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The song Sid is singing is Rape me by Nirvana.

Chapter 6

Standing in front of his door, willing to go back to her room and lock the door, Hannah hesitated. She didn't know what to expect. Exhaling heavily, she decided it better to get it over with and hoped her brother wasn't in a bad mood. She knocked lightly on the wooden door.

"What?" He answered in an annoyed tone, the slow melody of a guitar was coming from inside the room and muffling his voice.

"Can I come in?" She tried, already expecting the usual and harsh "No".

"If you want to..." His voice rose above the notes and then died.

Hanna opened the door and peeked inside his room. She hadn't been inside it for years, but the place hadn't changed very much, except there no more toys anywhere, there were different posters on the walls and the furniture had been changed. Now there was a TV, a video game and a notebook. The mess he kept his room remained as she remembered, there were all kinds of stuff scattered everywhere.

Sid was sitting on the edge of the bed, his guitar was on his lap and he was running his fingers lightly across the strings as he sang to the melody, his voice very low.

Hate me

Do it and do it again

Waste me

Rape me my friend

"Mom asked me to check if you're taking your meds." She said, raising her voice above his and sounding louder than the notes.

He stopped to strum and pressed his palm against the strings, above the sound hole, to stop their vibrations, raising his eyes to meet matching green ones.

"Of course I'm taking them." He put the guitar on the floor, leaning its neck against the bed, carefully. "Don't I look calm to you?"

"How will I know you're not lying?"

"I could have a dose now." He offered, shrugging.

She nodded and waited but he didn't move. "So?" She frowned, annoyed, already thinking that had been some kind of joke.

"The pills are there" He said motioning towards the desk.

Sighing she turned to the desk and searched under piles of skating magazines and other papers, until she found the pill bottle. Turning back to her older brother she handed him the medicament, but he didn't move once more.

"Put it in my mouth." He grinned widely and she was sure he lied when told her he was taking his meds. Sid always lied.

Taking one pill in her hand and placing the bottle on the bed beside him she knelt and he opened his mouth, lowering his face closer to her. Hannah put the pill on his mouth and jerked her hand away before he bit her fingers. He smirked at her and swallowed the pill. She glared at her brother.
The boy reached out and stroked her cheek, his face dangerously close to hers and Hannah felt an uncontrollable urge to press her lips to his. But she didn't. She wouldn't.

This is wrong! She kept repeating in her mind.

When she got up he grabbed her wrist and she flinched, waiting for him to hurt her. He pulled her gently towards him. She looked down to meet his stare and Sid placed both hands on her thighs underneath the over-sized t-shirt she was wearing, his hands were warm against her skin. Hannah realized she was breathing heavily and felt his fingers reaching upwards and curling around the sides of her panties, a shiver ran down her spine as he slid them down her legs and then dropped the garment letting it fall to the floor.

Part of her wanted to scream and run away, but part of her, for some strange reason, wanted to stay and the latter was the stronger. Sid had dragged her to the bed and she fell sat beside him and before she could react, he crushed his lips against hers. She pressed her hands to his chest, trying to push him away and felt Sid's hand behind her neck and his opposite arm around her waist, trapping her. Slowly, she gave up struggling and allowed him to deepen the kiss. Acting on instinct she responded, her hands clutching his shirt and pulling him closer. The hand that was behind her neck travelled downwards and she felt it on her inner thigh, moving up.

"No... Sid, stop." She parted. Breathless and lightheaded, Hannah tried to push him away while she held his hand, preventing it to go any further.

"Hannah, please... we both know you want it..." He whispered, squeezing her lightly with the arm he had around her waist, his voice was thick with lust.

"No, we can't..." She insisted on the denial, even though she could feel heat spreading through her.

Using his weight he forced her to lay on her back and pinned her against the mattress. Her blood turned to ice and she felt the panic from the night of the recital emerge.

"Will you rape me again?" She asked in a petulant tone, even though she was frightened of the answer and of what he would do next.

"Only if you want me to." He grinned darkly and lowered his face, placing open-mouthed kisses on the side of her neck, sucking lightly and she let out a shy moan.

Her heart was hammering her chest and the heat had now unfrozen her blood, making it run faster. Sid was right, she wanted it.

He rose himself above his sister and looked at her seeking for an answer for his implicit question. Her eyes were as dark as his and he knew even before she nodded, that she would allow him to do as he pleased.
Hannah drove her hands behind his neck and brought his face close to hers, kissing him softly. He parted and crawled off her. She was going to sit up to find out why he had stopped and where he was, when she felt his hands part her thighs and then his mouth against the pool of heat in between her legs.

She gasped and tried to clamp her legs shut, but Sid held her thighs apart firmly as his tongue darted out to reach inside her. She whimpered his name and arched her back. After a few licks, her thighs were trembling in his hands and Hanna couldn't decide whether she wanted to spread them wider or close them, because she could not withstand so much pleasure. Reaching out, she tangled her fingers in his hair, gripping it weakly until her whole body shook with spasms and she squeezed her eyes shut, out of breath.

He took his shirt off and threw it on the floor; then unbuttoned his jeans as he stood up and crawled back on top of her. Reaching in between them, Sid lowered his pants and she felt his throbbing member against her slick inner thighs. He groaned deeply as he plunged himself into her, burying his face in her hair. It didn't hurt like she expected it would, it felt good.

Moaning lightly, Hannah wrapped her arms around him as she moved to meet his thrusts. That was completely different from the previous time, she was craving for more, kissing him back intensely, urging him to go faster. He obeyed, being careful enough to not grip anywhere he had bruised before and she arched beneath him, digging her nails on his back.

"Sid..." She cried out breathlessly, feeling herself tighten around him as the waves of pleasure intensified.

He gasped against her neck with one last jerk of his hips and then collapsed on top of her, his hands falling off of her body. Breathing heavily, he pulled out and rested his head against her chest, closing his eyes.

Hannah wrapped her arms around him and sighed deeply, wondering how she could let herself do that. How could she give up so easily and let that happen?