Anger

Anger is a necessary stage of the healing process. Be willing to feel your anger, even though it may seem endless. The more you truly feel it, the more it will begin to dissipate and the more you will heal. Anger is the emotion we are most used to managing. The truth is that anger has no limits. Underneath anger is pain. It is natural to feel deserted and abandoned. Anger is strength and it can be an anchor, giving temporary structure to the nothingness of loss. The anger becomes a bridge over the open sea, a connection from you to them. It is something to hold onto; and a connection made from the strength of anger feels better than nothing. We usually know more about suppressing anger than feeling it. The anger is just another indication of the intensity of your love.

Revenge. That was all Sheldon could think of. He had to make her feel as bad as he did.

He knew deep down that this was just a ploy for her attention but it was as if rage had overcome his body and mind so much so that all other emotions became oblivious to him.

Public humiliation was low but he couldn't help himself complain during the shoot of 'Fun with Flags'. They used to do that together. She would stand behind the camera and he would find his eyes rising to watch her instead of the camera. Occasionally Amy would also help on stage, it was much more fun when she was up there with him. But now he was alone.

The anger was boiling in Sheldon. Wasn't she the one who wanted to increase their intimacy? Now that he was ready and prepared to take things further she decides to step back. Even after he had tried to give her time, talk about their future and even bring up the prospect of them having children, she had abandoned him. Hypocritical.

He was not going to let that happen. She had to pay for all the hurt she had caused. He had to hurt her in return. Guilt tripping and emotional blackmail. He knew it was wrong. He knew it wouldn't get her back. But at the moment he didn't want her back. He didn't need her. He had gone his whole life without the need for a romantic partner. He could survive. Yes her betrayal hurt but it wouldn't for long.

Paper cuts, only deeper.