The next day I walked to the candy gram stand with one poke-dollar only to find Zoey absent. Crap, I thought, nobody else can know who I plan to send it too! My feet lifted up in the other direction. I decided to do this tommorow, yea that'll be the day, I thought to myself sarcasticly.
"And where do you think your going young lady?" A voice spoke from behind.
Of course I knew who that was, and she knew what I was about to do.
"Misty..."
"Dawn if you don't do it now you'll never do it at all" Misty said. She pulled my arm, dragging me to the candy gram stand. Crap, crap crap! I knew where this was going. Though I might as well get it over with.
Unfortunetly I was the next person in line and the person in front of me was now done. Man I don't wanna live through this, people are gonna know. "No need to worry..." I told myself, no need to worry...
"Hey Dawn!" The brown haired girl behind the stand greeted me cheerfully, it was Bianca.
"Hi!" I faked the cheeryness in my voice, "Can you make this one out to..." I gulped, "Paul?"
She giggled, "You like him?" Bianca asked.
What the hell is wrong with these people? Okay scartch that. What the hell was wrong with ME I didn't need to be so uncool about this, this is why people thought I liked him.
"Just write it..." I grumbled, "Oh! And don't put its from me!" I yelled.
"Okay, okay..." Bianca said. She selected four candy grams of different color choices, "Which color do you want?"
The colors shown were red, blue, green, and yellow. I've always pictured myself sending Paul a red candy gram so I chose red, plus it kind of fitted him in a way. "Red please" I decided.
The girl passed me the card and I quickly passed it back, "You write the message for me" I said, "i don't want him to see my hand writing" I admitted in shame.
Bianca's face expression seemed surprised and unsure but she smiled, "What do you want me to write?"
"Merry Christmas, Turtwig FTW" I said softly, yes I know, random and stupid but it was much cuter in my head. The reason why I wanted to put "Turtwig FTW" was because Paul had a Torterra which was the final evolution of a Turtwig, he seemed to love it so much since it was a strong Pokemon in battle. I think it might also be his favorite Pokemon of his whole party. Ugh, another reason for him not to like me, I'm too stupid and random. Though its not like I was bashing myself over a guy. I was just pointing out the reasons for the impossibilities.
A slight giggle was heard from Biancas side, it was Brianna: Drew's biggest fan girl, but aside from that she just now found out about my crush! How obvious and oblivious can I be?
"That'll be one dollar please!" Brianna perked up.
"Thanks" I grumbled handing her the poke.
In the corner of my eye I saw Briana write "From: Someone" and inserted in a smiley face.
"Gah!" I screamed snatching the marker from her hand crossing it out.
"Really?" Brianna looked at me oddly.
"Yes! Really!" I yelled, I knew Paul wouldn't take smiley's seriously, he would think it was from someone who liked him, but then again I didn't put my name so he would know either way, though I'm not gonna risk it.
"You know" Brianna began, "Paul got ran over a car once, last year" she said.
I blinked, okay I did NOT need to know that, but hearing this just made Paul sound like the most dumbest guy in the world. How the heck did that happen?
"Wow..." I managed to say, I rushed the hell away from the candy gram stand after hearing this.
Later in first period's Ethics class, I was questioning myself, "Why did I spend a dollar on him for?" I think I questioned myself out loud since Misty commented "Geez Hikari I didn't know you were that cheap!"
I sighed, "I spent a dollar, on a piece of construction paper with writing on it"
"Its just a dollar" Misty rolled her eyes, "Although I wouldn't say it was worth it" she added.
I laughed a little, it really was just a freakin dollar. Though I do wonder what will he think when he recieves it, the thought just makes me sick inside my stomach. What would he say? What will he do? Crap I should have thought this through, this is gonna me damn humiliaiting. I sighed, all well.
Finally, the bell rang. I rushed out of the room and it didn't take long for May and Misty to catch up. Suddenly, it was like a lighting bolt striked my stomach.
"Guys...I think I'm on my..." I said holding my stomach.
"Well check later" Misty blunted with concern, she held my shoulders with her hands assisting me to my next class.
"It's not that bad...but its like a baby is kicking or something!" I told Misty.
May put her hand on my back, "Come on..."
We rushed to the Choir room walking fast. As we did, we just had to encounter him in the hallway.
"Aw fuck!" I cried gripping on my stomach.
"Cramp?" A voice commented passing by.
I faced the person who just said that then found myself mentally blushing. It was Paul. "Shut the fuck up!" I yelled, see what I told ya? The SMALLEST interactions make me dazed and happy.
"Heh, heh" Paul somewhat laughed (if I could call it that) forming a smirk and left. The hell did he think he was?
I giggled as we turned away from each other, that was weird...but he was cute.
Misty shook her head in unapproval, "Oh wow..." she said.
"Hehe" May chuckled.
I honestly can't remember what happend that day. My thoughts were half on my studies and half on Paul. That was just nice, the last thing I wanted anyone to know was that all I thought about was boys. Not that anyone could ever find out what I was thinking about side from May and Misty, those guys are like mind readers!
Anyways, I only remember what happened in 6th period since I have Zoey for that class. She seems very excited about this whole thing even though she wasn't exactly a girly person. After I admitted I liked Paul...well...she sqeualed...and it was quite surprising.
"Eep!" She screamed shaking her head with her hands placed on her cheeks.
I sweatdropped, I guess she coudldn't deny the side most girls had, ahaha.
"I don't know what you see in him though!" Zoey exclaimed still girly-fied about the whole thing.
"Well..." I blushed, "hes really cute...and-"
"Bleach!" Zoey faked puked, "Hes not cute! How can you stand looking at the guy! Hes ugly, hes crazy, AND HE ABUSES POKEMON!" She yelled out.
I sweatdropped again, one minute it was "Aww, thats so cute!" then its, "What the hell are you thinking!"
"No hes not hes cute!" I defended him, making my blush darker. Surprisingly Zoey didn't seem to notice, or else she would have pointed it out making me feel shameful.
Later we got on about who Zoey liked, so thatexplains why shes all girly about this! Because shes all lovestrucked too! Well...lovestruck isn't what I'd use but you know what I mean. TO my surprise the girl has a huge crush on someone in my Pokemon Musical class, though shes expecting me to guess who it is.
"His name starts with a R" Zoey said.
"Hmm...Red?" I guessed.
Zoeys put her hand over her mouth in disgust, I didn't know if that was necessary but I do know that it meant "Hell no"
"L-let me spell it for you..." Zoey said.
I nodded.
"R" Zoey started.
I nodded again raising my eyebrows, she already told me what it started with!
"u" Zoey said.
I started thinking about who else was in my class...not a guy with a name that starts with "Ru"
"b" Zoey murmered.
"Ruby!" I said slightly loud.
Zoey giggled and blushed then nodded, "I'm thinking about sending him a candy gram..."
This was too cute.
"Ah!" I yelped, "Thats so cute!"
"I'm too nervous though" Zoey added shyly, "but I might do it..."
I've never seen Nozomi so shy before! This isn't like her! I guess this is what its like when you have a crush on someone. Her actions are exactly what I'm feeling: dazed, shy, nervous, girly.
"Yea you should!" I replied slightly laughing.
We kept discussing our romance life until the next class started and I headed to the last class. Even if I'm unsure if Paul likes me back, I am happier to be in this class I always liked this class anyways since Lyra was in it. It'd be stupid to look foward to a class because of a boy.
Speaking of Lyra, I just remembered that I had to tell her! I walked over to her desk with some news she'll find interesting. I just hope she can keep this quiet.
"Lyra!" I called.
Lyra turned around, "Oh hey Dane!" she replied cheerfully.
"I just remembered I had something to tell you" I smiled.
"Okay" Lyra said, I could tell she was wondering.
"You know when you called yourself a cupid on me and Ash's journey?" I asked before giving her the news.
Lyra beamed and said, "Oh! You finally realized your love for Ash so you came to me for advice!"
Did the girl have to be so loud? She was certianly loud enough to catch his attention. Paul turned around raising his eyebrow. Damnit now he thinks I like Ash.
"No!" I yelled, "Its something like that though..." My tone went down.
"Ahh" The mushroom headed trainer nodded, "So who is it? Kenny? Barry? or even Conway?"
"NO!" I practically screamed out, then sighed, "I plan to send a candy gram to him"
"To who?" Lyra asked, emphasizing that i wasn't making things clear.
"Promise you won't tell?" I said.
The girl groaned, "Promise"
"Someone in this room" I hinted.
It didn't take long for Lyra to pin point my crush.
"Paul?" Lyra whispered hoarsely.
"Not so loud!" I shouted.
"He didn't even hear!" Lyra shot back.
"S-Sorry" I half faced Lyra in shame.
Lyra did react like a normal girl would, however she also reacted the way other girls would knowing this boy happened to be Paul. Of course she went "Aww" but she also gave me the surprised "are you on crack?" expression. She also hated his guts.
Why did I tell her of all people? Because I can trust her, and shes friendly. Plus, at least she was being nice about it.
Class started. Everyone sat down and Lyra switched her seat next to mines.
"Do you think he likes you back?" Lyra asked.
"No..." I sighed, "He can't possibly like me...I'm too...me" Okay yes, its not the "Cheerful Dawn" personality but I really am the type of person who loves herself but won't show it, though I am being for real about this, Paul can't like me of all people. Its not possible. I don't even think I fit in Pauls criteria for a girl...which I don't know what standereds I have to meet to reach that crteria!
"Whats wrong with being "too you"?" Lyra asked flatly, "If I were you I'd get that boys phone number and text him "Hi" then Paul would be like "Do I know you?" then you'd be like "It's Dawn" and be like "You know, daybreak. The oppisite of Dusk" Lyra went on, "Then he'd be like "Oh yea" and you'd be like "I like you" and he'd be like "I like you too" with a smiley face!" She beamed.
Did she know Paul enough to know he wouldn't put "smileys"? I chuckled though, her fantasy of us texting was just hilairious. As if it would happen but hey, a girl can dream. Lyra sure had a big imagination.
"I don't even know if he'll even come to school on the day he'll recieve his candy gram I mean its the day before Christmas break..." I said sadly.
"Oh please, its Paul" Lyra assured, "Of course he'll come to school"
Its not like the kid has perfect attendence but he sure didn't skip a day of class.
"I guess..." I gave in.
I glanced over at Paul for a moment, He'll never...its impossible, so impossible that it shatters all the possibilities in the world if possibilities could be endless then the impossibilies are infinent.
It didn't happen exactly like that, and there was more than one person. Lyra is a mix of four people: This girl who played cupid, the girl I talked to in the restroom, the girl who hated his guts (not Zoey) and a tomboyish person. The girl I talked to in the restroom was the girl who went "And you'd be like, then he'd be like, I like you this, I like you back" ahaha. Um...I put a bit of the past in here which was the past BEFORE Christmas. See I had a big mouthed friend who was talking to me about this OTHER guy I liked and the guy I like now just happened to be there and he looked at me strange. Later he joked around and went "hey there's -insert his name" and I was like "Da f*ck?" ahahaha.
NOW! I have to explain why I needed to write an Ikari fic based off RL. See, I read another ikari fic of an author name Vamprissqueen and it was beautiful! Hers was also based off real life and then the guy I liked...well you'll see why I wrote this when its complete! She wrote it because she wanted to get her feelings off her chest and I will too, she wasn't afraid to get her feelings off her chest or how people will react and I need to get over this, it really does work. Within each word I type dealing with this I feel so much better. Her story is called "My biggest mistake" no need for a link when you can type in her pen name and go to her profile ahaha. He fic was more depressing but as the chapters update mines will be as well.
"I wasn't looking for any sympathy, hatred, anger, or anything else you could possibly be feeling because of it. All I wanted was to vent"
"Writing was my only escape"
"please don't think too much less of me afterwards...but I must warn you that this is neither humorous or happy, even. Read only if you wish to understand my situation..."
" I just had to get this out here, where no one really knows who I am and can't judge me because of that."
-Lexi