Just to let you know, there's some Paul POV in here and this was the best Paul POV I could do since this is based off RL. If he's not in chracter then at least it's not COMPLETELY OOC. If I had Paul IC then I would have made my life OOC and I can't just change reality like that even if it was the past.
Umm...everything that Dawn and Paul discuss is face to face but In RL it was over facebook, most convo's I had were there (until the next few chapters) Oh! and btw! we don't actually have dorms. my school is retarded, and so the only way to make it less retarded is to make everything bounce off right XD
Today was the day
The group of people who were selling candy grams along with some Delibirds, will come to our last class of the day and deliver the candy grams. The thought of Paul recieving it made my heart beat, it was racing but not in a blissful, dreamy, dazed kind of way. It was horrible, I wanted to take my heart out of my chest that was caged in my skeletons and crush it. Yes I know, its not very "Dawn-like" of me to think this way, but this was comepletly childs-play. I blame him for being so cute.
Why must Arceus curse me with this stupid crush? Okay maybe I'm being too bitchy and pessimistic about it but I still find it reasonable to ask (out of nowhere) why is/ does this have to happen to me? Why have I been brought back the most terrible feeling in the world out of something so small?
I even went as far as dressing up (only a little bit, I always look stunning anyways!) for him. I had worn a blue head band and simple silver hoop earings with a blue scarf that matched the headband. My bangs were parted to the side and instead of my usual pink boots these were black. I didn't do too much because I will be honest, I do care about my looks. Just for contests though, and in general but I always wore the same thing and looked decent and when it came to boys I had no thought about how I looked.
I turned to the side finding my friends coming over to me. May was skipping and Misty walked casually.
"Today's the day!" May jumped over to me in cheeriness.
"I wonder how he's gonna react..." I looked down in glumness.
"Oh come on!" Misty came in elbowing me, "What's the worst that can happen? At least he won't know its you"
I sighed. That was the worst part because if he DID know it was me...oh Arceus, the humiliation would scar me for life. I hated myself for being like this, this was over SOME BOY that I barely knew. I'm never like this, if I was it's not over a guy. I didn't want to lose pride or respect so I chose to me negative about this whole thing, at least it made me look mature mentally even though its not like anyone else was gonna know.
Class started, class past, lunch came, and then six period came. The class before the last one. I walked over to a counter that had stacks and stacks full of candy grams. I was afraid mines weren't in there and that all these irritating heart beats were for nothing. Yes, I was THAT paranoid. I found myself backed away from the stacks by Zoey.
"Hey, were very busy right now" Zoey said.
"I just need to see if mines is in there" I told her.
"Its in there" Zoey assured, "now leave, we need to prepare"
I nodded and left the stacks alone.
"Don't be so worried Hikari" Misty beamed, "Remember, "no need to worry!" she imitated me. (A/N: I'm a huge Dawn fan in RL so I say that alot)
Now was not the right time to quote me. Yes, it was my line but like everyone else it made me worry even more.
"Dawn it's going to be fine, don't dwell on it too much" May joined in.
Maybe I shouldn't be worrying. After all, it wouldn't make a difference if I worried or not because the results are gonna stay the same. Except, I don't know what will be the outcome of this. Now I'm getting worried even more! Oh great. I guess I didn't know I was showing worried expressions because May and Misty are now groaning as they looked at me.
"It's going to be fine" May repeated softly.
I decided not to worry, I really was being too paranoid about this. It needed to stop. So I smiled looking up at May and Misty.
"Okay" I said, "Lets just see where this goes"
They smiled as well.
We spent the rest of the period being stupid, letting out our Pokemon, and simply having fun since this was the day before Christmas break.
The bell rang, my heart jumped in nervousness. It wasn't because the bell loudly interuppted our fun surprising me. It was because I knew that was when my last class was about to start. Paul is in there, and he's going to recieve the candy gram.
Misty and May walked along side me. We saw Paul head straight to the classroom and we went right in. Later class had begun, Professer Rowan let us have the whole period off from class work and everyone started chatting away. The three of us sat with Lyra, talking of course.
"I need your agenda later" I told her. Today of all days was the WORST day to leave my agenda at home.
"Why?" Lyra asked.
"I'm going to the restroom. I don't wanna be here when Paul gets the candy gram..." I mumbled.
"Did you put your name on it?" Lyra questioned.
"No..."I said.
"Then there's nothing to worry about!" Lyra exclaimed, of course she would think that.
I sighed, "I just don't wanna see what happens when he gets it."
"Okay...but let me use it first!" Lyra said as she took her agenda and skipped over to the Professer.
"We'll come with you too" Misty said.
May was behind her nodding, "We'll stay in there as much as you need us too"
The girl took a freaking HOUR out of the class room. She took so long that she came right back when the people from the candy gram stands and a group od Delibirds came to our class. At least she was right on time. Lyra handed me her agenda and I quickly got Mr. Rowan to sign it, Misty and May got theirs out and got them signed too. A Delibird walked over to his desk and layed a small stack of candy grams on there.
Professer Rowan called out the names of everyone who had a candy gram addressed to them, "Barry, Melody, Drew, Conway, Lyra...and Paul" he smirked at Paul.
Lyra peaked over his desk over my shoulder looking at Paul's candy gram, "You put someone?" Lyra asked.
Paul stood up and walked over standing next to me. I quickly nodded and ran out the room, May and Misty were ahead of me. I could feel my face burning hot. I heard everyone go "Oooh" as they heard that Paul had recieved one. They also made a "Damn" sound when I dashed through the door.
"Calm down Dawn" Misty said walking up to me holding my shoulder.
I felt like those girls who were about to cry when they found out something tragic about who knows what. Yea I know, stupid. Nothing bad really did happen but I began to regret what I did. Why did I send him one in the first place? I asked myself.
In the classroom (Paul's POV)
I turned around when I heard my name. Who would send a candy gram to me? Maybe it was one of my friends or something but they knew I didn't care much for that stuff. I got up and recieved my candy gram, I stood next to Troublesome for a brief moment. Rowan signed her agenda and the girl zipped out of the room as fast as a Pikachu.
"A girls gotta go I guess" I mumbled to myself.
I looked at the contents on the outside of the candy gram, "To: Paul, From: Someone" it said, there was a mark next to the word "Someone" heh, guess this person was shy. I opened the candy gram, "Merry Christmas :) Turtwig FTW" it said. I closed it. Before anything else I needed to know who was it from.
Everyone was all up in my shoulders, why are they so damn nosy? I wasn't peaking through anyone else's shit. Plus, I was about to become claustrophobic since these inconsiderate people were clogging up my space sealing any air I could have breathed in. Okay it wasn't that serious but neither was this candy gram.
"Maybe it's a secret admirer" Barry pointed out.
"oooh" A few girls giggled.
I ignored them. I hate it when people make these stupid reactions and comments about the most insignificant things that happen. Seriously, Lyra got like two candy grams and it was from Misty and May I believe. Were they gonna assume they were a lesbian threesome? Idiots.
I turned back again, where Troublesome was standing before she had ran out of the room. Maybe it was...
Lyra came up to me. Probaly about to retort some lame joke or something. She seemed to dislike me for some reason which I never really gave two-shits about.
"What'd it say?" Lyra asked in a serious tone.
"Merry Christmas, Turtwig FTW" I told her, why the hell did she care?
She nodded and mumbled something to herself. I would have asked, but I don't wanna know and I honestly don't care.
Lyra's POV
He must have suspected it but the expression he put on said "What the hell is this?" Dense-ass, I thought. He may be cold but he was really stupid. One of the reasons why I despised him. All well, love is love. Dawn chose that over Ash. I suppose Ash is more dense then Paul though.
I walked away from the little creep after he told me what Dawn had wrote. Typical of her to write that. Just like how typical it was for Paul to put on that clueless look. Honestly I knew something about Dawn and Paul went down in Dawn's head. She told me she's been having dreams about him, there was this one dream that had been very peculiar to me. It was about Christmas but her dream happened a month after Thanksgiving break.
Flashback
I called Dawn about our twin outfits for twin day, we talked about cloths for awhile and sorted things out. After that we started talking about Anime, then moved on to what Dawn was about to tell me in class. She did text me saying that her dream was about Paul. Heh, heh. I gave him a look during class. I seriously felt bad for Dawn about her dream.
So here's what the Coordinator told me:
"Umm...It was Christmas break" Dawn began, "we got locked up in school and we found out the school had a second floor! we went down and found a Christmas tree. We ended up sleeping under it and I woke up in his arms"
WHAT THE HELL DAWN.
"So you lost your virginity under the tree?" I asked bluntly.
"What!" Dawn yelled over the phone.
"Well you said it was pleasent, and you guys slept under it" I said.
Man this was too funny.
"S-S-Shut up!" Dawn yelled again.
Back to reality
Then there was this other time...
Flashback
I talked to Dawn over the phone again, we also talked about another one of her Paul dreams.
"I had a dream that everyone assumed I liked Paul" Dawn said, she was not amused. But I was!
"Heh, heh" I laughed evilly, "You are having these dreams of him"
Again, just like last time Dawn shouted through the phone about how much she didn't like him but then...
"Sure Paul may be cute and really funny but..." Dawn went on.
"Do you hear yourself?" I said, seriously I knew Dawn was crazy but...
"What?" Dawn asked cluelessly.
I faceplamed, the two were a perfect match. Crazy, dense, stupid. It's not like I want them to be a couple though, I hate Paul and Dawn is my friend so definetly no.
"You like him don't you?" My tone went down.
"NO!" Dawn practically screamed. I do NOT.
The yelling wasn't helping her, first off I can't hear a word she's saying ranting around with "I wanna punch Paul for appearing in my dreams" and "Arrrgh! You know what!" and then, "You also appeared in my dreams so you stop doing that too!"
Like, really?
Dawn continuously went around about "Don't get the wrong idea" this and "It's not like I trust you or anything just because I'm telling you" I hope she finds a man to handle her one day, specificly Ash.
In the end Dawn decided she didn't like Paul after all. Of course the girl would deny her feelings. Just like the way she did with Ash. I just hope the next time she falls in love that she won't deny it, she and Ash were very cute.
Reality and normal POV
I talked to May and Misty in the restroom for awhile.
"He probaly thinks its stupid, what am I going to do? This is so mortifying!" I had burst into sudden embarrasment.
"Hey calm down" Misty repeated, "he doesn't know it's you"
"But I made it obvious! I ran out of the room!" Not that I regretted that anyways, it was better than seeing Paul's reactions.
"Dawn, Dawn, Dawn." May turned me around holding my shoulders, "look at me"
I nodded breathing in and out.
"Everything is fine. It's not the end of the world. Nobody knows anyways and if someone does then it'll be Misty, Me and Lyra" Got it?
I nodded again. My heart rate was about to burst before May had told me all this. Don't get the wrong idea, it may sound stupid for my heart to be torturing me because of some boy but its not my fault that it's doing this.
I've had enough of my stupid heart. If I hadn't sent that stupid candy gram I wouldn't have to feel this way. I poured my heart out to Misty and May for a few minutes.
"Dawn, stop putting yourself down for liking him. Your a teenager, this is normal" May said, "This is why your feeling so miserable right now! It's because your scared of looking like a stupid lovesick little girl but your not Dawn!"
"Well I feel like one" I grumbled, "If I'm not then why is my heart beating like this because of him?"
Misty laughed out bitterly, "Do you honestly think it makes you lovesick to have something happen to you because of a boy? Dawn you know this is just a crush, enjoy it. You know what you know. Nobody is here to judge you"
I hugged them. I should have just enjoyed this blissful feeling of a crush rather than judge myself and criticize my own feelings when they weren't wrong to begin with! I was just scared. Of romantic feelings, Paul's reactions, and especially of my candy gram.
I took a look at myself in the mirror and fixed my hair a bit. Not flawless but perfect. Though the longer I stood there in the mirror the more I knew: I may barely know him but even so, I'm not the girl Paul would even awknowledge let alone like. But that's okay, I knew it all along anyways...but why did it feel so bad?
We decided to leave the restroom, then I decided to go back in because I thought it was too soon. I didn't want to see Paul's face. I ran back almost at the restroom door. May pulled my hand back.
"Dawn" May began, "you have to face your fears" she said in a serious tone.
Misty and May dragged me back to the classroom. Making sure I wasn't gonna run away, they gripped on my arms tight. Are they serious?
We entered the classroom. Everything was normal. I peaked in the trashcan, to my surprise I didn't see a red candy gram in there. I rushed over to Lyra.
"Lyra!" I called.
"You sure took awhile" Lyra giggled.
"Well, thanks" I told her, "anyways how come I don't see my candy gram in the trash can?" I asked.
"Oh he kept it" Lyra replied.
May and Misty exchanged looks and turned to me.
"See?" May said.
What the hell...I thought, "What did everyone say?"
"They thought maybe it was a secret admirer" Lyra said.
Misty laughed out rudely.
"Ugh..." Even I knew it was beyond ridiculous.
"Hey Dawn" Melody came up to me, "you sure took a long time in the restroom"
"Uh..." I rubbed my stomach looking down with a frown.
"Ooh" Melody nodded, "I see" she then turned to Misty and May.
"We came to check up on her" May told her.
"Nosy-asses" Misty retorted jokingly.
The three of us laughed softly. This years Christmas will bring much more than candy grams that's for sure, especially of May and Misty are around. Maybe even a bit of unrequited, onesided romance?
The end of the day came. May and Misty left their dorm and waited outside of mines. Piplup followed me out of my room waiting for its friends.
"Come on guys!" I announced as Piplup wobbled along to Skitty and Horsee.
"Hey" A voice greeted.
I turned around.
Paul.
"Were you the one who sent me the candy gram?" He asked.
Silence.
I decided to play it dumb, "E-eh? I don't remember sending any of those to anyone really" I lied.
"Okay" he said, "Just let me know who you think it is, I promise I won't tell anyone" he then turn around.
Paul sounded sincere for the first time. Maybe he didn't want to hurt anyone. I should tell him.
"Wait" I said.
Paul turned back.
"Don't be so ridiculous enough to ask some random person, maybe you should check this person's hand writing or something" I told him.
"Oh" He replied, he again turned back and went home for the holidays.
Misty glared at me. May let out a sigh and shrugged. Our Pokemon looked up at us, having no clue what happened.
"Lets go..." I sighed then put on a smile, "We got places to be, and my house is the first place!"
The two agreed and as we exited the hallways out Pokemon tagged along with us. It didn't take long for Misty to fill up the silence with stupidity. We laughed and joked on the way home.
Phew, that was close I thought.