CAUTION: There is a small section of this chapter that goes beyond my normal
intimacy between Characters.


Okay… the fact that it is now 1-1 between me and Dean, I am pissed. Stupid
escaped mountain lion, and paranoid citizens. People need to read and learn
the facts before they call upon us. So I admit it, I was wrong, Dean was
right.

"Viv, Viv, wake up." Some ones shaking me.

"Back off Buck." I groan pulling the blanket over my head

"Babe, the two guys you showed up with…. They want to talk to you." He says
quietly.

Oh Buck, don't you see? I want to sleep. I don't want to talk to the
Winchesters. Anyways, it's late…I haven't slept in over a week…

Buck is an old friend. Well more than an old friend, we dated through high
school and even tried to keep it up after graduation. He's the only reason I
graduated in the first place. But with the dangers I put myself in as well
as the fact he moved, and I'm always moving around, it didn't work, but we
are still good friends. We are now in New York somewhere.

I roll out of bed walking out, in my tank top and boy briefs. Dean sits up
on the couch his eyes wide. Sam chuckles watching his brother. And of
course, I can feel Buck standing behind me like the watchdog he is.

"ahem?" I clear my throat "You have Buck wake me so you can stare I take it"
I turn to leave the room.

"Uh… Um… No… we were just…" Dean was stuttering.

Dean Stutter? Now that is odd.

Sam cleared his throat as well. "What Dingbat over there is trying to say is
we uh… have a job?"

I look back at Buck and smile "Guys, he knows what I am, and therefore has
already figured out that you are apart of that world some how."

Sam nods turning his laptop towards me "Look at this, some weird flesh
eating disease." He pointed to the screen where a picture was.

I plop down between him and his brother, I can feel Dean holding his breath
as he scans me. "Sounds more like a medical issue to me."

"True, true" Sam nods 'But, look at this…." He says pulling up another site
with coroners reports. "But look at this, all the vics have this tattooed on
their arm. And that tattoo is fresh. Look at the scabbing."

"That's no tattoo…. That's a branding…" Buck speaks up from behind us.

I turn looking at him 'Hmmm… looks like my farm boy's skills are coming in
handy again." I wink

Dean stiffens "Yeah well what the fuck is doing it." A statement not a
question.

I sigh "Who knows, some ancient bacteria was probably disturbed…."

"Would that even classify in your jurisdiction?" Buck asks.

"Well…. It could in a way…. It all depends."

Sam scrolls down "But look at this as well…. It seems like all this is
surrounding an old abandoned hospital."

I scan the page. "Oh shit…."

Dean raises an eyebrow "hmm?"

"Look at this, Belleview Hospital; you haven't heard the stories about that
place?"

Dean shrugs "I hear so much crap it now tends to go in one ear and out the
other. Not always though." He added

I groan "You are ridiculous Dean Winchester." I stand stalking from the
room.

Dean looks at his brother and Buck "What the fuck did I do?"

Buck rolled his eyes "You may be used to easy girls who will throw them
selves at you, But Vivian Blade is not one of them. I can tell you have a
thing for her and you have a lot of work before she'll ever accept you."

Dean stands. "What the hell are you saying? I don't have feelings for her"
He points in the direction I have left in.

"You may say that, but your actions don't say it, I see you checking her
out,"

"Shut the fuck up, you don't even know who your talking to."

"Dean Winchester, Vivian Blade's one weakness."

"Weakness?"

Sam perks up all of a sudden intrigued.

"Like I said, you have to work before she accepts you and the fact that you
are her weakness. She knows it, but she's in denial. But you're such an
ass."

Dean clenches his fists.

"You two are so much alike Dean Winchester. She is just like you but in a
female body."

Sam smirks "You know Buck… now that you say that I have been seeing that."

Dean turns "Shut the fuck up Sammy."

Buck laughs, "I should go help Viv."

"Help her with what," Dean demands.

"Why would you care, you don't have feelings for her." Buck says simply
before turning to leave.

"No I will go talk to her." Dean pushes past Buck.

Compared to Dean, Buck is about six inches taller, and 75 pounds heavier.
Quite the contrast.

I sit on the bed fiddling through old photo albums of me and Buck growing
up. And a lot of the pictures from when we were dating. Then I come to some
of me and my parents. Tears begin to well in my eyes when I hear a soft
knock on my door I look up seeing that it's Dean. Quickly I wipe my eyes.

"What do you want."

"I didn't make you cry did I?"

I shake my head pushing the photo album aside.

"Good… because then it would take even longer to get on your good side."

"What does it matter to you Winchester?"

"Blade, you have no idea how my mind works."

I stare at him blankly, why am I letting him see me cry? I'm Vivian Blade
for Christ sake.

"Besides, you might be saving my life again some day." He makes his way over
sitting on the bed. Wiping the tears away with his thumb. I watch him, his
actions confusing me. His touch is gentle and I don't stop him.

Clearly I'm upset, but his touch calms me. I lean over kissing him, he
advances just the same. Everything begins to happen so fast, I am somewhere
else besides in a dark bedroom at my ex boyfriends house, in the middle of
the night with Dean Winchester. Soon in the haze and passion it becomes skin
on skin……

I watch Vivian as she sleeps curled up to me.

What the hell Dean…

I think about what we have just done, how wrong it seems but how right at
the same time.

You clearly took advantage…

He skin is so soft beneath my fingertips, I hold her close.

She was upset…

I feel her move beside me, her head rests on my chest, I pull the blanket
covering her shoulders.

Things are going to be getting weird.

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I awake next to Dean, unable to tell whether or not he is awake. I'm sore,
and I feel dirty, but in a way I am comforted at the same time. I over heard
Buck telling him it'd take a lot for me to accept him, but that's because
Buck is thinking on old standards. Now I just want someone who will
understand me, and know what I go through every day.

Dean is my weakness… I have proven that today. But there is no way we can be
together as a couple, our lifestyles do not permit relationships. I will
just become a toy if I let what happened tonight continue…

I feel him move, and I look up to find him awake.

"Sorry…" I mumble, moving to pull away.

Yet he keeps his arm firmly around my bare shoulders ""Don't Vivian… just stay please…" His voice is soft something I would never have expected from him before.

What have you gotten yourself into Viv? It's Dean Winchester.