Hey guys, here is chapter 8, you'll be seeing Some Liv/Amanda moments, and a lot of individual scenes too. Bunch of stuff are about to happen in this and further chapters concerning Amanda and her friendship with Liv, but also concerning the case the squad is handling, so stay tuned! feedback is always welcomed and much appreciated. Thanks! and enjoy


Sunday, November 24th. 9:00 am. Olivia Benson's apartment.

Olivia still in her bed, just woke up from a restless night. She spent the night rolling over in her bed, dying to get some sleep, in vain. Her mind was too preoccupied with multitude of things, mostly work related. The case she was handling was tougher than usual, mainly because of lack of evidence and also the extreme fragility of the victim. But besides the case, Olivia was extremely concerned for Amanda too. She kept thinking about when Amanda asked for the rest of the day off on Friday. Olivia wanted to know why and ask her about it in a friendly way but in the meantime, she apprehended the fact that Amanda would've interpreted it badly, cause she felt that she didn't earn her trust yet. So Liv definitely didn't want to play the bossy sergeant with Amanda, and the only thing she wanted was to build a solid friendship with her based on trust and honesty.

Olivia finally leaving her bed, headed to the bathroom to freshen up. After changing her clothes, she went to the kitchen and prepared herself a cup of coffee. While she was drinking her hot coffee, she had the idea of calling Amanda to check on her.

Olivia taking her phone, started dialing Amanda's number then pressed call. After it rang for approximately ten seconds, Amanda finally picked up.

"Good morning Amanda, it's Liv!" Said Olivia smiling.

"Liv! hey, is everything okay?" Asked Amanda, intrigued.

"Oh yeah sure, don't worry! just wanted to ask about you, how are you doing?" Reassured Liv.

"Oh, that's sweet of you Liv, i'm okay... you know i thought about going for a jog just to get my mind off things..." Replied Amanda hesitant.

"That's nice... hum... i wanted to ask you..." Liv said.

"Sure, what is it?" Amanda replied.

"Would you like to grab lunch later? or a coffee around central park... to get some fresh air?" Asked Olivia, while anticipating Amanda's answer.

Amanda totally surprised by Liv's propositions, said "Hum... Yeah sure! that'd be great!".

"Great! how about we meet up around one pm in the west entrance of the park?" Suggested Olivia excited.

"Sounds perfect!" Replied Amanda with what it sounded like a smiley tone in her voice.

"Good! see you later then!" Said Olivia.

"Bye!" Replied Amanda.

After Amanda hung up the phone, she was a little bit confused from this conversation. She genuinely appreciated Olivia's concern for her, and yet she couldn't help herself but feel skeptical about this situation. She still couldn't accept the fact that someone else wanted to get close to her and be her friend. It was too much a of a commitment for Amanda because she wasn't used to this, she never had a solid friendship with anyone. Amanda was pretty good at shutting everyone off, and never made any effort at making friends. But right now, she wanted to try at least, she knew deep down that Olivia was a person of trust in general. And even with her trust issues, Amanda wanted to give Liv a shot because she witnessed how much she truly cared for her.

...

Sunday, November 24th. 10:00 am. Amanda Rollins' apartment.

It was a cold sunday morning, the sky was smothered with grey clouds and the atmosphere was heavily foggy.

Even if the weather wasn't really optimal, Amanda Rollins started getting ready to go for a jog, she really needed to externalize all of her negative vibes and try getting her focus back, because her mind was mostly absorbed by what happened in Dr Lindstrom's office. The way she opened up to him, the way she expressed things she couldn't even tell herself before. It was a new overwhelming experience for her. Once she got out of her building, Amanda felt a violent cold air penetrating her lungs rapidly. Feeling her legs shaking and her breathing accentuating, she started jogging to warm up.

It had been thirty minutes since Amanda started jogging at a stable rhythm, while releasing short breaths of fog. The weather was still icy cold, her hands were frozen and her vision started to get blurry while the air was severely burning up her lungs.

Amanda's heart beats accelerated, she started feeling dizzy, but that didn't stop her from running. She kept running faster and faster, each step that she was taking made her feel worse and close to pass out, yet she continued jogging, like she wanted to hurt herself on purpose.

She was about twenty blocks away from her apartment. While running, her mind went blank. She wasn't able to think of anything else. The pain slowly consuming her body was getting more intense, but it somehow helped her to clear her mind.

Amanda was about to cross the street, when suddenly she slowed down the rhythm and stopped immediately in the middle of the road. Fear was ravaging her eyes, Amanda wasn't sure what she was looking at, she kept rubbing her eyes in disbelief. Amanda saw Mike Miller on the other side of the street gazing at her and smiling. She felt like the time had slowed down, everything was in slow motion. Her breathing got heavier, her hands were uncontrollably shaking when out of the blue, a loud noise of a car violently braking, brought her back to reality. A cab was standing five inches away from her feet, the driver was crazy furious and kept blurting out obscenities towards Amanda who was completely dumbstruck.

A woman, witnessing the whole scene from the other side of the street, approached Amanda to pull her away from the middle of the road and brought her to the side walk.

"Ma'am! Are you okay? Oh my god! he could've hit you! It was really close!" Blurted out the woman while pulling Amanda by her shoulders.

Amanda looking at the woman, was numb. Her vision was obstructed.

Feeling someone hardly shaking her by the shoulders, Amanda gained her focus back progressively. Then all of a sudden, she turned away fastly, making the woman releasing her from her grip , and kept staring at the other side of the street, searching for the man she thought seeing a minute ago. But nobody was there.

"Ma'am! Are you okay?" Repeated the woman, concerned for Amanda.

"He... he was there... i saw... i... i saw him..." Stuttered Amanda in disbelief.

"Maybe i should call 911..." Said the woman worried.

"NO!" Suddenly yelled Amanda while looking at the woman, then added in a calmer tone "I'm sorry... I'm okay... thank you... i'm fine...".

"Are you sure?" Insisted the Woman.

"Yes, i'm sure..." Replied Amanda faking a smile.

"Alright! be careful next time, will you!" advised the woman.

"I will, thanks." Replied Amanda , still looking at the other side of the street.

Amanda didn't know if she really saw the man who raped her three years ago staring and smiling at her, or her mind was playing wild tricks on her.

In a deep moment of confusion, She put her hands over her head and let herself fall on the side walk.

"Was it him? i saw him... i'm not crazy... he found me... It can't be possible! ... God... What is happening to me..." Whispered Amanda to herself, while putting her head down in despair.

Amanda still shaking from the cold and mostly from what she just went through, decided to head back home in a cab, thinking it was safer that way.

...

Sunday, November 24th. 11:00 am. Amanda Rollins' apartment.

Amanda arrived home and headed directly to the bathroom to take a hot shower. While getting undressed, her body was shivering, she couldn't even feel her hands and her feet from the cold. She hopped fastly in the shower and let the hot water heavily pour on her quivering body. Finally feeling the warmth spreading all over her body, Amanda started sobbing uncontrollably. The tears she was shedding were so burning hot and mixed with the flowing hot water, that she couldn't even make the difference between the two of them.

Fifteen minutes later, Amanda calmer, got out of the shower and slowly walked to her bedroom to dry herself off and change. After that, she headed to the living room to lie on the couch, then the thought of calling Olivia to cancel on her crossed her mind for a minute because she didn't feel good, but decided not to call her. She thought that spending the afternoon with Liv would do her no harm.

...

Sunday, November 24th. 1pm. Central park.

Amanda heading to to the west entrance of the park, saw Olivia standing at a hotdog truck buying lunch.

"Hey Liv!" Said Amanda smiling.

"Hey!" Replied Olivia smiling, then added "I'm getting us hotdogs!".

"Just a coffee for me, i'm not hungry..." Said Amanda.

"You sure? fine! Coffee is it then..." Replied Olivia, while paying for the coffees.

Olivia Looking at Amanda, was concerned. She sensed that Amanda wasn't okay. She handed her a cup of coffee, and they started walking in the park.

"It's freezing today!" Remarked Olivia.

"Yeah, not a suitable weather for a run though" Replied Amanda forcing a smirk.

"Oh yeah, how was your jogging session by the way?" Asked Liv, trying to make a conversation.

"... Not as i expected it, the weather was handicapping... i didn't run for long then rushed home to warm up!" Amanda told Liv, without mentioning the part where she was close to get hit by a cab.

"I bet!" Replied Olivia smiling.

As Liv and Amanda were walking while sipping their coffee, the conversation went mute. Suddenly, Amanda turned pale and stopped walking, letting the cup slip away from her hands and splash on the floor.

Olivia surprised by weird noise, turned her head towards Amanda and found her completely hypnotized.

Liv fastly approaching Amanda said "Amanda? are you okay?".

Amanda still looking ahead, didn't respond back.

Olivia came facing Amanda and put a hand on her shoulder.

"Amanda, you look pale! what is it? what did you see?" Asked Olivia, genuinely intrigued.

Amanda blinking fast, turned her head down and saw her coffee spilled all over the floor, then she looked at Olivia and muttered "I saw him...".

Olivia not understanding what Amanda was talking about, wondered "Him? who is it, Amanda?".

Amanda totally frightened, kept quiet in disbelief.