If You Only Knew Chapter 12: Teaching Ryan New Words, a twilight fanfic

.:IMPORTANT AUTHOR'S NOTE:.

I'm so glad reviewers pointed out some problems I made. I know some of the info in the beginning of the story is kinda confusing, and wrong even.

If I have time to go back and edit it, I would. But unfortunately, I can't find the time right now.

If I do, I'll make sure to let you guys know so you can have a better idea of where the story is going.

Some parts will be reinforced in later chapters, because they are important if you want to guess the cliffies I will leave you guys at later on!

Because a few people think some particular info aren't necessary, I'm going to give you a hint then, do remember that:

Edward went to Chicago for 2 years for learning purposes.

And the resident thing, let's say he knew somebody powerful in the hospital...and well his two years in Chicago counted.

(Though I'll admit I kinda messed up with the timing~ I will change it if I have the chance)

.: disclaimer :. i don't own the twilight characters

.: special thanks :. thanks to addicted2Twifanfics for going back and reviewing EVERY SINGLE CHAPTER! That was awfully nice of you! And to ElspethGordie and Isabella Rosalie for pointing out my problems. I know my past/present tense thing is really bad, but I'm not sure finding a beta would be a good idea. It'll solve the problem, but I'm very busy(meaning my schedule isn't fixed), and if I have to send chapters back and forth, I'm afraid you guys are going to have to wait a LONG time between updates. I'd rather work on it myself for now. Thanks to socceredout for adding my story in a community! It's the first time I got a story added, and I'm just so happy!:D

BPOV

Edward looked thoughtful for a moment. "Do you want to?" He threw the question back at me.

"I just….don't want things to change." I said quietly. I saw hurt cross Edward's face. "No..no! that's not what I meant. I mean, I'm scared that things would be awkward if," I swallowed, "if our relationship doesn't work out well. We're fine as friends, what if this changes everything? I—" I was starting to talk incoherently.

"Shhh." He brought his finger to my lips. "Just so you know, I feel the same way. I'm terrified of losing you, too. You mean everything to me." He thought for a moment. "How about we let things work themselves out? Not worry about how things will turn out in the end, and just follow our feelings?"

I felt the beginning of a smile, and I bit my lip. Before I could say another word, Edward snaked his arm around my waist and drew me close. I snuggled up beside him, angling myself so his face was just above mine. "I'd like that."

Edward slowly leaned down, invading my space, before finally kissing me. He was taking his time to purposefully drive me crazy! This time, our kiss was longer, more intense. The feelings coursing through my body were so new they took my breath away. This was something I had never felt before in my life. Was this what it felt like to care deeply for the other person?

We paused, and then our lips came together again, saying things neither of us was ready to voice.

It was Edward who pulled away first. I sat back, leaning against the sofa instead of Edward's chest, still feeling a bit dazed.

Edward struggled to his feet and helped me up as well, "It's getting late."

I yawned, desperate to hide my disappointment. How could he leave when all I wanted was to kiss him again? I stretched, releasing his hand in the process.

"Walk me out?" He reached for my hand again, which I gladly accepted. I walked him across the living room. When we reached the door, he took me in his arms. Our lips met again, and the passion that had been there earlier ignited in an instant. When Edward pulled back, I felt flames of desire hotter than anything I'd ever known. I knew he was feeling the same way because he was shaking. We both were.

"Can I come over tomorrow?" He asked, grabbing a quick breath and exhaled hard.

"Hmm…let me take a rain check on that." I pretended to think hard for whether I had anything scheduled tomorrow. "Yeah, I'm free tomorrow, come on over." I replied.

"Very funny, Bella." He chuckled. Edward kissed me quickly on the lips and said, "Good night, beautiful."

I was so dazzled that I didn't even remember whether I said good night back to him or not.

xXx

"Hey sweetie, you're up already." I picked up Ryan from his crib. I've already showered and brushed my teeth. I was feeling extra happy this morning. I wonder why that is? "Come on, let's get you breakfast! Daddy's coming soon!" I took him to the bathroom first to freshen up, then went into the kitchen.

I put Ryan in his high chair, and went in search for our breakfast. Suddenly, the phone rang, and I scrambled for it.

"Hello?"

"What do you want for breakfast?"

"Good morning to you, too." I replied cheerfully.

"Someone's happy." Edward laughed. "I'm serious, what do you want? I'm on my way to your place."

"Hmm…whatever you're having, I guess. I was just getting started on Ryan's breakfast."

"Okay then. Be there in ten." And we hung up.

As I was just placing Ryan's bowl on the table, the doorbell rang. I scooped Ryan up, "Daddy's here, sweetie."

"Dada! Dada!" Ryan said. I walked to the front door with Ryan squirming in my arms. I checked myself in the mirror that was in the hallway before reaching for the door. I hope I look decent enough! I swung open the door.

"Hey, gorgeous." Edward leaned in and gave me a quick kiss. I wanted a bit more than that, so I closed the door and kissed him back. However, Ryan wasn't as patient as I thought he would be; he started tugging on Edward's shirt.

"Later." Edward whispered softly in my ear before pulling back. We looked into each other's eyes, making me blush of course, before turning our attention to the little guy in my arms.

"Have we been neglecting you, buddy?" Edward took Ryan from my arms while I took the paper bag in his hands. We all headed into the kitchen. The three of us had a great meal together—it was probably the best one I've had in weeks.

We stayed inside today. Edward and I were sitting on the ground, leaning against the sofa, holding hands. Ryan came over wanting us to play with him once in a while, which we happily complied.

The only time we let go of our entwined hands was when my cellphone rang. It was Alice.

"Hey, Alice!"

"Hi! Guess what? I'm flying over to Seattle next week, I've got some work that needs to be done over there. And we've got to get a girls' night out while I'm there. Is Edward free on Wednesday or Friday?"

"Huh? Why is Edward going out with us? I thought you said 'girls' night'?"

"Who's going to watch Ryan while we go out?" Alice hinted.

"Oh." I said, connecting the dots.

"Oh is right. Now go ask. Do I have to hang up?" Alice said dryly.

I blushed, and Edward lifted his eyebrow. "How'd you know he was beside me?"

Alice's laugh rang through my phone. "You guys are always together. Are you going to ask him or not?"

I covered my phone and turned to Edward, "Do you have night shifts next Wednesday or Friday?"

"Wednesday."

"So could you watch Ryan for me on Friday? Because Alice is flying over."

"Sure, no problem." And Edward resumed playing with Ryan.

"Hey Alice, Edward's free on Friday." I said back to the phone.

"What time do you get off work?" Alice asked.

"Around five. Should I go pick you up?" I offered.

"Great! I'll arrange to fly in about that time."

When I put down my phone, Edward asked, "So….what did Alice want?"

"She says she wants 'a girls' night out'." As soon as I finished the sentence, I could tell Edward was hiding something from me. He was trying really hard not to laugh.

"What's so funny?"

"Nothing." He said, as he pretended to be engrossed in the green block he was fiddling with in his hands.

"Edward…." I started.

He grinned. "You'll see."

The following week went by smoothly. I didn't really want to make our relationship public yet, and I think Edward knew it too even if we have never talked about it. We would sneak kisses when we think no one is watching. There were a few close calls though, since it was really hard to break away from each other when our lips were practically glued together.

Edward spent his evenings with Ryan and I again. It finally felt normal with Edward wandering around in my apartment. We decided that it was time we expanded Ryan's vocabulary. We made sure we read to him before bedtime; Edward would read one night, and I would read the next night. And we explained every action we were doing in simple sentences to him. However, that particular way of teaching him new vocabulary words has its disadvantages as well.

*Flashback*

All three of us were in the living room. Ryan just slid off the sofa to play with his blocks again—his favorite toy these days, so there was a small space between Edward and I where Ryan sat a few seconds ago. We watched Ryan move blocks from one side of the room to the next, having no idea what he was trying to do. It was a cute scene, since Ryan was moving the colored blocks earnestly. He would call "Dada!" or "Mama!" once in a while to get us see what he was making. When Edward thought Ryan was going to leave us alone for a while, he put his arm around me, pulling me to his side.

The next thing I knew, our lips met in a desperate kiss.

I didn't know how long we kissed for, and because I couldn't concentrate on anything else besides Edward when we're kissing, I certainly didn't sense Ryan stopping his movements and staring at us. It was Edward who noticed Ryan looking at us. We shot apart and tried to recover ourselves from our make-out session.

"You think he's waiting for us to tell him what we just did?" I asked in a high-pitched squeak. Apparently, I haven't recovered from our kiss yet.

"Yeah, maybe so, since we do tell him everything we do these days." Edward answered.

We waited for each other to speak first. I was clearly not in the state to teach Ryan new vocabulary now, so I whispered, "You do it."

Edward cleared his throat and said, "Mommy and Daddy are kissing." Then he muttered to me, "That sounds so weird to my ears. And do I really have to get him to repeat that?"

I nodded.

"Kissing, Ryan. Kissing."

"Ss—sing! Sing!" Ryan chanted. I giggled as Edward taught him again. He said it again, closer to the actual word this time.

"Good job, Ryan!" I complimented. Ryan then pulled the two of us down from the sofa to play blocks with him.

*End of Flashback*

And so every time Ryan caught us kissing, we would have to say it again. Edward and I were like two teenagers who were afraid of being caught—only instead of parents, we were afraid of a toddler who wasn't even two yet!

I found a babysitter for Ryan this week, because I couldn't have Jessica, Angela and all my friends doing charity for me every day. The sitter seemed okay to me, and Edward thought so, too, though we came to a decision that we should still keep looking for better sitters.

Work was okay. Leah came for her check-up on Tuesday, and I got a new patient on Thursday. Otherwise, everything was normal. When I got off work today, I was extra happy because it was a Friday. I met Angela as she was coming in our rest area while I was heading out.

"I'm so glad I finally caught you! I've been wanting to ask you what happened on Saturday, but I've got loads of new patients on my hands now. I saw that you were fine this week, so I decided it could wait. What happened though? Are you and Edward…you know, good now?" Angela said in one breath.

I smiled. "No wonder I haven't seen you hanging around in our rest area. Yes, Edward and I are friends again."

"Ben told me that Edward said it was an emergency or something." Angela stated.

"It was just a misunderstanding." I said. Edward and I had gone over this part already in case Angela and Ben asked.

"That's good. Well, I better get going now. My shift's starting soon!" And Angela walked to her locker.

As I headed into the hallways, I saw Jessica. When I found out that Mike was trailing a few steps behind her, I gave them both a knowing smile. Jessica and I have been a lot closer these weeks, and I confined in her that I kind of guessed she and Mike were together. Once I spilled that piece of information, Jessica has been ranting on about her problems with Mike. I understand what it's like to have a secret bottled up in you, and you can finally talk about it with somebody. But a person can only take so many complaints at once! I've tried to be patient with Jessica, including not getting mad at her when she starts complaining, but look where that got me? Firing all my anger at Edward. I, of course, explained to him what my problem with Jessica was, and he understands that I'm helping her. He didn't ask for further details because he knows that those secrets were for my ears only.

I drove straight to the airport, getting a call from Edward saying that he got to my place already and hoping Alice and I have a good time tonight. I tried to find Alice in the crowds. How was I supposed to find a petite Alice in this?

"Bella!" I heard someone call my name. I turned in that direction to find Alice heading towards me.

"Hi Alice." I hugged her. It was then did I notice her pulling a large red suitcase behind her. "Do you want me to help you with that?" I offered.

"No, I'm fine. I'm used to it." Alice answered cheerfully.

"So…are you staying for the whole weekend?" I asked, wondering why else would she bring such a large suitcase?

"Nah, I'm flying back tomorrow afternoon actually." She said, as we headed towards the parking lot. We never had a moment's silence between us on our way to my car. Well, it was mostly her doing all the talking, but our conversation was interesting enough.

"Dinner first? I know some place we could eat." I questioned as I drove out of the parking lot.

"Sure!"

Over dinner, I asked Alice what she planned to do tonight since she seems to have a plan formed in her head. And I was right. She did have some idea of how we would spend our 'girls' night'.

It turned out we were going shopping. And I would soon realize why she brought a huge suitcase for a one night stay.

xXx

"Edward Anthony Cullen!" I hollered into the empty hallway as soon as I kicked off my heels.

It was Ryan who came to welcome me into the apartment. "Mama!" He came running out of the living room.

"Hey, honey. Mommy's home. Do you know where Daddy is?" I asked, since Edward obviously knows he should be in hiding when I come home tonight. The innocent boy tugged on my hand, leading me back to the living room.

I saw some bronze hair peeking out from the other end of the sofa, the end with a space between the wall and the sofa. A space big enough for Edward to hide in.

I crept quietly to that end, motioning for Ryan to be quiet, too. I put my hands on my hips. "What are you doing behind the sofa?" I asked when I was right behind a crouching Edward.

Edward was startled by the closeness of my voice. "Uh…looking for a toy that seems to have gotten behind the sofa?" He said meekly as he stood up and turned to face me. "So…where's Alice?"

"I drove her to the hotel she was staying before I came home. She wanted to be near the mall where her own store was at because she was checking up on it tomorrow. Aren't you going to ask about my evening?" I managed to steer back to the topic we were supposed to be discussing.

"I'm s-sure you guys had a good time."

"If you consider 'shopping my legs off' as having a good time, then yeah, I suppose so." I whacked him on the back, "You could have given me the heads-up you know." I pretended to be mad at him. I turned to Ryan, and said sweetly, "Come on, Ryan, it's time for bed now."

As I read to Ryan on the bed that night, I could feel Edward sulking on the other side of Ryan. I laughed to myself. I did have a good time tonight, and Alice was a great friend. But Edward should've given me some warning as to how crazy Alice shops so I wouldn't be so stupid as to wear high-heels on a shopping trip with Alice. I thought we were going someplace to chat and relax, so I dressed up a bit, which resulted in me changing into heels. If I hadn't said that I needed to be home since it was almost Ryan's bedtime, who knows what place Alice might take me next?

After we turned off the lights in the room, Edward headed to the front door. His eyes stopped on the shopping bags that were sitting in the hallway. "Bought something you like?"

"Add a 's' to that word, thank you very much. And Alice paid for some of those, which I tried to decline."

"Well, she knows many shop owners well, don't worry, she gets discounts." He looked hopefully at me, "So…could I see what you bought?"

"Nope." I smirked.

"Please?"

"Serves you right. And my answer is still no." I grinned.

"Fine. I do get to see them on you someday though." Edward reminded me.

"We'll see about that." We kissed each other goodnight and I shut the door.

He was right, he would see one particular dress on me sooner than he thought he would. I hope his reaction will be worth the waiting. Well, I'll just have to build up his tension then.

xXx

Next Thursday came by in a blink of an eye. Edward and I were at the airport in the evening, waiting for four people. Alice and Jasper came out first, hand in hand. Alice and I started talking right away, and Jasper dragged Edward to the car rental counter.

"They're here!" Jasper said. I began to get nervous, what would they think of me?

"Don't worry," Alice said, "Emmett is just a big oaf; Rosalie seems cool and distant on the outside, but she's a great person once you get to know her."

I gulped. I hope Alice's right. Edward put his arm around me reassuringly, and I leaned into the comfort he provided.

"Rose! Over here!" Alice called. I saw a strong, muscular man and a stunning woman walking our way.

"Come on, let's go over and meet them, Bella." Edward led me to the group.

"Guys, you remember Edward. And this is Bella." Alice introduced. "And this is Emmett and his wife Rosalie."

"Eddie!" Emmett called out. I grinned, so he called Edward by the nickname, too. I'm starting to like him! He patted Edward's shoulder, which looked more like a punch to me. "It's been a while since I've seen you!" So Alice was right after all, Emmett is just a huge….kid?

"And you have got to be the 'Bella' we've been hearing so much about!" He said as he pulled me into a bear hug.

"Nice…to…meet…you." I croaked.

"Put the poor girl down, Em!" Alice scolded. That little pixie can be very scary when she wants to.

My eyes wandered to Rose. She certainly seemed cool and composed. She must've felt me looking at her because she suddenly turned her head my way. Her eyes were blazing with fire; she looked not so welcoming anymore. But she seemed okay with the other four, why does she hate me at first sight? I haven't even said anything to her yet!

The guys finished talking. "It's settled then. Em and Rose are heading over to the fitness center first, and the rest of us are going to Bella's place. We'll stay in touch with Em and Rose." Jasper announced.

"Sound good to me, let's go Rosie, we've still got to rent a car. You choose of course." Emmett added. Rose nodded once to us, and went with Emmett.

We all went back to my place. After I paid the sitter, we all hung out in the kitchen. Ryan was already fed, so I heated up some lasagna I made yesterday for a later dinner for the four of us. We had a light conversation flowing throughout the meal. Everything was fine until Alice and Jasper decided to sneak a kiss when Edward and I weren't looking.

Unfortunately, Ryan saw. He cocked his head to the side, as if waiting for Alice tell him what she did.

Alice knew what Ryan meant, since I told Alice how Edward and I've been teaching Ryan new words by explaining everything to the little kid. I left out the part where we taught Ryan the word "kiss" of course.

"We're kissing, Ryan." Alice explained patiently to the toddler.

Ryan seemed to remember the word, because his eyes darted back and forth between Edward and I.

"Dada!" He seemed to want to get his point across but couldn't find the words to express himself.

"What do you mean, sweetie?" Alice looked at the three of us curiously. "Or should I say….who does your daddy kiss, Ryan?"

Uh-oh...Alice senses something again!

Are Bella and Edward going to tell the truth?

Why does Rose hate Bella so much?

And what will happen on Emmett's opening day?

Til next time then!

A/N:

I had lots of fun writing this chapter! Although it's the first time I wrote a chapter this fluffy :P

Sorry for the long wait! I was really busy last week, and I didn't have the time to update.

Unfortunately, there won't be an update this week either, because I've got stuff going on during the end of the week.

Maybe I'll put up a preview, but I'm not promising anything, sorry!

Again, please leave a review! If I get more than 480 reviews, then I'll consider squeezing out the preview(at least you guys won't be hanging on a cliffy for two weeks...)

I know it's a long shot to that many reviews, but like the last time, I figured if you guys leave that many reviews, it's only fair I do my part too!

Thanks! And don't forget to review!

born2bmyself 2010.08.02