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a/n: did anyone guess who yet?
Chapter 15: Not Again
"Sorry- didn't mean to startle you so much-" he walked further into the room and the door shut behind him. "Wow- um- you look great."
"How- what- but-" all Alina could do was stammer.
"You need to sit down?" She nodded her head and he gently guided her to her bed, but he remained standing.
As soon as she felt like she could speak Alina blurted out "How did you get in here? Why are you even here?"
"Well I asked my Uncle to pull a few favors and now- I'm visiting."
"Visiting? What about your classes?"
"Well I'm-" Selena burst into the room.
"Are you alright I heard you scream-" she paused automatically upon seeing David. "Oh. My. God. Alina-"
"Selena- please?" Alina gave her a pleading look. Reluctantly she left, but not before giving Alina a warning glance.
"Uh.. so- yeah, I'm taking a month off- or, in other words, doing 'independent study'."
"But why-"
"I've missed you." She looked directly at him- she couldn't trace any lie in his look. "I feel bad for- for ending things so badly- for ending things at all."
"Don't be." Alina could feel the guilt rising to her flushed cheeks.
"But I am. All I could keep thinking about over the whole summer was 'what am I still doing here?' We were together for an year and a half and I was letting it come to nothing,"
"David-" he looked as if he were going to continue. "Stop. I'm the one who ended things, I chose to let things go, not you."
"Did you really think that we couldn't still be together even if you left?" Alina looked at him as if he were stupid.
"And do you really think that it would've worked out?"
"Still Alina-"
"David. Why did you come here? Hm?"
"Tell me why lied about loving me." Alina was quiet, the few seconds of silence unbearable for both.
"I didn't."
"Alina, you're not a good Occlumens, you know that. You can't honestly say that you never loved me, can you?" he was searching her face for an answer.
"I-" her voice faltered. "I had to leave- you don't even understand- I couldn't let you believe that I loved you- you would've never have let me go."
"Alina." he dropped his head, resting it in the palm of his hand on his knee. "Let's talk about this later- I came to be with you so let's just- I don't know. What do you do around here?" Alina studied his demeanor- he seemed tired, weary, exhausted.
"Go to sleep David," she said finally. "It's late."
"Right-uh- I don't really remember what room I'm supposed to be staying in. I think Professor Dumbledore said it was somewhere near the prefects' bathroom, wherever that is."
"Don't worry about it tonight- sleep here." Alina didn't have any clue what she was saying. "Um.. you could sleep on the couch in the common room, but I don't really think it's that comfortable." Alina sighed- there was nowhere else. The boys' were all asleep already and she was sure there was no room there anyway. Pulling out her wand she muttered a quick spell to transfigure her desk into another bed.
"Thanks Alina,"
"It's nothing," she avoided his gaze.
"Alina-"
"Night David," she gave him a quick, forced hug and went into the bathroom. Once inside, she leaned against the door, still bewildered and shocked. David was in her bedroom. In England of all places. Gathering all the composure that was left in her, she changed and walked back out.
"I'll be right back," she called to him. He made an almost inaudible grunt of understanding as she ventured to find Selena, who was in the Gryffindor Common Room.
"Alina, what the hell is going on?" pressed Selena as soon as she saw her sister.
"He's visiting for a little while I think. I'm really not sure."
"You're not sure? You didn't talk to him?!"
"I did, I did- but he's tired. I'm tired. Oh God Selena, he's actually here. For me."
"Oh no Alina- don't you go liking him again. He left you all alone and yelled at you- don't fall for him again."
"That was all my fault though.." said Alina, a bit regretfully.
"Alina, remember, he's not good enough for you-"
"Or maybe I'm not good enough for him..."
"Alina! Damnit I'm not dealing with another heartbreak because of him-"
"It's not like you're the one who's heart's being broken..."
"Alina, snap out of it, alright? You know better-"
"Oh what the hell do you know?!"
"I know more than you think. For Merlin's sake Alina, you're with Draco, not David. Okay? Get a hold of yourself, you can deal with this." Alina nodded silently though not in complete agreement. They both trudged up the stairs to their bedroom.
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