Hello readers, after 9 months of absense, i'm here to present you chapter 19 of my fanfiction. I know it has been a very very long time and i sincerly apologize for this, a lot was going on, i couldn't write for a while, even right now i had really hard times finishing this fic. This story has got into me on a personal level, it's not just a simple story but anyway as promised, i finished it. There's a final chapter coming soon (I'll post it very very soon, i promise). Once again i apologize for the timing, i hope you can understand and bare with me. Crazy stuff are happening in this chapter (i guess i owed you this), i hope you like it, feedback is always appreciated. Thank you.


Pain, a physical or mental discomfort caused by an injury, a heartbreak or the loss of a loved one. Why do we seem to be wired on pain so much? Whether we inflict it to ourselves by overthinking and ruminating over a depressing past event or we inflict it to others to deliberately hurt them and scar them for life.
These were the thoughts rushing inside Amanda's mind as she was being held against her will in a warehouse. Her hands were tightly tied behind her back, her right shoulder was severely broken and she was losing a lot of blood from the stab wound on her right thigh, but it seemed as if none of that mattered to her anymore. Not knowing if these thoughts were the fruit of hallucinations or if she was fully conscious, Amanda kept on thinking about the definition of pain, how it worked and most importantly what would push people to inflict it to others. Her mind was rushing with excruciating memories from cases she'd handled, victims she'd helped, people she wasn't able to save, people who died right before her eyes, even her childhood memories, her father, her mom, her sister kim. Everything was going too fast inside her mind as if her life was flashing right before her eyes.

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Thursday, November 28th. 6:00pm. Rollins' building's basement.

A cold silence was paralyzing the air in the basement. Everyone was quiet and motionless as if time had stopped turning. Heavy breaths and the buzzing noise of a flying mosquito were the only sounds desperately fighting silence. The detectives and the CSU technicians were all hypnotized by the horrifying images shown on the computer screen. Indeed, everyone in the basement assisted to a shocking scene of the abductor, ex Atlanta sergeant Mike Miller, rubbing a bloody knife on Amanda's cheek after ripping it out of her severely slaughtered thigh.

"God," Whispered Olivia under her breath, breaking the overwhelming silence. Nick putting both of his hands over his head was stunned by the images. Not able to look at the screen anymore he turned his face away. Fin showing his intense anger, suddenly grabbed Nick by the collar of his shirt, catching him by surprise, and yelled "KEEP LOOKING! IT'S ON YOU!". Liv quickly intervened to prevent Fin from punching Nick "FIN! STOP THIS NOW! GET AWAY FROM HIM!", then added in a calmer tone while facing the two detectives "It's on you too Fin... and on me for trusting the both of you!". Olivia pointing at the screen, continued "Amanda needs our help! Do you want to witness her murder too? So instead of fighting like little girls, get back to work or i swear i'll suspend both of your asses for a very long time!". Fin and Nick sharing a glance at each other, did not reply. "Is that clear detectives?" yelled out Liv expecting an answer. "Clear," Fin and Nick simultaneously responded.

Olivia turned her back to the detectives and focused her attention on the CSU tech Rubens Moralles "Is there any way of knowing from where he's broadcasting this video?". "I'm afraid not, sergeant," Replied Moralles , nodding in disagreement, then continued "He took his precautions, he's using a special software to jam the signal... there's no way to trace him back."
Olivia looking defeated by the news, kept quiet for a minute while continuously staring at the screen, then said "Wait... The back door... he got her out of this building from the back door, right?" Asking Fin, then she continued without giving him the time to answer her rhetorical question "There's got to be some stores in the neighborhood!?". Fin understanding where his boss was heading, interrupted her "Security footage... i'm on it sergeant." Liv nodded then added categorically "Nick go with him, and when you're finished get back to the precinct... and please no more fights!". Nick executing his sergeant's orders, followed Fin through the entrance of the back door.
Olivia walked towards officer Moralles "Wrap everything up, we're going back to the precinct."
"I'm on it sergeant." Replied Moralles.

Fin acknowledging a presence behind him turned his head around "Why are you following me?". Nick replied "Liv asked me to go with you"
"I dont need your help." Said Fin annoyed, then continued walking towards the first store across the street that had security cameras outside.
Not caring about Fin's attitude, Nick replied dryly "It's not up to you anyway."

Fin entered the store first then showed his badge "Police, i need the outside security footage."
"What is this regarding, detectives?" Replied the store manager with a very pronounced accent.
"Police business," Fin replied, starting to lose his patience.
Noticing Fin's irritation, Nick decided to play the good cop on this one and intervened "Sir, please... excuse my grumpy partner, i'm detective Nick Amaro and we really need your security footage... it'll only take a moment i promise... it's very important... please."
The store manager was hesitant but decided to cooperate with them. It was the only way he could get rid of them faster anyway. As the manager shot a cold gaze at Fin, he said "Follow me detectives, i keep the security monitors in my office, in the back."
The detectives followed the manager to the back of the store and proceeded to view the security footage that covered the whole street outside the store. "Is there a particular timing you'd like to see? or you want all the videos? i mean if it's the case, it's going to take you a lot of time!" The manager said.
"Could you play the footage from 1am til 6am this morning? " Asked Nick politely.
"Let me see what i can do," Answered back the store manager then shortly added with a slight annoyance in his voice "I have to get back to my store detectives... here's the footage you asked for... press this button to play it and ... this one to fast forward it ... and this one to stop the video." "Alright, thank you for your cooperation sir," Replied Nick smiling.
"Oh and do not touch anything else! i have cameras in my office as well," Said the manager with a threatening tone as he was heading back to the front of his store. "It's not like his store is crowded with customers..." Fin smirked under his breath.
Nick focusing on the screen, kept on pushing the fast forward button when suddenly Fin yelled "Wow stop the video... there!". After Nick stopped the video when the clock on the monitor turned 2:55 am, the detectives noticed a dark van pulling over in front of the building. "You think it's him?" Asked Nick dubiously.
"There's only one way to find out... play it," Replied Fin sharply.
When Nick pushed the fast forward button again, everything went by too fast this time. The clock pointed at 3:15 am when the detectives witnessed a tall guy, carrying a passed out blond girl on his shoulder, walking at a fast pace towards the black van. The tall guy opened the trunk of the van and carefully put down the girl inside it, then closed the doors. Once he made sure no one was around, he hopped inside the driver's seat and hit the gas leaving nothing but skid marks on the asphalt. Nick felt like a frozen wind went suddenly through his entire body, he couldn't believe what he just saw, he felt even more guilty at that particular moment because he didn't protect his colleague as well as he had to. "Make a zoom on the plate number," Ordered Fin.
Nick still gazing at the screen, didn't hear his colleague talking to him.
Fin understanding that Nick was in shock from what he had just seen, didn't want to push his buttons any further and decided to let it slide. He knew that he was as responsible as Nick in Amanda's abduction, he was just too egotistical to admit it to himself. Fin realized that he had no right to treat him this way. It was just an unforgivable excess of anger and he had to control his temper from now on. "Hey... man... Are you with me? Can you zoom in, to make the plate number more visible?" Fin asked Nick as he patted him on his shoulder, gently this time.
Nick feeling a pat on his shoulder jumped out a little, and said in confusion "uh... what? Oh... yeah the plate number...". After zooming in, Fin said, as he was writing down the numbers "We're gonna catch this son of a bitch... and i, personally will stick a bullet between his eyes.".
Nick still in his dark bubble, ignored Fin's threatening comment then said "We gotta get back to the precinct. Liv is waiting."

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Thursday, November 28th. 8:00pm the warehouse.

As the darkness showed itself, progressively covering up the daytime light, the warehouse was only lit up by moonlight.
The camera fixed on a tripod was continuously filming what it looked like a passed out Amanda. As Mike miller was pacing up and down, making horizontal foot steps ten feet far behind the camera, deeply gazing at the floor, lost in his thoughts, his hands behind his back covered with Amanda's blood and as he walked, drops of blood kept on falling from the knife that he was holding tightly between his filthy hands. For the first time since his obsession for Amanda became so vivid, he strangely wasn't sure of what to do next. Mike knew that Amanda's team were actively looking for her, at least that's what he would had done if any of his detectives went missing back in the days when he was still a sergeant. In a panic moment, the idea of stopping everything and leaving the country crossed his mind for a split second but it was nonsense to him. He was blinded by revenge. None of this would've happened if it wasn't for Rollins, she was the reason he had his reputation ruined and his career jeopardized. As he stopped pacing up and down, Mike staring intensely at Amanda who was barely conscious, realized that he might be spending his last night breathing, thinking, living as a free man. "If this is my last night, might as well make it worth living," Mike mumbled under his breath, as he paced up towards Rollins, grabbing her violently from her jaw. "It's time to have some fun, honey! And then i'll end your miserable little life," Mike whispered angrily to Amanda's ear. Eventhough Amanda was extremely weak, unable to keep her head up, she was still conscious, and she realized that all the nightmares she'd been having the past year, were about to become true. Still holding her from her jaw with his left hand, "See that mattress over there?" Mike said as he pointed on the left side with his right hand. "That's where we're gonna have fun," He clarified.

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Thursday, November 28th. 8:00pm the SVU precinct.

As everyone was gathered up staring intensely at the screen, Nick and Fin entered the bureau. They could feel the tension rising as they walked in.
Olivia sitting on Fin's desk and absorbed by the screen, stood up when she noticed them "Guys, anything?" She asked in anticipation. "We got the footage of the kidnapping, we got a good look at the plate number of the van he used, nothing else," Replied Nick. "I made some calls, a friend of mine searched out the plate number on the database , the van is registered to a guy named Jeremy Gilbert, who reported the theft of his van two days before," Elaborated Fin. "So we have nothing? We don't know where Miller is? We don't know where he's keeping her..." Liv said hopelessly as she stood up walking towards the screen, which was showing a live streaming video of an injured Amanda, tied up to a chair and barely conscious. "It could be a garage, a warehouse somewhere..." Liv added while observing the screen intensely, trying to figure out all the details, anything that could help.
"Sergeant. I need to talk to you," Said the CSU tech, officer Rubens Moralles. Liv giving her attention to Moralles said "What is it?". "In private?" Muttered Moralles pointing towards Liv's office. Olivia Intrigued, followed Moralles to her office then closed the door after they both got in "What's going on?" she said. "Do you recall when i told you that Miller jammed the signal, so we wouldn't be able to figure out from where he was broadcasting the video?" He said. "Yes, so?" Replied Olivia. "Well there might be a way to unjam the signal..." Said Moralles lowering his voice. "What? and you're telling me this now?" Yelled out Olivia. "Wait! calm down! i wasn't sure! it's not something that i do," Whispered Moralles. "What?" Said Liv, not understanding what he meant. "I know a guy who can unjam it using a software... but this guy is not clean. He's a hacker... a really good one... and if IAB knows that he's involved and that i protected him, i'm finished! they've been trying to catch him for months!" Added Moralles intensely nervous. "Rubens, this is really important, Rollins is one of us! she's my detective... she's my friend! i promised that i would protect her... and i failed! you have to call your friend, and i will protect you and him, i promise you," Said Liv, desperately. "What if we get caught?" Moralles said, obviously afraid. "We won't! and if something goes wrong and they ask you, then put the blame on me... everything... on me," Olivia guaranteed him. Moralles gazing at Liv was impressed by the sacrifice she was willing to make for the sake of her friend. After a minute, he took his phone out and dialed his friend's number. Olivia noticing his gesture, looked at him smiling and nodded as a thank you. Once Moralles hung up his phone, he said "He can do it from a distance." "Really?" Replied Liv surprised. "That's how good he is, sergeant," Replied Moralles then added "All i need is the computer, he's going to transfer to me the software on this computer, and it'll take about ten minutes to unjam the signal. We'll be able to get his location easily afterwards."
"Alright, let's not waste anymore time!" Replied Olivia as they both left the office heading towards the computer.

"Guys gather up! Detective Rollins has been held in captivity for almost eighteen hours now. Mike miller is a dangerous man, we have to be ready. We'll be able to get a location shortly, i want everyone on the field, no exceptions!" Liv explained. "Wait what? how? i thought the signal was jammed?" Asked Nick confused. "Don't ask, don't tell," Replied Olivia lowring her voice. Fin staring at the screen, mumbled "Oh god..." drawing everyone's attention to the screen, showing a furious Miller grabbing Amanda violently from her jaw.
"Hurry up," Said Olivia nervously, standing next to Moralles. "I'm doing what i can, sergeant!" Replied Moralles anxious but focused.

As the detectives were preparing themselves while looking at the screen, Moralles yelled out "Got it! They are in the Bronx, 1220 Randall avenue." "Let's go!" Ordered Olivia.

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Thursday, November 28th. 8:30pm the warehouse.

Mike Miller stepping behind the chair where Amanda was sitting, cut the ropes using his knife, then he kneeled down in front of her and did the same with the ropes on her feet. Amanda not able to hold herself up straight on the chair, collapsed on the floor but she was still aware of what was going on around her eventhough she couldn't respond. "It's showtime!" He chuckled. Mike grabbed her from the floor, carrying her on his shoulder then walked towards the mattress and violently tossed her body over it like a lifeless piece of flesh. As Amanda landed on the mattress, she released a heavy moan expressing her pain. Mike brought a new set of ropes then started tying up Amanda's arms and legs spreading them wide open. As he spread her arms wide open, one arm on each side, Amanda shouted in pain. "Oh honey, your broken shoulder! I'm so sorry, i'll make it up to you, i promise," Said Mike, laughing condescendingly. Amanda with her arms and legs spread wide open, couldn't move, her vision was getting more blurry, she understood what was about to happen to her and that she was absolutely powerless, so at that precise moment she wished only for one thing, she wished she was dead. As Mike was about to climb on top of her to unzip Amanda's pants, he heard a big bang and a voice screaming loudly "POLICE!". Unable to run away, Mike in panic, grabbed a gun from the back of his jeans and pointed it at Amanda's head saying "I didn't want to use my gun on you honey... but i guess i don't have a choice now, do i?". The SVU squad approaching Miller slowly, pointed their guns at him, "POLICE! DROP YOUR WEAPON!" Yelled Olivia, heavily sweating while glancing at Amanda tossed on the mattress, half conscious. "GET ANY CLOSER AND I SWEAR I'LL PULL THE TRIGGER!" Yelled back Miller, standing behind Amanda -still immobilized on the mattress- with his gun on her forehead. "You know you can't get out of here alive if you shoot her, Miller" Said Nick in a calmer tone, trying to negotiate with the unstable man. "SHUT UP! I'M GONNA SHOOT!" Screamed Miller, then added shaking uncontrollably "IF i GO TO HELL, SHE GOES WITH ME."

Right when the atmosphere became icy cold in the warehouse, a shot was fired.