Sorry for the delay! I started a new job that has me working all the time and I have a ton of homework on top of it!

This chapter is not for the young. You can skip it without missing too much of the story if it bothers you!

Kate opened her mouth then closed it again. She forced the tears back, she knew it would be hard but it shouldn't be this hard.

"Castle, please believe me. I knew this would be the hardest thing you would have to go through. Not seeing or talking to you would be the most difficult thing since my mother's death. But I did this because I knew I couldn't live the life I wanted to live if that shooter wasn't found. You should know that better than anyone."

She stood up from the large chair and hesitantly moved to sit near Castle on the bed. Her hair fell in front of her face so she lifted her head. She made eye contact with him before speaking again.

"You know how much I care about you right? I did this for the people in my life. They deserve to not have to worry if their friend is going to get shot at any moment again."

They sat on the bed for a moment, just breathing each other in. Rick slowly moved his hand to touch her arm. He looked like he was about to break down and cry. Kate wound her fingers through his and gave a small smile. She had forgotten how his hands felt. A sudden movement from Castle startled Kate. She had ended up being pulled into an awkward hug on the bed by Castle. Ragged breathing was loud in her ear, but she didn't mind. He was showing affection towards her and it was amazing after being gone from it for so long.

"Kate…I thought I lost you. You were dead and I was still here. It wasn't fair, nothing was fair. Seeing you standing in front of me downstairs was the scariest thing that had happened since your shooting. I thought I was going crazy. The way I've been acting there was a serious possibility."

His voice was small in her ear. The tone reminded Kate of a small lost child and it broke her heart. She pulled back to look into his face. Brushing her hand across his check, she could feel the damp trails left by the tears he had been crying into her shoulder. She closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against his.

"I am so sorry Rick. I didn't realize how hard you would take this, how hard anyone would take this. I couldn't tell anyone no matter how much I wanted too. I've missed you so much."

Rick looked at her face and her brow that was furrowed in sadness. Bringing his hand up to the back of her neck, he brought her lips to his. It was a gentle and slow kiss, with Rick trying to memorize every movement and feeling.

He lost control soon after. The sudden change from romantic and filled with loneliness to passion and rage startled Kate. She responded quickly and before either of them knew it, Rick was lying on top of her as he kissed his way down her neck. He spent some time there, nibbling on her ear and sucking on her pulse points which turned Kate into a whimpering mess. The dress Kate had on was strapless which allowed Castle to move across her shoulder blades with ease. His hands had been running slowly up and down her sides, not close enough to either area she was desperate for him to touch.

Kate tried to unzip her dress by arching upward into Castle's mouth more and reaching behind her, but he stopped her with a rough grip. The predatory look in his eyes was both frightening and terribly arousing for Kate. She had done things like this before, wild, crazy sex, but this was different somehow.

Releasing her from his grip, Castle skipped over the area she had been wanting him to get to, instead pulling his shirt over his head as he sat in between her legs nearly off the bed. Her face was flushed and her breathing was rapid and out of control which just motivated him more. He lifted up the dress partially to expose her legs and grinned when he saw the black lace underwear she had on. Leave it to Kate to want to be authentic in every way.

He placed small kisses on both of her legs, working upward and skipping her center. Kate moaned his name which made him pull back to kneel on the ground. Rubbing his nose along her legs, he yanked her closer to the edge and spread her legs wider. His grip was tight and would probably leave bruises, but Kate didn't care. She was to into the moment to notice or feel anything other than Rick pulling off her underwear and placing a kiss into her core.

Her loud moan sent Castle into a frenzy. He licked and sucked at her skin, delving his tongue into her folds. Removing one hand from her legs he plunged two fingers into her while nipping at her clit. By the way her breathing had increased and her words had become nonsense, Castle knew she was close.

A moment later, she shattered into his mouth screaming his name. It was his turn to give a small noise of happiness as he lapped up her juices. He sat back with a satisfied smirk on his face as he came down from her high. But before she had completely recovered, Rick had completely undressed, taken a condom from his wallet in the back pocket of his jeans, and grabbed her hips again.

Kate looked into his eyes questioningly before he flipped her over and moved onto the bed behind her. He leaned over her body and pressed it flushed to hers while he whispered into her ear.

"Tonight, you're mine."

The low voice Castle had made Kate shiver and not notice that he had sat back up. He entered her quickly, not giving her time to completely adjust to his size before pulling back out. There was no gentleness in his actions. Tonight was all about raw emotions. He pounded into her rapidly and moved one hand to grip her breast over the fabric of her dress. Using the other to unzip a few inches of the metal zipper in the back, he was able to completely hold her breast in his hand, rolling her nipple tightly in his fingers.

Kate had never been a quite lover. But tonight was taking her to a new level. She was moaning every time Castle moved in her and became even louder as he intensified the pressure of his hand. She knew she couldn't last much longer at this rate.

"Castle…I can't last…"

She barely got the words out before he released her breast and moved his hand to pinch her clit just the same as with her breast. She came apart within a moment. Castle rode her orgasm, still moving inside her, but came a few seconds after she had begun to finish.

They both lay there, panting. Castle mumbled something about taking care of the condom and a shower and told Kate to sleep. She watched him walk into the bathroom and heard the water begin to run a moment later. The dress was digging into her spine so she removed it before sliding under the soft covers of the bed.

Within a moment she had fallen asleep, her entire body exhausted from their actions. Castle appeared from the bathroom ten minutes later and stared at Kate's peaceful sleeping form.

Then he began to pack his things.

So what did you think? It's my first time posting something with more than a slight hint of sex, so there's still some kinks I need to work out.

R&R loves!