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Acceptance
Acceptance is often confused with the notion of being "all right" or "OK" with what has happened. This is not the case. Most people don't ever feel OK or all right about the loss of a loved one. We will never like this reality or make it OK, but eventually we accept it. It is the new norm with which we must learn to live. We must try to live now in a world where our loved one is gone. In resisting this new norm, at first many people want to maintain life as it was before. Finding acceptance may be just having more good days than bad ones. Instead of denying our feelings, we listen to our needs; we move, we change, we grow, we evolve. We may start to reach out to others. We invest in our friendships and in our relationship with ourselves.
Amy had broken up with him. Amy had broken up with him.
It was going to be okay. He had accepted it.
Sheldon had finally ventured out of the safety of his bedroom. By taking a break he could clear his mind, he had thought a great deal. The first step was to sort himself out. His friends were supporting him again, and he let them. He didn't push them away, as they tried to help him get back into the swing of everyday life. Trying to get everything back to normal.
However, it was not normal. Amy was gone. But he was not going to leave it at that. He did not want to learn to live without Amy. The days were improving slowly but it wasn't the same. His missed her terribly.
Sheldon had thought and contemplated and reflected and deliberated. And concluded. He knew what was wrong. He knew what he had done wrong. He knew what Amy had done wrong. He could see it now. The little complications and problems that had all led to this moment.
He could fix this. He was going to fix this.
He was a different person now. Heartbreak had changed him. He was prepared to do whatever it takes to get Amy back. She may need more time and he would give it to her, but he would not rest until she takes him back.
He would be less pushy and rude. He had to show her how he had changed. How he considered her feelings, how he had matured. He had to communicate with her. They had to talk this out. Even if it took months, they had to understand each other. Be on the same page.
He wanted things to be how they once were. But better. He knew he had grown, he just had to make Amy see it. And she would see it. Amy was the only person who had ever understood him, she had been patient, she had been devoted. And he had hurt her. He deserved this.
He wanted her more than ever. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Sheldon had never understood that phrase until now. Although, he had never understood love until now. To be honest he still didn't know if he understood, all he knew was that he needed Amy back.
And he was going to get her back. He loved her. With his heart thudding in his chest he slowly raised his hand to the door and began his iconic knocking ritual.
Thank you all so much for reading and reviewing! It means so much! This is probably the weirdest fic I've ever written, thank you for all your support :) I thought I'd kinda leave the ending up to you guys but in my eyes it's a happy ending and they get back together eventually. I can't wait to see what happens in the show!
