Runaway by Kibibe

Awkwardness

After taking his frustrations out on a Grizzly bear Edward had eventually returned to the house and reclined to his room. He needed to do some thinking. Only thinking clearly while he was bombarded with all those naughty thoughts from Emmett and Jasper's minds proved to be kind of hard. Usually he had no problem blocking out their thoughts but right now it were fantasies about Bella that were playing in their heads. He didn't want them to think about her like that. He didn't want anyone to think about her like that. Or know her like that. A deep growl escaped his throat.

And then there was Rosalie. Rosalie was mad. Again. Jealous. This revelation made a smile creep onto his face, but it was washed right off again as she started picturing herself killing Bella and make it look like an accident. "Rosalie!" He hissed enraged. She heard him and quickly shoved those thoughts aside.

He sat down at his desk and stared at his journals. They were full of words for Bella. All he ever wrote about was Bella. He had started with writing down their story. How they met. What they said. Every little detail he could remember. When he was done he wrote down notes for her. Things he would have wanted to tell her. Everything he wanted her to know. He had written poems and songs for her. He had never played the songs though. Just written down the music. He hadn't touched the piano since he had left her.

He had created his own little fantasy of her. Some ideal image he had of her. Now she was back and he had thought that this was all he had ever wanted. But now he realized that his fantasy was just that. A pretty little picture he had created for himself. The reality had hit him hard. The reality of what he had made her become.

He could see her story as she had told it to Alice in all of their minds. And it was nagging at him. The way she was struggling. How her whole life laid in shreds while he was writing his pretty little things thinking he had done her a favor.

But then again there were those thoughts from Jasper. Distracting him from his musings. Emmett wasn't really creative. His fantasies were shabby but Jasper's fantasy got him hooked. He wasn't picturing himself with her. It was just Bella and Alice. As much as this annoyed him it also kind of turned him on in a weird way. He, too, was just a guy after all. Seeing Bella like that certainly had it's effect on him. He groaned closing his eyes. He needed something to distract himself with. But he found himself unable to look away.

He didn't notice as the door to his room slowly crept open and Bella hesitantly walked in. She stared at him in awe. His eyes closed. Solemn expression. His head resting on the back of his chair. If she hadn't known any better she would've thought he was asleep. Then she heard him moan her name and her eyes grew wide with surprise. She gasped and he jumped out of his chair in shock.

She blushed as she saw the bulk in his pants. He quickly tried to hide it positioning himself behind his chair. "B Bella," he stammered, "How can I help you?"

She raised an eyebrow at him amused. "Help me, huh?" If he could blush at all he certainly would have. And she standing there in her little sleeping attire didn't exactly help his predicament either.

"Well I don't really know why I'm here actually. Alice just told me to go and see you. So here I am." She shrugged. There was a range of emotion passing over his face. Surprise. Realisation. Anger. Embarrassment. Alice had set him up. Then Bella too realised what was going on. This was what Alice had seen. Did she think this was funny?

Bella cleared her throat. "Well, okay. Obviously I have to go strangle some little pixie right now. So sorry for uhm interrupting." She grimaced at her own choice of words as she turned to leave. But he stopped her.

"No. I mean now that you're already here. Uhm maybe we can talk or ," he trailed off. She hesitated. "I'm really sorry about my reaction back there. I was I don't know I kind of lost it. I wasn't prepared for this." He continued gazing at her hopefully. She sighed considering what Alice had told her earlier. Maybe they really needed to talk. So she sat down on the couch. "Okay Are you going to keep hiding behind your chair? There's really no point since I already saw it." She stated grinning sheepishly.

He closed his eyes. This was so humiliating. Later he would have to thank his little sister properly. Right now he gathered up all his courage and strode over to the couch trying to look as casual as possible on his walk of shame. He perched awkwardly on the very edge of the couch and force a smile on his face for her.

She had to bite back a laugh. He was already so embarrassed but she just couldn't help herself. She had to know. "Let's talk. On one condition."

"What condition?" He frowned.

"You have to tell me what got you turned on." She nodded at the bulk in his pants. He closed his eyes taking a deep breath. Was she serious. Was this some sick way of torturing him. Had they all ganged up on him now?

"Take it or leave it." She shrugged and started to stand up again.

"Okay, okay. I'll tell you." He sighed. She sat back down and looked at him expectantly. "It was Jasper." He stated.

"Huh?" Was he joking? She made a grimace.

"No! Not like that!" He quickly corrected her. "His fantasy of you and Alice." He avoided her gaze. She laughed. He frowned. Now she was laughing at him. Really Alice had it coming for her hard.

"Sorry I didn't mean to laugh at you. It's just " She gestured. "Well anyway. Sooo you're secretly attracted to Alice?" She teased. "No." He huffed. "I'm attracted to you."

He had caught her off guard. After his reaction earlier that day she hadn't expected him to say this. "Wow." She found her voice again. "You really do have a funny way of showing that." She snapped narrowing her eyes at him.

"I said I'm sorry. I was overwhelmed. Unprepared. I always had the best intentions with you." He defended himself. She laughed humorlessly. "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." Now they weren't just talking about earlier that day anymore. He reached out for her hands taking them into his own. "Tell me what I can do to make it up to you. I'll do anything."

She stared down at their hands. They looked so right together. His touch still made the butterflies go crazy in her stomach. There was no way of denying it. "I don't know what you can do. I think you'll have to figure it out yourself." She lifted up her head and smiled weakly at him. Maybe not all was lost. They just had to figure out a way to make it work again. She was giving him another chance and he was willing to take it and not let her down again.

With that she stood up and made her way to the door. "Good night." She whispered. "Sleep tight." He smiled ruefully. Not ready to let her go just now. She closed the door behind her and went to Alice's and Jasper's room. Alice and Jasper were curled up on the bed as she walked in. Alice looked at Jasper. "I think you need to leave." She whispered kissing him once more.

Jasper quickly left the room avoiding Bella's gaze. He knew Edward had told her about his fantasy and it bothered him a little. As he was gone Bella walked over to the bed snuggling up to Alice. She could really use some comfort after all the trouble today. "Hold me?" She asked and Alice complied.

A/N: I wanted to post this sooner, but whenever I found the time to write I was just so utterly tired. Once I literally fell asleep on the freaking keyboard. And let me tell you this is not a comfortable place to sleep plus you look kind of ridiculous afterwards.