Chapter 8

It was really hard concentrating on his pancakes. Matthew's glance always travels up to notice that Gilbert is staring, not even hiding that he is, at him. He didn't even blink! Or maybe he did… And every time Matthew sees this he blushes like crazy and returns to his pancakes. Alfred is as absent minded as usual and doesn't notice the awkward silence in the room. This continues until Alfred has finished all the pancakes and stands up.

"I'm gonna go take a shower" he announces, being ignored by the others at the table. "Mattie, where're the towels?"

Matthew jumps when his brother speaks to him and tries to hide his blushing face. "Oh… um, they're in the cabinet, u-under the sink. I-I can get one for you…" He makes an attempt to stand up, but Alfred is first with pushing him back down on the chair.

"It's fine, it's fine. I'm sure I can find it, how hard can it be?" he grins and walks out of the kitchen. "It's not like there are tons of cabinets under the sink!"

No, but a couple of bathrooms. Matthew sighs and slowly stands up, feeling himself being watched by Gilbert.

"I-I'll go help him…" He mumbles and tries to advance to the door, but is stopped by Gilbert who abruptly grabs his wrist.

"I'm sure he can find them himself" the albino smiles and stands up him too. "There's no need for you to follow him."

Gilbert stands up in front of Matthew, really close to the blushing blond, and grins.

"U-um… Gil…?" Matthew stutters, and looks up at the taller male.

"Yeah?" Gilbert's grin gets a bit wider.

"WH-why are you here?" Matthew asks after a few minutes of stuttering.

"…That's harsh birdie" Gilbert pouts and looks at Matthew with the infamous puppy-eyes. "Don't you want me here?"

"N-no! I didn't mean it like that! I just wondered… if there was an r-reason…" Matthew looks away; it's a miracle his face hasn't burned up yet.

"There is one…" Gilbert leans forward until his forehead touches Matthew's and he looks into Matthew's violet eyes with his own red ones. "I want to tell you something…" he grins teasingly and nudges their foreheads. "Wanna know?"

Matthew nods, causing their foreheads to move together more, and he feels himself starts to shake. I-It's nice when Gil's touching him… His skin is so smooth and his hands are warm… If it weren't so embarrassing, he'd probably slip his wrists out of his hands and change grip a bit.

Gilbert smiles again, leaning down and captures Matthew's lips with his own.

The blonde freezes. What the heck? Why was Gilbert kissing him? And why did it feel… good? I-It wasn't supposed to feel good! It was someone else than Francis who kissed him! Maybe he would consider his feelings… 'Cause Gilbert's lips against his felt re-really good… Damn, Matthew, decide already!

After a few shocking seconds, fighting with himself he finally gives in and answers Gilbert's kissing. It isn't too bad, really. He kinda likes it, and that has to be good. He grips Gilberts shirt in an attempt to get closer, and feels the albino's arms wrap around his lower back. Matthew's thoughts get fuzzy, like a big blur. When he feel Gilbert's arm loosen, he whines quietly and looks puzzled at Gilbert who grins again.

"I love you, Birdie."

Matthew freezes in his arms and his eyes goes blank. What? Gilbert… just told him he loved him? But he never noticed him before! The only one Matthew knew loved him was Alfred, because they are brothers, and Francis, but never the way he loved him. How could Gilbert, one of the persons Matthew has always looked up to and admired because of how he faced peoples and challenges now came and told him he loved him. Maybe he shouldn't be so surprised after that kiss, but still. And he didn't love him back, no… He only looked up to him, saw him as a big brother or something, never as a lover! He loved Francis… Francis is the only one he loves.

Matthew releases himself from Gilbert's grip and pushes him away.

"No… I don't… love you, Gilbert…" he says softly, almost whispers. "I… I'm in love with someone else…"

Gilbert stares down at the smaller nation. Damn, he thought he had him with that kiss… "I don't care" he finally says after some long seconds in silence. "Can't you… try to love me…? Damn, I love you so much it hurts. I hate being away from you and not being able to talk or touch you."

Matthew feels the tears press up, but he doesn't want to cry. These are the words he always wanted to hear… the words he thought would make him feel loved and complete, now only makes him feel uncomfortable and uneasy. He wants to push Gilbert away completely and run away, but his feet are glued to the floor. He can't move an inch, no matter how much his brain screams at him to move.

"Birdie..?"

Matthew throws his head up and looks at Gilbert again, those beautiful red eyes look at him in concern, as he tries to tell what his feelings are. He can pretty much abandon his feelings for Francis, which makes him heartbroken, but there's no way he could ever have a chance now that Francis is together with Arthur… And deep down he can feel something that feels a bit like love for the albino in front of him… And if he now is going to get over Francis, what's better than getting over him with a new relationship? Right?

"I… I'm fine Gil… Just a bit… shocked" he looks deep into those eyes with his own violet ones and pulls Gilbert closer again. "I guess… I can grow to love you… 'Cause I like you, a bit more than a friend…"

He watches Gilbert's face first get shocked, and then he blushes and grins from the bottom of his heart. "Then I'll make you love the awesome me!"

He leans down to kiss Matthew again, and Matthew welcomes the movement by hugging him tightly.

It won't too bad to love Gilbert.

Right?

A/N I'm a bit unsure about this chapter... But I like the outcome x3 I hope you like it too~ I said it'd be PruCan x3 So here's PruCan~ I can still promise Franada xD So no worries~ I don't know what to write here today Dx Else thst I'm home sick so you'll probably get the next chapter later today because I'm oh-so-bored _ So yes, hope you enjoyed, please review~!