There was one bed.

There were two people.

But there was also a couch.

And Sho had no idea what he was supposed to do. It was late, Ritsu was yawning like crazy, which was in turn making him yawn like crazy since that was what your brain told you to do when you saw someone else yawn. Kind of like how if you smelled throw up you would, automatically, throw up…not that he wanted to be thinking about throw up right now. Not when he was with his boyfriend. That would have been weird.

And Sho wasn't going to be weird, not now.

Because he was normal! He was normal and this was normal and he was going to do the normal thing that you did when you had a guy over…which was…which was something that he would do if Ritsu wanted to and he said that he didn't want to so that meant that they didn't but if he changed his mind then-then-then-

"Are you ok?"

Sho nearly threw his sketchbook across the room. He managed to stop himself just as it was about to leave his hands. Ritsu turned his head to the side and raised one eyebrow, his phone screen going to sleep as he took his eyes off of it. Sho wished that it hadn't, then he could have checked the time and told himself that it wasn't that late and then they could have gotten back to hanging out and being normal and happy….well, he could be happy and Ritsu could be sad-ish and…and he didn't want that either and…and…

This was really complicated.

"Fine! I'm really happy and fine and it's not late at all!" said Sho. Ritsu nodded slowly.

"And that's why you're screaming at me about how happy you are?" Ritsu asked sarcastically. Sho couldn't do anything other than nod.

"Uh-huh, yeah…I'm, uh, filled with joy?" asked Sho. Ritsu snort laughed and shook his head…but he was laughing so Sho was going to count this as a win.

"I totally am!" said Sho

"I believe you, I believe you…even though people who are filled with joy don't normally tell people I believe you." said Ritsu

"Well I am and, uh, it's not late…and even if it was we can stay up all night if you want to." Said Sho. There, that seemed like the smart thing to do. That way they wouldn't have to figure out where Ritsu would sleep. If Sho just automatically sent him to the couch he might feel like Sho gum, like Sho didn't want to sleep with him, but if Sho had them share a bed then maybe Ritsu WOULD want to sleep with him and then…and then…

…and then he'd have to.

"It's after midnight." Said Ritsu as he checked the time. Sho forced himself to keep smiling.

"Yeah, that's not that late. Usually I go to bed at two or three in the morning or, uh, four." Said Sho as Ritsu started to look at him like he was crazy.

"But what about school?" asked Ritsu

"I don't go to school, remember?" asked Sho

"…oh, right. Sorry. I guess that we don't have to worry about that." Said Ritsu. Sho really hadn't worried about school in years, and even when he'd gone he'd been too little to really care all that much, but if school was important to Ritsu then Sho wasn't going to stop him from going…even if that would have meant that Ritsu was far from him and…and he could have gone back with his family and…and…and then he could leave…

Sho didn't know what he would have done if Ritsu left him all alone.

"But you can! I mean if you want to go to school then you can, I won't stop you. That would be really weird and controlling and I'm not my dad, I'm not going to try and build you a glass dome so you can't escape." Said Sho

"That's really…specific." Said Ritsu as he scooted away. Sho scooted closer.

"I won't build you any kind of dome or cage or anything, you can go if you want. If you love something then you set it free so that's what I'm going to do….so be free! Like a hamster…er…" said Sho as he looked over at his hamster cage…Ritsu was smart enough not to chew through electrical cords, right?

"Or a bird!" said Sho. Ritsu just gave him a long look.

"Yeah…I know I can leave whenever I want…I just don't want to." Said Ritsu

"But what about school?" asked Sho

"I'm pretty sure school's still cancelled, I don't think that they changed their minds." Said Ritsu

"Oh…oh! We can stay up all night then! We can pop popcorn and watch scary movies and smoke and drink and try coke, the drug not the drink, which I'm pretty sure is good because my sister and Shimazaki do it all the time-" said Sho

"I'm tired. Do you have any pajamas I can borrow?" asked Ritsu. Sho blinked, his aura was showing way too bright, and he was pretty sure his pencil had just floated out of his hand. Ritsu was tired…which meant that he was going to go to bed…which meant that he needed somewhere to sleep and…and something to sleep in. Which meant that he was going to need to change clothes. Which meant that he was going to be changing clothes in Sho's apartment and…and he had never had a naked guy in his-

-he was going to stop thinking about that before it got any worse.

"Yeah…yeah! In my room so…uh…follow me?" asked Sho as he got up and started walking, the whole time forcing his mind to stop thinking about Ritsu and his clothes and no clothes and-and-and why did he have to be like this! This was his boyfriend, BOY friend, so it wasn't like it was anything new to him. If Ritsu was a girl then it would have made sense since he'd never seen boobs in life before, aside from the one time when he walked in on Minegishi and-

-and that did. There was nothing less attractive than Minegishi, naked or otherwise.

"Here it is! But…you knew that…so, uh, yeah. Let me just get you something to, uh, wear." Said Sho as he went through his drawers. He hadn't unpacked all of his clothes…and he didn't really wear pajamas anymore. Not matching sets, not since he'd been a kid, and Ritsu may have been smaller than him but he wasn't small enough to fit into Sho's old Zootopia jammies-pajamas! Because he wasn't little and…uh…he wore pajamas…sometimes.

Usually just sweatpants.

Or his boxers…but he wasn't going to tell Ritsu to just sleep in his boxers, and Sho wasn't going to do that either, because he knew how that would go. He'd had plenty of dreams about Shimazaki that started like that…but of course there wasn't a chance in hell that anything could have happened between him and Shimazaki…but this was Ritsu. This was his boyfriend.

And Dad was gone. Sho could do whatever he wanted now…

"Somewhere…yeah, somewhere." Said Sho as he dug through his drawers. Lots of sweatpants and old t-shirts…way too many Disney shirts. Animals….ones with rips and stains…why didn't he have anything nice? Ritsu liked nice things, fancy things, cool things. Not old green sweatpants and shirts from the last time he went to Disney World…he kept on digging…

It suddenly got darker.

"That'll work." Said Ritsu as he reached past Sho and grabbed his green sweatpants and green shirt…so that worked as pajamas, right? It kind of matched…that was…something. Now all Sho needed to do was find something to wear, something that fit right, something that didn't have rips or stains, something that made him look good…huh. He had never thought about it, looking good, he even mostly just wore the same thing every day. Shimazaki's old coat, before it got ruined, jeans, and some kind of shirt…always a short sleeved shirt, that coat was hot, and…and he didn't have a lot of long sleeved sleep shirts…

He had to wear long sleeves.

He dug through his drawers until he found something that would work. It was from Halloween at Disney and it was kind of small and the sleeve was burnt from the time he'd tried smoking in bed…but it would do. Ritsu knew he had scars, he'd seen them before, but there was a difference between seeing something really quick and seeing something all night or…well, they would be sleeping, but…but still. They were cool but also weird and…and he didn't know if he wanted to get into them with Ritsu right now, not when he was supposed to be happy, not when he was supposed to put Dad behind him…and…and….

And he just had to wear the mother fucking shirt!

He pulled his shirt off and…oh, right, he wasn't alone. He had maybe gone too fast with that. He could feel Ritsu's aura on him, and maybe his eyes too, or he could have been imagining that. His back was the worst of it. The tree he had back there, it had a long name that he didn't really care about, it was always going to be a tree to him. It was…it was kind of cool, if you liked scars, but also…also it had hurt like hell. Being shocked over and over and over again and…and now he could kind of smell it, too, the smell of burning…it smelled kind of like cooking, when skin burned, which made sense since people were just meat and…and…

…and he maybe should have waited until Ritsu was out of the room.

"S-sorry! I can-" said Sho as he turned around…and was hit in the face with a shirt. He tossed it on the ground and…oh. Right, that was…Ritsu. Putting on the shirt that Sho had lent him. Putting his arms out and pulling the shirt down over his chest and his stomach…not that Sho knew why he was staring at his stomach. It wasn't like he didn't have one too…Ritsu didn't have any freckles, that was…well, he was so used to looking at his own stomach so Ritsu was new and different and that was why he was looking so much.

Staring. He was staring.

"I can go somewhere else if you want…if you want to change alone." Said Sho

"Why are you being so weird?" asked Ritsu

"Because I like you and you like me, I mean we're both guys and we both like guys-" said Sho

"It's fine, I have to change for gym at school and me and Teru have changed together before. Yeah, I like guys, but it's just changing clothes." Said Ritsu

"Uh…right!" said Sho. He was the one making it weird. Guys changed clothes in front of other guys all the time at school…what was that like? Just being in a room full of naked guys…he quickly pulled his shirt over his head. He needed to stop being weird. This was just a normal thing that people did all time. Hell, Ritsu had even changed in front of Teru…in front of the guy who he'd fake dated for years and…and Sho needed to stop being weird.

And he needed to stop staring.

"You can-can have the bed if you want, I'm going to stay up for a few more days." Said Sho as he turned around and changed into his sweatpants. This was a good plan, right? He was just going to stay awake forever. That way Ritsu wouldn't feel pressured into doing anything or rejected, either. That way everyone would be happy and, uh, he was pretty sure that Fukuda was back from wherever he'd gone to so if he got too tired he could just have Fukuda heal him…his powers could do that, right?

And if not there was always coke and coffee.

"Days?" asked Ritsu

"Yeah, remember? This is really early for me." said Sho

"But you've been yawning all night. Why don't you just go to bed?" asked Ritsu

"Because…uh…there's only one bed so…uh…I didn't want to give you the wrong idea, that's all." said Sho

"That you need sleep to live?" asked Ritsu

"That I wanted to do it with you or that I didn't want to do it with you…so yeah, I just…sorry. I was just going to stay awake forever so you didn't feel bad." said Sho

"You were planning on staying awake forever…because you think I want to do it with you?" asked Ritsu

"Well yeah! I mean when you put it like that it sounds dumb and…and if you want to then I will! I mean I said that, I mean you said that, that you didn't but you might have changed your mind and I don't want to make you feel bad-" said Sho

"I'm twelve, I don't want to do it with you, and I don't mind sharing a bed. Teru and I share the bed all the time when we have sleepovers, it's not weird." Said Ritsu

"You guys…share a bed?" asked Sho. What did that mean? Did that mean what he thought it meant? But what did he think it meant? And what did it say about him that he thought that it hadn't meant anything? Did that mean that he didn't trust Ritsu? Did that mean that he sucked? Was he a sucky boyfriend? Was Ritsu going to realize that he had a sucky boyfriend and leave him and then he was going to be all alone and he'd end up like Dad only worse because Sho cared if he was lonely and then the loneliness would drive him crazy and then he'd adopt Hatori and then Hatori would be his only friend and then he'd move to the woods and be with the animals because society couldn't-

"I'm pretty sure he's straight, don't be jealous." Said Ritsu. He didn't sound mad but Sho could tell. He was being all weird and jealous and it didn't make sense. He knew that Ritsu loved him so why was he like this? Was this just what happened when you were with someone? Was Dad ever jealous that Mom and Fukuda were friends and was Mom ever jealous of…wait, Fukuda was Dad's only friend…but still! He just…he didn't know why he wanted to know, just that he wanted to know…

Maybe because he didn't know, maybe that was it.

"I-I'm not-" said Sho

"I'm not into every single guy I see, you know." said Ritsu

"I know, I mean I'm not either so…so I don't know why I'm being so weird right now." said Sho. Ritsu sighed and rolled his eyes.

"Just come to bed and stop being weird, weirdo." Said Ritsu as he walked over and sat down on Sho's bed. Sho could feel his heart trying to pound out of his chest, maybe it was trying to get away from the goldfish in his stomach. That stupid fish was swimming like Sho had just drank an entire case of soda and then ate an entire box of mentos. He needed to stop being weird.

Because he was being a total weirdo right now.

"Yeah I'm weird but that's what you love…like, about me…so which side do you want to be on? The right or the left?" asked Sho as he sat down beside Ritsu. He tried his best to make the goldfish in his stomach stop. This was…he'd shared a bed with people before. Big Sis, Mom, Fukuda, Shimazaki…that last one had felt kind of like this but…but he had to stop.

That wasn't what this was about right now.

"I don't care, the side by the wall I guess." said Ritsu as he laid down and rolled over to his side…his side. The side of the bed that belonged to him and no one else because no one else was sharing this bed and-and Sho needed to lay down before he fainted or died or something. Yeah, that would have sucked if he had a heart attack and died in his sleep. Ritsu would have been messed up for life if that happened.

So he laid down.

"Goodnight." Said Ritsu. That was it? Goodnight? He was just going to say that? Why? Why was he…wait, no, that was the kind of thing that you were supposed to say when you went to sleep. Good. Night. Have a night that was good….Sho could say that.

"Night good! I mean goodnight! Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs lay eggs in your brain and then they hatch and take over your brain and-" said Sho

"You're such a weirdo sometimes." Said Ritsu. Sho rolled over to face him…and then onto his other side…and then onto his back. His back seemed like the safest position to be in. He didn't want to make Ritsu feel weird…but he felt weird. Maybe because he was a weirdo like Ritsu had said. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, he had to go to sleep, if he didn't then he'd be a real jerk in the morning and Ritsu didn't need him to be a jerk. He just had to sleep.

Starting now.

Right now….now! It didn't come. Maybe because it was hot, very hot, so hot sleeping in long sleeves and long pants. Or maybe it was the fact that they were sharing body heat. Or maybe his blanket was too heavy. Or maybe it was because he was half off of the bed, this was way too small for two people, or maybe it would have been better if he had been on his side…but then Ritsu might or he might or…or someone might get the wrong idea and then the whole thing would go wrong! He just…he needed to sleep. He just needed to close his eyes and sleep.

There was one bed.

There were two people.

And only one of them got any sleep that night.