Title: Behind Closed Doors
Chapter 6
Word Count: 817

Rating: M!

Pairings: Eventual James/Carlos, and I decided to have undertones of Kendall/Logan somehow, otherwise general.
Disclaimer: Yeah, I still don't own BTR.
Warnings:Abuse, implied rape, self-harm
Summary: AU His friends only saw the happy, peppy, playfully crazy him. They never saw the broken, pained, dying him. He wouldn't, couldn't let them. They couldn't know what happened behind closed doors.
Author's Note: Hey! Sorry it took me so long to update. I really couldn't think of how to write this chapter. I knew how I wanted to go about it, but I just couldn't get it down on paper! So, if this chapter sucks, I apologize. It's also kind of another filler…

Uhm, yeah. School started today, so do not be surprised if it does take me longer to update now. I have to get used to school and marching band and all that jazz. So, I apologize beforehand that the updates will take longer!

Also, my Kogan story… Yeah, it ain't happening. But! My friend wrote a story similar to what I was going to write. The story is It's Complicated by MaddieIsWhatIAm. It's a one of a kind story, and it truly is fantastic. I suggest you all read it. It's really good. So, please, do yourself a favor and go read it!

On another final note, I will be posting another story soon. It'll be Jarlos, filled with plenty of angsty James. The title will be My Own Murderer. I don't know how I feel about it yet, so when I post it, go check it! Anyway, here's the next chapter!

Thanks!:)

DallieJLovesBTR

Carlos didn't sleep much that night, his own thoughts keeping him awake. He was awake when Mateo entered their bedroom at two in the morning, awake when his father's alarm went off for him to go to work, awake when his own alarm went off at six. He sat up slowly, wincing at the pain that shot through his body at the movement. He groaned as he pushed himself off the bed. Every movement hurt as he went through his morning routine. As he and his brother were about to leave, he slipped on his helmet. He looked at himself in the mirror and sighed, slipping the helmet back off and setting it down. He felt no comfort or protection with it on his head after last night.

The walk to school was uncomfortably silent, no words being exchanged. Carlos stared at his feet and his brother eyed him suspiciously. Upon reaching the school, Carlos turned away from Mateo without any words. Mateo watched his brother head to his friends, scowling at furrowing his brows. Something was off with his older brother, he just knew it. He shook his head, glancing once more at Carlos before heading off to his friends.

Carlos tugged at his sleeves while listening to his friends talk around him. He had nothing to say, and stood leaning awkwardly against his locker. He pulled at the strings on his hoodie, beginning to ignore his friends. His mind once again filled with negative thoughts as he stood there. He stared at the laces on his shoes and didn't look at anyone, afraid they would know the thoughts wondering through his head.

James had stopped chatting with his friends, his focus turned to his little Latino friend. The younger boy said nothing and was fussing with everything he was wearing, as if he was nervous about something. James' hazel eyes studied his friend intensely, every little move the smaller made he began analyzing them. He's tugging on his sleeves, what is he hiding? Why won't he look up? Is he sick? Why is he so quiet? These were some of many thoughts that raced through James' mind as he watched his crush.

He sighed, flipping the hair out of his eyes. Logan and Kendall were deep in conversation, James could hear them, but all he heard were mixed up words. He picked up his bags and mumbled a good-bye to his friends. He ran to the bathroom, knowing he had a few minutes before class. He ripped out a spiral from his bag, turning to a blank page quickly. He began scribbling words onto the page, getting about half way down before hearing the minute bell. He shoved the spiral back into his bag, sprinting to class.

Kendall looked at Logan during science class, laughing at the small brunettes face. His eyebrows were scrunched in concentration and his fingers tapped on the side of his face. Kendall pulled his hand from his face and held it beneath the table, rubbing soft circles on the back of the small hand. The class was loud, having some free time today after the lesson. Kendall leaned closer to Logan's face and whispered to him, "What's wrong, Logie?"

Logan relaxed his face and turned to face the blonde. "Do you think James likes Carlos?" he asked quietly. Kendall furrowed his eyebrows in confusion, giving Logan a look that clearly said, Well, duh. Logan shook his head. "No, I mean, of course he likes Carlos. But I mean, do you think James like Carlos in a way stronger than just friends? You know, like how we like each other?"

Kendall nodded in understanding. He could understand what he meant, the looks James always gave the smaller boy were looks of longing and want. They had always been closer to each other than either of them had been with Kendall or Logan. "It's highly possible." Kendall told the genius.

Logan squeezed Kendall's hand quickly and asked another question Kendall hadn't been expecting. "Do you think there's something going on with Carlos? Yesterday, he was himself. But today… He was silent before classes begun and I didn't even see him at lunch."

Kendall nodded, but didn't respond. He truly didn't know how to answer the question. He sighed and glanced around before quickly kissing the back of Logan's hand. "I'm sure he's fine." He told the smaller, although he wasn't so sure. The bell rung, dismissing the class. Kendall stood up and dropped Logan's hand. "My place tonight? Katie's at a friend's and my mom has date." He whispered to Logan.

Logan smiled and nodded. "See you later, Kendahlia."

"Later, Logie." He smiled and watched Logan leave, before leaving the class himself. He frowned slightly once out of the classroom. Logan was right; there was definitely something off about their youngest friend.

And he was going to figure out what it was.

Yeah… I'm sorry if that sucked as bad as I thought it was. I wanted to update but yeah. And I am so, so, so, so sorry this is so short! I just… Couldn't really think of anything to write. I PROMISE the next chapter will be longer… So, yeah. This had some Kogan in the chapter so, woohoo for that!:)

Sorry for grammar, spelling, and all that crap that were mistakes!

'Till the next chapter!.