She really hated envy, but she couldn't help it — every single person that got a chance to stare in a mirror at themselves found something to dislike, and Koto was no exception. Comparisons made people unhappy, but it was so natural to do, so easy to get caught up in how beautiful she was and how she had that.
Out of the three of them, Koto looked the youngest, the most innocent, and she couldn't stand it. She would wonder how guys could stand sleeping with her. Didn't she just look like a child to them? Juri was gorgeous and Ruka was just plain hot and Koto — well …
She was cute.
More than anything, Koto hated being cute.
She took advantage of it whenever she could, of course — that was the only benefit of being cute. But she didn't want to be cute. She wanted to be sexy, too. She wanted to be seen as a woman, because she was one, even if she didn't look like it quite like the other two did. "Foxy" was the closest thing to sexy she was ever called, and it was probably her favorite word because of it. It made her feel desired — desirable.
So she wasn't a long-legged, curvy bombshell like Ruka — she didn't have that rich, beautiful skin or the pouty lips like Juri — but she was at least a fox, damn it, and that counted for something.
Right?