hey guys, i'm really glad you liked the previous chapter, i hope you'll enjoy this one too !
Thursday, November 21st. 09:30 am. Samantha Robins' apartment.
Olivia and Amanda just arrived in front of Sam's porch, after knocking several times, nobody answered the door.
"She's not here" Said Olivia, disappointed.
"Maybe she's just asleep? i'm gonna call her on her cell" Proposed Amanda, while taking her phone out of her back pocket.
"Mhh...She's not answering" Said Amanda, genuinely worried.
"Let's ask the neighbors, maybe they know where she is?" Suggested Olivia.
Amanda nodded silently.
Olivia and Amanda headed to Sam's neighbor's apartment, after Liv knocked twice on the door, an old lady appeared.
"Good morning ladies! what can i do for you?" Said the old woman, smiling.
"Good morning ma'am, i'm sergeant Benson and this is detective Rollins, NYPD, we're here to see your neighbor Samantha Robins, but apparently she isn't home, did you happen to see her last night?" Asked Olivia.
"Oh Sammy! what a lovely girl, she's a doll, she's like the daughter i never had ... in fact i saw her last night when i was walking my dog ... mhh ... though she seemed a bit off ... and her eyes were red and puffy! she didn't even notice i was there ... and before i could say anything to her she was already gone ... she went home & i never saw her since ... i was gonna go to see her after walking my dog but it was really late, she must have been sleeping by then " Answered the old woman, then she added, worried " ... is she in some kind of trouble?"
Olivia and Amanda looked at each other worried, none of them answering the old woman's question.
"We really need to talk to her, Ma'am ..." Said Olivia, impatiently.
"Oh wait, i have a spare key of her apartment ... sometimes i cook a pie for her & i leave it in her oven ... she's such a busy girl with her studies! she barely has time to eat something!" Said the Old woman.
"You do?! yes please Ma'am!" Replied Amanda, concerned.
The old woman walked Liv and Amanda to Sam's apartment & proceeded to open the door. After they got in, the old lady started to call Sam's name.
"Sammy...honey? Are you here?" Gently yelled the old lady.
Nobody answered her.
Amanda walking towards the bedroom, opened the door and found Samantha Robins lying in her bed with an empty bottle of medications near her.
"Liv! CALL A BUS!" Yelled Amanda, while running to Sam to check her pulse then added, in panick " SHE'S NOT BREATHING! SHE TOOK A WHOLE BOTTLE OF AN ANTIDEPRESSANT!"
Amanda started performing a CPR procedure on Sam to get her to breathe again.
Olivia headed fast towards the bedroom while taking her radio and shouted "Dispatch! Send a bus at 55 central park west, building C, apartment 2! we have a suicide attempt , a twenty one year old girl who ingested a full bottle of antidepressant! hurry she's not breathing!"
"oh my god ! Sammy!" Yelled the old woman, sobbing.
"Ma'am step back!" Ordered Olivia.
"SHE'S NOT BREATHING LIV! SHE'S NOT BREATHING!" Yelled Amanda in panick while still performing CPR.
Five minutes later, the paramedics rushed into the apartment.
"Step back detective! we got it from here !" Ordered the paramedic to Amanda, then they proceeded to intubate Samantha.
"I ... i tried everything ... She's not breathing ... she's not breathing ...i... couldn't... save ... her ..." Stuttered Amanda with a low voice, while putting her hands over her head, tears falling down her face.
Olivia trying to keep the old lady away from Sam's bedroom, didn't notice Amanda's behavior.
"We got a pulse! " Yelled the paramedic to his colleague, then added "We need to take her to the hospital now!".
Amanda in shock, couldn't believe that Sam was still alive, she leaned back against the wall and crouched, while Olivia was still trying to get the old lady to calm down.
The paramedics put Samantha on a stretcher and headed to the apartment entrance, in a hurry.
"I want to go with her!" yelled the old lady to Olivia, sobbing .
"Okay ma'am, just calm down... she's going to be fine!" Reassured Olivia .
Olivia and the old woman followed the paramedics down stairs to the ambulance.
"She's coming with her!" Said Olivia to the paramedic, while leading the old woman to climb the back of the ambulance.
"Are you coming detective?" Asked the paramedic in a hurry .
Liv noticing that Amanda wasn't around, she took a minute before answering.
"We'll meet you there!" Shouted Liv to the paramedic.
While watching the ambulance leave, Olivia turned around to see if Amanda was near by, but she was nowhere to be found.
Olivia worried, headed back to Samantha's apartment looking for Amanda.
"Amanda! are you here?" Yelled Liv, concerned.
Amanda still crouched against the wall in Sam's bedroom with her hands curled up in fists, didn't reply.
Olivia headed quickly to Sam's bedroom to find Amanda motionless, puffy eyes with no tears while gazing away.
"Amanda? what are you doing? are you okay?" Asked Liv, while approaching Amanda slowly.
Amanda couldn't say anything. She couldn't form any coherent sentence. She was in shock from what just happened.
Olivia getting closer to Amanda, noticed that she was in shock.
"Amanda, honey... it's okay... it's gonna be fine..." Said Olivia, while crouching down to get close to Amanda.
After five minutes of heavy silence, Amanda finally spoke.
"...She...she wasn't... b...breathing...i... i... couldn't ... save ... her" Muttered Amanda, while cold tears were rushing down her face.
"Amanda listen to me... look at me!" Olivia shouted at Amanda, trying to get her attention, while putting her hands on Amanda's shoulders.
Olivia trying to reassure Amanda "Sam is still alive! she is alive thanks to you! the CPR you practiced on her saved her ...".
And before Olivia could even finish her sentence, Amanda burst in tears into Liv's Arms.
"It's okay... it's gonna be fine... you're gonna be fine ... i'm here for you" Reassured Olivia with watery eyes, while holding Amanda in her arms.
After five long minutes, Amanda finally calmed down and understood that her actions helped saving Samantha Robins' life, then Olivia stood Amanda up, holding her by her shoulder, to get her outside of that apartment to get some air.
Once they stood next to the car, Olivia said "You okay?".
"I...i'm fine..." Replied Amanda, looking down.
"Are you sure you wanna go to the hospital? Maybe you should go to the squad room and i'll call you once i know more about Samantha's condition!" Suggested Olivia, still worried about Amanda, doubting if she could handle any of this anymore.
"I'm good ..." Replied Amanda, dryly.
"Okay." Said Liv, not wanting to get any further. while noticing Amanda's febrile state.
The car ride to the hospital was dead silent. Amanda was still reminiscing what just happened to her back in Sam's apartment, while Olivia couldn't help but notice Amanda's continuous febrile state, but decided not to say anything, wanting to give her some space.
...
Thursday, November 21st. 11:30 am. The misery hospital.
After Liv and Amanda arrived at the hospital, they headed to the information center of the hospital asking about Samantha Robins.
"Dr Clause will be with you in a moment, he's the doctor in charge of miss Robins" Explained a nurse to Olivia.
"Alright, thank you" Replied Olivia.
Ten minutes later, a tall handsome man, approximately forty years old, wearing a white coat, approached Olivia.
"Detective? i'm Dr Andre Clause" Said Clause, introducing himself to Olivia while shaking hands.
"it's Sergeant Benson" Replied Olivia, sharply.
"Sergeant! my apologies..." Rectified Clause, then added "You're the one who found miss Robins, right?".
"Yes! how is she?" Asked Olivia, anticipating Clause's answer.
Amanda is at the back, catching every word of the conversation.
"She's stable, but it was close. she took a strong dose of a very dangerous antidepressant. You know sergeant ... i was informed by the paramedics that you performed CPR on her before they came! she owes you her life!" Explained Dr Clause.
"Oh no Doctor , it wasn't me...It was detective Rollins who performed CPR on her " Corrected Olivia, while pointing at Amanda.
"Detective Rollins, nice work!" Said Dr Clause, while shaking Amanda's hand.
Amanda shook his hand back silently, faking a smile.
"Can we see her now?" Asked Olivia.
"Not now, she's till unconscious. when she's wake up, i will personally give you a call, sergeant" Said Dr Clause, smiling.
"Thank you Doctor" Replied Olivia, smiling back.
Once the doctor left, Olivia talking to Amanda said, relieved "She's gonna be fine, we found her in time thank god!".
Amanda didn't reply but seemed relieved as well.
"There's nothing we can do for now, she's still unconscious, once she wakes up , Dr Clause will call me" Explained Olivia.
Olivia and Amanda left the hospital, and while heading back to the car, Liv grabbed a card from her back pocket and handed it to Amanda.
"What's this?" Asked Amanda, surprised.
"I've talked to my therapist about you ... and i thought maybe you should go to see him sometime this week..." Said Olivia.
"What? what did you tell him? i don't wanna go to see a shrink !" Yelled out Amanda, angrily.
"Calm down Amanda, i didn't tell him anything, it's not up to me to tell him. I'm just concerned about you and i want you to feel better" Explained Olivia, gently.
"Are you really concerned about me or about the job?" Shouted Amanda.
"Amanda, you are my friend and I care about you. Apparently i don't think you're aware of that!" Replied Olivia.
Amanda wasn't expecting to hear her superior calling her "my friend" and claiming that she actually cares.
"I...i just don't know what to think anymore...i'm sorry Liv... i know you mean well but ..." Said Amanda looking away in despair, without finishing her sentence.
"Look, Dr Lindstrom is one of the best therapist in the city, he helped me a lot when i was going through rough patches... he still does. Just keep his card in your pocket, give him a call at least !" Suggested Olivia.
Amanda still holding the card between her hands, put it in her pocket.
"...Okay..." Said Amanda, hopelessly.
"Amanda... i trust you. I know you can make it through, and i want to help you. But i need you to trust me." Said Olivia while looking at Amanda straight in her eyes.
"...It's not that easy ..." Muttered Amanda, feeling guilty, then added "... but i'm trying to. I need time." Replied Amanda.
"I understand." Said Olivia, supportive.
