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Sparkbomb POV
The next morning I woke up at 7:00am, I was still lying on the floor; staring at nothing in particular, thinking about everything I could...
Sparkbomb! Get a grip! I thought furiously to myself
No let me be miserable... Another part of me begged.
Come on you can't let Robin know about how this. And if you stay of the floor in a pile, he's gunna figure out that something's wrong. I couldn't argue with that, but I didn't move and the voice kept going... Come on! You're Sparkbomb! You're an incredible superhero! You don't need him! You're a strong independent girl!
I sat up slowly... that voice inside me was right. I'm fine alone... and I need to let the others know that. I got dressed and picked up the forgotten note I got the other day from BB. Then I picked up my I-pod and put my purple headphones in the ears and I pressed play a random song started to play, I walked out of my room and down to the end of the corridor outside BB's room, I could hear him snoring lightly, I smiled slightly, took a deep breath and slid the exact same note he slid under my door, under his. The only difference was I added four words:
I Sorry, I Can't.
I felt relief wash over me and I slowly walked in to the main room and focused on the song currently ringing in my ears, 'Just like a pill' by Pink, I totally focused on the music as I dragged my feet over to the window and stared out. Strange... The city didn't look as good as before... It looked less happy and everyone looked more miserable...I sighed...the city looked how I felt...
I shook it off, and jumped as someone cleared there throat behind me, I spun around and frowned, "Robin? Are u trying to make me have a heart attack?" I took my headphones out and looked at him blankly. He smiled and shook his head "sorry, I just wondered who was out here... what are you doing up at 7:30?" I shrugged and looked away, "I couldn't sleep"... I couldn't even look at him; I looked down at the carpet...
"What's wrong Spark?" He sounded so worried; I had to remind myself it's because he's the leader...
"Nothing is wrong Robin" I made myself smile, even though I was dying inside... He looked confused, but shook it off... I have to get out of here... "I'm gunna go for a walk." "A 7:30?" He knew something was up, but I replied with a simple "yes." And with that, I left the tower, I left him standing there, I left the loved one. But the pain followed.
Once I reached the city, I jumped up and push off a brick wall with my feet, to rebound off and grab the lamp post which I flip around and landed on the top of a pizza shop. I froze. The last time I was here, I was with him...
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ran. I jumped. I didn't look back.
I ended up sitting on the top of a tall shopping mall, the sun was now blazing down, I side... Oh how ironic. Why can't my life be like an old sappy movie, or a happy kid's book? I want it to rain when the lead character is sad and in they feel perfect out in the sun when there's a really overly dramatic happy ending! But no... My miserable life is not a book, movie, or even a cool Tv. show...
My life is just me... pain... loss... and apparently, I wallow in self pity more than I thought I did...
I reached in my boot and pulled out the two cards...
...Loves a Joke, right Sparky?...
...Got the message sparky? No? Think about the birds and the bats...
I stared at the second card, praying for the clue to come to me... but nope, I had nothing...
Bats? I started thinking as hard as I could... OH MY GHOSTS! Robin said that the joker always referred to Batman as bats...ok... so how does batman fit with loves a joke?...
Back to square one... I face-palmed myself and sighed heavily.
I put the cards back in my boot and walked home feeling confused, pained, stronger and tired...
This was gunna be a long walk home...
As I re-entered the T-tower, Robin looked relieved, Cyborg, Star and Rae looked confused and probably wondered when I had left in the first place, and then Beast Boy looked at me with a hurt expression that quickly went blank.
"Hey..."
I received a reply from Rae, "hey spark." Cyborg, "Welcome back? I didn't even know you left". Starfire smiled and replied, "Hello friend!" From Robin I got a simple and awkward, "hey..."
But from BB, I got nothing; he just walked past me without even a single glance... I guess that was understandable. I mentally sighed; nothing is ever easy.
I walked in to the kitchen and started washing up every one breakfast supplies, when Starfire's cheery, and at the moment a little annoying voice called over form the stools. "Let me help you Spark" I shook my head, "no thanks starfire... I can handle it." I didn't intent to sound mean but I was just in one of those moods when you don't want happy interactions and I was meant to be making everyone see that I'm fine on my own.
Robin called from the sofa, "You might as well let her help, or she'll never stop asking" I had only just now noticed Star begging to help. And hearing Robin say that made me furious, He broke my heart and is now telling me what to do? I threw the plate that I had currently cleaned for the third time back in to the sink and groaned angrily, "Don't tell me what to do Robin! You may be in charge of the Teen Titians. But you are not in charge of me!" I then ran back out the tower, tears running down my cheeks as I past a calm looking raven, a shocked Cy, Star and Robin and a confused and hurt Beast Boy.
I ran down to the rocky edge that T-tower was built on, where the sea gently clapped against the shore, I sat on a boulder and wiped my eyes.
I've never felt so weak before, I couldn't even keep calm over something as stupid as letting Star help me with the washing up... I'm so pathetic... I dipped my hand in the cool water and smiled, it felt so calming...
I looked around and begun to notice some green smoke appearing around me and I felt very dizzy and tired, I tried to scream, but no noise came out of my mouth... I could vaguely see some people coming towards me... I didn't know what was going on, or what I should do...
I couldn't see straight.
I couldn't move,
I felt numb.
And before I knew it,
My mind went blank.
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