Save Myself.
- Fearless. -
"To me, fearless is not the absence of fear.
It's not being completely unafraid.
To me, fearless is having fears.
Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.
To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."
-Taylor Swift.
- June 4, 2011 -
17 year old Elena sat in the garden at the Salvatore Boarding House, long tears streaming down her pain constricted face. She'd just graduated from high-school an hour ago and was now at the after party hosted by Maria Salvatore herself. She'd snuck away from her mother Miranda Gilbert and her father Grayson Gilbert to come outside to think about the inevitable to come.
Her parents were best friends with the Salvatore's therefore they considered her a daughter and she was there fairly often, just like the Salvatore kids were often at her parents' home. As if history were repeating itself Elena was bonded strongly to the Salvatore's. Stefan was her second boyfriend and Damon being her best friend. Damon had been her best friend since they were in diapers, well mostly her him being almost 2 years older. She had him wrapped around her little finger from the day she was born; he took her everywhere and protected her from everything.
Damon was the one Elena would go to when she needed advice or when she wasn't sure what to do in difficult decisions. Sure Elena talked with her girl best friends Bonnie and Caroline, but she told Damon absolutely everything. They'd always been inseparable and the thought of ever losing Damon made her heart constrict painfully in her chest. And now that she'd graduated and such, Elena was sure that this was to happen.
Damon would always choose Elena above all and that was a known fact to everyone who knew them, didn't mean people didn't try to interfere and change the reality of it all.
People being a certain manipulative slut named Katherine Pierce. Elena hated Katherine with all of her might; she was the only one who'd been successful at stealing Damon's love, affection and attention from her. Sure Damon had plenty of friends and was quite popular at school but Elena was the only one he'd show the utmost affection and devotion to. He gave her most of his time and knew her better than anyone in the world. She was the only girl besides Damon's blood family plus Miranda that had ever heard the words 'I love you' from Damon directed to them. Until Katherine who destroyed it without Damon even knowing it.
When Katherine and Damon first started seeing each other Elena wasn't the bit threatened by her, she would be just like the rest; a fuck for a few before a kick to the ass, never to be spoken of again. That was until Damon had started to tell her that Katherine was the one for him, that he was falling in love with her. Elena was horrified at the fact that someone, Katherine, was taking away the thing that was reserved for Elena and Elena only.
Elena had never liked Katherine, unlike her best friend she could see the bitch for what she really was...a bitch. She thought she was trashy, slutty and incredibly conniving and manipulative. She hated the way she had everyone wrapped around her finger, how everyone worshiped her. Elena could see her for the spoiled brat she was and hated how hardly anyone else but a handful of people could recognize it as well.
Damon had started to go to Virginia University despite his desire to want to go to school in California. He would go to Virginia University until Katherine graduated and then they'd both pack up and move to L.A. Elena would also come and she had no desire to spend more time with Katherine.
Elena wanted the girl out of her life and out of Damon's bed, Damon was hers and only hers; all be damned if she'd led some bitch like Pierce to try and take it…him from her. So Elena watched Katherine closely, waiting for the opportunity when she'd catch her doing something wrong so she could knock her off of her pedestal and out of their lives for good. It took a while but eventually he found was she looking for, and boy did she hit the motherfucking jackpot.
Katherine was cheating on Damon with Klaus Smith. Elena had been a mixture of relieved and pissed when she'd realized Katherine's indiscretions behind closed door and behind Damon's back. She quickly gathered pictures and recording any type of evidence she could use against her.
Before Elena told Damon about Katherine and her nasty manipulative ways, she confronted Katherine about it. She had planned to rub it all in her face, but what she didn't count on was Katherine's reaction.
Katherine had laughed at her and told her to go and tell Damon, show him the evidence. She told Elena that'd not only would Damon cut Elena out of his life, he'd still love Katherine. She swore up and down that Damon would be pissed at Elena for trying to cause problems and would cut her from his life. The bitch had the nerve to tell her that Damon loved Katherine too much to let her go and wouldn't no matter what. And like a fool, Elena had believed her.
That was months ago, and ever since Katherine had bullied and blackmailed little darling Elena. She made her do things, her dirty work, just because she could. When she wanted to fuck Klaus but Damon was in the way she'd order Elena to give Damon puppy eyes and just like that her problems were solved. Elena hated being any part of Katherine's cheating experience but Kat had told her if she didn't she'd tell Damon everything.
This led to Elena crying out in the garden thinking about her earlier conversation with Katherine,
"You know as soon as we're all at Duke, I'm going to make it my mission to get you out of your besties life and be your replacement." She'd smirked at her like the bitch she was.
Elena had looked like she had been slapped, "Why, why would you do that?"
"Because believe it or not Elena, you're my only real competition for Damon and I don't like competition. Therefore I need you gone."
"But he loves you. Not me." She'd whispered.
"I don't care; you can expect to be gone before freshman orientation."
"You can't do this, please Katherine."
"Good bye, Elena."
"Katherine." She'd pleaded but it had fell to deaf ears as Katherine walked away to change into her cap and gown.
Elena sobbed as she brought her knees to her face as she sat on the wooden bench, holding her small but curvy body in the fetal position. She was wearing a simple short white summer dress with straps that ended just above her knee, her makeup was light and her hair was curled down her back. On her feet were simple white wedge sandals, she wore her silver locket Damon had bought her for her 17th birthday; Katherine hadn't liked it one bit but Damon hadn't cared.
Elena didn't hear the footsteps of her friends coming so when Caroline and Bonnie called out to her she snapped her head up in shock.
"Elena, what's wrong?" They asked. They were soon joined by Stefan, Matt, Tyler, Damon and unfortunately Katherine.
Elena wiped her tears away as everyone crowded around her with concerned looks; Katherine's being obviously fake, though they were oblivious to this. "Nothing I'm fine." She shook her head at them sending a small fake smile.
"Elena," Damon cupped her face and eyed her, "What's wrong baby girl?"
Elena swiped his hands from her face seeing the look on Katherine's, "Nothing alright. I'm gonna go find my parents or something."
Damon frowned at her; she never retracted from his touch, never. "Elena come here and tell what's wrong." He lightly ordered.
Elena sobbed at that, "You wouldn't believe me."
He tilted his head bringing her in his arms while he tried hushing her sobs, "Yes I would 'Lena."
The group was quite worried about the beautiful Gilbert girl they all loved and cherished dearly, she was the glue to their childhood group. But they knew if anyone could get Elena to fess up about her troubles, it was Damon.
"Maybe you should just go and wash your face off Elena." Katherine suggested with a small fake smile. "C'mon I'll take you." She said grabbing Elena's arm.
Elena quickly retracted her arm from the she devils grasp, "Don't fucking touch me, you crazy bitch!"
Everyone gasped at Elena's vulgar language; she hardly ever got like that unless she was really upset. Something was up with little 'Lena,
"Elena." He warning telling her not talk to his girlfriend like that, "Katherine was just trying to help, apologize."
Elena scoffed, "Help? She doesn't want to help me she wants to fucking end me and you're too blind to see it!"
"What are you talking about?"
Her eyes widened and her jaw quickly shut at the fast that she'd said that out loud.
Shit! Shit! Shit!
Before she could retract her statement Damon, to her surprise, looked at Katherine, "What the hell is she talking about Kat?"
"Your guess is as good as mine, babe."
Elena snapped at that, "Shut up, you don't get to call him that."
Everyone's eyes enlarged farther at the tone of her voice it sounded briefly like jealously.
"Actually I can little girl, I'm his girlfriend." She smiled warning her warning eyes.
She sighed at this wiping the last of her tears looking at Damon, "These past few months I've been completely selfish, keeping something from you because I didn't want to lose you-"
She was cut off by Damon, "You'll never lose me 'Lena."
"Just let me finish." Everyone nodded despite her comment being addressed to Damon. Katherine panicked, was she going to confess all her dirty little secrets?
"Just know that you're my best friend and that I'd never intentionally do anything to hurt you. Know that I've always wanted you to be happy and that I love you."
Damon smiled, "I love you to 'Lena."
Katherine scowled annoyed at that which Damon ignored focusing on his best friend instead.
Elena smiled sadly, "When you and Katherine started to get serious I freaked the fuck out. I didn't want to lose you to someone else. I was scared and thought you deserved better, so I did everything in my power to find something wrong with her-"
Damon angrily cut her off, "You did what?!"
"Let. Me. Finish." She said through gritted teeth. "And I did find something wrong, something big."
His features softened at this and he immediately turned accusing eyes to his girlfriend along with everyone else,
"Elena, think about this. Be smart. You know what will happen." Katherine warned her trying to dig herself out of her own grave.
"She's cheating on you with Klaus." She blurted.
Every one gasped shocked, Damon's eyes widened and filled with tears before choking out, "How long have you known about this?"
She gulped, "Damon…"
"Elena." He warned. "How. Long?"
"4 months."
His eyes widened in realization before looking at both his best friend and girlfriend with hurt eyes. Without another word he turned around and started to talk when Elena spoke once more,
"I wanted to tell you but she blackmailed me!"
This stopped Damon right in his tracks; he quickly walked back and looked at her seriously "Give me the truth Elena."
"She told me that'd you'd never believe me because your love for her was stronger than yours for me," She whispered her head cocked down in shame.
"I was so stupid; I let her hurt you Damon!"
Damon casted pissed blue crystals to his girlfriend who had remained silent through Elena's guilt raid, "What the fuck did you do to her?!"
"I didn't do anything!"
Elena sobbed and Caroline quickly held her best friend, supporting most of her weight for her as she tried to talk through sobs.
"She made me do all her dirty work. She made me help her cheat on you, and every time I tried to get out she told me she'd tell you that I was trying to cause problems for your relationship."
Everyone was shocked to what they were hearing, angry for the fact that Elena had been suffering for months without them even knowing.
She turned angry brown orbs to Katherine and yelled, "You stupid bitch, your ruined my life! Your ruined my entire fucking life! I hate you! I fucking hate you!"
Both Caroline and Bonnie had to hold her back from jumping on Katherine and beating her silly.
The guests in the Salvatore Boarding House quickly rushed out hearing the commotion and were shocked to see Elena crying and shouting, being restrained. Everyone in town knew Elena Gilbert and a beautiful young lady with a perfect everything. She won all the pageants, had all the friends and popularity, a family who loved and cherished her. So to see her in this manner, so out of character, was shocking.
"You're a fucking whore Katherine Pierce! Let. Me. Go!"
Miranda and Maris gasped and looked at each other before running to the young distressed girl, "Elena, stop! Calm down, Elena!"
"Not until that stupid bitch gets what she deserves!"
"What did she do?" They yelled wondering what she could have possibly done to make Elena so angry.
They all watched at Elena's eyes harden and her expression darken with rage as she casted an angry gaze at Klaus Smith who stood in the back of the crowd with his blue eyes on the grown. His own gaze flickered between the ground and his lover, other than that he was completely silent.
With a husky voice she cursed, "You bastard. How dare you do what you did, what gives you the right to mess up someone's love life like that?"
She pointed at him as she ranted angrily causing everyone to turn to him confused. Klaus was leaving town for business school and didn't plan on ever returning, so at the moment he didn't give a damn about what these people thought about him.
"Well I guess that cat's out of the big, eh sweetheart?" He smirked walking to her. "Well it's quite simple really; your little boyfriend wasn't giving her what she wanted at home so she came running to me. Simply two consenting adults having a little fun, which you've now ruined- your gonna need to fix that."
"That sounds like a Klaus and Katherine problem."
"Consider this me broadening the scope, sweetheart."
"Wait a second, you cheated on me son?" Maria accused Katherine with angry blue eyes that matched Damon's.
"Mrs. Salvatore plea-"
Katherine's plea was cut off by Elena, "Listen Kat let's get one thing straight,"
She stepped up to the brunette until they were face to face, the bridges of their noses touching.
"You aren't apart of this family and you never will be, no one wants you to be if we're honest. I've tolerated you for Damon's happiness but like your main squeeze stated, cat's out of the bag. I think you're a selfish, conniving bitch Katherine Pierce and I want you gone. So I'll stay this one time and one time only so listen up,"
Katherine gulped as Elena looked her in the eyes and whispered in her ear, "Stay the hell away from Damon or you'll be sorry."
Katherine stared at her, "And if I don't?"
"I've been playing nice and holding back up until now. If you don't do what I said prepare to see my inner bitch because I won't tolerate your presence any longer and I sure as hell won't allow you to hurt me or my best friend."
Damon felt his heart squeeze as he heard her, she really did love him just as much as he loved her.
"Leave us alone or I'll make your life hell and you'll regret it."
"Is that a threat, Elena?"
"It's a promise, Katherine. You have my word on that."
Elena stepped back and twirled her curly hair around her finger before looking Katherine up and down before giving her a deadly glare,
"Now get the hell off the property and take your British lover with you."
When neither moved she smirked and grabbed her cell phone out of the pocket that was in her white dress, "Or shall I call security to escort you out?"
"You can't do that, you're not a Salvatore!"
Damon looked at his mother who smiled and nodded. They walked behind Elena and stared down Katherine putting supportive hands on Elena's shoulder.
"Elena is as much Salvatore as she is Gilbert. Now go."
Katherine gasped and her eyes flooded with tears, she casted on last look on everyone as they all glared at her with hate and disgust. She sobbed before running off into the garden and into the house to collect her things, Klaus right behind her. They all heard the screeching of tires as they pulled out of the driveway.
-July 22, 2011-
Elena sat in a booth with all of her friends in a sleeveless blood red baby doll dress with her hair lightly curled. She watched Caroline chat quietly with Damon casting her eyes to the brunette every-once and a while; she was quite curious as to why they were so obviously talking about her. She sipped on the beer Damon had gotten here, he looked older and with his looks and charms he easily got served despite his age.
It was Elena's 18th birthday and to celebrate Damon had rented out a V.I.P section in a hot club down town for her and all their friends to celebrate her welcoming into adult hood. Though birthday Elena loved her surprise party and the fact that all her friends were here celebrating with her, there was only one thing Elena really wanted for birthday, to lose her virginity.
She watched as the non V.I.P club members danced in tune with the thriving beats that powered through the speakers. Men grinded their hard-on's into their backsides as the woman welcomed them with shaking hips and cunning smirks of encouragement.
To busy watching the party goers enjoy their nights, the birthday girl failed to notice the presence of her handsome best friend was not obvious to her until he made his it known. "You wanna dance 'Lena?"
Elena beamed and casted her brown eyes to him, "I can't do that." She shook her head.
Damon smirked, "Sure you can, baby doll. I promise." He held out his hand to her with a smile.
Elena smiled back and placed her small hand is his larger outstretched one, "Will you teach me?"
Damon pulled her close so they were chest to chest looking into each others' eyes, "I'll do whatever it is you need me to do…Elena."
The young girl swallowed and nodded nervously and whispered, "Ok, I'll dance with you."
He smirked and began to lead her out of the booth and into the throng of dancing bodies.
"Just let yourself go for once 'Lena." He whispered in her ear as he brought her back to his chest wrapping his arms around her stomach. "Feel the rhythm and do whatever feels natural." She closed her eyes and took a deep breath and followed his instructions slowly.
She began to sway her hips to the bass that pounded through the club, her arms looped behind her head and around her neck. His hands slowly began to explore her body. They caressed the womanly curves of her hips, at a snail's pace down her thigh and back up her stomach. She felt his warm breath on her neck and very close to her ear.
"You got it, baby." He whispered rolling his hips to hers, matching her sway for sway. "Told ya', you could do it 'Lena, you're a natural."
Elena had to bite her lip to bite back the moan that wanted to come out of her throat at the sound of his husky voice. Maybe it was the alcohol courage, or maybe it was the fact that she'd begun to accept that she had feelings for him but slowly she began to roll her hips and slowly drop to the floor. As if in slow motion, she began to rise up with her hands in the air swaying to the beat. Her baby doll dress rode up her hips as she moved gracefully, woman and men watched her dance in envy. Her head was thrown back exposing her long slender neck, her curls draping along her backside as she grinded her ass into Damon's front.
Damon swiftly turned her around so she was facing him as he placed on hand on her lower backside to hold her as he brought the other to her left thigh. Leisurely he raised her leg to wrap around him, her thigh resting against his navel. He dipped her down sensually so her chest and head were dangling down, his hands the only thing keeping her from cascading to the floor. The tip of her curls touched the edges of the floor before he moved her from left to right before bringing her upright once more. Their moves were graceful, sexy, and perfect. They had everyone's attention, but they were oblivious of this.
Her arms wrapped themselves around his neck as she grinded her hips into his with her knees bent. They grinded and ground their bodies into each other, matching each other's moves to a T.
Their eyes met in a stare as they moved. Damon captured her hands in his and interlocked their fingers. He raised them above their heads in a bridge as they moved together. Elena quirked a smile at the lyrics of being and feeling so close to your partner. Elena felt so close to Damon that she breathed at the same time her did, moved at the same time he did. They were as one.
Finally Damon couldn't take the tension and whispered, "Wanna go get a drink, cool off a bit?"
She giggled and nodded, "I wouldn't mind another drink."
"Cool." He said taking her hand and guiding her out of the crowd and to the bar where he bought her one of her favorite girly drink, a Watermelon Daiquiri.
She took the small watermelon wedge that was on her cup and bit into it her eyes closing as she moaned at the sweet taste. Damon watched with glazed lusty eyes as the juice ran across her lips and a bit down her chin. He bit his own lip to bite back a moan as he watched her pink tongue come out to swipe across her pink plump bottom lip to get the juice off. She sucked on her lip. He couldn't resist and extended his hand to cup her sweetheart olive skinned face. Her eyes opened and watched him as he looked her in the eyes as the pad of his thumb wiped the juice from her chin. Gradually he brought his thumb to his lips where he sucked the sweet juice off, he moaned in pleasure at the taste as well.
Their eyes met as she bit the watermelon in half and offered him on piece. He smiled at her offer and quickly accepted the passion fruit. Once they'd finished off the watermelon and polished of her sweet drink together. Damon wasn't one for girly drinks but if he was sharing such a sweet cocktail with Elena, then he was all for it.
Damon had no clue when he'd began to feel this way about his best friend. It had started when he'd realized just how important she was in his life, when she protected him from Katherine and the destruction that came with her as best she could. He loved how protective and fierce she was over him and anything that could possible concern him. And he'd always been attracted to her but had forced himself not to go there at any cost. Plus she'd always been sweet, innocent, baby girl 'Lena. But around the time she was 16 she'd started to develop in all the areas that mattered, her hips and but started to fill out. He didn't want to feel that way for her, but he was beginning to accept that he was in fact falling for his best friend.
Elena had always felt for Damon. From the day she laid eyes on him when she was just a baby to the time she was 14. She'd had a major crush on him and had wished that he'd only look at her as more than his little sister, than his best friend. She wanted him to see her as more than the girl he'd known since diapers. When she turned 14 and Damon started to grow even hotter and started to become a bit of a player, she forced herself to get over the love she felt for him. She didn't want to waste her time crushing on someone who'd never reciprocate the feelings. So eventually she started maturing and eventually went out with Matt. Then Stefan and a few little dates in between. Her and Stefan had broken up two weeks before graduation and thankfully remained friends. She'd ended it with him for the same reason she'd ended it with Matt, the love she shared with both boys lacked the passion and adventure she craved so badly. It was far too friendly in both cases to be a romance of any sort. She'd been successful and leaving her feelings for Damon at 14 but when he started to show a bit more interest in her after Katherine's departure, to her dismay the feelings slowly began to return. She just hoped that whatever happened, she'd be able to walk away with her emotions intact and heartbreak not being a factor.
Elena and Damon were dancing again to another song, swaying lazily. Elena had, had just about enough of socializing, as she'd been doing it since she woke up that morning. She looked up at her best friend with a smile, an idea coming to mind.
"Can we go to The Falls, Dami?"
He rolled his eyes with a chuckle, "Yes we can, baby doll."
She pecked his cheek before looking at him again, "I'm gonna go say bye to Care and Bonnie."
"And I will tell everyone else in our little pack of our departure," He smirked, "Don't go outside by yourself; get me first ok 'Lena?"
She giggled, "Gotcha!"
He smirked, "On second thought you're a little tipsy, let's just do both together."
Elena just continued to laugh and ignored him as he chuckled and pulled her along to her other best friends.
"Hey, birthday girl! Enjoying your party?" Tyler smirked at her when they found everyone together drinking beers.
Elena stared at him blankly before giggling, "Yup!"
Jeremy rolled his eyes, "Someone is very drunk. Can't hold you liquor sis?"
Elena rolled her eyes back, "I'm tipsy for one thing, and it's only because Caroline had me drink multiple glasses of wine before the party."
"What is it with you and getting Elena drunk?"
"Shut up Stefan, she's not even drunk."
Damon rolled his eyes, "Anyway, 'Lena wants one more thing for her birthday so I am taking her to get it. See ya' tomorrow."
After everyone said their goodbye's and wished Elena a Happy 18th Birthday, the best friends headed out to Damon's car to drive off to The Falls.
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first, Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress, Fearless
Elena sang the words loudly with Taylor Swift as she stood on the rocks that led to more rocks that led to the shallow end of The Falls. Damon sat near on another rock laughing so hard he was wheezing and clutching his stomach as she shook her hips and sang at the top of her lungs, slightly off key.
She smiled at him and climbed into his lap, straddling him, on leg around each side of his hips. She used his shoulders as balance as she sang on top of him in between giggling.
So baby drive slow
'til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
"Sing with me Damon!" She pleaded.
Damon smirked at her and sighed, "Never tell a soul I did this."
She laughed loudly and nodded rapidly waiting for him to start belting the lyrics of the young Country star.
Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first, Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress, Fearless
Damon sang loudly along with the lyrics, off key and louder the necessary much to Elena's amusement.
Elena buried her face in his shoulder laughing her head off, "Damon!"
He laughed softly and stroked her head as Taylor Swift continued to blast from Damon's car speakers.
They'd parked by the rocks and turned the radio on high so they could hear from their spot. Elena hummed the words into his neck as she snuggled her body close to his, her short baby-doll dress riding up her thighs.
Damon placed a kiss to her head before pulling back to look at her closely, "So, birthday girl, got everything you wished for?"
She contemplated that for a moment, "Almost everything."
"What else do you want exactly?"
She bit her lip, "I wanna lose my virginity…tonight."
Damon stared at her angrily, "You aren't other girls, and you're special. Just wait to give it to someone who loves you, ok?"
"But it's what I want!"
"So who you gonna give it to, Elena? Hmm, Stefan? Or Matt? They can't give you what you want, the passion, that's why you broke up with them."
"You." She whispered.
Damon's eyes widened at her small whisper. She wanted to have sex…with him? Not only did she want to have sex with him, but she wanted to give up her virginity to him!
"Elena…"
"Please." She whispered to him, wrapping her arms around his neck. "I want you."
"W-Why 'Lena?" He stuttered.
"Who better to have my first time with then my best friend?"
"Just wait Elena; it'll be worth it I promise."
"But its perfect, Damon! You'll be gentle and make sure I'm ok and you're responsible so I won't get pregnant or a disease or something. Don't you see?"
He scowled at her, "No I don't see it, Elena."
"Why not?"
"So what, Elena? You want me to fuck you, pound your pussy? Is that what you want?"
"Stop it, Damon. Don't be like that."
"What Elena, tell you the truth? That's what it is Elena, it's what you want. You want me to fuck you and make you come."
Elena started to tear up at his crude language, "Stop it ok! Just forget it!"
Her tears quickly snapped him out of his angry haze and he quickly looked at her with apologetic eyes but she was already up and heading for the car. "Just take me home!"
"Oh…'Lena, baby...I'm sorry I didn't mean it,"
She started to sob harder as she pulled on the door handle trying to get it to open, but sadly to her dismay it was locked and Damon had the key. "Open the door!"
Damon quickly pinned her against the car and cupped her tear streaked face in his hands, "Baby girl, I'm so sorry; you know I didn't mean that."
"I love you, and I'd never try to hurt you I was just upset," He cooed sweetly peppering her face in small kisses to soothe her nerves. He'd always done this since she was a little girl. "I don't wanna ruin everything we have together, you should just wait for California and you'll meet some amazing guy and you'll live happily ever after."
"But I don't want to wait and I don't want it to be some guy, I want it to be you…please." She whispered.
"Why is the so important?"
"It just is."
Elena glanced at his face before cupping his cheeks and slowly brining their lips together in a heated kiss, molding their lips together. The stubble on his face tickled her and she stifled a giggle by kissing him harder. After a brief hesitation his hands gripped her hip and squeezed as they enjoyed the simplicity of the kiss and all the warmth and love it had to offer.
She felt free and bare in his embrace and usually that would scare her. But when she was with Damon nothing scared her because she was on top of the world and nothing could take her down.
"You make me feel fearless, Damon." She whispered against his lips with a small smile.
He looked down at his best friend who he loved more than anyone or anything in the world, more than himself or his own brother. He'd always choose her and he knew it and accepted it whole heartedly. He kissed her forehead before sighing, "C'mon and get in the car before I change my mind."
"You mean you'll-"
"Elena, get in the car."
She smiled and saluted him playfully, "Yes sir." She purred seductively with a wink.
Strangely enough the look on her face went straight to Damon's groin, much to his shock. "You're a kinky little minx in reality, huh? How is it me being your best friend, didn't know that?"
"Because we've never wanted to sleep together before." She smirked.
He smirked back at her before kissing her lips and pulling back, "Get in the car, Elena."
Without further chatter she slipped into the passenger seat and he closed the door behind her before going to his side and climbing in. He turned the radio on blast like he always did with Elena around, as it made her smile when they sang together.
'I can't believe I'm about to have sex with my best friend.' He thought to himself with a smirk.
This time around the music was a sexy song that made Elena burst in laughter before she joined in, singing the words while shaking her hips in her seat.
Cause I may be bad
But I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air
I don't care
I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me
Damon smirked and took a look at his best friend grinding into the seat lost in her mental world of pleasure. She was a pretty sexy dancer even if she wasn't at her full potential, her skills being constricted by being in his Camaro.
She took one look at him and knew she was making the right choice. Her mother had always told her from the time she was a little girl that if something felt right in your heart, than it was the right decision. That even if it ended up being a mistake, it was right at the time. That no matter what anyone else says you have to do what's right for you. Elena had no clue how this thing with Damon would end up but at that moment, her gut was telling her to go for it.
She had to give it a shot, even if she ended up heartbroken…
Their moves were a blur as they stumbled into the nice hotel room Damon had booked. They were kissing, their hands all over each other. He kicked the door shut with his foot as he backed her into the room.
He smiled at her as they stood at the edge of the bed. Slower than slow he took of his leather jacket and swiped his black skin hugging bad boy yummy tee shirt. She watched as more and more of his flawless pale skin was revealed, his rippling abs to his toned and firm chest.
She began to kick off her black high heels and the cropped jean jacket as that'd she'd put on in the car- she always kept one in Damon's car. She was with him so often that she'd begun to do a lot of things like that. It'd always been that way. She had her own room at his apartment and things in his car, she knew all his social security account numbers- anything that could possibly matter, she knew. And she liked it that way.
He began to unbuckle his belt slowly with a smirk watching her undress herself. Once he'd got it unbuckled, out of the loops of his low rider jeans, and onto the floor carelessly he stepped closer to her running his hands up and down her arms. She could feel the electricity through his touch.
He slowly pulled her blood red dress over her head and threw it on a chair nearby, so it wouldn't wrinkle. It was to pretty to ruin.
There she stood before him looking sexier than he'd ever imagined. In a light red strapless bra covered in beautiful black lace patterns with matching lacy underwear to match. He looked at from her head to her light pink painted toes. He smirked when something silver and shiny caught his eyes, "When did you get a belly button piercing?"
She giggled with a roll of her eyes, "This morning."
"Why?"
"Caroline." She shrugged.
"Ahh, that makes sense."
He smirks again, but honestly when isn't he supporting some type of smug facial expression though? He began to kiss her neck, laving at the skin before peppering kisses down her chest and collar bone. She giggled at the fluttery feeling that cascades across the skin his lips touch.
Her underwear and bra are pulled off and in seconds his grinding his hips into hers and tweaking her left nipple as he teased her right with the firm tip on his tongue. She groans at the feeling, cradling his head to her chest as he worships her body with loving and tender caresses with his mouth and hands. "You're so beautiful 'Lena."
She smiled at him and kisses all around his face and chest running her small hands up and down his bare back. He starts to shiver at her gentle touch, relishing in the way butterflies erupt in his stomach. She looked up at him with wide eyes that had him smiling and kissing her lips softly and taking his time to study the beauty that was his best friend. She looked like an angel, a beautiful, sexy angel, which he loved that is. Swollen red lips from his persistent wet kisses, flushed cheeks, her long silky chestnut brown hair fanned out on the lilly-white fluffy hotel pillows. Her chest moved up and down as her heart began to beat rapidly in her chest, hammering against her.
He peeled his boxers without removing his lustful and loving gaze from her elegant, mouth watering beauty. "I love you, E."
She giggled and pecked his rosy lips, "I love you to, D."
They both smiled in content at their child hood nicknames before their gazes widened when he brushed the tip of his cock along her wet entrance. Elena bit her lip as she gasped quietly at the feeling; all of this was new and exciting from her. Damon already knew she was on the Pill and made sure she took it every day, he knew he should still use a condom but he wanted no barriers in between them for her first time. He teased her clit by rubbing his hardened length along her slit and up her clit, excuse the rhyming pun. "Damon, don't tease."
He chuckled at her pleasing before becoming serious, "Do you trust me, 'Lena?"
"Mind, body and soul." She said without missing a beat.
He smiled before capturing her lips in a sweet kiss as he wrapped her legs firmly around his waist. He continued to kiss her sweet addicting lips while his hands found hers and quickly interlocked their fingers together before raising them above her head. He pulled away from their kiss to look her deep in the eyes as she slowly moved his hips and slid home. They both gasped at the feeling of their most private parts finally being connected as one in the most intimate gesture possible. She gasped as she felt the uncomfortable pain as he slowly filled her warmth, her body slowly growing to accommodate his massive length. She breathed in and out in shaky breaths at the feeling of him filling her.
"I'm so sorry." He said before thrusting gently once more breaking past her barrier swiftly causing her to gasp loudly and moan softly in pain for a brief moment.
She breathed through the uncomfortable feeling of having her barrier broken before she smiled wide at him, "Keep going, I'm fine."
He smiled back and slowly began to thrust into his best friend, groaning at the feeling of her now non-virgin walls stretching around him deliciously. "You're so tight, Laney."
She panted, "You're. So. Big. God, Dami."
He chuckled as he began to slowly push into her, smiling as her lips began to meet him thrust for thrust. He gripped her hips tightly in his hands as he thrusted into her, both loving the feelings that came with being joined together as one.
They were best friends and they loved each other, they really did- they just weren't sure if it just went beyond friendly love with occasional benefits.
The way Damon felt in that moment was indescribable; he didn't recognize it- it'd never happened before. He felt a feeling of strength and power crash over him, as if nothing could touch him because for once he was where he belonged. He was home. Wherever he was, as long as he had Elena and her love, he was home. He felt as if he was drifting off to another galaxy, and that'd he would never be the same after he'd returned to planet earth. His belly begin to quiver at her touch as she lightly raked her nails down his back as she leaned back exposing her long slender neck to his blue orbs. His eyes feasted on the beauty beneath him and he couldn't help the small smile that played against his lips.
"I love you, 'Lena." He growled lightly increasing the paste of his thrusts. "So much it's not even funny sometimes."
Her tummy quivered as she felt the beginning of her release creep up on her, "God Damon, please!" She didn't know what exactly she was begging for, but somehow as is sensing her he immediately reacted speeding his thrusts until he was pounding in her while kissing her neck and sucking on her pulse point.
Damon could feel himself falling over the edge, so he quickly reached between them to stroke at her bundle of nerves. Her long tan olive legs were pressed to her shoulders as he pounded into her aching heat. "Fuck, Elena! Fuck me,"
Elena was the first to fall off the edge of the teasing cliff and face first into the abyss of pleasure and love. She started to tremble in his arms shaking and moaning and groaning words that were simply un-intelligible. "I love you!" She screamed out clawing shapes into his back as she came quivering and moaning as her hips continued to thrust downwards never missing a beat to the their erotic dance.
"Fuck, yes, yes!" he pumped into her over and over, the sound of skin slapping against skin calling to his attention. "Shit, that's it! Fuck yes, Laney!"
Finally he felt himself coming deep inside her, "I love you to!" he called out with mixes of her name and sweet words of love and affection. "So much, 'Lena." He'd whispered into her neck as he slowly stopped pumping into her.
They both didn't know what to say, though words were not needed. They didn't know where they were going to go with this, but they'd just experienced was worth whatever was to come.
He tucked her under his muscled arm, pulled her close until her head was resting against his chest as he bent down to capture her sweet lips in a kiss that had them starting the process all over again at no time…
"How do you feel princess?"
"Fearless." She grinned before rolling on top of him eager to start the fun all over again...
-Los Angeles, Present Day-
"No there's no news yet, she just got out of surgery…Damon's in there with her," Stefan said to his mother over the phone as he paced next to his friends as they all say in the waiting room.
"We don't know what happened Ma…but we're pretty sure Slater did this to her…" He paused his breathing and pacing before muttering loudly and angrily.
"Well we won't know anything until Elena wakes up…I'll see you, dad and the Gilbert's tomorrow, alright?" He said before hanging up on her and continuing his pacing.
"Please be ok, please be ok." He whispered looking to the sky, praying to any God who would listen. His eyes clouded with tear, "God, please let her survive this. Please."
His elder brother stood by her side inside the room holding her hand and squeezing it as he whispered words of love to her. "Please wake up, baby. Please let me see those beautiful brown eyes…"
His eyes filled with tears as he looked down at her still body that was covered with bruises and cuts. "You have to wake up, E. I have to show you how good we'll be together. You've got to survive, Lena…we always survive."
He felt the tears began to trickle down his face and he quickly buried his head in his hands as began to silently cry and pray for his best friend.
"Damon?"
His gaze snapped up and his eyes widened in shock at what he saw…
Review to find out what Damon saw! Sorry for the long wait, hoped this mega chapter makes up for it!
