Legal Drug

When It Comes Down To It- Chapter 2

Authors Notes

Warnings: This story (dunno about this chapter) contains NCS, abuse, and anything else my twisted mind can come up with. Oh, yeah, and yaoi. Of course. Kouji x Kazahaya, Rikuou x Kazahaya. (Does he get around or what? Just kidding! Sorry, bad joke.)

Disclaimer: I do not own Legal Drug or anything else from CLAMP, but I think I do own Kouji, if the name is not already taken from somewhere else. Is it? I probably don't own him, anyway. I CAN DREAM, RIGHT? Right…?

It was a sensation of floating; being on air, light as a feather. He wasn't awake, and not really asleep either, it was more of somewhere in between.

A place where his mind could relax, heal. Rays of sun came in through the partially open shades, hitting the floor.

Kazahaya slowly opened his eyes; he blinked a few times trying to clear the cloudiness in front of his eyes. Staring at the ceiling taking a moment to register where he was. How did I get back here?

He closed his eyes again as a wave of nausea hit him. He had to hold back the urge to vomit. After a minute he hesitantly opened his eyes again.

Everything hurt, muscles he didn't know he had hurt. It hurt to just breathe. His head was throbbing so violently, it felt like someone had taken his head, and smashed a hammer into it till there was nothing left. He wanted to get up, but couldn't find the strength. Great… He sighed dejectedly.

He raised a hand above his face, staring at it blankly. Wearily thinking back to the events of last night. Why…

Tears gathered at the corners of his eyes, threatening to come out. He didn't want to cry, be he didn't think that he could hold it back for much longer.

His physical pain was the least of his worries, his heart hurt. The man he used to love, and care for was back. Though, it wasn't always happy fun time with Kouji, he still had feelings for the guy. I mean, come on, how could he not?

Well, in the beginning he did. He shook his head. No, that is in the past. He closed his eyes and carefully rolled onto his side, careful of his arms.

After being above his head for so long is that awkward position his muscles had to strain, and his shoulder blades were sure to be bruised. He opened his eyes, not really expecting anyone to be there he was surprised when he saw that Rikuou had crawled into bed with him.

The abruptness of Rikuou's "appearance" made him instinctively move backwards.

Not judging the amount of space he had from where he was and the edge of the bed, he moved back to far and went toppling over the side.

Not having the time or strength to stop himself, he landed in an ungraceful heap on the floor, barely missing hitting his head on the night-side table.

A dull thud echoed through the very quiet room. Kazahaya groaned, blinking. "Ow…" He lifted his head slightly to see the sheets moving ever so slightly.

Rikuou peaked his head over the side of the bed, still half asleep. "Wha' are ya doin' on th' floor?" He asked, groggily.

"Checking to see if the dust bunnies are trying to sell us into prostitution." The brown-haired teen responded sarcastically.

(A/N: My theory about dust bunnies: They're evil and plan to take over the world, and sell people into a prostitution ring for old horny business men to have.)

"Oh…" Rikuou blinked a few more times before looking around, more awake now. He looked back down to Kazahaya. "Oh, my, God…Kazahaya, what are you doing on the floor?" Rikuou jumped up and went around the bed.

"Oh… nothing…" Kazahaya sighed, smirking to himself. Hope he doesn't remember the prostitution comment… Rikuou gently hoisted Kazahaya back up onto the bed.

Kazahaya winced slightly, being placed in a half laying half sitting position. Rikuou carefully looked over Kazahaya, sighing in relief when he didn't find any further damage.

"Are you okay?" He finally asked.

Kazahaya nodded, "Uhm, yeah."

Rikuou nodded, "Good." An uncomfortable silence followed; finally Rikuou broke the uneasy tension. "So, uh…are you hungry?"

"No." Kazahaya sighed. Okay…now what? He shifted on the bed. "Could you sit down or something? You're really tall…and it's making me uncomfortable."

Rikuou nodded, "Sure." He went back around to the other side of the bed, and sat down next to Kazahaya.

It had been another 20 minutes of silence, and Kazahaya was lightly dozing, still exhausted. "What happened last night?" Rikuou said abruptly.

Kazahaya looked up, "Huh?" He blinked a few times.

Rikuou turned to him, "I said, what happened last night?"

Kazahaya's eyes widened, now he was awake, and alert. He was at a loss of words, how was he going to tell Rikuou. Yeah, I'll just tell him, "Oh, by the way, I was raped." Don't think so.

It was only fair that he should know, right? After all you can't just come home looking like death warmed over and not expect at least a few questions.

"Uhm…" Rikuou raised an eyebrow, and Kazahaya averted his eyes from Rikuou's all knowing gaze. What if he hates me now? It could happen you know. "Yes?" he prodded, gently irking the other boy to tell him.

"Uh… Kouji happened," He finally said. His heart was beating so fast he was sure it was about to explode at any second. Rikuou blinked confused.

"Who's Kouji?" Kazahaya winced at the name. Another question? What if I don't want to talk about it, did he ever think of that? He should know…but…

Kazahaya sighed, "Uhm, he's some guy I used to know."

Rikuou nodded, but not in understanding he waited for Kazahaya to finish that sentence, trying to find out more. "Oh…"

Dammit Rikuou, can't you just drop it? He could hear the questions in that "Oh…" he had to keep some secrets, right?

"Look, I…I don't want to talk about it, okay?" Kazahaya shifted some more, feeling Rikuou's eyes on him. Rikuou frowned slightly, "I'm worried is all, why can't you just tell me? Is it that bad? Did he hurt you?"

Now there were a million more questions he wanted to ask. "Well, fine! Then why don't you just tell me about all your secrets!" Kazahaya shot back, clearly annoyed.

Rikuou didn't know what to say to that. "See, 'cuz you can't!" What the hell…?

"Kazahaya, calm down. Look, if you really don't want to talk about it I'll drop it." Rikuou raised his hands defensively.

Kazahaya pouted, now he felt ten times worse than before, he pulled his knees up to his chest and folded his arms across them, burying his face. Oh, great…

He sighed, "No…I guess you have a right to know…"

"Are you sure?"

Kazahaya nodded, looking away. "Kouji…he…" He sighed, "He's an old boyfriend…uh…and, I used to live with him… he kind of had an alcohol problem, so he'd usually come home drunk, and at times he was abusive…"

He paused for a second, "Uhm…he was controlling, and it got to a point where I wasn't even allowed to leave the house without his permission, or having him accompany me. So I 'wouldn't try anything stupid,' as he liked to call it.

As time progressed he grew distant till one night he forced me to get into the car, and we drove for a while, till he stopped and told me to get out. I didn't know what he was doing at first till he left me there, by the side of the road. Great way to show how much you love someone, huh?"

"Kazahaya I—"

Kazahaya looked up at Rikuou holding his hand up signaling for him to stop talking, "That was the night you found me, remember? Did I look pathetic, or what?"

He laughed slightly, "I guess luck was on my side that day. Honestly, I thought I was going to die." A tear rolled down his cheek, "But then…yesterday, Kouji showed up again, when we split up to search,"

His voice cracked, " And…and he said that he wanted me back…" Rikuou moved over and wrapped his arms around Kazahaya, "And…and…he told me that I belonged to him, and he raped me." Kazahaya buried his face in Rikuou's chest, fisting his hands in the material of his shirt.

"H-he, said I was his! Oh, Rikuou, what am I going to do?" He sobbed. Rikuou closed his eyes, gently stroking Kazahaya's back, trying to sooth him.

"It's okay, I'm here." I should have been there. He thought dimly. Hugging Kazahaya tighter, he waited out the wave of emotion.

Eventually Kazahaya had stopped crying sniffling every now and then, he face was still buried in Rikuou's chest, seeking the comfort and warmth.

He hiccupped, finally looking up. Rikuou smiled, "Hey…feel better?" Kazahaya nodded, wiping his eye with his sleeve. "Do you want to, uhm…get something to eat?" Kazahaya shrugged, "Okay, then a shower maybe?"

Kazahaya thought for a moment before nodding, "Think you can make it there on your own?" Kazahaya shrugged again. Rikuou laughed. "I'll take the hint."

He got off the bed, being careful to avoid hitting Kazahaya. "I'll be right back." Rikuou disappeared into the bathroom, and after a moment the sound of running water was heard.

Kazahaya sighed, and leaned back against the pillows. I can't believe I just told him all of that. He covered his face with his hands. He groaned, "Great…"

Rikuou came back a minute later, "Ready?"

Kazahaya looked up, "Yeah…"

Rikuou easily picked him up, carrying him bridal style over to the bathroom. He carefully set Kazahaya down on the closed toilet seat. He didn't really remember much of what happened next, until he became aware of being lowered into the water.

His eyes widened, the water wasn't too hot and it immediately started to relax his tired muscles.

Rikuou helped Kazahaya get washed up, and changed him into a new set of pajamas. Kazahaya sneezed, and Rikuou smirked. "Cold?" He asked, bluntly.

Kazahaya nodded, "A little…" He sneezed again.

Rikuou smirked raising an eyebrow, "I think you're getting sick."

Kazahaya looked up, "Am not."

"Okay, whatever you say." After exiting the bathroom, Rikuou carried Kazahaya back over to the bed. The bed was soft and inviting, and all he wanted to do was curl up and sleep, for a very, very long time. Rikuou pulled the covers up over Kazahaya.

"Uhm…thanks, Rikuou." Kazahaya said, blushing slightly. Rikuou nodded. He was about to move away when Kazahaya grabbed his arm, "Stay?" Please… he added silently. Rikuou smirked,

"Sure." He went around and climbed into bed with the brown-haired teen. Kazahaya scooted over so that he was closer to Rikuou.

"Hey, Kazahaya?"

"Hm?" He answered sleepily.

"Uhm…How did…" He paused.

Kazahaya looked up, "How did what?"

Rikuou looked to the side, as if finding something more interesting in that direction. "How did…Kouji find you, anyway?" He said at last.

Kazahaya shrugged, "Well, I'm not really sure, all he said was he'd been following me for some time now, and I guess he's been keeping tabs on me or something."

Rikuou nodded, "Oh."

"Why? What's up?"

Rikuou shrugged, "Just wondering."

Kazahaya put his head back down on the pillow and closed his eyes. After a while Rikuou heard his breathing even out now asleep. I guess he was still tired. Rikuou carefully got up, and went over to the door to turn off the light. He sighed looking around. Everything seemed to be in order… but just to be safe…

He went over to the window to make sure it was locked, closing the blinds all the way, he went around the cabin and did this to the rest, finally checking to see if the door was locked, and finally headed back.

He crawled back into bed, and slid down under the covers. Unconsciously Kazahaya draped an arm over Rikuou, hugging him close.

Rikuou smirked; before sleep could entirely take control he made a mental note. Note to self: Get revenge.

Author's notes: And…that's it. This chapter was shorter than the first chapter; I couldn't really think of anymore to say. At any rate, I hope you liked it. I don't really know how this is going to turn out, but Kouji will make another appearance, and I guess this mission can be safely called a failure, more important things to worry about.

(Shrugs) Think I should continue this? It's turning out better than I could have ever hoped. I most likely will. Hm…first reviewer gets a cookie! Bwhahahahaha::Runs off to think of a better idea: Maybe I should add something...it looks too short… Oh, well…please review! Lotsa spelling errors, 5:30 A.M. here . gunna go to bed.

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