A/N : I do not own Harry Potter nor do I profit from it.
Severus remembers the day he called Lily Evans, his Lily Evans, a mudblood. Severus remembers the day his Lily Evans told him she was not his.
Severus remembers the day his Lily Evans became James Potter's friend.
Severus remembers the day Lily Evans demanded, in front of the entire school, that James Potter ask her out immediately or else.
Severus remembers Potter smirking at her and pulling her in for a kiss.
Severus remembers Lily Evans becoming Lily Potter.
Severus remembers Lily Potter bearing Potter's son.
But no one else remembers. No, Severus did not use a memory charm. He simply used a time turner many years later to rectify what he thought was the only reason why his Lily Evans ended up with Potter. After all, she is his now. She wears his wedding band on her finger. She refuses to be in his bed or change her last name yet, but Severus will wait forever for it to happen. He will not make a mistake this time.
He is not a Death Eater anymore but he is not innocent. Not by a long shot. He's a supporter of the Dark Lord but she doesn't know that. Lily wants him to join the Order but he weasels out of it every time. Lily is joining the Order. He tries to stop her but her stubborn, fiery redheaded temper prevails and he is left praying that she never gets hurt. She doesn't. Yet.
She has her secrets from him now to rival his from her. It has never been so awkward in their relationship before. She is as touchy as a Blast-Ended Skrewt and he doesn't know what to do. He hates being so helpless.
Lily is reading her romance novels again. She never tells him but he thinks she wants him to be more like their heroes. He can't be. He isn't good looking or tall or strong or rich. He's pale and thin and poor. He tells himself she doesn't want a romance novel ending but he can't help but remember how happy Lily, his Lily, used to be with Potter. He thinks he's failed her again but Lily hasn't a word of complain. So she must be happy. The war must be bringing her spirits down.
He believes with his entire being that she loves him. He has no doubts. She loves him, doesn't she? He hopes she isn't ever leaving him. He tries to remember her wedding vows but she never said anymore than thanking him for being her closest friend. His heart aches with the want to be more to her. At least Potter can't be more this time.
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