*I do not own Divergent or any of its characters. I do not own the songs being displayed in the writings either.
*Also I recommend during the singing in the kitchen you should listen to the songs as they play. Or hear a segment before. I listened to all of theses while writing it. It helped to get the beat an idea.
My parents like oldies and hate modern so I am used to it this music. But if you can't tell I still do love modern.
::IN MY PROFILE I HAVE A LINK FOR ALL THE PICTURES AND NEW ONES!:::
Four Eaton November 13th 3:32 PM
Sometimes all you need is a distraction to not be afraid.
The words have replayed in my head over and over. I can't get it out.
All she did was grab my hand and a sudden warmth coursed threw my body. Heating every inch of me. Then the warmth left when she let go.
I must be crazy or my hand was just really cold! That's got to be it, right?
Next to me Tris is sleeping facing the window on her side. She looks relaxed and not as stiff when she's sleeping. Before part of her seemed rigid and worried.
Was it because of me? I don't think so because she seemed to act like the comment was never said. Why is she so worried?
My thoughts are disturbed by Tris rustling in her sleep. She seems to shake and roll her head. Her breathing paces up and becomes more apparent.
She's having a nightmare I can tell.
Reaching my hand over I gently rub her shoulder and wake her up. My fingers tingle at the touch of her. They must be asleep.
Tris shoots up from her seat and turns toward me. Still wearing the sunglases she stares at me. Then shakes her head.
"You were having a nightmare?" I state and question. She nods and then lays back down. Looking out the window into the clouds and mountains.
Turning myself over I see a grinning Zeke in another row. He is smiling real big because Shauna has fallen asleep on his shoulder. With his arm wrapped around her. She, unlike him, is still curled up and sleeping.
Just now the seat belt light flashes on. We must be in Aspen.
Beatrice Prior 1:32 PM (Aspen Time)
My nightmare was of the night Eric saw Peter touching me.
Everything was replaying in my head of that night. From Peter friends me menacing laughs to the cold glade in my shoulder.
During the dream I could feel my arm being cut into by Eric. I could feel him spelling the word I dread most. Pouring blood on the floor as the words engrave my arm.
SLUT.
Then the tip of the knife breaking in my arm on the T. Eric cursing at me for breaking his favorite knife. Yelling at me then raising his hand.
I cower in fear of the blow, but it never comes.
Instead I was awaken by Four.
I reach up on my tip toes to pull out my carryon. Then slinging the strap on my shoulder I walk out of the airplane.
From the windows I see the snow covered ground. Grass, streets, and buildings laced in the white powder.
Al strides right behind me as we exit the area. He wraps an arm around my shoulders as we walk. I look up at him and he shrugs.
"What do you have in that thing anyway?"
I look up at him and mouth dance shoes, extra clothes, money, and my laptop.
"Lab top? I haven't seen this laptop!" I shake my head at his silliness and continue to walk forward.
The airport seems less crowded then Ohara. Still people zoom in and out. Some full of life and happy, while others dark. Just floating from destination to destination. No plan on what comes next. A shadow.
Part of me is one of them. I don't know what my future will hold. Will I be a dancer? Will I sing? Will I so any of those?
For the longest time when I have never known a plan. Yes I planned events, camps, and school. After that my life is a blank slate. I never pictured myself out alone and in the world.
For being with Eric for about four years the only future I dreamed of was one were it was mine.
That's the only future I dreamed of. Yes my future may suck and it may be amazing. But the only thing I wanted my future was to be mine. At times not safe but that's what make its great. Not knowing when the next turn of events come up. Waiting for your life to turn upside down. But that what keeps you going.
Even if I'm a shadow like them, at least I come out everyday.
Because a day is a new cycle.
A new start.
A new life.
"Im So Hungry!" Uriah shrieks behind me. To be honest Im hungry too.
"I'm also hungry guys can we stop by that Pretzel Wetzel and get some food? I'm dying here." Zeke whines to us. Most of the others mumble I agree or yeah. They all seem to have jet leg.
"To the Pretzel Shop! Away!" Uriah runs like superman up to the counter and starts to order.
Marlene behind him orders too and then the others add to the bill. Al goes before me and leaves before I can order.
Dipshit. Pure Dipshit!
"What would you like Sweets?" The boy bites his lip and looks me up and down. I flush in embarrassment. I can't even tell this guy I'm not interested.
I hold out five fingers. Showing I would like number five, the cinnamon pretzel.
"You can have that if I can get a side order of you." He smirks at me. Flipping his black greasy hair back. Showing some piercings on his eyebrow.
I can't stand those piercings on men.
Still I shake my head at him answering no.
"Damn playing hard to get are we?" What's even 'to get' about me.
I just hand him my Six credit card. Tori told me to use the credit card for expenses on this trip. She said that the studio likes to thank their artists time by time.
"Oh, I was going to pay. You didn't have to. I actually got this card from my recorder so I could pay things like this." A deep voice says behind me. He got a card from Tori also I guess.
"Sign here. Feel free to add your number too." The boy once again flips his hair. Making grease practically hit my head. Behind me Four grumbles from his comment.
Why would he be upset?
Instead of even thinking I just sign the small screen. Making sure Four doesn't see the Six signature.
I am thankful the cashier ignores to look at the screen. He just taps the accept button and stares at me hungry. While I stand in disgust of the pig he is.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
Tapping my foot I wait for the pretzels. When all ten show up I pick up the tray of them. Then find Al and shove the tray to him.
He was suppose to be my translator and right hand man. He failed, so strike one.
"Oh did I not order for you? Sorry sweet cheeks?" Al sheepishly shrugs his shoulder. Then Shauna opens her mouth and the most hilarious thing comes out.
"Are you two dating? I mean you just called her sweet cheeks, your arm is around her, and you are so close!" Just then Lynn starts to choke on her pretzel. She is now coughing up part of her pretzel.
"Oh My God Lynn Your Choking!" Marlene yells as she slaps Lynn's back.
Lynn seems to cough up or swallow the piece of pretzel. Because now she's laughing a little.
"Are you alright Lynn?" Shauna the concerning sister asks.
"Yeah I'm fine. It's just him and her! Ha! You think their together! Ha ha! That's funny because he's.." Before she can say Gay I elbow her in the gut. In her midst of laughter she forgot that he doesn't want them to know yet.
"Lynn was saying that Tris and I are really close friends." Al finishes for her. Marlene mutters a sure and we walk out to where the car would be.
"OH MY GOD ITS THE CHASM! CAN I GET YOUR AUTOGRAPH!" A girl squeals next to us. She bounces up and with her orange hair. Or red I can't even tell.
"Shhhh. Only if you stay quiet we are trying not to make a scene. Rather not be swarmed by fans." Zeke whispers.
The red head girl clamps her mouth shut and nods vigorously. She pulls out her phone and all four of them sign the case. Four, ha, I didn't realize that!
She squeals once more and hugs Uriah. He hugs her slightly back and she giggles.
"Thank you! I love all of you! I can't believe I see you in person!" I thought this Christina was bad for squealing once. This chick just brings it to a whole new level.
"We have to go. Thank you for being quiet." Will tells her and then I see a driver with a sign.
Pedrad.
Uriah waves at the man and he nods.
"Mr. Pedrad and friends nice to meet you. I am your driver this afternoon. My name is Robert."
Now taking a closer look at the man I notice he's very familiar.
His short strawberry blonde hair, chocolate eyes, and faint freckles. The freckles look like they come from working outside a lot. He's not too tall but taller then me. With a lean built.
He's Robert from my home town. The Robert who lived next door to us. With a sister named Susan Black. She and Caleb had crushes on each other.
But he's here.
He knows my real name.
"Nice to meet you Robert." Uriah shakes his hand and he directs us to the car.
Pilling Into the the limo a hand grabs my arm. I look up to the face.
"Beatrice is that you?" I am in a hoodie and sunglasses how could he tell?
"I think your mistaken Robert. This is my friend Tris." Al tells him. Robert just moves to the front seat saying.
"Oh I'm sorry. It's just you look like her."
Once in the limo Robert drives us to the cabin. According to Lynn they got a cabin in a quiet area. The cabin has five bedrooms meaning I will be sharing a room. Either with Lynn or Al because I would like to show my hair and take off these glasses at one point.
No one seems to talk to much in the car. So I plug in my ear buds and listen to recordings of a my songs.
According to Tori I need to listen to them and hum when I have free time. I helps to build confidence on stage. So your song comes naturally and you don't have to worry about it.
So I look out the window and hum along to a couple songs of mine.
Then Lights turns on.
I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown
And I'm not sleeping now the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine It when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine It when I'm alone
Home
Noises, I play within my head
Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing
And I think back to when my brother and my sister slept
In an unlocked place the only time I feel safe
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
Home
Yeah, hee
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
Home, home
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Home, home
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Home, home
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Home, home
Light, lights, lights, lights
Light, lights, lights, lights
Apparently I zoned out of a couple conversations because Al has to shake me to get my attention.
I pull out my ear buds and look towards him.
"Finally! I have been trying to get your attention. But noooo! You just keep humming to your music." I just shrug at him. Then he snatches my iPod and plugs it into the speaker back here. But I change my music to classical when he plays it.
"You listen to classical?" Will asks me. I nod at him.
Uriah moves his hand towards the iPod and I swat it away. No one messes with Tchailkovsky Nutcracker Suite.
"Ow!" He squeaks.
"Don't mess with her and this! I have come in to her room too many times and seen her dancing to it." Lynn tells Uriah. By now I am moving my arms and legs slightly. Going through my dance in my head.
"By the way did you get the tickets for your show?" Lynn asks turning towards me.
"What show?" Christina pipes up.
"Shes dancing in the Nutcracker for Chicago's finest dancers." I shake my head at Al's response.
"She just being too humble for her own good. So just ignore her."
"It's not that hard when she doesn't talk." I knew he wouldn't like me. This just proves my point that I would disappoint him.
"You don't have to be a grump Four. You will get your girl in time. Until then don't lash out on others." Christina snaps at him.
"Girl?" Al the Dumbshit asks.
"The Dauntless Beauty. He can't find her anywhere and he can't get her out of his head." So the feeling is mutual. Because I can't get him out of my head.
"I'm sorry to interrupt your conversation but we are here sir." Thank you Robert!
"Thanks Robert." Uriah says as we exit the limo and grab our luggage. Al ends up carrying most of mine.
Before I leave Robert pulls my hand. He slips a paper inside it.
"Nice name Beatrice. Call me please. I want to know how your doing." He whispers to me. I smile and hug my childhood friend. Then wave goodbye.
Walking up to the door the snow crunches underneath my feet. I look up to a wooden house. The large home is made completely of wood and some stone. Icicles hang from the roof and deck. While snow covers the roof in a white blanket.
Opening the door I see the cabin styled home. Wooden furniture, colored blankets, leather chairs, antler chandelier, cozy couch, and wooden fireplace.
The living room and dinning room is conected. As is the kitchen. Up above on the edges of the walls you see the second floor hallways. Giving the living room, kitchen, and dinning room a large ceiling.
"So we need to figure out sleeping arrangements." Shauna says as I close the door.
"Each room has two beds. So how about guys bunk together?"
"Won't work Zeke. Only if a girl then bunks with a guy."
"Not It!" Christina
"Nope!" Shauna
"Never!"Marlene
"Ha ha! Tris you can't speak so you get to bunk with a guy!" I punch Lynn in the shoulder.
"Since you got forced into that one how about you choose your roommate." Shauna tells me.
Most girls would choose the guy they like but I won't. Why force a relationship? It's better if it just happens. Even if mine will never happen.
So I point at Al and he grins.
"I'm honored Mil Lady." He uses his fake British accent and interlocks our arms. We both rush upstairs to find the best room.
We both split up and take two ends of the hall. The others race behind us trying to get a good room.
The first room is okay but I know their is one with a balcony. I saw it from outside the house.
The second room is better it has a larger bathroom. But still no Balcony!
Then I rush to the last room in the hallway. Bingo!
This room has two king beds instead of queens. It's larger then the others, has a thermostat, and best of all the balcony.
I whistle loudly to Al. He comes running in and drops some of our bags. Then has a shit eating grin plastered on his face.
"Score for Lord Dipshit!" He yells out the door. Then Lynn comes in with followers.
"Not fair! Tris should get a smaller bed! She's the smallest!" Christina whines.
"Tuff luck! I'm not small like Tris either." Al sneers at her. Throwing his suitcase on a bed.
I open a door off to the side and see a large closet.
"You will pay for taking my room!" Christina stomps off.
Al goes downstairs to get the rest of my luggage and I unpack.
I can't believe how much clothes he had me bring!
Folding and hanging them in the closet. I go from one pile to another.
It's like he packed for a month!
I take off my sunglasses off and fall back on my bed.
The comforter is luxurious! This even feels like Egyptian cotton sheets. I take it back I think they are Egyptian cotton. Rolling over I embed my head in the pillow.
I hear the click of the door knob turn and then open.
"Oh sorry I thought this was the room Zeke chose." His deep voice startles me. I look up just as he leaves. Looking at his back I notice a tattoo poking out of his shirt.
He has a tattoe too? I wonder what it is?
I got myself a tattoo this week. I decided I needed something that shows I have changed.
On my right lower back lies a open bird cage. Then flying up towards my left shoulder blade is ravens. This stands for multiple things. The cage represents being open and free. That I am no longer beaten or caged. I can be who I want to be.
The birds symbolize the ones I love. The three I have already left behind and future ones to come. But what matters is where they are flying. The ravens are flying where my heart is. Not in the obvious front where all can see, but in the back.
Because love is never predictable.
Walking outside on the balcony I take in a deep breath.
It's beautiful out here. With the crisp cold air and gentle snow. Evergreen trees surrounded in white water droplets. Footprints lacing to our door and the sun shining on the white ground.
"Zeke it's gotten to the point that I am starting to forget things about her. I don't even remember what color her eyes are exactly. Just some kind of blue color." Looking over I see they opened the window a little.
"Are you sure your forgetting her?"
"Yes! I remember in my dreams but otherwise my memory is slowly becoming a blur. But I do remember her voice. That I won't forget."
I walk into the room before hearing anymore. It's rude to eavesdrop.
Even if it is about me.
"I finished unpacking for you." I smile at his nice gesture.
"Thank you." I say. After not talking all day my voice has returned, but it will leave after tonight.
"Did I just hear her speak?" Uriah pops his head through the door and wall.
"Yes you did Uriah."
"She speaks!" Shauna pops up behind him.
"Is it that shocking I can speak?"
"When we haven't heard you talk before, YES!" He yells. Soon all but Zeke and Four are in my room.
After hearing that Four won't recognize my eyes surely I don't have to wear the sunglasses. As long as we keep some distance right now we will be good. I just need to hide my hair and voice from him. Those would be definite give aways.
"I want to hear her speak!" Marlene pleads sitting on my bed.
"Nope I forbid her to speak anymore. If she uses what voice she has now on useless stuff she won't have voice for later." Al tells her. He acts very tough saying this. As if he's a strong leading male. Ha I crack myself up.
"Hmmp that's sad I wanted to hear her too." Christina now sits right next to Marlene.
I leave the party in my room and walk downstairs to the kitchen. I was told food would already be in the cabinets.
Surely enough when I open one I find cereal. So looking around I eventually find a cabinet with coffee and tea. Then I spot a kettle and a cup.
I fill the kettle and set it on stove top. While turning the stove on I hear footsteps coming down the steps.
If we are going to stay here for some time we should have some baked foods. I look for ingredients in the kitchen.
Then out of the corner of my eye I see an iPod Dock. It's inside the wall of the kitchen. So I plug in my IPod and click Classics.
Then I hear Baby Love turn on.
"Oooooh baby love my baby." Christina sings from the breakfast bar. She gets up and grabs a wooden spoon and sings.
"But all you do is treat me bad." Marlene and Shauna are her back ups.
I chuckle and finish getting my ingredients. Flour, pumpkin, sugar, nutmeg, salt, cinnamon, and eggs left.
"Missing ya. Miss kissing ya."
I have all the ingredients for the baked treats. So I grab a bowl and start to mix the eggs and sugar. Then preheat the oven.
"All of whole life through I never loved no one but you."
I find myself humming along as I sift in flour. The girls continue to sing and dance across the hardwood. As I pour the batter into pans then placing them into the oven.
Just as the song September plays the boys come down and join the singing. Uriah steals the spoon from Christina and sings.
"September. Do you remember? As we danced the night away." He sings alone while the rest look to see what I'm all making.
Then Uriah twirls Marlene as he sings. Will is now dancing and twirling with Will. Shauna and Lynn for once are acting like sisters. They are dancing together and laughing.
Then Al sits bobbing his head. If he could he would be dancing, but it's his tough act forbidding him.
I clean out my previous bowl and start to crack some eggs. Throwing the egg shells in garbage I see the spoon has been past to Shauna. As Money, Money, Money plays.
I guess they like my oldies play list.
"I work all night. I work all day. To pay the bills I have to pay."
"Ain't it sad." Marlene and Christina chime in.
Whisking the eggs and sugar into a foam I watch them dance and sing. They slide on their socks back forth. Snapping and coming towards Shauna. Shauna is becoming full diva singing.
"And win a fortune in a game. My life will never be the same."
All three come together dancing in sync as I add Andes mints to the meringue.
"Money, money, money must be funny. Its a rich mans world."
Then the other oven dings telling me it's ready. I plop the meringue on cooking paper on sheets and set it in the oven. Then I turn off the oven. They are suppose to set in that oven for twelve hours.
"OOHhhhhh! Uptown girl! She's been living in an uptown world." Will now has possession of the spoon. He apparently is singing Uptown Girl with Uriah.
Marlene and Shauna point at Christina as they sing. Will is now singing to Christina. It's obvious he likes her and the song proves it. Christina I can tell likes him.
Al sits with Lynn now commenting on both of them.
But where is Zeke and Four?
That's when one of old time favorite songs come on. So I steal the spoon from Will and sing Never Let You Go.
"I've been a waiting since I can't remember."
I change my voice to match hers on the song. So no one but Al or Lynn will know its Six.
"Do you know I'll never let you go."
My mom and I used to love this song. We always made a CD for car rides or driving anytime. When this song came on it was our song, because the message. I love my mother to death. I would never leave her or let her leave me. Even if we are miles away we will never fully part.
"But then I found you. Do you know I'll never let you. Never let you."
"I'll never let you go!" Again the pairs are dancing together. I even got Al to dance for a while too.
"Never let you. I'll never let you go."
A small applause awaits at the end. So I bow and then another song I love comes on.
By now my kettle of water is ready for tea. So I pour myself a cup and whoever wants one.
I take a sip, but I am locked on to the piano playing. So I give in and sing to the song.
"Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world. She took the midnight train going anywhere." Again I change my voice a little. But then as I'm about to sing I hear something.
"Just a city boy. Born and raised in south Detroit. He took the midnight train going any ware." His voice could make me fall to floor is I wasn't leaning on the counter.
"A singer in a smokey room smelly wine and cheap perfume."
"For a smile the can share the night." He answers back to me. Coming towards me in the kitchen. Then everyone is singing Don't Stop Believing.
"Hiding somewhere in the niiiiiiiiighhhhhht!" They all sing to the song.
Our moment may have been short but it felt somewhat everlasting. For a moment in a long time I got to stare at those deep blue eyes.
While he may not see me; I see him.
I've so far made pumpkin bread and Grinch Feet. Let's see what else I should make or get in town.
"Strangers waiting. Up and down the boulevard is shadows. Searching on the night." They shout and sing.
We don't have sandwich bread or any bread! This has got to be fixed!
On the bottom drawer I find some aprons. I pull over a black one and find myself a bowl.
Sifting my dry ingredients I hear Zeke start to sing to Bust a Move. He is really good rapping.
"Okay smartie go to a party." Now that my ingredients are mixed it should sit and rise.
"Next days function. High class much-in." I place it in a bread drawer when I hear Shauna jump up from her seat. Now she's singing to Zeke. They both like each other it's obvious.
"So come on fatso and just bust a move." Zeke pushes his brother into Marlene hinting at something. Uriah fake looking hurt from being called fat.
"If you want it. You got it. If you want it baby you got it." Shauna sings.
So if I'm already in the kitchen cooking I might as well make dinner for us. Otherwise I'm sure we would get takeout if I don't. Taking a sip of my tea I think of what they would want for dinner.
Opening the fridge I see some chicken breasts and lemon. Lemon chicken breasts!
So I pull those out and find a a pot for the oven.
Then one of my songs play. But I'm not the one singing. Im getting sung to.
"Listen baby. Ain't no mountain high ain't no valley low. Ain't no river wide enough baby." I turn around to see Four singing with the spoon. I grab the whisk and strut up to him and sing back.
"If you need me call me. No matter where you are no matter how far."
"Don't worry baby." He sings back to me with a smirk.
"Just call my name I'll be there in a hurry you don't have to worry." He smiles at me and then we both sing.
"Cause baby there's ain't no mountain high enough! Ain't no valley low enough! Ain't no river wide enough! To keep me from getting to you baby." I dance swaying my hips.
While he sings his verse I pull out the pumpkin bread and set it on a cooling rack. Then I sing with him while making rice for the chicken.
"Cause baby there's ain't no mountain high enough! Ain't no valley low enough! Ain't no river wide enough! To keep me from getting to you baby." He's on the other side of the counter singing to me. While I season the chicken and add broth into the pot. Then all my seasons and water.
"Oh winter cold can't stop me baby."
"Nah nah baby." For once he's I smiling a true smile.
"Cause you are my own."
Now that the rice is partially cooked I add it to the pot roast. Then slip it into the oven with were the pumpkin bread was.
"My love is alive. Deep down in my heart though we are miles apart." He is now grinning even madder as he sings with me.
"Cause baby there's ain't no mountain high enough! Ain't no valley low enough! Ain't no river wide enough! To keep me from getting to you baby." I scatter flour across the counter and sing with him. Then I lean into him across the table and leans in too. Both of us singing and he leans till we are inches apart.
The song is coming towards the end now.
Wait! He may see it's me or worse kiss me!
I lift my palm up and blow flour into his face. Ending the music and singing.
"Your gonna pay for that!" He runs around the breakfast bar and throws me over his shoulder.
As he grabs my waist, pulling me up, electricity courses through my body. It surrenders me speechless. All I do is pound on his back.
"Uriah please open the door. Tris here needs to spend some time in the snow." Uriah grin evilly and runs to the door.
"AL IF YOU DONT HELP ME THIS INSTANT I WILL REVOKE OUR DEAL!" I screech so I don't sound like myself.
He jumps up in an instant and shouts at Four.
"FOUR! DROP THAT GIRL THIS INSTANT! IF I HAVE TO I WILL REMOVE HER MYSELF!" Four doesn't listen so Al stomps over and pulls my arms without Four noticing. So I just slide over his shoulders into Al.
"Whoa what was that? Al why did you help her? What is this deal?" Christina questions. Leaning against the counter. Pearling into us.
"See Al here wants to sleep. She falls asleep listening to music and their deal was that she wouldn't. Because when she does she will sing in her sleep. So the deal was that she wouldn't so he could sleep." The real deal was that he could dress me up for my concert, but no of them need to know that. Thank you Lynn for the quick lie. Except Christina doesn't seem to buy it but she quiet.
"As much as I would love to see her thrown in a snow pile, I need sleep. If you want to get her back Four just help Christina. She's mad that Tris stole the better room."
Now Fours grin is gone. He has gone from free Four to cold Four.
They all sit at the table as I make the bread. Kneading it and twisting it into shapes on the pan.
By the time I have finished I see no one is in here anymore. I have an hourish till the chicken will be done so I should take a shower.
I throw my apron down a laundry shoot and make my way to my room.
Once inside I throw off my sweatshirt. After hiding my hair in a hoodie all day it's quite frustrating. I mean who wants to have your hood on all the time.
I then slip off my leggings and Uggs. Leaving me in my undergarments.
So I go and take my shower.
(We already had the discussion I don't narrate showers. Talk about creepy.)
I have never realized how hard it is to not sing in the shower! Seriously it's nearly impossible.
Again I need my voice for tonight's concert but other then that I can speak this weekend. Unless it's I front of Four then I can't.
Opening the bathroom I wear only a towel on my head and body. Al and Lynn sit criss cross applesauce on his bed.
"We just got the third degree on you."
"How we met and everything! I did tell them the truth mostly. It was hard too, cause of Candor Christina." He groans. I just raise my eyebrows in confusion. Candor Christina?
"See Christina will learn your quirks. So she will know if your lying. That's why Candor."Ahhh that's why the name. And why she didn't buy Lynn's lie.
Lynn jumps off the bed and walks towards the door. Al follows behind.
"Leave your head towel on. Otherwise act like your tired and put on pjs. Then we will dress you up and sneak you out." He says before slipping out the door
I pull on some navy and white polka dot pajamas. They are some silk ones that Al made me buy.
Ooo! He was right these feel amazing!
Checking the time I see that the chicken will be ready soon. Running out of my room I jump on the banister and slide down. Then running and sliding into the kitchen.
I pull out ten plates and silverware sets. Setting the table I wonder where are they?
Slicing up some apples and pears I hear footsteps.
"So where are we going for dinner?" Uriah asks turning around.
"McDonalds I think." Zeke says coming out from what I assume is the basement.
"I made dinner actually." Both of them look at the table and then me.
"TRIS MADE FOOD! SHE MADE DINNER AND ITS READY!" Zeke wails. Then like bulls most of them come stampeding in here.
"WE ARE KEEPING HER! SHE MADE ME FOOD ITS OFFICIAL I LOVE HER!" Uriah screams while sitting down in a chair. So I set down the fruit and then pull out the bread. Once I open the oven the smell of crisp fresh bread and chicken fill my nose. Placing both on the table I take of whiff of the herbs and lemon baked inside.
Uriah piles food on his plate as does Zeke. Will, Al, and Four are more considerate like the girls. While I just take two peach slices, spoonful of rice, and a sliver of chicken.
I'm never that hungry.
"We are definitely keeping you. You cook better then my mom." Uriah's mouth is full when her informs me this.
"God damn Uriah is right! You are a good cook Tris." I just shrug.
"Marlene is telling the truth. This chicken is melting in my mouth!" Then Christina stuffs another piece in her mouth.
They continue a conversation while I finish my meal. I feel a pair of eyes staring into my head but I refuse to look up. If I look up I won't be able to look away. I will be caught on his deep blue eyes. Dancing with the lights that reach out and touch my heart. The ones that give me a sense of tingling. Eyes that make every fiber in my body feel alive. And right now they are on a spotlight staring straight at me.
I pick up my plate ignoring the eyes that still are on me. Setting my plate in the sink I fight the urge to look back.
My fear is he will notice it's me. I know once he knows it's me he will be disappointed. He won't want me and I will be crushed.
Crushed by something I never had.
Even at the slightest chance that he would be with me I can't. Whatever I thought I felt that night is delusional. I know deep down he is special, but I'm not sure about love.
Love is not a word I am okay with. I have only said I love you once and it didn't end well. That word only meant he would beat me harder or carve deeper in my arm.
Love, Im not capable of.
"Why are you in your pajamas Tris? We are going to a Six concert tonight." WHAT! I was never told this! Al you sneaky bastard! You didn't tell me!
"Tris said earlier she wasn't going to go. That she was too tired and just wants to sleep." Lynn confides to them.
I wave at them and hop up the stairs. All of them say some form of goodnight to me.
Once my door is closed I open up the closet. The dress is already set up for me with tights and heels.
Throwing my towel off I slip off the pants and pull up my tights. Then take off the shirt and pull on the dress
The dress is black until it reaches right below my bust. Then it shines and sparkles in gold. Shimmering at every move and reflecting light. Leaving only a strap of gold out a black draping comes out from part of the gold. Giving the gold a belt affect. The draping then warps up and around my neck into a halter top.
Underneath the dress in tan tights showing off my legs. Below is gold glittered sandal strap heels. Lines of gold interacted and wrap around my feet.
Because my scar is visible I pull out some concealer and cover it up.
Al said for my first performance I need to make an impression. So he said sticking me in a flashy gold dress would do the trick.
From what I see it does.
My door silently opens and Al comes in.
"We are going to leave not for a while. I told them I would get dressed before you fall asleep."
"So when is my ride coming?"
"Tori said the driver will text you when he's here. You just climb down the balcony."
"Then I'm wearing heels later. Those aren't made for climbing." I say kicking off my shoes and slipping on tennis shoes.
"Also you didn't tell me they were going!" I whisper shout at him.
"They won't see you. Calm down. Tori hooked them up with back stage passes."
"So you just distract after the show. Otherwise it's your neck I'm going to ring." I point at him while saying this.
Just then my phone dings and I see the car driver is here.
"Break a leg sweet cheeks!"
"Have fun distracting Drag Queen!"
Then I go out on the balcony.
Wrapping my leg around the railing I secure myself while going on the other side.
Below me is a wooden pilar holding up the balcony. Then at the bottom is the patio.
I swing both of my legs around the pole. Still holding onto the railing I take a deep breath.
Then I let go and slide down to the patio.
After getting up I brush snow off me. I hear a thud and see the heels and my purple Northface jacket.
"Kisses!" He shouts at me as I run off with both of them.
Because I have a concert to get to.
*Whats up my Peeps!? I hope you had a wonderful Labor Day weekend! I spent mine not doing much actually. All my friends were busy and my family didn't do anything. School has gotten better with work. I caught up on my work and all my readings.
See I have all honors, photography, the play, tech, and a life besides this. If it was just school work I could post everyday but with all my other her stuff I can't. Except this chapter was suppose to be posted Friday but I had an 'issue'.
I don't like to rant to all of you but this was uncalled for. The 'issue' was a distasteful review. It described me as an 'dumb-ass b*tch'. And here I quote 'You must be stupid if you can't have school and post. You act so cool on your profile but your a b*tch really. Because you can't post this damn story. You dumbass b*tch need to shut up and post. Other people want to read it so just post it you c*nt.'(I replaced the profanities with symbols) AND THEY DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE NERVE TO SIGN IN AN ACCOUNT! YEP THEY SIGNED AS GUEST, I JUST CLICKED DELETE!
Im sorry you had to read that. It's just very disrespectful to say those things. That is why I did not post this Friday.
So on a better note I actually have a contest for all of you! Since I still feel terrible about what that pathetic person said I would like a review or PM. The best review or PM of this story will win a reveal about what twists come up soon, a shout out, and they get to add something to the story. Good Luck!
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