like... I ran myself almost insane with questions and thoughts about you. When I spoke to your aunt she told me... you would tell me what happened when the time was right... I waited and waited the whole summer for you to call and I wrote to you and gave them to your aunt.. I watched sunset after sunset go by and not a word... everyday... Everyday Penelope... I felt little bits and pieces of my heart break away the only person comforting me trying to help me through it was Micheal. after you left i had to get away form it.. I had to clear my head and think.. Micheal brought me to his house and invited some people... I got drunk and the rest was a blur.
The day after Micheal was their the whole day.. I was sick to my stomach with guilt a hangover couldn't even compare to what i was feeling .. I could barley speak or talk to anyone I was literally crushed." Penelope watch his the emotion played in his eyes. hurt and the guilt she saw it. she wiped her face and took a deep breath Derek looked down for the first time since he started talking. Her face wet with tears. He sat down beside her.. " I didn't mean to make you cry that was the last thing I meant to do.. Honestly its just.. I don't know what to say I don't have anything smooth or charming.. I just have the truth.. What I feel.. and I feel sorry.. I feel horrible .. I feel as though ive been missing a huge piece of me for years now." Penelope looked over at him her eyes still brimming with tears. " I don't know what to say Derek.. It was a long time a go and I should be able to move past it but.. It still hurts the same as it did then." SH elooke dat the hurt in his eyes... and it was like every memory came flooding back to hger every touch every word, whisper ,laugh and moan. She took a deep breath before she finished... " But I still... forgive you.. I miss you to much.. I miss us and this everyday for the last 10 years i've thought about this moment and what I woul dsay to you... every day and it was nothing like this in my head. In my hed I wouldn't accept you and I would feel nothin' but disgust and hate.. but all I feel is love and hope and i cant ignore it.. The moment you risked your life for me it was like I never was away from you..." She wiped the tears form her face. " oh and don't worry about the crying... you should know by now how emotional I am." She giggled a bit then a heavy silence fell back on the room "So what does this mean?" Derek looked down at her.
Her hands fidgeting in her lap. " It means I love you." She said a little timidly. Derek looked at her surprise "Don't give me that look.. You heard me." she laughed. " I know I just was sure I heard you right." She grabbed his hand " We've been through almost everything together... then we took a 10 year break is the way I see it now so the break's over lets get back to it." Derek blinked still not believing his ears. " Just like that?" Penelope looked at him " If you were anyone else... any other boy friend I would've been done with you a long time ago... but ." She smiled.. "there's just something about you... that makes me have pity on you." Derek smiled This is what her loved most about her. Her ability to forgive and her heart but mostly her heart.. " Thank you my goddess for having pity on me. I praise you! I PRAISE YOU!" she shushed him quickly. " It is the middle of the night and these walls aren't as think as you might think. people next door could hear you." Derek grinned " I think I heard that from you before." His hand slid up her thigh." Fresh outta the dog house and your already begging to be sent back." She laughed giving a stern look.
"what I thought it was cool." Derek's hand creeped further and further up. " It is but you know I like to start off slow and work my way up." Derek stopped. " but I did that already took me 1 and 1/2." Penelope nodded "Exactly and I haven't been with you for 10 years? 10 years you have a lot of catching up to do. I've changed completely." The look in his eyes changed as he leaned over toward her his hot breath tickling her ear making her shiver. " you sure?" She nodded hesitantly . He kissed his way down. to her neck and suck at one special spot. Penelope moaned out. Her hands grasping his pants.. " Derek ok.. Ok... I haven't changed that much." He pulled back and laughed.. " I know my girl.. like the back of my hand" Penelope sighed it was true. "still I wanna start off slow." Derek sighed "ok but how slow are we talkin here like first date again?" Penelope laughed a it and pulled him forward. " Think if we started all the way back their I would die... I just wanted a kiss first." Derek smiled. " Now that I can do." he came down and captured her lips. She fisted her hands in his shirt. He didn't have any idea how long she'd waited to do that again. He still tasted the same as she remembered. His hands sunk into her hair. He licked her bottom lip deepening the kiss. God he missed this and he'd be damned if she ever got away from his again...
A/N : SO there... Bang they made up.. can't wait to see what happens next... me neither... REVIEW