A/N If you have this on alert please make sure you have read the last 2 chapters.
Jake's POV
It's been two days since she died. Sam and Lexi were both with her and now Lexi is back to refusing to be in the same room with him. She's moving in with me today.
"Are you sure you want to do this Lexi? He's going to need you." I know it's no use but I hate this.
"He wouldn't need me if he hadn't killed her." She's determined to hate Sam and Del.
He comes out to tell her good bye and hands her the letter Bella wrote her. She holds it until we get home and asks me to read it.
To my Lexi (and Jake too because I know she's going to have you read it),
I am so sorry that things had to happen like this but I know you are going to be taken care of. Daddy, and Jake, Leah and even grandpa even though you aren't as close as you used to be will always be there for you. Leah's a good mother, you can always go to her for the girl stuff. I know you are mad at Daddy and Del but please don't be Lexi. They need you. The choice to not get treatment and have Del was all me. When you have your first baby you will understand. Carter needs you too but as he gets older he'll be OK with just Daddy and Jake. He'll always need you as a big sister but Del is going to need you for so much more. I don't know if you've noticed Lex but we have a tendency to be stubborn and dramatic and push people away and I doubt Del will be any different. Daddy won't get her like you will. It sucks that you had to go 5 years without a dad and now you all will have to go without a mom. When daddy's ready to move on don't stop him and encourage Carter and Del to love her. We all know Daddy has excellent taste so that shouldn't be a problem! I know you're going probably going to end up living with Jake and Leah and that's OK as long as you don't forget Daddy and Carter and Del. I had you young Lex and I don't regret a single second of it but please wait until you are with the right man before having babies. I want to say go to college but I didn't and I don't regret that either. So let's just go with follow your heart. You are an amazing artist and you are so smart. I am so proud of you and I know you truly can do whatever you want.
Jake,
Take care of her and remember your promise. I love you and I am so thankful that you sat with me all those years ago. Thank you for everything you have ever done and will continue to do for Lexi. And most of all thank you for introducing me to Sam and for not letting us give up on each other. Watch Carter and Mia when they get older, don't leave them alone for long. Tell Leah I love her and I know she'll be a wonderful fill in mother to my kids.
I love both of you so much.
Mom/Bella
By time I'm finished we are both crying. Lexi takes the letter and goes to her room. This is still all so hard to believe.
Sam's POV
I've lost Bella and in a way Lexi. She hates me and she doesn't need me when she has Jake. I only hope she doesn't shut out Carter and Del. As soon as Jake takes her I open the letter Bella wrote to me.
Sam,
I am so sorry I left you. Funny how I used to be so worried you were going to leave us. I was cold when we first met. I thought I didn't need anyone in mine and Lexi's life and I am so glad you stuck around to prove me wrong. I love you so much Sam. You are a wonderful father. Please fight for Lexi. Jake is on your side. I know she thinks she hates you but one day she will come around and realize how much you really mean to her. She's probably going to want to spend time with Carter and not Del for a while. Let her. She'll come around I promise. Watch Carter and Mia when they get older, I told Jake the same thing. You'll both understand in a few years. Don't be afraid to go to Leah for advice on anything. Please move on when the time comes. Carter and Del need a mom. Lexi will never accept her as her mom but she will come to accept her as a friend in time. Sam I love you so much. I couldn't have asked for a better husband and father for my kids.
All my love,
Bella
Oh Bella I love you too. When I walked in on my fiancée all those years ago I was done with women, with love. When Leah invited me to dinner that night I had no idea why or I wouldn't have gone but I'm so glad I did.
I'll never move on, I'll never get past this.